Today In Review

Today in Review

Me: I have a lot of work to get done today, and people are depending on me. Oh shoot, I have two appointments that will interrupt my day too. I should probably get started.

Brain: Maybe you should panic and do nothing for four hours instead.

Me: ... well, no, if I plan and start n....

Brain: PANIC AND DO NOTHING FOR FOUR HOURS!!!

Once, he threw a glass in the sink that I was washing dishes in. It shattered of course.

My skin was super soft from being in the water, so I got cut as I pulled up the stopper to drain the sink and clean up the glass.

He told me that if I didn't like it then I should stop pissing him off.

My parents moved closer to my old neighbourhood. I often have to drive by to visit them.

I still get chills and that heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach when i think that I might see him. Or worse, that he might see me.

Ghosts

Driving in our his neighbourhood this evening. That tightness in my chest returned.  I held my breath when I drove past our his road.  

The neighbourhood is haunted.  Cursed.

He used the fact that i let him have sex with me every night as evidence that I had a sex addiction.

"Normal couples only do it a couple time a week..."

Do you know what would happen if I didn't have sex when he wanted it? I bet you can guess!

My safety net was there and I had help and support.  That’s why I am safe now.

Some survivors are not so lucky.  Please help this person if you can.

May 8, 2021 (CW for abuse)

This is still my situation at home, with my partner.

For those who don’t know me, I’m Miriam. I’m 22. I’m a mostly-closeted trans woman in an abusive relationship. I’m trying to scrape together some funds to safely leave. A friend started a PayPal pool for me at the beginning of the year and I made this blog. Since then I’ve made some preparations, talked to a counselor, and I may have a temporary place to stay if I’m able to leave.

So, I could still use more help. Lack of money and a social safety net around me are what’s holding me back the most now. My car, despite my best efforts, is on its deathbed. At this point it would cost about as much to fix it as it’d be to scrap it and just buy another one. I still have medical bills piled up. I’d like to save up for staying somewhere more permanently someday. I’d still like to start taking steps to transition once I’m in a better place. I’d like to feel safe.

I’ll leave a link to the PayPal pool. Anything helps, including reblogs. You can donate anonymously and without having a PayPal account.

paypal.me

Miriam's escape fund

(Updated 8/5/21) Hi, I’m Miriam and I’m a trans woman trying to safely remove myself from a physically abusive relationship. I would appreci

Tagging some blogs in hopes for this to gain some traction, but no pressure. Thank you all. ❤️

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Making yourself unavailable makes people forget about you.

who else had a sad transition from “I must hide everything about me and keep my walls up and show no weakness” to “oh nobody cares to know me anymore”