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Sometimes When Things Got Too Loud And Too Much, When The Pit In Tanks Chest Got Too Heavy And Too Deep
Sometimes when things got too loud and too much, when the pit in Tanks chest got too heavy and too deep and it felt like it was eating everything up in them. They’d got to Christian, sometimes they’d climb in through his window, sometimes they’d come knocking at his door, sometimes they’d just shoot him a text.
They always went to him though, always go searching for him when they felt the most lost and floating away. When they needed something to tether them back down.
In the beginning, Christian had little to no idea what to do with Tank in that state—hell he didn’t even know what to do with himself most days so there was definitely a learning curve. He never gave up though, he kept helping them get back to themselves.
He knew everyone of Tanks cues and ticks when it came to a fight, when it came to getting under their skin and poking that raging fire that could turn into a warm hearth. Learning their tells for this was a bit harder, they were better at hiding it then the bristling anger.
Tank needed softer hands, softer than what he was used to, needed someone to gently hold them together as they were floating away as their eyes searched for something neither of them knew what for.
Christian knew Tank was small, smaller than Milo especially when they are younger. Tank never cared about their height, even when he would pick on them for it they’d just kick his ass and make him eat concrete. A small smirk on their lips, now though?
It felt like Tank was too small, the way they curled up in his arms, the way he was able to fully cover them like this as they hid from everything in his embrace. Tank was no piece of glass, Christian knew from years of experience and seeing and hearing exactly what they could take to know. But god, it felt like they could shatter at any moment.
All Christian could do was hold them as tightly as he could without hurting them and hide them away from the cruel and harsh world they both knew. Just hold them and gently guide them back to him, soft words falling from his lips and he leaned his head against Tanks. Combing his fingers through their hair, a trick he picked up early when it first started to happen. See how they’d slowly open their eyes and see that dark haze slowly life from those deep eyes.
Watch his Tanker come back to him, they alway did.
“ welcome back Tankie “
“ mm..hi Chrissy… “
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Angel
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Seer Obscura
Cutie
Bestie
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Sweetheart
Lovely
Sunshine
Yandere Ivan's Baby
Smartass
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Warden
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Baabe
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