burned0utstar

Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

173 posts

I Miss Him. So Much.

I miss him. So much.

It feels like I will never see him again. It feels like I can never hold him again. It feels like it's all over and lost.

I can't, I don't want to keep going like this.

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

"mental health matters!" until your screaming and crying in the early hours of the morning over losing something as miniscule as your phone charger. but the reason your crying isn't actually about the charger, or your favorite pen you can't find.

little things add up.

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calling me out like that is rude also why don't people in my life get that it's not about the stupid little thing that happend it's just everything

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

When the significantly older guy in my dms gives me more attention and reassurance than my boyfriend??

Like, he just asked how I am and called me pretty, the bar is not that high😭

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mental health vent blog depressing shit relationship boyfriend

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

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mental health vent blog depressing shit vent post relationship boyfriend i wanna relapse so bad actually bpd bpd favorite person bpd vent bpd thoughts bpd borderline problems actually borderline borderline blog borderline personality disorder borderline sorry

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

I wish I could make you realize how much you actually mean to me.

I wish I could tell you I love you.

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mental health vent blog depressing shit vent post relationship boyfriend i wanna relapse so bad actually bpd borderline fp bpd fp bpd favorite person bpd vent bpd thoughts actually borderline borderline blog HIM !!!! I LOVE HIM communication communication problems

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burned0utstar

9 months ago

im trying to be good for you. i swear i am. everything that i do to myself is to please you. i eat for you, i dress up for you, i try to feel pretty for you. im trying to get better for you because you deserve someone that is not self destructive and obsessive and paranoid. im sorry. im trying. im trying.

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Way too relatable and so true!

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