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An Actress Life - Chapter 14

warnings: drunk!reader, mad!jensen, fighting, embarrassment, talk about rape

word count: 1,675 words

A/N: sorry, that I changed the POV completely; but my 16-year-old self thought, that was a good idea to change it in the middle of a story sksksks sorry! 

"I'm sorry, that I believed you would just care about sex right now." She says quietly, feeling extremely guilty for actually believing that Jensen, the Jensen she loves so much, would only think about sex in this kind of situation. "It kinda sounded that way...and I'm really sorry it did." He says quietly, he loves you more than anything, he would never want that you feel pressured by him, the man you love so much. "I don't want to keep fighting with you." She mumbles into his chest, holding tightly onto him. 

"Me neither. I just...I just want you to be alright and what's best for you." He says softly, hugging her closer. "I know, that's why I feel so selfish sometimes." She says with a deep sigh, she feels like it's always about her, he's thinking way too much about her feelings. "No chick flick moments, Dean would say." She adds a moment later to brighten the mood. When she hears him chuckle, she feels her heart skip a beat. "He definitely would." He says playfully before kissing her head gently. 

They hold onto each other enjoying the moment. Jensen looks around the kitchen noticing it's almost 5:23 PM. "We should get ready." He whispers softly into Y/N's ear. She looks up at him with a small pout, causing him to smile lovingly at her. She looks at the clock, knowing he's right. She sighs softly and nods pulling away, "You're right, we should get ready." 

The two of them walk upstairs and separate their ways. Jensen's gets a shower, while Y/N gets dressed into something that aren't joggers and a top. She grabs a comfy jeans and a hoodie her mom gave her, before she flew to Vancouver to sign the papers for her role in Supernatural. Jensen walks into the bedroom a moment later and she can't help, but check him out. She notices how low the towel is wrapped around his hips, his toned abs, his perfectly shaped bow legs, are running through her mind. As much as she doesn't like thinking about sex right now, she can't help, but stare at the beautiful Jensen Ackles. "You okay?" Jensen's voice interrupts her thoughts, she just had about him. She blinks and looks at him, nodding, not really trusting her own words. 

He nods and gives you a small smile as he grabs a pair of boxers, a jeans and a flannel. He takes his clothes on, before applying some cologne. "You ready?" He asks her softly and she nods getting off the bed. They walks downstairs into the hallway to take their shoes on. When they're about to leave Y/N remembers the beer in the fridge. 

"Wait, the beer." She heads into the kitchen and takes the beer out of the fridge. "I almost forgot about that." He says with a small laugh. 

"Good, that I remembered." She says, smiling at him. Jensen walks out of the house after her and closes the door, making sure it's locked, before they walk to Jared's house. He takes her hand in his as he carries the beer with the other hand. 

A few minutes later, Y/N rings the doorbell and smiles lovingly, when she sees Gen with baby Shep in her arms. He sleeps peacefully, sucking onto his pacifier. "Hey." Y/N whispers softly and hugs Gen's side, kissing Shep's head gently. "Hey." She whispers back and smiles at them, before leading them inside. 

Jensen and Y/N walk into the backyard, where Jared, Misha, Mark and some other friends of the crew already are. Jared gets of his chair almost immediately up, when he sees them. "Hey." He says softly and pulls Y/N into a tight hug as Jensen greets the others first. 

"I'm so sorry." He whispers and kisses her head gently. She gives him a weak smile, nodding before she pulls away. Misha suddenly comes to her and pulls her into a hug, without saying a word, what she totally prefers in that moment. "Who's hungry?" Jared asks with a huge smile. Jared loves throwing barbecue parties. Jared loves, when the whole crew and cast gets together. "Me, I'm starving." She says with a small laugh, before Jared and Jensen walk to the grill. 

Y/N and Misha sit down and start catching up on each other. Thankfully,  Misha doesn't bring up the thing from the day before. 

''Dude, I don't know what to do.'' Jensen tells Jared, rubbing his chin. He looks up from the grill and looks at Jensen. "I'm so sorry, when Gen told me what happened, i didn't really know what to do. I just don't get, how men do that to women ?" Jared says with a small sigh. "I don't understand either." Jensen says with a small sigh and Jared gives him a sympathetic smile, patting his back. "Everything will be fine, just give her some time." Jensen nods with a small smile, before looking at Y/N and watching her laugh about something Misha said, thanks Misha. 

"But Jar." "Yeah?" Jared says and looks up from the grill to look at Jensen. "Since a week or so,  I have been thinking about...about proposing to Y/N and-." "You what?" Gen interrupts quietly, standing behind them. 

Jensen turns around and sees a huge smile on her face, then he looks back to Jared, who also smiles. "Nice to hear that, but isn't that a bit too fast?" Jared asks gently, just wanting his friends to be safe and happy. "Maybe, but I don't want to wait anymore. I love her, man. I want her to be my wife, like now. I want to make her happy and spend the rest of my life with her." He tells his friends. Gen and Jared look at each other, before smiling at Jensen. "Do you have a specific plan?" She asks curiously, since she thinks her best friend deserves the most beautiful proposal. 

"I thought about traveling through Europe and then in Venice or Amsterdam or Rome I want to purpose to her." He rambles a bit, excitement rushing through him. "Oh my God, you are so romantic." Gen says and hits his shoulder playfully. "But don't forget about JIBCON." Jared says with a laugh. "I never could." "I will help you with your plan." Gen says happily and excitedly. Jensen nods and smiles thankfully at her. 

"This will be amazing, when my best friends are finally getting married." He says happily. "I hope she's gonna say yes." "She will." He assures Jensen. 

"Who will what?" Y/N asks curiously. "Uh- My mom will be happy to see you again." He stutters nervously. "I will be happy too." She says with a smile, even tho she notices his nervousness. "Jensen, can I talk to you for a minute?" Jared asks. "Sure." He says and they walk into Jared's office.

That was weird, he's hiding something, Y/N tells herself. She looks around and notices all the alcohol, wanting to drown herself in it. She grabs herself a drink, a heavy one. To be honest, Y/N isn't much of a drinker, but right now she just wants to get drunk and forget about what happened. 

She sits down between Jared and Misha, while Jensen and Gen sit across from them. They eat and talk, have some laughs, but the drinks for Y/N kept coming. Jensen feels angry with her, if he's being honest, not understanding why she's drinking so much.

 "Y/N, maybe you should stop." Jensen says gently and is about to take the drink out of her hands, but she grips it tighter, turning away from him. "No, I-I don't think so." She slurs and finishes the drink in one go. Jared and Gen look worriedly at each other, before looking at Y/N again. 

She refills her glass with whiskey one more time and Jensen grows angrier. Gen walks over to her. "Honey, I don't know how you're feeling, but-". "Yes, you're right you don't know how I'm feeling." She snaps at her and cuts her off, sipping her drink. Jared and Jensen come over to the two. 

She refills it again and finishes it fast. "You'll definitely got enough." Jared says and takes her glass. She pouts in protest, slurring something they can't figure out. "Jensen, please just take her home, I-We don't want to fight with her. I mean she's completely drunk." Gen says soft, not really being mad at Y/N. "I'm so sorry, guys." Jensen says rubbing his face in embarrassment. "Y/N we go. Now!" He tells her firmly and grabs her wrist before  dragging her through the front door.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He yells at her, but she just laughs at him. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" She mocks him laughing, she really can't take him seriously at all. He walks in front of her and turns around. "I don't know what is going on inside your head, but you never drink your problems away, y/n/n." She just laughs. 

"It's senseless, you take nothing serious right now." He says with a sigh, rubbing his face. A few minutes later he opens the door, leading the two of them inside.  She looks at her phone, it's 5 minutes after midnight.

"Happy birthday Baby." She slurs and starts kissing him messily. Jensen feels a bit uncomfortable as hs pushes you away gently. "Thank you, but you're drunk. You will regret this next morning." He tells her softly. "I don't care." She slurs and starts kissing him harshly. 

"Y/N we can't do this." He swallows hard. "Of course we can, it's your birthday." She kisses his neck sloppily. "Enough, y/n!" He exclaims and pushes her gently away. "Just get some sleep." He says quietly. "When it's that what you want." She slurs and he sighs. She walks into living room and plops down on the couch, falling asleep almost immediately.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 12

Chapter 12

warnings: language, rape

word count: 1,568 words

I pat his shoulder. "Thank you." He says with a huge smile. I walk to y/n, when I notice her annoying and disgusting ex-boyfriend. He talks to her and I can tell, she's definitely uncomfortable, so I walk towards them and wrap my arm around Y/N's waist. 

"Is everything alright?" I ask her softly, caressing her waist gently. "Yes." Matt answers.

"I didn't ask you." I told him firmly, looking disgustedly at him. She looks me in the eyes, giving me a small smile. "Jens, everything is fine." She says softly before taking my hand and leading us to our seats and table. I let go of her hand halfway before walking back towards Matt, looking him in the eyes. "If you ever harass or touch her again, I'm gonna hurt you." I tell him angrily. 

"Try that." He says with a provocative smile and I took a deep breath, so I wouldn't cause a scene. 

I grab another drink, some food and go back to our table, where y/n/n is eagerly waiting for me. "What did you say to him?" She asks with a small sigh, rubbing her temple. "Nothing special, why are you asking?"I tell her innocently, casually sipping my drink.  "Well, I don't want my boyfriend and ex-boyfriend cause a scene." She says with a sigh.

"What did he want from you?" I ask curiously. 

"He said, that he misses me and that he's sorry about what happened and bla bla." She says annoyed and rolls her eyes. "What happened?" "He cheated on me." She says putting some food in her mouth. I clench my hand tightly around my drink, sighing heavily. "What an asshole." I breathe out. 

"I told him, that I'm the happiest woman on earth with you by my side." She says happily, kissing my cheek. "And I'm the happiest man because of you." I say, cupping her face and lean in to kiss her softly. We both smile into the kiss, before I get too carried away, I pull away and rest my forehead against hers. "I love you." I tell her softly. "I love you too, Jensen." I give her a loving smile and kiss her forehead, before completely pulling away. I take her hand in mine, giving it a gentle squeeze.

4 hours later...

-omniscient POV-

Jensen had a lot of drinks and is really drunk.

He tells the people many funny stories and how much he loves y/n. Y/n talks to Ed's best friend. 

"I think I have to pee." She says laughing and goes to the toilet. Matt just waited for a moment like this to follow her. He's been watching her the whole night, waiting to catch her alone. He follows her and grips her wrist tightly.

She frowns slightly and feels her heart hammer as someone grips her wrist tightly, almost painfully. She looks up and her eyes widen, when she see it's Matt. "Let me go." She tells him firmly, but he just grips her wrist just tighter. "Why would I? You little slut." He says and pushes her against the wall. She swallows hard, getting kind of scared. "Matt, you're hurting me." She tells him as she tries to get out his grip. "You miss my cock don't you?" He tells you, his face just inches away from yours. You can smell the alcohol, he must've been consuming all night. "N-No." She tells him shaking her head. He grins not believing her, that she doesn't miss his cock, not even caring that she's here with Jensen. He starts kissing her neck and drives his hand under her dress, squeezing her ass. She feels herself tear up and he places his hand on her mouth. She lets out a sob as he tries to pull her panties down, just as Matt bends down slightly she kicks him into his balls. 

She cries for help and sobs as she runs into the main hall, everyone's looking at her. Jensen frowns not understanding anything as he gets to his feet. "Hey, hey, what's going on?" He says softly as he grabs her shoulders gently. She feels a lump form in her throat as she sobs shaking her head.  He frowns not understanding anything as she hugs him close, sobbing into his chest as Matt enters the main hall, rubbing his man hood. Jensen feels his anger built up and helps Y/N sit down, before walking towards Matt. "You did that to her?" Jensen says dangerously low, feeling his lip twitch. Matt grins and shrugs, but before Matt can say anything, Jensen grabs him by his collar. Jensen pushes him against the wall firmly, "I told you, if you ever ever touch or harass her again, I'm going to hit you." Jensen almost yells, before his fist hits Matt's face. Matt looks at him with a grin, "I touched that slut's ass." He says and Jensen feels his blood boil. Jensen's fist collides with Matt's face so hard, the hielt sends him to the ground. 

Before Jensen can hit him again, Ed pulls Jensen away. "Hey, stop it!" He tells Jensen and Jensen breathes heavily, trying to control himself. Jensen closes his eyes for a moment, trying to compose himself. "What's going on?" Ed asks calmly as Jensen looks at Matt in disgust. "He touched Y/N." He tells him, still breathing heavily. 

"What happened?" Jo asks Y/N softly,

who is still crying a lot. "He tried to rape her!" Jensen yells. "That's a lie, she wanted to have sex!" Matt yells back. 

She is crying not understanding what's happening. She feels so many emotions right now, but what she feels the most is dirty. She feels dirty. A man has touched her, a man who isn't her boyfriend. She feels so overwhelmed, not knowing how to process what just happened. 

"Cut the shit, Matt. You stupid shit tried to rape her!" Jensen yells wanting to approach and hit Matt again, but Ed stops him. Jensen's a bit surprised at how much power, the little man holds. So he backs off from Matt and sits down next to Y/N. "Matt, if you don't leave, I'm calling the police." Ed tells Matt. 

"It's my fault, I should go." She says really confused, sniffling slightly. You grab your purse, swallowing hard. Ed and Jensen both frown. "Hey, where you're going?" Jensen asks softly as he pulls her into a hug. She feels paralysed or likes she's the n trance. She doesn't hug him close. Everyone's talking to her, but she doesn't hear them. It's a blur for her and all she hears is muffled voices. 

To be honest, Jensen is really shocked himself, since he's never seen her like that. He's never seen her so vulnerable and small. She's usually the one, who's strong and comfortable, standing her ground. All of this suddenly seems gone. 

"Matt, one more warning you better leave now." Ed tells him one more time. "Why would I leave? She just said herself, it's better if she leaves." He says with a shrug wiping his nose. "Just leave." Jensen tells him tiredly. "Aww, her bodyguard tells me now to back off?" He says and Jensen has to concentrate to not burst towards him and kick his ass. Jensen decides to ignore it, but quickly decides against it, when Matt shoves his shoulder. Y/N stumbles slightly, so he sits her down gently. Ed and Jo approach her and try to talk to her, when Jensen grabs Matt by his collar one more time and drags him outside. Matt stumbles to the ground and Jensen spits on him, "Now leave." He tells him before walking inside her again. 

"I am so sorry, Ed. I'm sure that's how you two didn't imagine how your wedding would go." Jensen tells him, feeling a bit embarrassed. Ed places one hand on Jensen's shoulder, giving him a small smile. 

"It's not your fault and you don't have to go, but I thinks, it's better for her." He tells Jensen softly and Jensen nods. "Do you know by any chance if here is a motel or hotel around, because I can't drive and neither can she." 

"Yes, just 5 minutes from here by foot. You have to go along the street, then you'll see it." Ed tells Jensen with a small smile. "Thank you so much." Jensen tells him gratefully, before grabbing their things. He lifts Y/N up into his arms and carries her bridal-style out of the location.

Jensen pays for their room and the employee gives him the keys for the room. Jensen carries Y/N to their room and enters the room with her in his arms. 

He places her gently on the bed, before taking his shoes off. He turns around to place their things on the table. "I-I'm so s-sorry." She sobs out, causing him to turn around and kneel in front of her. 

"You don't have to apologise." He tells her softly and kisses her forehead gently. "You should get some rest, I'll be right back." He says softly. "No, p-please don't leave." She sobs and he nods. He sits down next to her on the bed and hugs her close, rubbing her back gently. She sniffles, "It's okay, I'm here." He whispers softly. She snuggles close and holds onto him as Jensen rests his head on top of hers.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 15

Warnings: kinda mad Jensen, hungover!Reader, fluff, Jensen’s birthday, Jensen and the reader are fighting

Word count: 2, 179 words

She wakes up the next morning and feels a pounding headache. She opens her eyes, already forgotten, that she fell asleep in the living room. She looks at the coffee table and notices a note, a glass of water and aspirin.

Note: Hey, I thought you might need these, when you wake up. -Jensen

She takes the glass of water in her hands and swallow the aspirin quickly, finishing the whole glass. She starts realising, how she snapped at Gen and Jared. How she tried to drink her problems away and although she didn't want to have sex, she really tried to sleep with him, because it's his birthday. She feels more than embarrassed, she wishes the floor would swallow her, like right now. Oh shit the party. It's 11 am. She dials Gen's number and waits for her to pick up.

"Hello?" She says not too thrilled, when she sees Y/N's number and she can't blame Gen.

"Gen, it's me y/n/n, I-" she sighs and run a hand through her hair. "I-I wanted to apologise, how I acted, how I snapped at you I'm so sorry. How I ruined the party, I'm so sorry."

"Hey honey come down, it's fine. I know you're sorry, but you have to try dealing with and eventually forgetting it for your own sake, okay? Promise me that." She says softly with a small smile.

"I promise you that." Y/N chews on her lip.

"Anyway, you know my plans for today don't you?" She asks her.

"Uh yeah, Jared is gonna pick Jensen up at 1pm and I will come over at 1:20." She answers, nodding to herself. "Thanks. For everything. Bye." "Bye." They hang up. She walks into the bathroom and takes a quick shower. She dresses herself in ripped jeans and a blouse. When she walks into the kitchen, Jensen's busy with his phone, probably checking his twitter.

"Good morning, birthday kid." She says softly with a loving smile, but he doesn't respond the smile nor says anything. She frowns slightly, thinking he's giving her the silent treatment. "Is anything wrong?" She asks him and he looks at her for the first time.

"If anything is wrong? Did you really just asks that?" He scoffs.

"Since when do you drink your problems away, huh?" He adds and she sees him clenching his jaw. Great, now he's angry at me. "Look, uh- I'm sorry, Jensen. I know, what I did wasn't the right way to cope with my feelings and I'm really sorry, I know how angry you were-are, it's just I just wanted to get drunk...probably not my smartest move."

"Wasn't the right way, damn right it wasn't. Why did you get drunk in the first place?" "I'm sorry okay, I really am. I'm sorry how I acted when we got home, it's so embarrassing, just thinking about it. I don't want to fight on your birthday." She says with a sigh and small smile, walking to him and wrapping her arms around his neck. He doesn't look at her still feeling mad at her, they way she acted.

"I'm sorry, Jensen. It will never happen again I promise. I try to cope with it the right way, trying to move on, okay?" "Just do that never again." He scolds at her."I promise." He gives her a small smile and wraps his arm around her waist.

"What do you have planned for today?" He asks curiously and smirks, knowing you almost ten years, he just knows you have something planned for him. "Nothing much, just relaxing with my boyfriend on his birthday. Why are you asking?" she says, smiling innocently.

"Are you sure you didn't plan anything?" He raises his eyebrow at his girlfriend. "I'm pretty sure." She nods. "Good." "Jared picks me up at 1, I hope that's okay?" "Of course, why shouldn't be that okay?" "I don't know, because you wanted to spend some time with me." He says softly and hugging her closer. "We can do that afterwards." She says, smiling lovingly and pecks his lips.

"Do you wanna watch an episode of Jane the Virgin?" He asks hopefully and her eyes widen.

"Since when do you wanna watch that show? I knew you like that show!" She exclaims and hits his chest playfully. "Guilty." He smirks innocently and she laughs, shaking her head as she walks into the living room, Jensen close by her heels.

After a few episodes the doorbell rings. "I got it." She says softly and rushes to the door, opening it. "Hey." He says and hugs her from the side. "How long do I have to distract him?" He whispers. "For about three hours." She whispers and Jensen enters the hallway.

"Hey Dude, happy birthday." Jared says happily and gives him a tight hug. "Ready for golf?" Jared asks him after the hug. "Oh yes!" He exclaims happily. Jensen bids his goodbye to Y/N, so does Jared, before they leave. They leave the house and drive away.

About 20 minutes later Gen arrives and Y/N starts preparing food, drinks and a birthday pie. An hour later Misha and Mark arrive. "Hey guys." She says happily, while opening the door. She hugs both of them and they follow her into the kitchen. "Y/N/N what did you buy for his birthday?" Misha asks before he takes a sip of his water. "I bought him a trip with me." She says cheerfully. "That's amazing, dear." Mark says with his British accent and Gen looks at you.

"That's so romantic." Gen says dreamily, making Y/N laughs slightly. The doorbell rings one more time. "That might be my sister and her hubby." She says and walks to the door. "Hey sis." She says after opening the door and hugging her sister. "Hey Brad." Y/N hugs her brother-in-law.

"Thanks for the invitation." He says.

"Oh, it's my pleasure, Jensen will be happy to see you two." She smiles.

A few minutes later the doorbell rings. Again.

She opens the door to see Jensen's sister.

"Oh gosh, y/n/n. I am so happy to see you."

Mackenzie says hugging Y/N tightly.

"And you don't know how happy I am." She says happily and gestures for her to come in. "When will l Jensen be back?" She asks curiously while they go into the kitchen. "In a few minutes." Y/N says softly.

"Oh, then I am in time." She says happily.

"I guess so." Y/N says with a smile. "Oh hey, Mac." Y/N's sister says and they hug each other. A few more moments later she hears the front door opening.

"Babe, I'm home." Jensen calls through the house and she runs quickly into the hallway.

"Hey." She says to Jared and Jensen. Y/N pecks Jensen's lips and hugs Jared. "Jensen, I have a surprise for you." "What for a surprise?" He asks happily, already feeling excited.

"If I tell you, it wouldn't be a surprise anymore." She says, smirking. "Just close your eyes." She adds and places her hand in front of his eyes.

She holds his hand while leading him into kitchen. She grins at everyone, who's standing in the kitchen and they all smile happily and excitedly.

"Okay Jay, open your eyes." She says happily as she puts her hand away, he opens his eyes immediately, a big smile creeping up his face.

"Guys, what are you doing here? I am so happy to see you." He says happily and greats everyone.

"We're here for your birthday, man!" Misha says happily and pulls Jensen into a hug, wishing him a happy birthday, like everyone does. Jensen talks to the people, who came just for his birthday, catches up with them, asking them how their break will look like. An hour later, Y/N disappears into the kitchen checking on Jensen's birthday cake. She decorates it, as they all walk into the yard, when Jared and Gen carry the food Y/N made outside.

Y/N finishes his cake and walks into the yard with it as she starts singing 'Happy birthday', smiling lovingly at Jensen, when everyone joins her singing. Jensen feels his cheeks heat up, hating it, like every one does. It feels awkward, when people sing for someone on their birthdays.

Jensen smiles shyly and blows the candles out, "That's your favourite cake." Y/N tells him happily and he smiles lovingly at her pecking her lips gently. "So who wants cake?" Y/N asks all of them.

"Thank you." Jensen says later that night, when they're alone for a moment. "For what?" She asks confused as she sips her soda. "For throwing the sweetest and best party." He tells her softly. She smiles lovingly and pecks his lips gently.

"And it was an amazing surprise to see my sister, it's sad that my brother couldn't make it, but I like and appreciate it a lot." He says and kisses her temple gently, already not feeling too mad at her.

"Okay Jared we should leave, my sister is probably waiting for us." Gen says an hour later and stands up. Jensen and Y/N pout slightly, but nod in understanding. They say their goodbyes and leave. "We should probably leave too." Y/N's sister says. "Yeah, me too." Misha and Mark say at the same time. "Oh okay." Y/N says sadly, but they're right it's almost 11pm, they nearly spent the whole day together.

"I'll leave too, see you at dinner tomorrow." Mac says. They all say their goodbyes and leave. Y/N closes the door and walks into the living room. Luckily, Gen and Y/N cleaned up after they has dinner, so it's not too much they have to clean up on their own.

"So just you and me." Y/N says with a small laugh. "Yeah." He says softly and walks towards her with a smile, kissing her softly, before she pulls away with a happy smile.  "I got something for you." She says cheerfully as she smiles, grabbing the envelope with the tickets. "What is that?" He smiles. "Just open it." She says softly. He grabs the envelope and opens it, taking the tickets out. He looks at the country they're flying to, "Poland? Does that mean I finally meet the rest of your family?" He asks happily.

She nods with a huge grin. He never met the rest of her family, there was never the time and then the two broke up, but now is the best opportunity.

He kisses her lovingly, smiling into the kiss, before pulling away. "That's the best birthday present, ever. I can't wait to meet them." He says excitedly.

"You know, I always wanted to meet them." He says softly as he walks closer to her, pulling her into his arms. "Thank you." He says softly and she smiles lovingly, nodding.

"Let's go to bed." He says and leads them upstairs. They change into comfortable clothes and Y/N walks into the bathroom to remove her makeup and brush her teeth. Jensen does the same, when she lies down on, now, their bed. She turns on some music, they used to listen together, before they went to sleep, when they got together.

"Maybe we should bring some stuff from your apartment to this place." He says softly as he enters the bedroom again. "I'd love that." She tells him softly and smiles at him. He lies down next to her and pulls her info his arms. "Maybe we could redecorate." He suggests as he caresses her cheek gently. "Yeah, maybe." She says with a happy smile.

When Y/N finished Highschool, she actually wanted to become an interior designer, because she redecorated her childhood room at least 10 times, since she was 15, but then acting came up and she never followed that path.

He smiles lovingly at her and leans in kissing her gently, no pressure, just kissing his girlfriend, the woman he's missed so much, the only woman he ever imagined getting married to, the only woman he can call his best friend.

Maybe they end up making out, slipping tongues into each other's mouth, but nothing more. When Jensen gets painfully hard, he pulls away from kissing her, not wanting to push her, or make her feel like she has to have sex with him.

Y/N notices him being hard and can't help but stare at his cock, that screams for her touch, she swallow hard. "You don't have to do anything." He tells her softly, cupping her cheek and making her look away from his cock. "Okay, but I kinda wanna give you a handjob." She says biting his lip and he's kind of surprised, definitely not expecting that so soon.

He shakes his head in a confused kind of way, "You sure?" He asks softly. "You don't have to, you know, my cock has no priority." He says with a small laugh, but she nods eagerly.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 13

Chapter 13

warnings: rape, language 

word count: 2,016 words

"We should undress you." He tells her softly. "Are you okay with that?" He asks her softly and she nods. "O-Okay." She says and Jensen starts taking her shoes off. When he wants to takes her dress off she backs away and he nods in understanding. He takes his button up off and his t-shirt too before giving his shirt to her. She takes it with a shy smiles before taking it on, after pulling her dress down her legs. She lies down on the bed as Jensen takes his slacks off and lies down next to her. 

He pulls her into his arms and she snuggles into his chest. Jensen rubs her arm gently, "You're safe." He whispers softly and kisses her forehead. 

"Thank you." She whispers, before they doze off to sleep. 

The next morning when Jensen wakes up, Y/N is still asleep as he climbs out of bed and takes his slacks on, before leaving the room to call Gen. He tells Gen everything that has happened the day before. He feels so helpless and clueless about what happened. He doesn't know, how to help or make her feel better, but Gen tells him, all Y/N needs is him to be there for her. Jensen thanks her and walks back inside the room he shares with Y/N. 

He smiles at the sleeping form of her, at least in her sleep she looks peacefully. When closes the door of the room, Y/N slowly stirs awake and Jensen smiles lovingly at her as he sits down on the bed next to her.  "Good morning." He whispers softly and kisses her head as she snuggles into his side. He rubs her arms gently smiling at her, but frowns as he notices the dark bruises her wrist carries. "Are you okay?" He asks her softly as he looks at her wrist and she quickly covers it with the blanket. She nods and Jensen can look right through her lie, but doesn't say anything. 

She gives him a small smile and disappears into the bathroom. She looks at herself in the mirror, gripping the sink tightly as she feels herself tear up. She feels disgusted by just looking at herself. She's so thankful, that she's found a moment, where she could free herself from him. She's never seen Jensen hit someone and he's only done that because of her. She washes her face and dries it with the towel, before taking her dress on she's taken with her inside the bathroom.

Y/N walks out of the bathroom and returns Jensen's T-Shirt, she's been wearing the night before. Jensen gives her a smile and she returns it slightly.

She walks back into the bathroom and closes the door. She lean against the door  and takes a deep breath. You got this. You're safe with Jensen. 

Jensen knocks on the door, "You okay. Y/N/N?" He asks you softly. "Yeah." She tells him, lying to him and herself. She walks out of the bathroom a moment later. Jensen is still in front of the bathroom and places his hands on her shoulder. "Talk to me baby." He says softly and she starts sobbing as he pulls her into his arms. He hushes her softly and hugs her close, rubbing her back gently. 

He cups her cheek gently and when he looks at her, she looks away. "None of what happened yesterday is your fault, you hear me?" He says softly. She nods as she still sobs. When she looks up at him, he notices how broken she looks. The shine he loves to see in a her eyes seems gone. 

Few hours later...

Y/N and Jensen have been home for quite some time. During the drive home, they haven't talked a lot nor did they when they've got home. Y/N has disappeared into bathroom for about an hour to shower, trying to wash off Matt's dirty hands and touches. Jensen's felt devastated, because he hates seeing the woman he loves so hurt and broken. He thinks for now, he should give her some space, because she doesn't want to talk and he has to accept that. 

She's curled up on the couch in the living room, watching Jane the Virgin, trying to distract herself from the events from yesterday. 

The doorbell rings and she gets off the couch to answer the door. "I'll get the door." She yells. "Fine." Jensen yells from his office. She opens the door, surprised to see Gen. "Hey, what are you doing here?" She asks in confusion and Gen just walks past her. "We'll see us in a few hours." Y/N tells Gen. 

"I know, but I wanted to talk to you." 

The two of them walk into the living room and sit on the couch."About what do you wanna talk?" She asks her curiously. 

"I know what happened last night." She tells you with a small sigh and smile, pulling you into a tight hug.. "I'm so sorry." Gen whispers. Seems like Jensen told her. Great. "It's okay." She lies. Gen sighs softly as she pulls away from Y/N. "Y/N, don't lie to me, I can see through your mask." Gen tells her softly and Y/N looks away from her, chewing on her lip. 

"I'm gonna kick his ass, I mean Jared will." She says playfully, laughing slightly and trying to cheer you up. "I'm just thankful, that I freed myself and that Jensen was there." She says as she feels herself teat up again and Gen hugs her close. When she is around Y/N just feels comfortable, she can be herself around Gen and just let her feeling and emotions free. Y/N tells Gen, how she went to the restroom and Matt followed her. 

"What a son of a bitch," she says angrily and shocked. "How can a man do something like this to a woman you've been with, I cannot understand that." She says as Jensen enters the living room. "Hey Gen, thanks for coming." They hug. "I'm gonna leave you two alone." Jensen says. "No, stay." Y/N tells Jensen and he nods with a small smile, sitting down next to her. 

"Y/n/n, you have to talk about what has happened. I know it hurts, but you have to." Gen starts and she looks at Jensen. "I'm- we are always there for you." He says and Y/N nods. She tells them everything what has happened in details, when she finishes, she sobs so hard. Jensen looks hurt, angrily and sorry for her at the same time.

"This fucking son of a bitch, how could he wait for a moment like this? Just to get you to sleep with him?! I can't believe that!" Jensen exclaim in anger.  "Jensen chill out." Gen says softly, while Y/N is still crying. She feels so much better, after telling them what exactly happened. "Thank you guys." She sniffles with puffy red eyes. "For what?" Gen asks confused. 

"For everything, for always being there when I need you, for being by my side and having my back all the time." Gen kisses Y/N's cheek. "You're my best friend and I-I love you. Of course I am always there for you and have your back. Like you always got mine." She says hugging her. She stands up a moment later and smiled at them. 

"But now I gotta go and prepare everything for the BBQ." She says goodbye to Y/N and Jensen and leaves. Y/N sits down on the couch and continues watching 'Jane the Virgin'. Jensen sits down next to her. She looks at him with a small smile. He puts his arm around her and she snuggles into his chest. He kisses her head gently. 

"We don't have to go to this BBQ, Jared and Gen would understand." Jensen tells her softly and she knows, he means well. "I know, but I need to be around the people I love." She tells him and he smiles. She really needs the distraction from that what has happened last night. She doesn't want to think about what happened too much. 

"You are around me." He says playfully with a smile, she rolls her eyes playfully, smiling slightly and playfully hit his chest. "Jensen you know how I meant that." "I just wanted to see you smile." He says softly. 

"I love you, you know that?" She says with a smile. 

"I know." He says softly and kisses her. He deepens the kiss and kisses her more passionately until she pulls away, because she knows where it ends. 

"Jay, I-I can't do this." She says and gets up. "Did I do something wrong?" He asks in concern and gets up as well to pull you in a hug, but she backs off.

"No, it's just- I just feel so disgusting and dirty. I'm sorry." "I am sorry, you have no reason to apologize. I guess, I rushed a bit." He is about to leave her, but she stops him. "Jensen, it's not your fault. I-I'm so sorry that I am so different towards you, you don't deserve this. But he broke something inside me and I don't know what. When I think about Sex it was always something enjoyable but now? It's something I'm afraid of because of him. I'm so sorry. 

I love you, but I don't feel ready." She says and walks into the kitchen. 

He follows her and reaches for her wrist gently. "I know, we just had sex yesterday." 

Wait, did he really just said that? 

"Are you fucking kidding me?! Is this all about sex?!" She almost yells at him.

"You're just thinking about sex right now?! Seriously?!" She adds. "No no no, I-I didn't mean it like that, I-I meant-" He stutters.

"How did you mean it then? That you're just thinking of sex?! Getting your dick wet, that's what's important now?!" She yells at him, feeling every kind of emotion right now, but disappointed is probably the strongest emotion she's feeling.

"No! I didn't even have a chance to to speak out!" Now he starts raising his voice. 

"Then speak out!" She yells at him. 

"What I meant, was that many things have changed in than less 20 hours. And it breaks my heart to see you this way. And I'm so sorry I rushed it, I-I'm...I-I'm really sorry." 

This incident definitely changed something between her and Jensen, although she knows he would never force her to do anything against her will. She doesn't know, if she'd enjoy sleeping with him. It feels so much different, just thinking about it. She sighs, still feeling angry with him, even though she knows how he meant it. 

Everything seemed perfect, then that shit happened to them. She also knows, what came out of his mouth was meant different, than it has sounded. When she looks up at Jensen, she sees the guilt and pain he's feeling right now and she also feels sorry about going off at him like that. 

"I know, you're really sorry and I know you didn't mean that. Yesterday, everything seemed so perfect with you. But today nearly everything is changed, I know he didn't rape me, but that he tried. I'm so thankful that you were there, but now when I think about sleeping with you it feels different." She tells him, barely looking at him. 

Jensen walks over to her and pulls her into a hug. "I hope you know, that i didn't mean it like that. All of that, just because of him. I would never force you to have sex with me, when you don't want that, never. It hurt's to see you like that, because you're the person who love to be happy and have fun, but that person seems lost somewhere inside you." He tells her quietly. She hugs him close as they both tear up, holding onto each other.

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