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uuuugh homework

2023.09.24| Sunday

frankly twas a shit of a day ngl. the day itself was good, i'm just snarky that i didn't do merely enough than i wanted to. // i did find a better way to crop ypt, though it doesn't add the review and closing, which is sad. i'll fiddle with it a bit more b4 i decide for good. // i honestly thought my sherlock obsession was closing as i shifted over to house m.d... until i found out that house is in fact inspired by sherlock. i really should have seen that one coming. // oh and 2023 replay update; unknown/nth is still sitting at #1 as it rightfully should, and david melrose theme has already made it to #3 with 636 plays

Struggles of having a workspace in a garage

And living in the dang desert ok.ok

So i just found a baby snake under my sisters bed,while i was putting on compfy shorts mind you , and it slithered under the bed and i moved everything under there and couldn't find in THEN i was drawing in the garage since thats where my drawing tablet is and im like huh my hair is ticking my arm lemme just move tha- this big as my thumb mother flippen cockroach is on my arm and i touch it since my brain hasnt processed any of this and im like

FANTASTIC TIME TO BURN MY ARM LOOKS LIKE IM DRAWING LEFT HANDED NOW

Ok, this is not a usual (and by usual I mean the rare post that generally shares a similar topic) type of post that I do. I usually post fandom content because, hey, that’s what I enjoy, but this isn’t that. I want to clarify something.

A lot of the time people say learning is a privilege, and yes, it is. Having the access to the knowledge, getting the chance to get the information is a privilege, yes. But the school system in a lot of countries is not. Waking up in the morning wanting to curl up in a ball under your blanket and cry is not a privilege.

The education system in many countries is seriously flawed to the point where the people who have to endure it (read as ‘the kids who have to go to school day in and day out’) are hurting themselves. They are being hurt, myself included, and this is not an issue that should be taken lightly. Many people are making this point, people who shouldn’t have too, but it a serious issue that needs to be dealt with.

The people in charge of the education system need to do something. If each new generation gets up everyday knowing that today is going to suck, that it is going to hurt, what’s the bloody point?

Wake up.

We are telling you over and over again that something needs to be done. This post is one of many that is most likely going to be ignored; that is going to be breezed over with the usual terrible excuses, but I am going to make it anyway.

School shouldn’t make you want to hurt yourself. It shouldn’t push you to the point of tears. But it does anyway, and that in itself shows that something is deeply wrong. If we keep being ignored things are just going to get worse and that sucks, but maybe if enough of us shout at them then they’ll have to do something. They shouldn’t need to be forced into doing it, but who cares about people mental health when money is being made, right?

Sorry, that was long, but I am sick and tired of being told that going to school is an honour. I know learning in itself is good, and I love it. I love reading and I love the information, but they way they force it on me makes me want to be sick, and I know I’m not the only one. We all come out with a scar or two, sometimes more, and that is so horribly wrong that I can barely put it into words.

This was a long post, I know, but thank you if you bothered to read it. This is unbelievably important to me, and we shouldn’t be going into the future with this shit system, it shouldn’t be forced onto the future generations.

Thank you again, hopefully we’ll get back to my usual fandom-based, very irregularly posted content. Also, sorry if the grammar sucks, I’m unbelievably tired and jet lagged.

A "thank gnome it's friday" gif just crashed Tumblr on my phone. I wish I was joking.

no no I did not just see Slenderman twerking on TikTok WTFFFFF!?!?? It's so Joever 😭

so i have COVID, and my mother came into my room today and said, “i see a little more life in your eyes today” so now i’m trying to kill that life so she doesn’t make me do stuff

Had no idea that TIME Person of the Year was a popularity contest.... Coz no way Taylor Swift deserves that with all that's going on and all that's happened this year

Bioshock 2 is going to kill me with its bugs.

You know, I get to Outer Persephone, see Eleanor, and fight off the two big sisters, no problem. But it crashes often. So I say, hey, its a good time to save, right?

*Presses Escape*

*Game somehow goes to Main Menu instead of Pause Menu*

*RAGE*

And it didn't save, of course. So now I get to fight them all over again.

Honestly, if its not crashing, its won't save. If its not saving, its going to the Main Menu when it shouldn't. If its not doing that, then its corrupting my saves. 

I am so DONE with this game. BUT I WILL FINISH THE DAMN THING.

kevin fiege: *exits his house*

every quicksilver fan when seeing him:

Kim seokjin???!

“ DoNt StOoP tO tHeIr LeVel”

mehmehmhe stfu. next time i see someone who isn’t neurodivergent making fun of stim boards im making fun of anything they’ve ever enjoyed. who’s chronically online now, huh? ya lil piss baby. what are you gonna do, cry about it?

Being fetishized is making me feel terrible.

Texting with another dude, he is 27 and got my snap from my former roommate

1. He doesn't respect that I am a man. Like, a dude. A guy. Yes I am trans, and? I am a trans man.

But he said he always wanted to fuck a *insert slur for trans people in german*

And

2. He was like so gross and wanted me and my former roommate to make out and fuck because he is into 2 girls fucking.

I am literally not a girl and I do not wanna fuck her, thank you very much.

Ufff. Why???

Tw: mention of sh

How is it possible that I am always the second choice?

How? I made one new friend, one, on this whole fucking camp and my best friend, who has made friends with almost everyone here, is now his first choice?

I tried so hard, I got so far, I even fu king made a friend and now that he spends 2 hours with my best friend and me together, he choose him.

I know I'm not enough, but, I thought I could spend some more time with him before he left too.

Why doesn't anyone stay? Am I really this bad of a person? Am I really that unlovable? I just wanted a friend.

Now I have noone, noone, and he has everyone again. Why am I always looking everything to him?

I don't want to relapse again. I don't want to, really. I should be happy for them, but I just can't be. It's do hard not to cut.

All I can think about is the relive that comes when I see the blood pour out and the pain in my body overwriting the pain in my mind.

I just want to cut, just a tiny bit, just enough to pull myself together again. Please? Just to feel something else. Just to forget.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, I need to, please help, fuck, please?

I can't do this anymore. I just want a little comfort, just something to ground me, please?

bro can these fucking porn bots stop following me i swear ive blocked 20 this month

I just got mouthwash in my eye.

I'm this close to fucking losing it

tuna fish can.

turns out im dyslexic when it comes to reading and understanding hindi

Get so far to fuck my year is ruined

can't have shit in minnesota.