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And at the end,
I was only left to stare at the girl with tear-stained cheeks,
Every night, who silently weeps.
They said
It hurts that it's so hard to decide whether to let go or be patient with them.
But Mirza Ghalib said,
Udney de inn parindon ko azaad fiza mein ghalib,
Jo tere apne honge vo laut aayenge kisi roz.
Aitbaar nahin, ehtiyaat kijiye. Duniya badi zaalim h meri jaan, yeh kisi ko nhi bakshti.
Sometimes i really hate myself for being too innocent and going around trusting everyone like a frickin idiot
Like, koi goli maardo mujhe!!!
Is it really so easy to just let go of everything, to just say that, I can't take all this anymore, I'm leaving! bye, take care ??!
It's been a long time since i felt insecure about my own self but i guess life has put me back to that place again because i hadn't learnt my lesson and went on with my vibe. So jokes on me!
I would have lost faith in love and generosity a long time ago if it wasn't for myself. I believe in love and will continue to stick to it because of the generosity i offer!! Nobody can take that away from me. But yeah, I'm learning to create boundaries now, healthy boundaries, I deserve people who would believe me, not just for my words, but for how i care, how I'm actually there when they need me. Now, nobody gets to mess with my mental peace. I'm not going to let anyone walk over me like that again.
May Allah SWT help you through the thick and thin and bless you with tons of happiness and prosperity! 💗
Nibhaane wale majbooriyon mein bhi nibha lete hain aour jinhe nahi nibhana hota wo majbooriyan bana kar bhaag jaate hain
That hurts like hell!!
You came into my life, made me feel so special, I begin to like myself more in their presence and suddenly, it all starts to fade away...you vanished into thin air and i was just left there with memories and questions.
If you wanted to go then why did you come in the first place? Did you really feel nothing..was it all nothing for you..that you soo easily distanced yourself like i become a monster of some sort?? You pushed me down to the level where i began to question my own self-worth. I considered myself a failure, a person unable to keep others happy because my love wasn't enough to make you stay. You're happy with your life, hope you're, it took me some time but I'm learning to love myself again, without you this time.
The hardest feeling is when someone comes into your life, gives you love, makes you happy, and then suddenly starts ghosting you without saying bye. You were happy when she was with you , but then out of sudden they leave without explanation. It's been more than 4 months and you're still questioning yourself.
" What did you do to make them leave?" , "Why did they leave you? " These questions always stay with you.
کچھی عمر کے زخم, ہمیشا سب پکے دے جاتے ہیں۔
Ye Kacchi umar ke zakham, humesha sabak pakke de jaate hain
The Shine in You
Sometimes, you cannot choose whether to be tough or delicate
There are times you naturally want to be both
Tough enough to be delicate to them
Your loved ones
When they hurt you
Because you love them
And hurting them is never a choice for you
You are brave
It is amazing how life molded you into such a beautiful soul with exqusite love
Even in the darkness, your heart will shine to guide you home to you castle
Where your throne of love is at
Along with your crown of pink roses
You will never go too far into the darkness
The darkness cannot conquer you
For the shine in you is greater than the darkness itself
Literature lets you stare at people. I started to see the little details of a person's physical features when they go through various emotions. It's exceptionally beautiful to see someone talk about their passion, it looks like they are in some different realm, the way their eyes twinkle and the smile that reaches their eyes. It makes me realise how little these things seem but matter so much.
I just realised how when we talk about something or someone we love our voice shifts from that echoing sound to more warmth one. How corner of eyes soften . How our eyes smile . And how we just find our surroundings more beautiful. I mean if it isn't the most miraculous thing in ur world i don't know what else will be.
My words are lost, a deafening silence prevail.
It's loud inside my head but I'm speechless.
I feel it in my heart, yet i fail to describe
I don't know who needs to hear this but here~
And there are days when, I wish, I was not so understanding after all.
Vekh yaara meriyaan gallan
Rabb naal vi teriyaan gallan
Subah, shaam..har pehar
Iss dil ko ab bas tumhari fiqre hai khaaye.
Last night, I was reading our old conversations and everything seemed so normal. We were laughing and smiling, we were happy. For the moment, I let myself dream of the possibility where we are still together but then I woke up and reality hit me with full force.
It's actually scary how someone walks into your life, makes you feel all types of ways and then, one morning, nothing is the same anymore. And all you're left with is a heart, full of memories, and empty of emotions.
You called me your home,
And I forgot to realise that home is often left behind~
Made people my home , now I stand homeless....
They all say that it gets better,
It gets better the more you grow
They all say that it gets better, it gets better
but what if i don't?
Can i ever be content with what I've? How can i stop questioning the things? Can i stop overthinking and overanalyzing other's behaviour with me? Why do I always think it's about me or because of me? Why am I so self-conscious?