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I now understand love isn't real
Just going to dump my thought here for this evening..... I'm still in my feelings a little bit. I don't believe the old saying "time heals all wounds" because I am a walking testimony that I can be having a fully busy and good day when something will trigger me and I get bombarded by horrible thoughts of what so and so did to me back in yesteryear. And I can honestly say that it will bother me for hours or even days after. And I spend all that time trying to figure out why people act the way they do to someone who was so good to him/her. It will then set off a chain of events where I then start feeling hateful towards everything and everyone, including the earth itself and wishing the end of the world would just come already so this torture could end. So I guess with that being said, NO "time does Not heal all wounds" and it for damn sure doesn't help when you keep meeting new people who keep proving your case to be correct. And they all fail you time and time again. The level of selfishness and self serving lunatics on this dieing planet that take up a great percentage of the world population is and has become outstanding. People have really started allowing their demons to show through and they have no remorse or care in the world. Not to say that I'm surprised at this point because I'm not, it's only showing me that I'd be correct by saying I can't do the same kind things for people that I found to be easy to do before, and I can't be the sweet person I used to be. I feel like I'm being forced to change in order to protect myself, my sanity, my well being, my state of mind, my aura. Instead of people controlling their nasty evil conniving characteristics and become humane and nicer, us nice empathetic people have to shut down, and change how we normally behave just to keep the toxic people away. It's insane and Ludacris. Overall morale to this is "there is no use in even trying anymore. Not with "L**e" and not with people.
Yesterday was his birthday 🎂 and it was the 1st one in a decade I had not reached out to him to say "happy birthday my dude!" ...... 🤐😔 It felt so weird not talking to him on his birthday, giving him a shout out on my Instagram account like I always have. I seen he made some "story posts" even posted a pic of himself, asking people to send him birthday money if they cared enough. 🙄😒 I looked at his picture for a few seconds, then felt the anger brewing inside of me from our very last encounter last month, then quickly exited out. And I can honestly say that is one GREAT SIGN I'm getting over someone and the hopeless romantic side of me is dead and gone for them...... If I can look at you and get angry and know my pupils morphed into dagger 🗡️ shapes, then yeah it's for certain I am over you and "L***" don't live here anymore. One can easily say I shouldn't have/feel regret, take it as a severe lesson learned. I learned more about the male psyche/mind/inner brain workings. Yet and still on the other side of that same coin, how can one person NOT FEEL REGRET AND ANGER FOR HAVING ALL THEIR TIME WASTED, BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF, 9 YEARS OF A PERSON MIND FUCKING THEM INTO OBLIVION? HOW CAN YOU NOT GET ANGRY AND FEEL REGRET FOR KNOWING THAT FOR 9 YEARS THE VERY PERSON YOU WAS THERE FOR AND LOVED SO HARD, WHO KEPT SAYING TO YOUR FACE "MOST GUYS WOULD HAVE BEEN QUICK TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU, BECAUSE IT WOULD BE SO EASY TO, BUT IM GLAD IM NOT ONE OF THOSE GUYS..." SAY THAT B. S. WITH SUCH A STRAIGHT FACE YET BE THE VERY ASSHOLE WHO'S TAKING ADVANTAGE OF YOU?! HE MIGHT NOT HAVE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF MY BODY, BUT HE TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY FINANCE, MY LOVE, THE PRIVILEGES HE GOT, MY EMOTIONS. DID HE HONESTLY NOT THINK THOSE THINGS COUNTED TO AS EASY TO TAKE FOR GRANTED, AS EASY TO MISUSE? 😔😭😤
I really hate EARTH REALM(yes that's a mortal Kombat term😊💯) I really hate the toxic evil people that dwell within Earth Realm. And between him and everyone else that has come and gone out of my life who took advantage of me and my love, I hate them all, but for now all I can do is sit back and let the most high God deal with all of them justly. No need for me to be petty and seek revenge. The most high God don't like ugly and doesn't want arrogant pompous pricks in his heavenly kingdom. So he will sort out the evil pricks and do away with them. Karma is very much real! And he will one day feel it if he hasn't already. 💯
This writer is fantastic, within just a few short words you can feel everything, though the guy I was in love with is a Virgo, this poem still doesn't take away from the simple blatant fact that it's very much relevant, and he did make a fool out of me and it hit home for me. 😔💯
Taurus
It’ll look cool
If no one could see
But you removed your red cape
And made a fool out of me
it’s the way i found a fic i’m obsessed with but it hasn’t been updated in over two years
a lesson on style - v
part i, ii, iii, iv, v
you’ve always been content with being associated with one word and one word only:average. average in looks, academics and social skills, you’re just looking to graduate high school without causing disasters you’ll have to live with until you kick the bucket. when you’re paired with school king park chanyeol for the semseter-long physics thesis, you can’t help but think the entire situation has pretty much set itself up for failure. That is, until you strike a deal with your partner. An AU tale involving lessons in popularity, eleven consecutive B minuses, a secretly sensitive, chess-loving jock, and an amateur sex tape.
Pairing: chanyeol x reader, baekhyun x reader Verse: high school au { jock!chanbaek ft. a super cute whiny ap physics genius jongdae } Rating: M Warnings: none Word count: 10.9k
a/n; as promised, here’s alos 5! it’s unproofread/beta’d so sorry for any mistakes; i’ll probably fix them when i wake up tomorrow. make sure to follow me on @lucyandthepen on twitter for updates! also, let me know about this chapter; personally, i think of it as some kind of turning point, and i’m curious to know what you guys think!
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