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grieving, grieving, constantly grieving.
Silrah + 28
#28: ...as a lie. (I'm also counting this as desperately [#10)] in grief [#12]; because they're running out of time [#38]; requests from @veritaserum07 @lustrouswhite and anonymous)
"Is Ben close?"
Saul's hands trembled against the wound, pale spiders of flesh against webs of blood. Farah clung tighter to his wrist: hot, sticky, wet.
His face was ashen, lips merely ghosts of former red; his eyelids flickered in the moments between the grimaces of pain and the upward supplication into her eyes. When his eyes did land on hers, she could see the effort it took to focus on her.
But worst of all, to her, was the tide leaving him. His emotions had shifted from panic and fear to tightened anguish, the heights draining away into nothing.
He couldn't be numb. He couldn't be nothing. He couldn't... not be.
She tightened her grip on his wrist as if it would control her own emotions, the spikes of helplessness, the flares of desperation, and the endlessly spiralling despair clawing its way up her abdomen.
"Just hold on, Saul, he's almost here."
Saul's jaw went slack although his lips separated, like he was going to say something else, but then another spasm wracked his body and his expression contorted. He stamped both hands harder against his stomach.
When he spoke again, Farah heard his rattling exhale echo in her own chest. "Is he here now?"
The decision was easy. The decision that they had danced around for twenty years because it was too difficult: the blood made it easy. The pain. The chilly wind that whipped over the hill deserted but for the two of them.
She leaned down and pressed her lips to his cool ones. His eyes again flickered open, struggling to take in Farah's face inches from his own, and his mouth opened further in a gasp and invitation all in one.
"Farah?"
"Yes, Saul." Her voice was miraculously steady although the earth was falling beneath her, tilting on its axis, vanishing with her soul. "You can let go. He's here now."
Farah, talking to little Sky: You don't fight with these.
Farah: [raises fists]
Farah: You fight with this.
Farah: [taps her forehead]
[a few days later]
Saul: Farah, would you care to explain why Sky has been headbutting other kids saying you taught him that?
Utterly convinced Farah was watching Saul from the window, and you can’t convince me otherwise.
Farah/Saul (Silrah) 1x02 / 1x03
for the ask game! Fate —> Farah Dowling —> Family & Nightmares :)) excited to see this lol
Oh fun! Thank you! Family first, then nightmares:
Farah doesn’t speak to her family often, but she does love them. (And contrary to popular belief amongst her students, she does have a family.) She has two pain-in-the-arse sisters and has spent 16+ years trying to fix the damage that was done to their relationships thanks to Rosalind’s meddling. Rosalind had tried to teach her that family were a distraction, a liability, a weakness, and for a while, Farah had believed it. By the time she realised it was wrong, she was willing to keep the distance between them in order to keep her family safe.
She’s not been alone, though. Far from it. Saul, Ben, Rose and - for a while - Andreas became her family. Even when she hadn’t wanted them to. How could she push them away, though, when she was partnered with Saul, suitemates with Rose, and on the same team with adorably sweet Ben. (Andreas could be charming, too, but she’d always been a little wary of him. He was charming but cocky with it, whereas Saul was more endearingly oblivious to his appeal.)
When the kids came along, first Sam and then Sky, then Terra, she found herself being drawn into the new family they made. She was wary of Sam and Sky at first, having never been around baby boys, but they both worked their way into her affections despite her best efforts. When Terra was born, though, she reminded Farah of her youngest sister, and brought back bittersweet memories. After Rose died, she helped Ben look after his two, then stepped up to help Saul with Sky when the little boy was orphaned.
Her family, both biological and adopted, feature heavily in her nightmares. She worries she won’t be able to protect them from the danger she senses is coming, worries that if there’s another war she’ll lose more people she cares about.
She has nightmares about Rosalind coming back, about her wanting revenge for what Farah did. She knows her former mentor will want to see her suffer and has spent 16 years honing her powers so she’ll be able to defend her loved ones and herself from the woman she once aspired to be.
Sometimes, she has nightmares that, in trying to be strong enough to take on Rosalind, she turns into her instead. She dreams about the satisfied, smug, almost proud smirk on Rosalind’s face as she’s praised for becoming the weapon, the monster, Rosalind always wanted her to be.
After, when the dust settles again, she dreams about dirt and being unable to breathe. She dreams about trying to claw her way to freedom, her magic failing her, the smell and weight and feel of the soil pressing down on her.
On those nights, she’s gently shaken awake, cocooned by familiar arms and familiar feelings, and remembers it’s ok, she can finally breathe again.
Farah/Saul + personal space
Our General Fate Discord chat has evolved into "Dowling Army Suprmacy" 😂
I love this chat and it's a community I am very proud to be a part of!
Sorry to those waiting on the next part of the Twist of Fate story I’m writing for the Winx saga, or for the virtual season eight with Sam&Jack for SG1.
My health has taken a dip, which is having an impact on my mental/emotional health and that’s making writing or reading virtually impossible at the moment. Vicious circle, really, because I never feel right when I’m not reading & writing.
Anyhow. That’s just a little update from the world of me.
Now back to your regularly scheduled fandom squee.
The key is mutual trust. You must trust your Specialist to hold it back while you channel controlled magic, and you must trust your Fairy to get the job done.
silrah camera roll peek
This is what their phones look like and you cannot convince me otherwise.
A little glimpse into Farah's camera roll
A little glimpse into Saul's camera roll
"maybe you'll feel it, too" -best friends to lovers prompts
a prompt list by @novelbear ᵔᴥᵔ
lingering hugs and stares
"you know i'm always going to be there for you, right? always."
compliments that are borderline (sometimes just blatant) flirting but they cover it up as just being a really supportive friend
^ "you sure this looks fine?" "trust me, you look fine as hell..."
being overly protective of the other (especially when it comes to relationships)
showing displays of affection that might seem questionable to others around them (ex. kissing each other on the cheek/ hands)
hand placement when hugging or guiding them also being a little more on the questionable side
"i'm always thinking about you."
being unable to tear their eyes off of them, especially when watching them excel at something they're best at
sharing clothes
"why are you looking at me like that?"
unconsciously including them in conversation when they're not even around
"there's no one else that makes me laugh the way you do."
noticing them blushing coincidentally after making a comment. but they can't be blushing because of what they said. they wouldn't. would they? no, of course not...right?
holding hands and neither of them knowing when (or wanting to) let go
when that realization hits that they really wouldn't rather spend their time with anyone else the way they do with their "best friend"
rambling on and on and on and wait are they looking at my eyes or my lips?
"if we were dating i'd take you to all the best places.." "what's stopping you?" "excuse me."
"can i kiss you?" "you have no idea how long i've waited to hear you ask that."
the relief that washes over both of them when the feelings are finally out there
"why didn't you tell me?" "the same reason you didn't tell me. i didn't want to lose you."
Silrah and their lake house
Because I cannot stop thinking about Farah and Saul owning a little lake house in the mountains far away from Alfea just for the two of them.
