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I'M WALKING ON SUNSHINE!

The Clone Wars is back. My boys are back. My girl Ahsoka is back. I was having a shit day at work. Headache, weak feeling. The works. But now, not even the most rude as shit customers can bring me down again. My Clone Boys are back.

After the war, Rex does a lot of thinking about the entire thing, about how it was unnecessarily bloody, how it cost the lives of millions of innocents (Jedi and clones combined). He thinks about his brothers and their sacrifices, about how they’d thought they were made to protect the Jedi but were never meant to be anything more than their executioners.

Rex has many regrets. He knows there’s no use in dwelling on what could have been, but if there was one thing he could change, it would be that he listened to Fives the first time around, both during Umbara and in that decrepit warehouse.

Rex comes to the conclusion that Fives had always been smarter than him. He’d been the best of them all, willing to do whatever it took to save as many lives as he could.

Fives had indirectly saved Ahsoka and Rex and any other clone who got their chip out, but Fives himself had been killed for attempting to save others. No one had been able to save Fives.

It pains Rex to think that Fives will be forgotten over the course of time, that Fives would only ever be a speck in the entire course of history. Fives was a great man, possibly one of the greatest to ever live in Rex’s opinion, and great men deserve to be remembered. Rex knows he himself will also only ever be a speck on history, but he resolves to do what he can to make sure that this great man is remembered.

He writes down every detail he knows about Fives: from Domino Squad, to Rishi, to the 501st, to the promotion to ARC after the Battle of Kamino, to the Citadel and losing Echo, to his bravery on Umbara, and finally to Ringo Vinda and the discovery of the chips. Rex doesn’t know all the details of Fives’ private life, of course, but he writes what he observed.

He makes sure that whoever stumbles upon this will know that Fives was passionate, brave, kind, funny, loyal, and incredibly intelligent. Rex notes his penchant for impassioned speeches with a chuckle. He never understood how Fives came up with those on the spot, but he supposed the ARC had always been a natural leader. Fives had been a voice that his brothers had always rallied behind; Rex always admired him for it. He had always been sure of himself and his brothers, even at times where Rex couldn’t find that confidence in himself.

Rex keeps what he’s written about Fives with him at all times. He sends a copy of it to Echo one day, knowing that Fives’ twin will be glad to have it. The days on Seelos with Wolffe and Gregor become monotonous, and he catches each of them reading the memoir at some point. One has to pass the time somehow, anyways.

When Rex joins Ghost Crew, he regales them with tales of his brothers. He talks about Fives the most and practically begs them all to carry on his memory. He can see a piece of Fives in each of them, especially in the young Ezra Bridger.

On Endor, after the Empire has been defeated, Rex meets one Luke Skywalker. They mourn and remember Anakin Skywalker together, but later Luke begs him for stories about the Clone Wars. Rex cannot help but speak about Fives, and when he mentions the memoir, Luke asks if he can see it. Rex readily agrees, and decides to ask Luke a favor. Rex knows that his time is running short, and soon there will be no one left alive who knew Fives. He asks that Luke pass on the story of the greatest man Rex ever knew, and Luke easily agrees. Rex leaves his writings and the old holopic of himself, Cody, Fives, and Echo with Luke and passes on a few months later.

Luke tells his family of Rex and Fives. They all read the manuscript, awed by the stories held within. Young Ben Solo adores the escapades of Fives and wants to be just like him when he grows up. Luke decides that Leia can keep the manuscript and holopic so that she can read Ben stories from it while he’s younger, but it stays with her even after he’s joined Luke’s school. Besides, Ben has read the stories so many times that he no longer needs the words in front of him. He joins Luke in telling his peers of the greatest man to ever live and asks them all to carry on the memory as well.

Things don’t go quite as planned. Ben does not grow up to become like Fives, but instead becomes the very thing Fives had fought so hard to destroy. He forgets the stories and kills almost everyone who would remember them.

The manuscript and holopic, however, remain with Leia. She keeps them to herself, waiting for the right person to share the stories with. She finds that person in a deserter stormtrooper who doesn’t quite know how to find his place in a world he’d never set foot in before. She gives him the manuscript and holopic and asks him to carry on the memory of the person inside.

Finn, too, is amazed by Fives. He finds a kinship in him— clones and the stormtroopers of the First Order are not all that different, it seems. He resolves to pour the same passion that Fives had into his own work with the Resistance. Without realizing it, he even picks up Fives’ tendency for passionate speeches, which amuses Leia to no end.

Finn spreads Fives’ story to his friends and many other members of the Resistance. The phrase “same heart, same blood” takes root in its members, inspiring them all to fight against tyranny.

One day, a wayward clone trooper finds his way into the Resistance. To say he is shocked to hear his dead brother’s name spoken with such reverence is an understatement, but soon he gets the story out of Finn. Kix nearly breaks down into tears, never imagining that one of his brother’s legacies could’ve lasted this long.

Eventually, the First Order is defeated, and the galaxy can finally rest. The Resistance puts up statues of its heroes from both the original Rebellion and the new one. One, however, stands out from the rest. It is of a clone trooper.

The statue of Fives stands tall and proud in the center of Coruscant. The holopic had been useful in capturing his likeness, as had directions from Kix. Fives stands with his helmet tucked underneath his left arm, his right arm held up in a salute. There is a relaxed smile upon his face, one that reassures anyone who gazes upon it.

Underneath it is a plaque that reads:

“Fives

Not Just Another Number

But A Great Man”

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I got emotional about how no one would remember Fives and this is what happened. I have zero (0) regrets and I hope you enjoyed this! At first I was just gonna write an analysis but I thought this would be better expressed through a fic. I wrote it all on tumblr and I’ll post it on Ao3 sometime but it’ll be a bit. I know the ending sounds like that quote from Captain America but it’s what fit haha, it’s not intended to be a reference to that at all. Thanks for reading!

Cody: got a bit of a big cut on my leg this time. You got a medkit around?

Rex: got something even better, I got a med kix

Kix: sir the commander is bleeding there’s no time for puns

Cody, going paler by the minute: I bet he kix ass

Kix: *in tears* sir, just sit down

He shouldn't be doing this. In fact he knew he shouldn't be doing this. But when his general had asked him he had agreed because he would do anything for his general.

He sighed thinking about his general. He was in love with him. But he couldn't tell him out of fear. After all he was just a clone. One in a million.

He walked into the mess hall and looked around at the party. He noticed that everyone had sat down in the middle of the room and where all in a big circle.

"Rex over here."

He looked over and saw his general waving him over.

He quickly made his way over and was pulled down by Anakin so he was sitting.

"What's going on?"

"were playing Truth or Dare."

"Okay so who's first?"

"I am."

Rex saw that Fives was the one to speak.

"Echo Truth or Dare."

"Dare."

" I dare you to sit in that trash can because you are garbage."

Echo walked over with the most serious expression and sat down before speaking.

"I am finally home."

After that Echo turned to Jessie and asked him.

"Truth or Dare."

"Dare."

" I dare you to come sit in the trash with me because you are also trash."

Jessie just smirked before turning to Kix.

"Truth or Dare."

"Truth."

"Is it true that I'm the best."

Kix just gave him a vicious smirk.

"Yes Jessie you are the best at being the worst. Now run along and go back to your home."

Everyone looked at Kix in shocked silence before Kix broke the silence.

"Truth or Dare Tup."

"Dare."

"I dare you to give me a big hug."

"Ok."

Tup walked over and everyone ignored Jessie who was giving Kix a sad look.

"Why didn't I get a hug."

"I don't hug trash."

Everyone was surprised by Kix acting so cold to Jessie.

"I thought you loved me."

"I do love you, just not when you break my stuff."

Before Jessie could reply Tup looked over at Fives who had a big smirk on his face and kept eyeing Rex.

"Truth or Dare Fives."

Five's grin grew even bigger.

Dare.

I dare you to flap your arms around and scream that your a bird.

Fives happily got up and started running around screaming that he was a bird. He even put something in his mouth chewed it up and tried to feed Echo like he was a baby bird. Then he ran over to Jessie and pretended to peck at him before sitting down.

Everyone was laughing and Fives was beaming. But then his face changed into a wicked grin.

Truth or Dare Rex.

He knew he shouldn't pick dare but his general was looking at him with those eyes and asking him to pick dare. He could never resist those eyes.

He sighed loudly before speaking.

"Dare."

Five's smile got even bigger.

I dare you to kiss the general.

The 501st were stuck on Hoth. It had been two months and they still had another month. Everyone was unhappy and moral was really low.

Ahsoka looked around at all of her men's sad faces before turning to her master and captain.

Both of them were still dancing around there feeling's.

Ahsoka wished there was away to get them together.

That was until an idea came to her. One that would get Rex and Anakin together and boost moral.

Excited by her new plan. Ahsoka quickly made her way to see the boys in Torrent and tell them her plan.

"Everyone stop what your doing."

Fives and Echo quickly put Dogma down while Tup and Kix glared at them and Jessie gave them a thumbs up.

"What's going on here?"

Everyone looked at each other before Fives spoke first.

"Nothing important commander. Now what can we do for you?"

I have a plan to help moral.

Kix perked up at that.

"How are you going to fix moral?"

"I have a plan to get Rex and Anakin together."

Kix wilted at that along with everyone else.

"No offence Commander but that's impossible."

"Not anymore Tho because I have a plan.

"And what plan is that Commander?"

"Thank you for asking Echo?"

"No problem Commander. But what's the plan?

Ahsoka broke out into a huge grin.

"There going to share a tent together."

Jessie looked confused while Echo got excited.

"I don't get it. How would sharing a tent get them together."

Echo quickly cut him off.

"Because Jessie. It's cold."

"So."

"That means there going to have to cuddle for warmth and since the General is from a desert planet and can't handle the cold well. Rex is going to help him.

"Okay but how do we get them to share a tent."

Fives grinned.

"I know how."

Dogma worriedly looked at Fives.

"How?"

"By doing this."

Fives marched over to a bunch of tents and started pulling things out of it.

Kix was the first to shout out what was on everyone's mind.

"FIVES WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?!?!."

"What does it look like?"

After Fives was done he grabbed a large stick and started walking to the fire.

"Dogma was the first to realize what he was doing.

"Stop him."

But it was to late.

Hardcase who had been on guard duty ran over.

"What's going on."

Fives held the flaming stick up.

"I'm getting the General and Captain together."

Then Fives threw the flaming stick at the tents.

Hardcase started to cheer while everyone else stared in shock.

Everyone turned to Fives who was grinning at the flames.

Before anyone could do anything Anakin and Rex rushed over and Rex was the first to speak.

"What happened?"

Everyone quickly stood to attention before Fives spoke first.

"A fire happened sir."

"How did a fire happen Fives."

"I don't know. I think it was the wind."

Hardcase cackled which caused Rex to turn to him.

"Anything you would like to say trooper?"

"No."

"Do you know what happened?"

"The wind."

Rex looked annoyed at that response.

"Echo what happened?"

"The wind sir."

"Commander what happened?"

"Rex it was the wind. We all saw it. Right guys."

Everyone agreed.

"Yep wind."

"Totally the wind."

"That darn wind."

Rex sighed.

"How many tents were burned ."

Dogma was the first to speak.

"Ten sir."

Rex pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Alright then."

"Who's tents were burned.

"Fives, mine, Jessie's, Your's, Matchstick, Copper, Ash, Chatterbox, Jex, Twitch.

"Okay then Fives you are going with Echo. Dogma your going with Tup, Jessie your going with Kix, Matchstick your going with Rio, Copper your going with system. Ash your going with Risk. Chatterbox your going with circuit. Jex your going with Drag and Twitch your going with Slip."

Everyone started moving around and doing things while Rex sighed and Fives walked up to Rex.

"Rex where are you going to sleep."

"I don't know."

Fives shrugged his shoulders trying to seem like he didn't care.

"Why don't you sleep with General Skywalker. Since your both officers."

Rex and Anakin looked at each other and both of them were blushing.

"I don't mind Rex. We can share a tent."

Rex looked at his still smoking tent.

"Okay, sir. I will take you up on your offer.

"Do you need help moving your stuff into my tent."

"It's fine I only have my backpack."

"Okay."

"Um, sir which tent is yours."

"Oh right. I will show you. Come on Rex."

Rex quickly grabbed his bag and followed his General.

"Here it is. You can make yourself comfortable while I go do something really fast."

"Okay, sir."

Anakin ran into the comms tent. His face was bright red but he quickly dialed Padme.

Ani what's wrong?

Anakin was bright red and he bursted out.

Rex'stentwasburneddownsowearesharingatentandIdon'tknowwhattidobecausehe'ssohandsomeandamazingandeverytimeI'mnearhimIfeelcomplete.ButIdon'tthinkhelikesmelikethatandifItellhimhewillprobablyhateme.PadmeIdon'tknowwhattodoooooooo.

"Ani can you please repeat that?"

"Is that Anakin?"

Anakin could hear Padme's wife Sabe in the background before she popped into the screen.

"Hey Anakin, how's it going."

"Not well apparently all though I couldn't understand him because he was talking so fast."

"Oh right, sorry."

"It's fine just repeat what you said."

"Okay, well I said that Rex's tent was burned down so we are sharing a tent."

"That's very nice of you Ani."

"I think the real question is how did the tent burn down."

Padme gave Sabe a disapproving look.

"Sabe."

"What I have questions and I need answers, so how did his tent burn down.

Oh well, Fives and some of the trooper's said it was the wind. They had a campfire going to stay warm and the wind must have blown the fire onto nearby tents.

"Mighty convinent his tent was burned."

"Anakin cocked his head. What do you mean?"

"Oh nothing. Why don't you continue."

Anakin thought back to the rest of what he was saying.

"The rest of that was just me ranting. It's not important."

"If you say so Ani."

Just then Anakin could hear troopers just outside of the tent.

"I have to go know."

"Alright Ani I will talk to you soon."

"Bye."

Anakin hung up.

The trooper's entered and saluted him while Anakin just waved them off and left.

He was going to be sharing a tent with Rex. The man he a huge crush on. He could do this.

Anakin walked to his tent. It was evening and pretty soon everyone would be in bed except for those on shift.

Anakin was about to open the tent but stopped himself.

He breathed in and then out before repeating to himself. That he could do it.

Anakin unzipped the tent and walked in.

The first thing he saw was Rex shirtless and his brain broke down.

Rex was hot and he was screwed.

I can't do this. But it was to late Rex had already seen him.

"Hello General Skywalker."

Anakin was bright red.

"You can call me Anakin. Were off duty right now."

"I will try."

"Thank you."

Anakin was going to put on his pajamas when he stopped and blushed.

His pajamas were a soft sweater dress Padme had gotten him. It was really warm and cozy. When ever he wore it he couldn't help but feel safe. It was the same color as his eyes.

Anakin had never worn it in front of anyone before because he was embarrassed. But that wasn't the only embarrassing part. He also liked to sleep with a collar on. It was a simple black color that had a bell on it. The color fit perfectly on his neck. He was always embarrassed about it and kept it a secret from almost everyone.

"Are you okay Gen-Anakin?"

"Yes Into fine."

"Are you sure."

Anakin bit his lip.

"If I tell you, you have to promise me you won't tell anyone or that you won't laugh at me."

Rex was confused but agreed.

"I promise."

Anakin looked really nervous.

"Okay but can you turn around."

"Sure."

Rex turned around and Anakin got ready.

He put his soft sweater dress on and instantly started to relax. He kept his leggings on and put on his collar.

Rex was confused when he heard what sounded like a bell.

"Sir?"

"You can turn around now Rex."

Rex turned around slowly and choked in surprise.

He kept telling himself that one day it would all somehow make sense.

The war had been going on for a little over a year and everyone was done.

He walked the halls of the Resolute looking at the faces of his men.

They were all tired of this war. There breaks becoming less and less. While the battle's are becoming harder.

They are all worn down there last campaign had been difficult and a lot of men had died.

So many men were killed in a war that they were forced to fight.

It seemed every day he was loosing more and more brothers. He wondered sometimes, if they would ever survive this war. If he would ever survive this war.

Sometimes he layed awake thinking about the life he could have with his Cyare where there is no war.

Where they don't have to hide from the council or from the GAR.

He walked the hallways. The quiet empty hallways that used to be filled with men but was now filled with ghosts of the past.

He paused in front of the medbay and walked in. He was instantly hit with the groans of dying men and the smell of antiseptic and blood.

He walked the aisles looking at each man remembering their faces and their names.

He knew some of them would not survive the night.

Kix stopped in front of him and pointed him toward his Cyare's bed.

His General and the man he loves lay motionless. He had been injured trying to save his men from an ambush.

He remembers cradling his unconscious form in his arms. Begging him to survive because he needed him.

His General who always helped other's. Who cared about his men almost died saving them.

He sat down and held Anakin's cold hand. His face was pale and he had big bags under his eyes.

He looked at his Cyare laying peacefully attached to a bunch of machines.

He turned his head away trying not to look at his failure.

It's his job to keep his General safe. That's what he was made for. He was expendable while his General was not.

He looked away but only came face to face with more of his failure. He looked at his men injured and dying before looking at his Cyare again and thinking about what it was all for.

But he knew deep down he would never get his answer. He would never know.

That's why he did the same thing he does after every battle. Pick himself up and keep telling himself that it would all someday make sense.

They had just set up base on some planet and he was making his rounds.

He checked on his men making sure they were okay after the last battle. He checked there supplies making sure they had enough and he made sure everything was in order. Before going to check in with the medbay.

He checked in with Kix who told him how many were injured and how many supplies he had before asking about the General.

"Rex, have you seen the General? He hasn't come by and gotten a check up."

"No I haven't. But you know the General, always avoiding medical.

"I'll keep a look out for him."

"Okay, thanks."

Kix walked away and started checking on his patient while he continued checking in.

He asked some of his men if they have seen the General but they haven't.

Tup however said that he saw the General walk toward the creek nearby.

He thanked him and started walking over there.

He started looking around before spotting him sitting against a tree. He walked over thinking his General was asleep.

But when he came closer he felt his heart stop. His General looked terrible. There were big bags under his eyes and he was super pale.

He looked like he was dying. Quickly walking over he felt for a pulse and panicked when it came out erratic.

He tried comming for help but there was only static.

He looked at his General before picking him up and carrying him to medical.

Anakin ran away crying. He felt humiliated. He cried thinking about Rex getting money for kissing him. Was he really that bad? He ran into his room and closed the door.

He loved Rex but, he clearly didn't feel the same way.

Rex actually had to be paid money just to kiss him. He sobbed before saying out loud.

"I shouldn't have kissed him. I'm such an idiot."

"No one will ever love me. I'm stupid and useless. I don't deserve to be loved."

He sniffed.

"I'm so stupid, no one will ever love me. I don't want to be loved."

He wiped his eyes and splashed water on his face.

"From now on, I'm never going to love."

He took a deep breath while clenching his fingers.

"I'm okay. I'm okay. It doesn't matter anymore. What happened happened and nothing will change."

He wiped the tears that fell before.

He walked out of his room and started walking toward the bridge. He made sure to avoid as many people as possible.

He knew they would probably stare at him and laugh.

When he got onto the bridge he could feel everyone's eyes on him. He tried to ignore there whisper's. He quickly checked everything over. Before checking in with the medbay.

He tried to avoid people especially torrent company, but just his luck.

When he walked inside, he found Kix, Jesse, Fives and Echo huddled around talking.

When they saw him. They instantly stopped talking and stared.

Out of the group Kix was the first to speak.

"Are you injured?"

"No, I'm just coming to check in."

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine."

Kix looked at his brothers.

"You don't look fine."

"I'm fine!"

He snapped it out this time. He could see his men back up in suprise.

He sighed before pinching his nose.

"I'm sorry, but I'm fine."

He turned his attention toward Fives.

"KP duty for a month. Also I want no more betting on this ship."

He could see Fives look of suprise before he turned around and moved on.

He didn't want to look at his men any more. He felt used by them and the wound was still fresh.

After that he mindlessly walked the halls before coming across the gym. He looked at it for a long moment trying to feel if anyone was inside. He sighed when he realized the gym was empty and he could release his pain.

He automatically grabbed his lightsaber to do katas but, decided against it. Instead he walked over to a punching bag and attacked it.

He punched the bag over and over getting lost in the rhythm. The pain had dulled after the first punches and now he just felt numb. Distantly he could feel his blood dripping to the floor.

He kept punching and punching until someone called out for him. Suprised he whirled around and saw Rex standing in the doorway looking concerned.

They stared at each other trying to see who would break first. Finally Rex walked forward and said.

"Your hand General."

He looked down at his bloody fists and just shrugged.

"It's fine."

"No it's not."

"Don't pretend to care."

Rex looked like he'd been slapped.

"What makes you think I don't care?"

He turned away bitterly.

"oh, I'm sorry, of course you care. You care about what you can get from me. Just like everyone else."

He looked over angrily and pointed at him.

"I'm guessing Fives and the rest of the 501st are beyond that door laughing. Did they bet you to come here. Is that it, my feeling are just some game to you."

He could feel tears in his eyes and willed them away.

Rex looked shocked.

"No one made me come. I'm worried about you General. I'm not worried about what you can do for me. I'm worried about you as a person.

"I'm sorry Rex, but I don't believe you. What you did earlier today broke my trust. I trusted you and you used me."

He shaked his head and dug his nails into his flesh causing it to bleed.

"General Skywalker I'm sorry. I didn't know about the bets, I swear."

He cried before saying.

"You broke my heart. I loved you and you broke my heart."

Rex looked at him in concern and walked over trying to touch his arm.

"Don't touch me. Stop using me."

He started sliding to the floor in tears.

"I just want someone to love me."

Rex's heart broke at the sight and he fell to the floor pulling him close.

"It's okay Anakin. I'm sorry I didn't know about the bets. When I kissed you it wasn't just because of the dare."

He stopped talking. Could he say it. Could he say those three words that would change everything. Could he cross that line.

He looked down at Anakin who was wrapped in his arms.

He could do it. He could do it for Anakin.

"I love you Anakin. The reason I kissed you was because I loved you."

He felt Anakin shudder before two beautiful blue eyes that were red around the edges looked at him with hope and desperation.

"Really?"

"Yes, I love you so much."

Anakin gave him a watery smile.

"I love you too."

He smiled and reached up to touch Anakin's face. He lightly traced his scar before kissing him.

Anakin kissed back a moment later and it was like fireworks.

He had never felt so happy in his life.

Anakin wrapped his arms around Rex's neck and brought him closer trying to press there body's together.

"I love you."

"I love you too Cyare."

Anakin smiled and all he could think about was how he wanted Anakin to smile at him just like that for the rest of there lives.

Twas the night before Life day

Twas the night before life day, when all through the ship No one in torrent was stirring, not even Fives. The weapon's were hung on a rack with care, In hopes that life day would soon be there.

The troopers were nestled all snug in their beds, while visions of victory danced in their head's. And Anakin in his robes and I in my blacks, had just settled our brains for a long hyperdrive nap.

. When out on a ship there arose such a clatter, I sprang from the bunk to see what was the matter. Away to the mess I flew like a flash, Tore open the doors and threw up my hands.

The lights on the breast of the new-shiny metal Gave the luster of mid-day to objects below. When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,. But a miniature fighter, and eight foolish troopers.

With a little pilot, so lively and quick, I knew in a moment it must be Ahsoka Tano. More rapid than Aiwha her coursers they came, And she whistled, and shouted, and called them by name!

"Now Fives! Now, Echo! Now, Jesse! and Kix! On, Tup! On, Dogma! on, on Hardcase and Vaughn! To the top of the bench! To the top of the wall! Now dash away! Dash away! Dash away all!"

Christmas angst part 1

It was that time of year. Life day one of the worst day's of his life. Every year it was the same thing. Everyone would laugh and smile enjoying the holiday while he sat there remembering his past.

Every year someone would tell him to smile and he wanted to run to scream to break everything. But all he did was clench his hand and wish for the terrible day to end.

It wasn't that he hated life day like some would say. It wasn't that he had no life day spirit or his heart was to small.

No it was how every year on life day he would remember the horror he faced as a child.

You see while everyone was celebrating and smiling and laughing with there families he would remember how his life day went when he was still a slave.

Instead of celebrating with his mother they were often separated for the day and forced to do different tasks. While everyone else in the universe opened presents. He got nothing but pain.

While everyone smiled he was crying. He was crying because every year the hutts would throw a life day party and ever since he was five. He would be given to someone on life day and raped. While kids played with toys adults played with him. Life day was never a fun time for slaves.

Then there was the laughing. He hated how they laughed. It reminded him of when people would grab him and laugh at his tears laugh at how he begged them to stop.

He hated life day and he wished every year it would go away but it never did. Every year he had to relive his pain. He could still feel there hands touching him or there breathe that reaked of alcohol while they kissed him.

He sat on a chair looking at the tree and wishing it will burn.

"Master?"

He was brought out of his thoughts by Ahsoka."

He flinched before looking at her.

"Yes snips."

She crossed her arms.

"How come your not helping."

"I don't want to."

She huffed before saying.

"You have to help."

"No I don't. Leave me alone Ahsoka."

Ahsoka glared at him before saying.

"Fine be that way. I don't know what your problem is but your acting like a jerk."

He looked away willing the tears away. She didn't understand. She could never understand.

When he didn't say anything else Ahsoka left.

He sat there in silence staring at the tree.

Somewhere else on the ship Ahsoka stomped over and crossed there arms with a frown.

Obi-Wan, Rex, Cody, Fives, Echo, Jesse and Kix were all there putting up decorations.

"What's wrong commander."

Rex looked at her worried.

"It's my master. He's being such a jerk. He won't even help put up decorations."

Obi-Wan sighed.

"I know Ahsoka. Anakin acts like this every year. I always have to tell him to stop acting like a best this time of year."

"I know what is wrong with him. He's ruining the holidays."

"Now Ahsoka, that's not nice."

"Yeah but it's true."

Cody frowned before saying.

"I'm not a fan of General Skywalker's behavior recently as well."

Jesse scratched the back of his head.

"Yeah, the General has been kind of rude recently. He won't even talk to us."

Fives looked annoyed.

"We should tell him to stop acting like that and celebrate with us."

"Yeah, Fives is right."

"Thank you Commander."

Obi-Wan cut in.

"I don't think we should do anything just yet. I think this year he might come around."

Everyone looked unsure at that.

A few days later and it was life day. Anakin awoke and instantly wanted to hurl.

He tried to hide in his blankets but Ahsoka busted into his room shouting out.

"It's life day. Get up master and celebrate."

That was the last thing he wanted to do.

When Ahsoka realized he wasn't getting up she frowned and went to find Obi-Wan.

"Master Kenobi, Anakin won't wake up. He's hiding in bed."

Obi-Wan sighed.

"I'll go talk to him. How about you get the men."

Obi-Wan walked to Anakin's room and opened the door.

"Get up Anakin. Your a grown adult stop acting like a youngling and come out of your room. Everyone is waiting for you."

"Leave me alone master."

"No, it's life day we should be celebrating."

"I don't want to celebrate."

"What is with you. Get out of bed now."

Anakin groaned but got out of bed.

"Happy?"

"I don't like your attitude."

"I don't really care."

"Anakin!!! What is wrong with you."

Anakin looked away and bit his lip.

"Let's just go everyone is waiting for me after all."

Obi-Wan rolled his eyes but followed him into the mess hall where everyone was waiting to open there presents.

Anakin sat far away and frowned not even trying to have a good time.

Everyone just ignored him and started opening gifts.

They laughed and had fun ignoring how Anakin dug his nails into his flesh hand or how any loud noise would cause him to flinch.

The more he stayed the more he started panicking. He didn't want to be there anymore. He wanted to be somewhere safe.

He got up and started trying to leave before Ahsoka shouted out.

"Master where are you going?"

He turned around feeling dizzy with fear."

"You haven't opened your gift."

At this point everyone was looking at him and he could hear them whispering.

He took a step back which caused Ahsoka to frown.

"Come on Anakin. Stop acting like a baby and come over here."

"I think I'm going to go."

"You can't go."

He looked toward the exit and tried to walk over but a few of his men stopped him.

"Come on General have some fun."

Fives stumbled clearly drunk and he took a step back looking around at everyone staring at him. Someone in the corner laughed and he felt himself panic.

"Let me through now."

He could hear his voice shaking.

"Were not going to do that General. The commander and General Kenobi made it very clear you are to celebrate life day with us.

Jesse and Fives tried to throw there arms around his shoulder but he pushed them off.

"Don't touch me."

Everyone frowned before Rex and Cody stepped forward.

"Calm down General. There is no reason to get upset."

"Come on sir. We just want to spend life day with you."

"Well I don't want to. Now. Let. Me. Leave."

"Enough!!!"

Everyone turned to see Obi-Wan standing there.

"Sit down Anakin. Your ruining life day for everyone."

He started shaking in rage and grief. He felt like he was about to explode.

He shakily walked to his seat trying to control his temper.

"Thank you Anakin. Now if you could just smile and pretend your happy  that would be gr-

~CRASH!!!!!~

Christmas angst part 2

He was breathing heavily and curling his fingers while shaking in rage. He had grabbed the closest object which happened to be a snow globe and threw it to the floor.

"SHUT THE KRIFF UP!"

"ANAKIN!"

"SIR!"

"Master!"

"I HAVE TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE OVER AND OVER AGAIN! BUT YOU WON'T BECAUSE YOUR ALL SELFISH!"

He pointed his finger out into the row of onlookers.

He looked at there shocked and angry faces.

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I HATE THIS STUPID HOLIDAY?!"

He could see a few people look at him wearily.

"BEFORE I WAS BROUGHT TO THE JEDI TEMPLE! I WAS A SLAVE!"

He could feel there shock at that.

"EVERY YEAR JABBA WOULD HAVE THESE HOLIDAY PARTY'S AT HIS PALACE. WHERE ALL THE SLAVER'S AND BOUNTY HUNTERS AND SCUM BAGS OF THE GALAXY!

He growled out each name.

"WOULD COME TOGETHER AND DRINK AND LAUGH AND HAVE FUN!"

He started pointed at himself.

"BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO THE SLAVES?! WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO ME?!"

He slammed his fist down

"DO YOU?!?!"

Some people flinched.

"THE PEOPLE LIKE ME!"

He stabbed his finger into his chest.

"WERE FORCED TO SERVE THEM! WE WERE FORCED TO SERVE THEM AGAINST ARE WILL!"

He started panting in rage.

"THEY RAPED ME EVERY YEAR SINCE I WAS, FIVE FORCEDAMN, YEARS OLD!"

He held up his fingers showing the number five.

"I WAS RAPED ON LIFE DAY, OVER, AND OVER, AGAIN!"

His body shaked every time he said over.

"SO I'M SORRY THAT I'M NOT JUMPING AROUND IN JOY TODAY! I'M SORRY THAT I WAS A KRIFFING SLAVE. IT MUST BE SUCH AN INCONVENIENCE TO ALL OF YOU! THAT I WON'T SMILE AND, GET OVER IT!"

His face twisted into something ugly at that.

"MERRY KRIFFING LIFE DOWN SCUM BAGS! SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE, TOWARD YOUR PRECIOUS HOLIDAY!"

He was crying at this point but he didn't care. He looked at all of them. He looked at there shocked faces and he ran. No one stopped him when he left the mess hall to shocked to move.

He ran as fast as he could away from them because he didn't want to look at them he was so angry and his throat was raw from all the yelling.

He ran until he found his room and locked himself inside sobbing. For year's he had tried to hide his past. For year's he tried to endure life day. But it was all for nothing because he finally snapped.

He sobbed into his pillow before finally the only good thing happened to him on life day.

He passed out.

Anakin burst into the mess hall before shouting out.

"IT'S NEW YEARS EVE!!!!"

Everyone looked at him strangely but he ignored them. Instead he went to his usual table.

"Hello Cyare. What are you up to?"

"It's New Years Eve."

"I know."

Rex looked at him amused.

Obi-Wan looked over at him before saying.

"Anakin, why are you wearing white?"

"It's New Year's Eve."

"Oh, of course it's New Years Eve. That explains everything."

Anakin looked at him unimpressed.

"If you wear white on New Years Eve it's supposed to bring you luck and I could use lot's of luck this year."

Fives quickly looked up at him.

"Luck!?!?"

"Yep, wearing white is lucky."

"I have had a terrible year. Bring on the luck."

Fives got up and started running away.

"Fives where are you going."

"I'm going to put my armor on. It's mainly white."

Echo stared at him before sighing and finishing his food.

"Idiot."

Jesse laughed and looked at Kix.

"Maybe you should wear white today."

Kix looked at him unamused.

"Shut up. I only slipped on that mud because you were the idiot who decided to get there arm stuck."

"That's not my fault. Hardcase pushed me and my arm got stuck inside."

"Hey, I did no such thing."

"Yes you did."

"No I didn't."

"Shut up both of you."

"Sorry Kix."

"Yes Kix."

"You should both wear white. With all the stupid things you two do. Your going to need all the luck you can get."

Kix went back to eating while Tup smiled and looked at the General curious.

"Are there other ways of getting luck."

"Yeah, you could wear lucky underwear."

"I don't have lucky underwear but, Ahsoka does."

Ahsoka was looking at the ground embarrassed.

"What special underwear snips."

Tup happily explained to the general.

"Oh you know. The yellow one with lace on it. When we asked Ahsoka about it she said it was lucky underwear. Speaking of which, can I borrow some of your lucky underwear?"

Ahsoka quickly ran out of the room.

"Ask me layer. I have to go bye."

Anakin looked at her confused.

"What special underwear does she have and can he wear it."

Hardcase made a loud noise before saying.

"Sorry I didn't mean to do that. Is there anything else you can do for luck?"

"You can make a lot of noise."

"Oh, you'll be great at that Anakin."

He turned this master and stuck his tongue out. He also noticed Hardcase looking really excited for some reason but, shrugged it off.

"More things you can do is eat 12 grapes, smash a plate, put cash in your wallet, open your doors and windows."

Everyone stared at him.

"Maybe not that last one."

"Oh, we could do my favorite. Which is running around the ship with an empty suitcase."

"Is there anything else."

He blushed.

"Well there is another thing I really like to do."

Obi-Wan blushed while everyone else looked confused.

"On New Year's Eve when the clock hits zero you kiss someone."

"I'm definitely doing that."

Cody looked at Obi-Wan and smiled.

Obi-Wan blushed and looked away.

Rex looked at him before smirking.

"I think that's the best one you have said so far."

"Why?"

Rex smiled and pulled him close.

"Because I get to kiss you."

"Eww gross get a room."

"Shut up Fives."

Rex kissed him before pulling back and looking at Fives.

"I see your back."

"Yep, what did I miss?"

Anakin excitedly explained everything else.

Later that day. Everyone was counting down until it was midnight.

5

4

3

2

1

"Happy New Year!!!!!"

Everyone cheered and celebrated. But it was all drowned out by Rex grabbing him and dip kissing him.

Fluffy Cow

They were at another jedi temple and Obi-Wan told Anakin, not to touch the jedi artifact like always.

They had been on missions like this before and they knew what happened, when you touch artifacts you are not supposed to. They had already been deaged and turned into kittens. Having to be taken care of and sent back to the jedi temple.

Even though Obi-Wan warned Anakin not to touch. He still went ahead and touched it. Obi-Wan sighed feeling exhausted and watched as bright lights suddenly erupted from his former padawan.

After a long moment the lights faded and he blinked away the spots in his eyes. He looked down and saw Anakin who was turned into a fluffy cow. He sighed and looked at there men. Who were all standing around staring. He looked at Rex who just stared blankly.

"Here you go Rex."

Rex looked at the fluffy cow twitching before saying.

"Thanks sir."

He turned into Kix who was looking at his datapad.

"Kix start looking up information on fluffy cows."

"I'm already on it."

Rex turned back to his General.

"Come on Anakin, let's go."

Anakin followed after Rex looking around and mooing.

Obi-Wan sighed and prepared himself for another council meeting.

Injured

"Rex!"

Anakin called out to him while holding his stomach in pain.

"what's wrong Cyare?"

"hurts."

Rex walked into the room and saw Anakin laying on the floor, holding his stomach.

He rushed over feeling concerned.

"Cyare, are you okay?"

"It hurts."

He helped Anakin stand, but he started to fall.

"Ow it hurts."

Anakin was now crying and clutching his stomach.

"I'm going to take you to Kix."

He picked up his General and carried him to the medbay.

"Kix!"

Kix turned around and saw Rex running into the medbay with a crying General.

He instantly went into medic mode.

"put him over there."

He set Anakin onto the med cot and watched Kix start to examine the General.

Kix cursed and looked at patches.

Prep for surgery, the General has shrapnel in his stomach.

In a flurry of movements the medics were taking the General into another room and he could only watch.

Fives came up to him and grabbed his shoulder.

"He's going to be fine."

"I know."

He stared at the medbay doors even when he was sitting down. He stayed that way for hours. Waiting for the surgery to end.

Small oneshots for when I'm board.

General Skywalker was missing. He looked all around asking his brothers if they had seen the General.

During the battle they had gotten separated. Usually they find their way back to each other. However this time, General Skywalker never came back to him.

He started searching the edge of the battlefield. Trying to see if his General got separated from the whole group.

He was walking around a giant rock when he saw something shining under the sun. He ran over and gasped.

Picking it up with shaky hands. He held his General's dirty lightsaber. Looking closer he noticed blood on the handle.

He turned around in a circle trying to find his General. By the rock, he could see a boot. Walking closer he found his General laying in a puddle of blood.

He rushed over and felt his pulse point. Only to sigh in relief. His General's pulse was weak, but still there.

He commed Kix and looked over his General. He held him close while kissing his head and telling him to survive.

Kix showed up a moment later with a gurney. He looked over Anakin before setting him on the gurney.

"Is he going to be okay?"

"Yes."

He sighed in relief.

"Thank you Kix."

"Of course."

Small Oneshot for when I'm board

The 501st were on some random outer rim planet. They had just finished a long campaign. When the natives had come to greet them. One of the natives, a large Dathomirian male walked over and started checking out the General.

At first he only watched from a distance, while Anakin talked with his men unaware that he had an audience.

However the 501st were extremely aware especially Rex. They all tensed when the Dathomirian walked over to the General and grabbed his butt.

The General quickly turned around glaring. The Dathomirian however only smirked while leaning in and whispering something to the General.

The General didn't look happy and had a frown on his face. It looked like the General was about to walk away. When the Dathomirian grabbed his arm smirking.

"Where are you going, little slave?"

The Dathomirian pulled the General against his chest. While looking directly at Rex and smirking.

Rex looked pissed and he started marching over. When a small group came forward and blocked him.

"Let me through."

One of the guys smirked.

"No, our boss has decided who he wants and he gets whatever he wants."

Rex didn't even hesitate to punch him while growling.

"Get out of my way."

The group looked angry and started trying to attack him. Fives instantly jumped in and started fighting as well. The 501st ran forward and it soon started becoming a big fight.

The General tried to use the force, but a force suppression collar was put around his neck. He snarled and tried to bite the Dathomirian.

"Let's go somewhere more private, my little slave."

Anakin tried to get away, but he was dragged away by the Dathomirian.

Jesse and Hardcase saw there General being dragged away and rushed toward him. They fought the Dathomirian while Kix removed the force inhibitor collar. After that it was all over. Anakin used the force to stop the fighting.

The 501st arrested the culprits and Rex walked over to his General. Making sure he wasn't okay.

"Are you okay, Cyare?"

"I'm fine."

Rex kissed his General and one of the group members laughed.

"Now I see why they rushed to your aid. Your sleeping with them."

The man laughed and Rex marched over, ready to kill him.

The man smirked.

"Enjoy your little slave, I bet he bends over for anyone."

General Skywalker knocked the man out, while saying.

"I'm not a slave."

He looked at his men and said.

"Let's throw them into the bridge. We will deal with them once we are back on Coruscant."

General Skywalker waddled over to them. His scent was sweet, but his stomach was large. The young Omega was pregnant and he definitely looked the part.

He smiled at them and they watched Rex hold his pregnant Omega. The war had only ended five months ago and they did not waste time.

As soon as the war ended and the troopers had rights. They had gotten busy and now General Skywalker was pregnant.

He was rubbing his belly and smiling, while Rex kissed him. They had recently found out it was going to be twins. Which was a huge shock for everyone.

The 501st had been helping General Skywalker get ready and we're excited to become uncle's. Hardcase kept holding up fruit and saying.

"This is what size the baby is."

General Skywalker suddenly gasped and felt his stomach. Rex looked at him in concern and General Skywalker said.

"It's moving."

Kix instantly turned into medic mode and started asking questions. Ever since he found out General Skywalker was pregnant. He had been researching everything about it.

General Skywalker looks at his belly and says.

"It feels like a weird fluttering sensation."

Rex had him sit down and Kix said.

"You should stay off your feet. This is common at your stage."

General Skywalker nodded and Kix looked him over.

The time General Skywalker was sleep walking.

He walked around the Resolute and everyone awake stared at him. They knew Kix would kill them, if they woke up the General.

That's why they called Kix, for help. The medic walked over and watched the General. Echo looked at the General in concern and said.

"It's like he's looking for something."

Jesse shrugs and says.

"It's probably some king of force thing"

Echo nods his head and says.

"Your probably right."

Kix looked General Skywalker open and said.

"We should still, make sure he's safe."

They continued following him around and General Skywalker eventually, landed in the barracks. They watched him move between beds before he stopped.

He was standing right in front of a sleeping Rex. They all tensed and wondered what the jedi was going to do.

One of the Shinies looked panicked when they said.

"He's going to kill him."

They all knew General Skywalker wasn't going to kill Rex, but a part of them. Thought he might actually kill the Captain.

Fives and Jesse moved forward, but stopped in shock. The General had climbed into bed with Rex.

They watched Rex subconsciously wrap an arm around General Skywalker and pull him closer. The General nuzzled against the Captain's chest and sighed.

They all stared in shock especially when General Skywalker whispered.

"Love you."

"I love you too."

They quickly left the room, before they accidentally woke them up. But they made sure to get a few pictures.

Going To The Bar

Kix was sitting at 79's with his brothers. Jesse was sitting next to him and having an arm wrestling contest with Fives.

Hardcase is trying to flirt with the waitress and is doing terribly. The waitress is giving him pitying looks. It's a little embarrassing to watch.

Tup and Dogma are talking to each other and Tup is starting to get a little drunk. He keeps asking Dogma to dance with him. While swaying in his seat with slightly glazed eyes. He is a total light weight.

He can see Rex drinking something strong and trying to forget all of them. He knows his brother likes hanging out with them, he just acts like he doesn't.

Echo is cheering Fives on and also making snarky comments. He can tell Jesse is getting annoyed by Echo's distractions. He smiles at his brothers and continues drinking. He's glad they finally got leave and are able to enjoy themselves.

He watches Tup pull out the puppy dog eyes and Dogma caves, while Tup starts cheering. He watches them leave for the dance floor and Rex is keeping a close eye on them.

Echo must notice because he talks about Rex being a mother hen. They all know Rex is a mother hen, but Fives and Echo are the only ones who can say that to Rex. Without having there butt's kicked the next day during sparring.

Rex ignores him and finishes off his drink. He looks like he could use another and asks the waitress for another drink. She happily goes to get him one and Hardcase pouts. While watching her quickly get away from him.

He watches Hardcase look at the captain and start complaining. Before getting distracted by Jesse who bumps into him while Fives cheers in victory. He pats his brothers back after loosing to Fives and offers to get him a drink.

Jesse looks over and smiles at him.

"You need to wake up."

"What?"

"I said please do."

He watches Jesse glare at Fives while feeling confused. He has no idea what just happened, but it puts him a little on edge.

Jesse nudges him and asks like nothing is wrong.

"Move over I have to use the bathroom."

Hardcase stops arguing with the captain and says.

"I'll join you."

Fives looks like he wants to say something that will probably start a fight. When Echo quickly stops him and points at the wolfpack.

"Let's go over there."

He watches Echo drag Fives away while smiling. Those two have so much energy and there both amazing Ark troopers.

He looks over at Rex who slides next to him. They are the only ones at the table.

"You need to wake up. Your in danger."

He stares at Rex and asks.

"What?"

Suddenly it was like everything skipped and Torrent was sitting around him. They we're joking and laughing while he looked confused. He didn't understand what was happening.

Fives looks over and asks.

"Do you remember the chips?"

Jesse turns to look at him.

"Do you remember?"

Echo nods.

"It was important."

Everyone at the table is watching him a and Dogma says.

"You need to wake up."

Tup nodded.

"Your in danger."

He looked at all of them while feeling really confused. He didn't understand what was going on. They we're at 79's and he wasn't asleep or in danger. He was with his brothers.

Echo stared at him and said.

"It's over we're gone now."

Rex nodded and was smiling while speaking urgently.

"Wake Up It's Not Safe!"

He looks around and gasps in horror because everyone was dead. He stood up and took a step back in surprise before waking up.

He walked out of the Carbonite feeling nauseous and collapsed onto the ground. When he finally looked up he didn't know where he was, but his brothers we're gone and he was all alone.

Thank you so much it's awesome.

A short comics inspired by/based on GOING TO THE BAR by @anakinandthecaptainrex

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