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An Actress Life - Chapter 6

Chapter six

Word count: 1,693 words

Warnings: smut

5 minutes later Jensen knocks at the door and you open it. He almost immediately kisses you. "That's what I wanted to do all day." He smiles. "You already did on set." You say sarcastically. "I mean really." He says with a huge smile and kisses you again." "Miss y/l/n, you're such a liar." He says jokingly with a British accent. "Why that?" You ask innocently. 

"He really believed you that we're 'just friends'." "I am an actress, I should be able to lie." You tell him with a shrug. He puts his hand on your waist and pulls you close to him, starting kissing you passionately. "I missed those moments." He says between kisses. "Me too. I regret everything I did. I missed you so much." You breathe out. "Me too."

 He kisses you hungrily, but you stop him immediately. "Jensen, you know what we've talked about." "Oh, please, I missed the sex with you so much." "Yeah, me too." You say biting your lip. "Fuck it." You lean in and kiss him even rougher. He lifts you up, wrapping your legs around his hips, you don't stop kissing each other. He walks you into the bedroom and lays you on the bed. He takes his shirt off and reconnects your lips.

He takes your blouse off and kisses your neck. Then down to your breasts and unhooks your bra. He looks at your naked breasts, making his cock grow even harder in his pants. He kisses you again, you drive your fingers along his muscular arms. He pulls your pants and panties off.

 After that you quickly unbutton his pants and see his hard cock in his boxers. He kisses your neck again. "I missed your body." He whispers into your ear. He starts kissing and sucking your nipples,  making you moan softly. He kisses down your body down to your lower lips. He groans softly at the sight of your sex and can't help, but gently peck your clit. You sigh softly at the feeling, moaning softly as soon as he starts sucking onto your clit. His fingers teasing your entrance. 

 Your hand drives through his hair as the other hand grasp the sheets tightly. You moan as he starts pumping his finger in and out of you. You start to get close at how good he knows your body and taps his head gently, wanting to give him the same treatment. "It's your turn." You breathe out. You sit up, he puts his hands on your shoulders, rubbing them gently. You pull his boxers down, licking your lips at the sight of his hard and throbbing cock. You look up at him as you start stroking his cock, making him sigh heavily. You lick the precum off his tip, sighing at taste, before slowly taking him inside your mouth. 

He looks down at you sighing at the sight of you sucking his cock. He grips your hair firmly as you suck his cock swirling your tongue around his tip, just like you know he loves it. He groans softly closing his eyes in pleasure since he haven't had such a good blowjob in a long time. He can't help, but buck into your mouth. You moan softly around his cock. 

He pulls you off his cock, spit all over your mouth, making him sigh at the sight. You wiped your spit away as he sits down next to you leaning in to kiss you passionately again. 

He pulls you onto his lap making you straddle him as you two make out. He sighed kissing you, cupping your ass firmly. You sigh heavily and pull on his hair as you kiss him hungrily. He grabs his cock and lines up with you, grabbing your hips as you sink down on him. "Fuck." He breathes out when he's completely inside you. You rolled your hips closing your eyes before you start bouncing on his cock. "Oh fuck." You breathe out at the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of you. He watches you bounce on his cock, your eyes closed. He groans at the sight of your bouncing boobs, cupping them firmly. He sits up and kisses you hungrily moaning against his lips as you feel him playing with your nipples. He turns you two around, so he's on top, hiding his face in the crook of your neck. He grips your hips firmly as he thrusts faster and harder inside you. You moan his name loudly as he hits your g-spot over and over. He groans at the sight of you, your lips apart in pleasure and your eyes closed. He starts to circle your clit getting you closer to your peak. You grab his arm as you get extremely close. You moan his name softly as your orgasm hits, clenching tightly around his cock. He groans at the feeling and keeps thrusting until he cums deep inside you. You two breathe heavily as Jensen gets off of you sweat-drenched. 

You smile hazily at each other, your high still kicking in as Jensen places an arm over his face. "Wow." You breathe out a moment later, smiling adoring yet hazily at Jensen. He returns the smile and kisses your nose softly, making your heart flutter at the little gesture.

"We should take a shower." Jensen says softly and you nod. "Yeah." you say and slowly get up stretching slightly before walking inside your bathroom. 

He's right behind you as you step into the shower. You turn the water on as Jensen wraps his arms around your waist making you lean into him. He kisses the back of your head. You smile turning around kissing him softly as he pulls you closer. 

You pull away a moment later wide smiles on both of your faces. You smile lovingly as he starts washing your hair. 

After you two have finished showering you lie down again, cuddling into his side. You look up at him as he cups your face gently, "I missed you so much." He whispers softly. "I missed you too." You whisper back kissing him softly. He pulls away a moment later snuggling you close. "Cuddling was probably what I missed the most." He says softly holding you close. You nod against his chest. You two cuddle the rest of the night, watching a movie. 

The next morning you wake up to your and Jensen's legs tangled. You smile to yourself as you feel Jensen rubbing your wait gently. "Good morning." you whisper softly as Jensen kisses your neck gently. "Good morning." He says softly and pecks your lips gently cuddling you close. You smile lovingly at him and kiss him softly as you hug him close. 

"I'm kinda hungry." He says softly as he pulls away feeling his stomach grumble. You giggle softly, "I could make a us some pancakes." You suggest softly and he nods happily. You get out of bed stretching your body as you walk out of the bedroom in his t-shirt and panties. Jensen grins slightly watching your ass. 

You start making pancakes as Jensen joins you yawning as he starts making coffee. You place the hot pancakes in the middle of the counter, grabbing some fruits out of the fridge. You sit down sipping the coffee Jensen just gave you. 

Jensen starts eating happily sighing at the taste of your pancakes, making you smile at him as you start digging in as well. 

"I know it kinda seem a bit forward and fast but next month....on that event...we should go public." He says hesitantly and you sigh softly. 

"I don't know, J. I think it's a bit too fast. I don't want that the press telling any lies or spreading rumours. I don't want them to mess things up between us." He cups your cheek, making you lean into his touch. "Y/n/n, I love you just like all those years ago, I don't care what they gonna tell the world." He promises you softly. "I love you too, but are there any things that happened in the last few years that could cause any trouble?" "No." He says softly and you nod with a small smile. 

"And what about you?" He adds. "Just Matt that's all, I'm just afraid of, that the press will drop news like 'After cheating back together?' you know what I mean?" You ask him. "Yes, but I know you didn't cheat on me. Jared and Gen told me, after we broke up. At first I thought you did, that's true, but I also know you and Matt started dating 2 months after our breakup. Y/n,  I fucking love you so much and I never stopped. I LOVE YOU!" He tells you honestly making you smile lovingly at him. 

"I love you too, J." You say softly pecking his lips, "I could care less about what they're going to say about us. You shouldn't either." He says softly.

"Let's make it public next month. Next month we gonna tell everyone of our friends and family." You eventually say. "I'm fine with that." He says with a huge smile and kisses you. "When I am honest I am scared of that what Jared and Gen are gonna say about that, even more of Jared that Gen." "I think Gen will be happy for us but Jared." "Jared knows that I always loved you." 

"I know, but last week, when Shep was born, I had a big fight with Jared about us. He felt really disappointed about me, because that day I realised that I still love you. You know how Jared is." "Yeah, I know but I think he will also be happy for us." "When I am happy Jared will be happy." He adds. 

And your fear fades a away a bit. "Everything will be fine between us, I promise....Let's get ready for work." He says softly and pecks your lips. You two get ready, while you brush your teeth Jensen tells Jared about the event. Jared knows he has to come, but Gen won't be able to make it because of Shep.

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I thought you never would… - Chapter 4

Chapter four 

Word count: 1,543 words

Warning: language, mention of sex 

Kira knocked on the door later that night. Dean opened the door and let her inside his apartment, giving her a tight smile. "Hey." She said with a small smile. "So what did you wanna talk about?" Dean asked awkwardly. "About us...I miss you." She told him softly as she stepped closer to him. He sighed, but he missed her too, like a lot. "I miss you too." He told her honestly. 

He walked into the living room with her sitting down on the couch, she sat down as well. They started talking about their relationship ans Dean told her that he really loved her, but they wouldn't have a future together. He told her they could stay friends, but nothing more. She sighed, nodding as she chew on her lip. 

"Can I stay the night? It's late and I don't want to go home so late on my own." Dean nodded, since he didn't want her to get hurt on her way home. "Thanks." She whispered. "Wanna watch a movie?" He suggested since it was getting super awkward and weird. "Sure." She said with a nod. He grabbed his remote turning Netflix on.

He turned on some random movie, unconsciously inching closer to her. She noticed smiling a bit, inching closer as well. He couldn't help it, so he cuddled her close to him. She looked up at him and leaned in kissing him. They eventually ended up sleeping with each other more than once that night. 

He and her started a friends with benefits kind of thing with her after that night. His dick taking more control of him than he wanted. Ryan was pissed when Dean told him, but Dean told Ryan it was just sex, no things attached. Dean was annoyed when Ryan gave him the talk about what he's doing, is stupid and just taking him back. 

You and Dean were getting close and you didn't know why, but you felt hurt, when Dean talked about that he has a friends with benefits thing going on with his ex-girlfriend. You were crushing over some guy, you've never seen in real life and yet, you were kind of hurting and pissed at Dean. He kept flirting with you like shit, even making you special, telling you how important you were to him.

He even became distant towards you because of her. Because you told him, he'd never move on from her if he was sticking to her. You didn't know her, but the things Ryan told you she seemed so...psychotic and manipulative to you. She was just crazy, but in the bad way. You, Ryan and Sam played most of the time alone, since Dean was occupied and messing around with ex. 

You posted a picture on your Instagram story of yourself where you thought, you were looking damn fine. An hour later or so you checked on who've seen your story and there she was. Kira's account. She was stalking your Instagram account like crazy, looking who you were following, what pictures you had on your highlights and profile. She was kind of jealous of you, even tho you lived miles away. 

You were posting more to your story on purpose to see if she'd look at your stories and she certainly did. Every time. You didn't understand why, because you two never talked or texted. You didn't know she felt threatened by you. It also annoyed you in some kind of way, that she stalked your Instagram profile the whole time. Yeah you had a massive crush on Dean, but like already mentioned you loved miles away and she's the one lying in his bed. So what was her point? 

Dean and you didn't talk a lot during this time and when you did, it was weird. The whole comfort suddenly gone. You were kinda sad about it and you mostly talked about it with Sam. Sam told you, that she always knew how to wrap him around her finger. The problem was Dean was too blind to understand, that she was poison for him. All she did was manipulating and using him for her own good. 

Dean just didn't want to see that and it hurt Sam to see his little brother going down that path, again. 

He thought his brother came to his senses when they talked right after Dean's and Kira's breakup. Dean seemed reasonable and not stupid like he did after starting sleeping with Kira. The whole situation frustrated Sam. The worst thing was that Sam couldn't talk to Dean, because Dean brushed him off, telling Sam he was old enough to know what he was doing. 

Sam thought Dean wasn't mature enough. Dean was just nineteen and just not able to be alone. He always needed company otherwise he would've felt too lonely. Sam had a fight with his little brother trying to tell him like you and Ryan did, that he needs to stop thinking with his cock and more with his brain. Dean was distant and told Sam, it was none of Sam's business and Sam should start minding his own business again like he did before the breakup. 

Sam always tried to reach out to his little brother, because he loved his little brother more than anything. Whenever Sam tried to reach out to Dean, Dean was busy with Kira telling Sam he was busy. Sam visited his dad in their hometown and when he was there he's seen Dean briefly or not at all, because Kira was more important. 

Sam tried so many times to get Dean out of his bubble, he was in for too long. Kira made their relationship much more complicated, she did for everyone in their family. She was only causing problems for Dean, but Dean didn't want to see that. Unfortunately. 

One day you texted Dean on iMessage if you two had an issue and he told you no, but then you asked him why he was being so weird, since he barely answered calls or texts.

Dean and you FaceTimed sometimes until late at night. It was special to you, because you were talking to your crush, at night. One day you called him after work like you always did. When he picked up, your heard a girl's voice. It was her voice and you immediately were pissed and hurt, telling him to fuck off. Not your smartest move, you felt bad about how you hung up on him. You also kind of didn't, because you heard her saying something to or about you, you couldn't quite remember what exactly it was, what she said. 

Since that incident, Dean was being weird and distant towards you, even making up excuses so he wouldn't have to stay in a voice chat alone with you as soon the others went offline. Before that Dean always stayed longer, wanting to get to know you, but suddenly all of this was gone. You didn't understand and you also felt hurt at the way he was being. 

One night Ryan and you were playing and talking about the whole thing with Dean and Kira. Ryan decided to call Dean and ask him what's up with you and Dean, wanting to hear it from him. Dean told him, that he was annoyed with you telling him to stop messing around with his ex, when it was his life and decision to make. It hurt, but he was right. It was his life and decision he had to make. 

You just didn't get why Dean couldn't tell you exactly that. When you pushed him via text to be honest, he finally was. He told you to back the fuck off and leave him alone with this topic. It hurt you so bad at how was being. He was being a complete asshole towards you. You even teared up at how much it hurt you, making you cry because you were so overwhelmed. 

After you two had the biggest fight you didn't answer his last text, trying to calm down so you wouldn't say anything you'd regret later on. 

You talked to Sam about it and Sam told you to leaver him alone knowing Dean would end up saying things he might regret later on, too. Sam told you to leave him alone and text Dean later everything you had on your mind, when you and him had calmed down.

Dean calmed down smoking his cigarette, still pissed at you, but he also felt bad about treating you the way he just did. You were just trying to help him, but he didn't need and want your help. He wanted to mess around with Kira, he didn't care. 

An hour later you texted him: "Dean, I'm sorry. I really am. They way you treated me hurt and wasn't fair at all. All I wanted to do was help you, but I get it now you don't want my help and I'll respect that. I keep my distance, if that’s what you want. I understand. I wish you the best. Take care." You texted him while tears ran down your face, sniffling you wiped your tears away. You didn't know him for that long but thinking the friendship was over hurt you so bad.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 7

Chapter seven

Word count: 1,276 words

1 month later...

Everything feels like it used to be years ago, today is the event and THAT DAY! You're so nervous. How will people, friends and family react? Everything that happens at the event will be live on TV. You told your family to watch that event on TV tonight, you told Gen the same because she won't be there and Jensen told his family as well. 

Right now you're getting ready for the event, you're wearing a tight black dress that reaches your knees and it emphasises your décolleté. You wear a half bun with curls and a slightly stronger make-up. You go through your walk-in-wardrobe and put some silver high heels on and a silver clutch that fits with your dress. 

You get a call from Jensen. "Babe, are you ready?" "Yes." "Then come to the SUV that is waiting for you upstairs." He says happily. You hang up and make sure you have everything you need. You walk into the hallway of your apartment complex and lock your door before leaving the building. When you walk towards the SUV Jensen looks you up and down, a bit stunned at how good you're looking. 

"Wow." He breathes out as he places his hands on your waist checking you out. He gives you a quick, but gentle kiss. 

"You look....breathtakingly hot." You tell him as he lets out a small laugh. "Well, I could say the same thing about you." He tells you honestly, making you smile. "But you know what's the best about the night?" "What?" You ask curiously. "I'm the lucky one who's going to undress you tonight." He whispers into your ear making you clench your thighs together. He grins at you as he pulls away from your ear as he sees you blushing. 

"Let's get in the car." He says with a huge grin. You get into the back of the car, he puts his hand on your thigh to calm you down, rubbing it gently. He knows you're nervous. "I love you, y/n/n." "I love you too, J." He cups your cheek with his other hand and pecks your lips softly. 

After 20 minutes you arrive at the location.

"Y/n/n, don't be nervous. Everything will be fine, I will always be by your side." You nod. "Let's get out." He says confidently. He gets out first, when he opens the door the only things you see are the flashlights of the cameras. He reaches for your hand, so you he can help you out. You two intertwine your fingers and walk to the entrance. You already hear the first paparazzi, calling your names. 

"Jensen and y/n are you back together?" 

"Yes, we are." Jensen answers quickly while passing by. He keeps asking questions about your relationship, but you ignore them. When you walk through the door, you see a shocked yet happy Jared. 

"Guys, you're back together?" He asks with a big smile. "Yes, man." Jensen answers happily. 

Jared can't stop grinning. 

"I told you he will be happy." Jensen whispers to you. "Jar?" you say hesitantly.

"Yes, y/n/n?" "I think I have to apologize. I'm sorry." He hugs you from the side. "I also have to apologise, I'm so happy for you two. You are meant to be together, that's why Gen and I decided to make you two godparents of Shep. So that you two can get closer again." He says casually making your eyes go wide. He chuckles and kisses your temple gently before letting go. 

"What were you two talking about?" Jensen asks curiously. "About that fight last month." 

"But everything is fine now?" "Yes." 

"Guys can you come here?" Jared yells from where the paparazzi are taking pictures. 

You and Jensen nod and walk on the red carpet. 

"Y/n, can we take a picture of you two?" 

"Sure." You answer and Jensen puts his arm around your waist and kisses the side of your head. 

"Jared come over here." You yell and he runs to you. You three stand there, you in the middle, Jensen left next to you and Jared right next to you. When you're about to leave one of the interviewers asks for an interview, so you and Jensen decide to give them a  quick interview. 

"Hey y/n and Jensen, how is it going?" The interviewer asks. 

"Fine. Thank you." "The question that everyone is asking, are you two back together?" 

"Yes, we are." You say nodding and look at Jensen with a loving smile, who puts his arm around your waist.

"I'm more than happy to have her back." He says happily looking at you first and then into the camera. "How did that happen?" 

"Since we two are working together now, we say down and talked. We noticed there still are mutual feelings." You tell them honestly. "Thank you guys for telling." They say and you nod with a smile. 

You two get to your seats, where Jared is already waiting for you. You sit down right next to Jared and Jensen sits down on your left side. Jared leans towards you. "You guys have to tell me, how you two got back together." "After the show?" 

"Maybe at y/n's?" Jensen asks. You both nod. 

"How are Gen, Tom and Shep doing?" 

"Pretty well, you two have to visit us when we're ok a break." He says happily. "Of course, Jensen and I would love to." You say softly. "Yes." Jensen adds. 

The event starts and the two narrators talk about: the vampire diaries, pretty little liars and then one of them starts talking about Supernatural. "Now, let's talk about Supernatural. Supernatural has a new season and cast member. Y/n y/l/n plays the love interest of Dean." "Wow, I heard Jensen and y/n are back together." "Yeah me too and I'm very happy for them. They're such a perfect couple." Jensen looks at you with a smile on his face caressing your hand gently. 

"Let's welcome them. Jensen, Jared and y/n come join us on stage." The first narrator yell enthusiastically. All of you walk on stage, Jensen and you intertwine your fingers. Everyone claps their hands while passing them. Jensen helps you go up the few stair up. "Hey you three, what will you tell us about the rest of season 8?" 

"First of all, hey to everyone and thanks for being here." Jared says happily. "Oh Jared how is the second baby doing and congratulations." 

"Pretty well and thank you." Jared says with a smile. "But now, let's talk about Supernatural." Jensen adds. 

"Well the end will be really emotional between Sam and Dean." You tell them. "Interesting. What about Sophie and Dean?" "A lot of romantic things." Jared says laughing. 

"So Jensen and y/n, how did that happen that you two are back together?"

"I think we already got asked that question like three times." You say with a small laugh looking at Jensen. "It's because of Supernatural and the chemistry between our characters, so that we fell in love again." Jensen says with a smile. 

"But we're not here to talk about our relationship, so let's keep talking about Supernatural." You say. You tell them a few things you're allowed to tell, after that you go to your seats and listen to them for an hour.

"You see it wasn't that bad." Jensen says softly and cups your faces and kisses you softly before looking at the stage again. 

"Let's wait till tomorrow." You mutter and he places his hand on your thigh sighing softly.

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Sam Winchester One Shots

Highschool sweethearts (smut)

The reader and Sam have known each other for a long time but didn’t know they had feelings for each other. So what will happen?

Highschool sweethearts

A/N: this was originally written for a friend, but enjoy still! Warnings: smut

Word count: 3k 

You knew the Winchesters since ever you were little. Your mom and Mary were really good friends and she liked you a lot, you were like a daughter she never had. Dean was never really your type you always thought of him as a brother, nothing more. But Sam? Oh boy, you always had a thing for him. His short and soft curls, you always wanted to drive your fingers through his hair. In your point of view he was the most beautiful boy in school…or you have ever seen.

“Earth to Y/N.” Dean said as he waved a hand in front of your face. “Oh, sorry. What were you talking about?” you asked him. “I was talking about that I don’t know how to ask Jass out.”  You looked at Dean and thought about it. You never had a problem with jass, but you also hadn’t had to do that much with each other. She was in your classes, but that was everything. She was always friendly towards you, so you really thought about it how he could ask her out. But first you wanted to mess with him as he always do.

“Look Deano-“ Dean rolled his eyes at you and you suppressed a laugh, clearing your throat. “I don’t think she likes you.” but you did know she likes him, she always talked about him with her friends in class. You saw how everything fell out of Dean’s face and you swore you saw him went pale.

“Really?” he said and plopped down next to you on the sofa and let his head down. You felt sorry. “I was just kidding Dean.” and he shot you a glare. “Indeed she likes you, I guess.” you added quickly. And you saw his face lit up, you were happy for him.

“Hey.” Sam said as he joined you guys in the living room. You always got nervous in front of him and when he gave you one of his sweet smiles or when he never lost eye contact with you, you blushed, deeply.

“Hey.” You said trying to sound normal. He gave you one of his sweet smiles and you thought your knees would go weak. He looked away from you after Dean cleared his throat and elbowed him, shooting him a glare. Sam looked at Dean, “Dean just wanted to tell you that I’m going out.” Dean narrowed his eyes at his little brother, “With who?” “Uhm...-“ Sam scratched the back of his neck and cleared his throat. “Just a girl.” he said and you felt your head ache and felt jealous although you had no reason.

“Have fun.” Dean said with a smirk and you smiled weakly at Sam, who frowned. Sam left and Dean studied your expression. You looked at your hands and fiddled with them. “You like him.” Dean said and you looked up at him, seeing him with a frown. “Wh-what?” you asked.

“You like my little little brother.” you laughed. “Of course I like him, he’s your brother and you’re my best friend, duh.” You tried to change the subject, but Dean knew you too well. “Stop acting silly, you know how I meant that. You really like him.” you looked away from him.

“Y/N, I’ve know you practically my whole life. I know you, better than anyone. To be honest I knew it for a long time, but wasn’t sure about it.” he said and you looked back at him. “And it would be so cool if you two would be a couple.” You gave him a weak smile. “Thank you, I guess. But he’s out, having a date.” You shrugged and looked at your lap.

“Nah, I know my brother, he was lying.” you felt so relieved, but then you thought about it. “What makes you think that way?” you asked. “Sam always scratches his neck when he lies and he blushes at the same time, so he was lying. Don’t worry.” He reassured you and patted your thigh softly.

He got up and went into the kitchen, you followed him. “You wanna drink something?” Dean asked you. “Yeah, water would be great.” You said. “So about Jass-“ you started. “-Why don’t you just ask her?” Dean eyes widen when realisation hit him and you know he had an idea. “It’s spring ball, next week.” “Right and you could ask her.” you smirked at him. “Do you think she will really say ‘yes’?” You looked at him and cocked an eyebrow. “Dean, I promise she will.”

~*~

You were in class and copying things from the white board for your next exam as Sam knocked at the door and came in, whispering something into your teacher’s ear. You saw Sam with a bunch of flowers and went back to work. What you didn’t expect was that he stopped in front of you and tapped your shoulder.

You looked up at him and dropped your pen. “Y-Y/N“ stuttered out because everyone was looking at him. “I-I just w-wanted to ask you if you’d like to go to go to the ball uhm-“ he swallows hard “with me?” he asked and your eyes widened in shock, you didn’t expect him to ask you out. He held it the bunch of flowers and you gladly took them from him as you stood up. “Sam, I-I-“ his face dropped when you didn’t give him an answer right away “-I’d love to.” you said with a blush and he kissed your cheek before he left.

You looked around and everyone was looking at you with a smile. You saw Jass, giving you a thumb’s up and you smiled at her. Dean still didn’t ask her and you didn’t understand. The funny thing was just 20 minutes later Dean entered your class, whispering to the teacher. He looked at you and you gave him a thumb’s up and he took a deep breath.

He asked her too they hugged and everyone let out an ‘awww’. You felt so happy, for both of them. But you were more happy that Sam really asked you.

~*~

It was spring ball and you were nervous you were standing in front of your mirror, chewing your bottom lip nervously. You looked beautiful, you were wearing your favourite dress. You checked your makeup and smoothed your dress, just then your doorbell ringed.

You made your way downstairs and opened your door, your mom smiled at you as you walked to the door. “Hey.” he breathed out as he admired you. “You-you look so-so beautiful.” Sam said and you blushed. You admired him too, he was wearing his tux and a matching tie to your dress. He looked so good, more breathing-taking.

“You look good yourself.” You said shyly and you saw him blush. You grabbed your heels and put them on. You linked arms with him and walked to the limousine waiting outside where everyone was sitting in you knew. Dean with jass, you and Sam and some others.

-time skip-

Sam intertwined his fingers with yours as you two entered the big gym hall. You looked up at him and saw him smiling down at you. You ate something and drank a bit, but not too much. You and Sam went to the dance floor and a slow song started. He pulled you close to him, you rested your hands on his shoulder as you rested your head on his chest. You two swayed to the music in a slow pace.

“Y/N?” Sam whispered a few minutes later. You hummed and looked up at him. You saw him blushing, “I think, I’m-I’m in love with you.“ he whispered and smiled nervously at you. You lifted your head from his chest and looked him in the eyes. “I’m in love with you too.” you whispered shyly. He gave you a loving and bright smile, “I’m so happy you are.” he said as he cupped your cheek.

“C-can I kiss you?” he whispered and you nodded. He pressed his lips softly to yours and your eyes fluttered shut and he kissed you so lovingly and tenderly. It was the best feeling you ever felt.

~*~

8 months have passed, you and Sam were happier than ever. He adored you so much and you adored him. You two walked hand in hand through the hallways in your school. You stopped at your locker and he let go of your hand. You opened your locker, “Y/N?” you looked at him with a smile. He scratched the back of his neck and looked at you, “Spit it.” you said.

“What do you think about coming over today? It’s Friday and my parents are with my uncle bobby and Dean is with Jass.” he smiled nervously. You knew what this was about, it was about having sex for the first time.

You and Sam talked about that many times and he also told you there’s no rush and you should take your time, but you were more than ready. Already after 6 months, of course you already explored each other’s body, but never had sex. You just weren’t THAT ready.

“Sure.” you said with a smile and took your books out.

Classes passed quickly and you were standing in your room, packing the things you needed for a sleepover. You grabbed a class of water and swallowed your birth control pill your mom wanted you to take since you’re with Sam. Maybe she was right about that.

You grabbed your bag and walked downstairs slipping into your sneakers. You walked 5 minutes to the Winchester’s house and knocked at the door. Sam opened the door with a smile, he gave you a peck on the lips and closed the door after you stepped in.

You two immediately walked into his room and grabbed your bag from you and put it on his desk. He already started the show you were watching together. You lied down next to each other, he wrapped his arm around you and pulled you close. You rested your head on his chest and your legs were tangled with his. His finger draw circles on your back and you loved it when he did that.

The couple on the screen started kissing and you wanted that too, you lifted your head and captured your lips with his. Your lips moving against each other’s and he place a hand on your neck, pulling you closer to him. You tended your head and deepened the kiss as you straddled his lap.

His hands rubbed your thighs up and down until he squeezed your ass. Your hands drove under his shirt and you took it off, admiring his abs, you loved so much. He took the opportunity and took off your hoodie as well, more like his hoodie.

He pulled you down for another kiss and he slipped his tongue into your mouth and both of your tongues fought with each other. He obviously won and took dominance, he reached behind your back and unclasped your bra.

He tossed it on his desk and cupped your boobs, pinching your nipples like he knew you liked it. You moaned softly into his mouth and ground your hips onto his and groaned into your mouth as well. You got off of him and shoved his sweats including his boxers down, revealing his semi-hard cock.

You tossed his pants away and licked your lips at the sight. You took him into your hand and began to stroke him and he let out a soft sigh and his head fell back on the pillow. Your mouth hovered over his cock and he looked at you with pleading eyes before you took him into your mouth.

You swirled your tongue around his tip and bobbed your head up and down, like he loved it. His hand tangled through your hair, encouraging you to take him deeper and you did. You deep throat him and he bucked his hips up into your mouth, you moaned around his dick.

He groaned and tugged on your hair tightly, “I’m-I’m gonna-“ he couldn’t finish his sentence before his groaning of your name interrupted him and he came down your throat. You swallowed his cum gladly and licked his shaft clean, letting go of it with a plop.

He came down from his high and looked at you with a hazy smile. He brought you in for a loving kiss and pulled away before he said, “It’s your turn now.” and you bit your bottom lips as you saw him kissing down your body until he reached your sweats.

He took them down with your panties and kissed your folds which made you immediately squirming under his touch. He kissed your clit and began to suck onto it as he added his finger to your dripping hole. He curled them, just like you liked him to do that, he pumped them in and out of you. You moaned loudly and bucked your hips up, but he held your hips in place.

It didn’t took you long until you were a moaning mess, you clenched around his fingers and gripped his hair tightly. You came hard, moaning his name so loudly, this was probably one of the best orgasms he has ever given you.

You breathed heavily and let go of his hair and let your hand fall to your side. You came down from your high and smiled lazily a him, the tv show already forgotten.

He plopped down next to you, unsure what to do next. And you hesitantly took the next step, you straddled him and he looked you into the eyes. “Are you sure? Like really sure?” he asked you and you nodded, you were more than sure.

He lifted your hips and took his cock into his hands. He lined up with your entrance and you winced slightly as he slowly made you sunk down slowly. You weren’t moving for a few minutes until you were completely adjusted to him.

He changed positions carefully and made you lie on your back and you winced slightly as he moved you. He looked at you and gave you a loving and sweet kiss. He pulled away and looked at you, asking for your permission, you nodded. He began to move slowly and the pain faded away, when you were sure, you bucked your hips. He understood and went went faster. You moaned in pleasure and he did the same. You wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed his jaw.

As you wrapped your legs around his torso you moaned loudly as he hit spots you didn’t know existed. He knew he found your g-spot and he attempted to hit that spot every time he thrusted into you. You moaned his name loudly and dug your nails into his back, tugging onto his hair as well. He groaned and thrusted harder, you clenched around him.

He groaned into your ear as you clenched and he speeded up his pace. You clenched so hard around his cock as you could and moaned his name loudly. He groaned as he felt you cum all over his cock. You breathed heavily and moaned softly as he released himself inside you, both of you panting. You came down from your high and you thought the first orgasm was good but this one? This one was the best one for real.

Sam pulled out of you and plopped down next to you, smiling lovingly at you. “I love you, Y/N.” he whispered against your lips with a smile. “I love you too, Sam.” he smiled and gave you a sweet peck on your lips.

He pulled you close and you were so tired that you fell asleep and he smiled down at you, dozing of as well.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 9

Chapter 9

Warnings: smut, hate and language 

Word count: 1,374 words

"C'mon stop teasing me babe." He says desperately. "Teasing is more fun." You say seductively as you pull his slacks down his ankles and look up at him. He looks at you and steps out of his pants. 

You slide up his body with your hands trailing up his body from his calves to his chest and then your hands grab his face. You bring his face down to kiss him roughly. While you two kiss he gently pushes you onto the bed. 

"I like it rough." He whispers into your ear between kisses. "I know." You breathe out. He starts kissing down your body to your bottom lips. He licks a stripe up your folds and you sigh heavily grabbing the sheets. His tongue finds your clit quickly before he starts sucking your clit harshly. Two of his fingers tease your dripping hole, pumping them slowly in and out of her. 

He slides them in in and out in a quick pace a moment as he sucks your clit fast, almost sending you out off the edge. "F-Fuck, Jay." You moan out yelling as you tangle your fingers in his hair. He groans which sends vibrations through your body and clit. "I'm gonna-." You moan in pleasure and he suddenly stops.

"Seriously?" You say out of breath as he crawls up your body until he meets your eyes. 

"You teased me all night with your dress since I laid eyes on you." He pauses and kisses your neck again, making you sigh softly and leaning into him. He kisses you roughly and stands up. 

You sit up and hook your fingers inside his boxers and slowly slide them off. His thick cock springs free and hits his stomach. This cock makes you drool since it always male you feel good and you just love his damn cock. You love sucking it and feeling it inside your pussy. When you are about you take him into your mouth, he stops you and gets off the bed. He kisses you harshly and lays you on your back. He doesn't waste any second and gets on top of you, teasing your entrance. He grins as he notices you bucking your hips and slams inside you making you almost scream.

He lifts your leg and rests it on his shoulder. He slides himself in and out of you at reasonable pace until you need more. "Faster, Jay!" you moan loudly. He does what you say. He hits your g spot every time he thrusts into you. Moans and groans fill the room as he goes faster and harder.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck." You yell out in pleasure as you get extremely close. The pleasure gets so big that you clench tightly around him and cum tightly on bis cock. He keeps thrusting until he hits his peak as well. 

"That was hot." He says a few minutes later as he plops next to you. You turn your head and look at him. "It was." You say with a nod as he puts his arm around you cuddling you close to his chest. His fingers drive through your hair, you look around the room and see the clothes laying all over the ground, making you grin. 

"I love you, y/n/n." Jensen says cupping your cheek, making you lean into his touch. "I love you too, Jay." You say softly noticing the loving smile on his lips, before he closes his eyes. He falls asleep a moment later and you think about the fact how happy you are. You haven't felt so much happiness in a long time. You love him so much. How could you've been so selfish? This man is the one of your dreams.

Next morning...

You wake up and notice Jensen isn't in the bed.  You get up ans put his shirt on before entering the kitchen where he is making breakfast. He doesn't notice you, until you walk behind him and wrap your arms around his waist. 

He holds a pan in his hand. "Good morning, handsome." You say softly and back away. "Morning, beauty." He says happily ans puts the pan with eggs down to kiss you softly.

"You made breakfast?" You ask happily with a loving smile. "For the woman I love, I had to." He smiles lovingly and kisses you one more time. 

"Breakfast is ready, sit down." He says softly as he pulls away, smiling lovingly. "Wait I'll get my phone." You tell him.

You go back as fast as you can to the bedroom and take your phone. "You look good in my shirt." He yells after you. You smile and grab your phone from the nightstand. While you walk inside the kitchen again you notice ten missed calls from Ed.

"Babe what's wrong?" Jensen asks as he sees your expression, you see the headline from the website that Ed has sent you. "Y/n Y/l/n and Jensen Ackles back together after y/n has cheated on him?" You read swallowing hard, before showing it to Jensen.

"Look at this." You say with tears in your eyes. 

His expression turns from concern to anger. 

"I knew it." you sob out. He pulls you close making you sit down on his thigh. He kisses your forehead gently, when you cry even more. "Read more." You son. "Y/n was such a bitch, why did Jensen choose her again?" One comment says. "Y/n, I love you and you're definitely not a bitch." Jensen promises you honestly."Look under the picture you posted on your instagram." 

Comments: "Die, bitch, die."

"If you hurt him again, I'm gonna kill you." 

"What a whore!" , "I'm gonna kill you, you little bitch.", "Jensen, I love you, but her again?" 

"I can't understand so disgusting." 

COMMENTS END

"I can understand those comments, I really hurt you, I'm n-" "Stop saying that." He interrupts you. "They are not even real fans, if they don't accept my decisions." He adds. While you're looking at these headlines and comments Gen calls you. "Wait, it's Gen." You pick up sniffling and go to the bedroom and sit down on the bed.

"Hey." You sniffle. "Hun, I've read these comments, are you okay?" "Yeah." "Why are you lying?" Gen asks you softly. "Gen, I don't wanna bother you with my problems. You have a baby that needs all your attention now." You sniffle.

"Are you kidding me? You're my best friend and I know how hurt you are because of those stupid words. Jared and I always have your back, ok?" "I know." "And Jared, Jensen, your family and I know the truth, that's what is important. Most of the times you wouldn't care about something like this, Why now?" She asks softly.

"I-I don't know, I'm so afraid that those people are gonna ruin our relationship. Gen, I-I love him so much and I don't know, if I'm gonna survive this when we break up again." More and more tears roll down your cheeks. "I know, I know. I think this time your love with Jensen will last forever."

"Why are you so sure?" "Because he always loved you, do you know how many times he came to our house completely drank, that's only because he missed you so much. He always wanted to talk to you in person about this, but you never were at any parties of ours in these years. He never had the chance, because you were busy with shooting. When he was with Joanna he wasn't really happy, he tried to forget you, but he couldn't. That's why I am so sure." She explains as you let out a sob. 

"And I know you never loved Matt, he was just a comfort, because you and Jensen had your issues." She adds. "I guess you're right." You say with a sniffle. "Y/n/n, I love you. See you next week, if not I'm gonna kick your ass."  She says playfully with a laugh. "I love you too, Gen. See you next week." You say laughing and you hang up, feeling a bit better after talking to your best friend, knowing she's right. She always gives the best advice.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Warnings: none

Word count: 1,152 words

Jensen knocks on the doorframe and you look at him with a small smile. He walks over to you and looks you in the eyes, in his eyes you can see pain, anger and concern. He pulls you into a tight hug and kisses your forehead gently.

"I don't care, what they're saying about you. I love you no matter what." He says softly and honestly.

"I love you too." You say looking up at him with a small smile and red and puffy eyes.

He leans down and gives you a gentle peck on the lips before brushing your hair out of your face. "But now let's have a cold breakfast." He says with a laugh trying to lighten up the mood. You let out a small laugh and get up with him, walking back inside the kitchen. 

"What did Gen tell you that your mood got so much better than like it was moments ago?" He asks curiously and you shrug with a smile. "She just knows how to make me feel better." You tell him. 

A few weeks later...

The last few weeks have passed really quickly and the comments of the people have calmed down too. There still have been mean and hateful comments, but you decided to ignore them. You guys finished shooting for the season and go on break. Jensen and you have decided to stay at his house in Austin for the time. 

Right now you are waiting for your flight to Austin, Texas. Then a fan approaches you asking to take a picture with Jensen after that, they've taken the picture, the fan calls you a bitch and you sit there in shock, bot knowing what to say or how to react. 

"What's your problem? You come here to call my girlfriend a bitch? You're not even a real fan if you're acting that way. Don't you have any respect?" He asks angrily, still in a normal tone, and the fan looks shocked, swallowing hard at how Jensen has reacted.  The fan disappear with wide eyes walking back to the people she's there. "Babe, I'm so sorry." Jensen tells you softly taking your hand in his and squeezing it gently. 

"It's not your fault." You say with a weak smile, feeling horribly and also overwhelmed for hearing something like that in real life. "Flight 678912." The airport calls out. "C'mon, our flight back home." You say to change the topic. Gen told you to be confident and strong, you remind yourself, but it doesn't seem to help right now. You enter the plane and go to your seats. "Misha?" Jensen asks confused. "Oh, hey guys." Misha says with a smile. "What are you doing in a plane to Austin?" Jensen asks curiously. "Ehmm..." "Because Gen and Jared have a barbecue tomorrow, you forgot about that?" You ask Jensen and save Misha, smiling at them. 

You want to throw a birthday party for Jensen and Misha and everyone will be there. 

"Oh yes." Jensen says laughing. By the way Gen and Jared really have a barbecue tomorrow. 

Today is the wedding of Ed, it's really an advantage that the marries so late that day. Jensen puts his arm around your shoulders, so that you can lay your head on his shoulders, because you're pretty tired since you didn't sleep so much that night. You were busy packing your suitcase and making sure you got everything. 

4 hours later...

"Babe, wake up we are landing." Jensen wakes you up  gently, causing you to whine slightly. You rub your eyes and give him a tired smile. You get out of your seats and go to the station where you get the baggage. You get your things and walk outside where Gen and Jared are waiting for you to pick up. 

"Hey you two." You say hugging both of them, with a smile before Jensen and Misha do the same. "Where is lil Shep?" You ask with a huge smile. "Sleeping at home." "Sad to hear, I wanted to see him." You say with a pout. "You will see him tomorrow, but now we will get you home." Gen tells you softly. You nod with a slight pout. Jensen, Misha and you get in the car.

20 minutes later...

"Thanks for picking us up." You say gratefully. "No problem." Jared says smiling. You and Jensen take your suitcases out and Jared and Gen drive away.

"Keys?" You asks and Jensen gives you the keys before you walk to the door and unlock it. When you open it, you see a lot of rose petals. "How did you do that?" You say with a huge smile. "Not me, but Gen." He tell you. You enter the house and he closes the door behind you. 

"Y/n/n, do you want to move in? Again?" He asks hesitantly with a shy smile. "I know you have an apartment just 20 minutes from here but I-" 

"Of course I want to move in. Again." You interrupt him laughing, smiling lovingly. "Really?" He asks kind of surprised and you nod. He kisses you lovingly, both of you smiling into the kiss.

"I love you." He says between the kisses. 

"I love you too." He kisses you again with more passion, but you stop him, smiling lovingly at him. 

"We should get ready for the wedding." You say softly patting his chest. 

"But I wanna do some other things." He says with a pout and starts kissing your neck. "Jensen stop." You say giggling. He pouts at you and squeezes your ass gently before pulling away. 

You take your suitcases upstairs to the bedroom, while you walks upstairs, Jensen slaps your ass playfully. You giggle and shake your head before opening your suitcases to look for your dress. Then you walk inside the bathroom and realise, nothing has changed. It makes you smile. 

It's a bit weird to move in for the second time, but you can live with that. Jensen's home has always been more home than the apartment you have 20 minutes away. You get out of your clothes putting them into the laundry basket, since you sweated duding travelling. Jensen walks inside the bathroom grinning widely, when he sees you naked. You turn around and blush slightly at the way he's observing you. He bites his lip, when you see him checking you out. You turn the water on and get in the shower. 

"I'm gonna take a shower, you wanna join?" You ask him softly a moment later. "Yes." He says almost immediately and takes his clothes off to join you. 

You wash your hair and he does the same with his hair. You wash the rest of your body, until he stops you. "I want to do this." He says with a smile and washes your whole body. You close your eyes, enjoying how he touches your body.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Warnings: smut

Word count: 1,284 words

Suddenly he crashes his lips to yours and kisses you harshly as one of his hands is on your clit. You sigh heavily into the kiss as he starts circling it. He gets to his knees and starts eating you out. You don't know why he's eating you out so often, more than you suck him off. To he honest, Jensen just loves eating you out, tasting you on his lips and seeing the pleasure all over your face. Before you can hit your high he stops. You look at him as he gets back to his feet and notice his cock is extremely hard. 

You reach for his cock and starts stroking him him, giving him a few firm pumps, making him groan. You just know how to take cafe of his cock and before he could get carried away he stops you. He turns you around, pushing you against the wall ans slapping your ass as the tip of his cock teases your dripping entrance. You sigh heavily and close your eyes when he finally enters you. He immediately starts fucking you hard and fast, fucking you so hard the skin clapping is louder than the moans and groans that come out of your mouths. Sooner than you or him have expected, he has you cumming all over his cock. You moan his name breathlessly. 

He got close as well groaning your name quietly before he pulls his cock out of you to cum on the shower floor. You breathe heavily, when he rests his head against your back, giving it a gentle kiss. You both calm down and wash up until you turn the shower off. He gets out and grabs a towel for each one of you, giving you one.

"Thanks." You say softly and dry yourselves off. You notice Jensen smirking at you and you roll your eye playfully. "You happy now?" You ask him playfully and he nods happily making you giggle and shaking your head. Jensen leaves the bathroom and lets you get ready for the wedding. You put your underwear and dress on. You do your hair and makeup before walking into the bedroom to look through your suitcase. 

"Jensen!" You yell. You hear footsteps and Jensen enters the bedroom. "Yes?" He asks softly. 

"Have you seen my grey heels?" You ask desperately. 

"I think they're in one of my suitcases." He says with a smile and opens his suitcases. "Here they are." He says and gives you the pair of shoes. 

"Thank you, you're a sweetheart." You say smiling, he gives you a quick kiss and leaves again. 

You throw the shoes on the bed and look for your grey clutch, you find it quickly this time. 

"Are you ready?" Jensen yells from downstairs. 

"Yes." You yell back. You take your clutch and shoes, you go downstairs and sit down on the stairs to put your shoes on.

"We can leave." You tell him softly as you get to your feet. You two leave the house and walk to the car. You sit in the car and Jensen starts the car. "I'm vey happy to go there with you today." he says softly and puts on hand on your thigh. "Me too." You say with a loving smile and take his hand into yours, squeezing it gently. 

40 minutes later...

You arrive at the location, Jensen parks the car and you two get out of the car. "How does this work here?" He asks confused. You let out a small laugh. "Look, when we enter the hall we just have to look for our names. Our names are on the seats." "Oh." He says rubbing his neck.

You enter the hall and find your names quickly. "Here." Jensen says and you go to him and sit down. A lot of celebrities are already sitting on their seats and waiting that the ceremony starts. You look around and spot your ex-boyfriend Matt. 

"My ex-boyfriend is here." You say annoyed, rolling your eyes. "Wow." He says laughing. "I hope he won't talk to you." He says with a small sigh, since you two have enough drama going on. "Or what?" You tease him with a smile. "Will someone be jealous?" You ask playfully with a laugh. "Shut up." He says with a laugh and pecks your lips quickly. All the people are finally sitting on their seats and the ceremony starts.

You hear this special music and it reminds you of Gen and Jared's wedding, the thought makes you smile. The best friend of Ed weds them.

"Today we're all here to celebrate the love of Ed Swensen and Jo Carlsen." His best friend says with a happy smile. Ed and Jo are already in front of the altar, you don't really notice that because you're thinking about the wedding of Gen and Jared. 

Ed starts reading his vow, you dont pay much attention, because all you can think about is how it would be to be married yourself.

—Jensen PoV—

When I look at her, I see how lost she is in her own thoughts, but I can also see how happy she's fro them. The last time I saw her this way was at Gen and Jared's wedding. I know she wants to get married one day. If I could, I marry her right now. On the one hand it would be too fast, but on the other hand I don't want to wait anymore I want her to call my wife, mine, forever.

"You can kiss the groom now." Those words bring me back to reality, everyone is cheering. 

The married couple walks down the aisle, as they walk past us, y/n stands up and cheers happily. They laugh at her and walk through the door of the hall where we will be celebrating.

Everyone stands up and walks to their table, 

y/n and I do the same. We walk hand in hand to our table until I see a waiter with some drinks. She is sitting at the table and I walk to her with the drink. "Already a drink?" She asks laughing.

"Well, I guess." I say laughing. "Hey everyone, my husband and I just wanna say thank you for coming and making this day even more special." Ed says honestly with a happy smile. 

"Before everyone starts talking again, I want to make a toast. Ed, Jo? I am so happy for you two that you're finally married. You did it!" Ed's friend exclaims. "I know you've been through a lot of shit, but you did it and I am proud of you two. You two forever!" Ed's best friend says. 

They hug each other. Everyone is cheering. This could be Jared at our wedding I hope this day will come as fast as possible. "Enjoy the food and of course the drinks." He says laughing and raises his glass and everyone does the same.

"Cheers." Everyone exclaims. "I'm so happy for them." She says to me. "Me too." I know she also wants to get married, I see it in her eyes. When I propose, it has to be special. "Babe, I'll go and get some food. Do you come with me?" I nod and drink my drink to the end. I take her hand and we go to the buffet. She lets my hand go and takes a plate, while Ed comes over to me.

"Hey Jensen, I just want to say I'm happy for you two." He points at y/n/n behind me and then at me. "Thank you so much, I'm happy for you too." I pat his shoulder with a smile.

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Without you

A/N: the reader passed away a year ago and Dean has been struggling 

Warning: death, sadness and grieve

Word count: 833 words It’s been a year. A whole year without you by his side. A whole year without hearing your laugh and seeing your beautiful smile. A whole year since Dean’s alone with your 10-year-old daughter Sophia. A whole year without you being Sophia’s mom and giving the best advices, making her smile and giggle.

A whole year without true happiness. A whole year since you’ve been dead.

You got diagnosed with a rare condition, no cure, no meds, no help, nothing. There was nothing the doctors or Dean could do to make you feel better or help you to get healthy again. Dean was overwhelmed, overwhelmed to take care of you and Sophia at the same time.

Dean decided to move out of the big city and move to the land, since your daughter has always wished for a horse. He wanted to give Sophia everything she wanted to make her childhood as good as possible, even tho she told him how much she missed you. Everyday.

Dean had a lot of help from his parents and Sam. They found a great farm for him and Sophia. It just needed some restoration, so it’d be perfect for the two.

“Dad?” Sophia asks as she knocks on Dean’s office door. Dean was so lost in thought thinking about you, how much he missed you and wished you were there with him. Enjoying farm life like you two have always planned on.

He cleared his throat and gave Sophia a loving smile, “yeah?” He said softly. “Can we go for a ride with the horses?” She asked with puppy eyes, making him smile and he noticed how much she looked like you. She had your eyes and mimics. He was tired, but he couldn’t say no to that. “Sure, sweetheart.” He said softly and smiled lovingly when he saw her eyes lit up with happiness and joy. She immediately ran outside to the barns where the horses were.

Dean followed quickly and helped her saddle up her horse named Star, before he saddled up his own. He helped her sit on her horse and got on his as well. The farm was big it even had a small forest where the two of them always rode through. Until they stopped at a dock and got off their horses and sat down. Dean looked around liking it here, but you still were missing. There was no day he wasn’t thinking about or missing you.

“Daddy?” Sophia spoke up a moment later and he looked at her. Sometimes it was hard to look at her, because she looked just like you, but he loved your daughter more than anything. “Today’s a day…I miss mommy so much that it hurts.” She said tearing up and he had to fight his own tears. He pulled her onto his lap and hugged her close. “I miss her too, baby.” He told her gently, kissing the top of her head.

“But mommy isn’t feeling any pain anymore, you know that right?” He said tearing up and she nodded against his chest. “I miss her too, very much.” He told her almost breaking down himself. She hugged her dad close, knowing how much he missed her mom too. You were the best mom, she could’ve thought of, you two always had so much fun, going on trips, doing her hair and cuddling. Mom cuddles were the best.

A few weeks later it was your first death anniversary. Dean, Sophia, Sam, his parents and your parents went to your grave. They laid down a beautiful bouquet of your favourite flowers and Sophia lit up a candle with Dean’s help. Dean was a mess that day, drinking a bit too much the night before. He had to drink himself to sleep, because all he could think about was how you fell asleep in his arm and never woke up again, never. He cried so damn much, his ears and head hurt.

You were the love of his life and he knew that the day you closed your eyes forever, he’d never ever love a woman like he did love you. He remembered, how you two met. Dean used to work for the FBI, it was his first day when he walked into the office. You were one of the new ones as well and calmed down his nerves, you always did, you knew from the first second you met each other, how to calm him down. One of the things he appreciated so much about you.

You were his best friend, the person he could always count on and always talk to. He knew you always loved him the way he was and never tried to change him nor did you never left his side when things got complicated. You two got married so fast back then, but he just knew you were the one and he was right.

Sam, his parents and your parents gave Dean and your daughter some space. “I miss her so much, Dad.” Sophia sobbed ad Dean let out a sob as well, wrapping an arm around her shoulder. “I miss her too.” He sobbed looking at your grave. Your grave said, “In memory of Y/N Winchester, a beloved daughter, beloved wife and beloved mother.”

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I thought you never would… - Chapter 5

Chapter five

warnings: mention of rape, nervousness 

word count: 3,368 words

Dean frowned when he saw the message, because for him it was just a fight not an end of a friendship. Sure, he was annoyed and really mad, but he appreciated you a lot. You were fun to talk to, you gave him really good advices. He was just annoyed about the things you said about the thing that was going on between him and Kira. 

"I'm sorry about what I said. You're right it wasn't fair, not at all. I need you to understand what's going on between me and Kira is my business. Also the friendship isn't over." He texted back a moment later. You sniffled when you saw your phone lit up and grabbed your phone almost immediately. You looked at the screen, clicking on the message. You felt a small smile creep up your face as you read over the message. You felt relieved that the friendship wasn't over, but you were kinda annoyed about the part with Kira. You decided to ignore it, since the friendship was more important to you than what was going on between him and Kira. 

"Okay...can we go back the normal now?" You texted. You hated fighting. You hated the feeling that fights gave you. They made you feel tense and on edge. Especially with Dean. You had never seen Dean in real life nor did you had known him that long, but you already were falling for him. Faster than you probably should had. Sometimes you had hope, Dean might had liked you too. Dean gave you a lot of compliments, like that he thinks you're cute or that you're really pretty. Ryan even once told you, that Dean told him that Dean was attracted to you, which gave you  a big confidence boost, you didn't know you needed. 

Once Dean kinda made an inappropriate compliment, for you it was charming, but it also could've been that it wasn't so inappropriate at all. He told you, that he thought your ass was really pretty and good looking, because he was checking out the pictures you had on your Instagram. You blushed so hard and you were so glad he couldn't see your face. 

Dean saw your message and also kinda smiled, wanting nothing more than getting back to normal with you, too. Firstly, he wanted to text you back, but decided against it quickly. He hit the FaceTime button and called you. You were surprised about him calling you, but you felt so happy. So you picked up the call quickly and smiled shyly at him. "Hey." He said softly and smiled, but the smile quickly turned into a frown. "Have you been crying?" He asked as he he noticed your red and puffy eyes. "N-No." You managed to say. He looked at you and felt even more worse about how he made you feel. He made you feel so bad, that you cried. It was the first time he felt emotional about making someone cry. 

"You have been and I'm sorry I made you feel that way." He told you softly and honestly with a small smile. "I-It's okay." You said with a nod. He sighed and gave you a small smile. "Since you want to go back to normal, you should come online." He said with a smile. You smiled brightly. "I'll be there in five." You told him with a happy smile, already feeling better. Before the fight, you bought yourself a train ticket to visit Dean's town. You were worried about the money you spend on it, when Dean started acting weird around you. You didn't tell Dean, but you did tell Ryan and Sam. They thought it was a really cool idea and the imagination of seeing you for real seemed fun. 

You hung up the call and joined the voice chat. "Hey, Y/N." Ryan said cheerfully. "Hey." You said with a smile. "So everything's good now?" He asked curiously, since he was kinda worried about both of you. "Yeah, everything is good now." Dean answered. "Yeah." You said softly and smiled in relief to yourself.

After that fight you and Dean ended up FaceTiming every night again. Him and Kira stopped meeting, which you didn't know why and out of respect you didn't ask why. To be honest after that fight Dean thought about you a lot, thinking about how important you'd become to him in such a short time.  He thought about how right you were about him and Kira, since Kira started messing with his head and trying to get back with him, when he didn't want to. She even started leaving and forgetting things at his place on purpose. He was getting annoyed with her and told her, they shouldn't hang out for a while. 

To be honest, Dean caught himself crushing on you. He felt his heart flutter every time he heard you laugh, saw your smile and his phone lit up with your name. He had a crush on you, he didn't know why, but there was just something about you that made him feel that way. What was also weird to him, because he'd never seen you in person. 

The day had come, when you made your way to Dean's town and frankly, you thought, you were shitting yourself. You were so nervous and excited to see those people, you'd been talking to on a daily basis for the last three months. Dean had been tidying up for the last two hours, because his place was a mess. Dean never liked cleaning up, but he knew he had to. Dean was probably more nervous than you were. He was nervous about sharing a bed with you and you were too. Dean's place was small and he just had a couch that only could fit two people. Since Ryan and his brother Sam were coming too, he had to improvise. 

He was so nervous about asking you if it was okay for you to share a bed. You blushed so hard, your cheeks were burning. It was your first time sharing a bed with a boy and Dean didn't know that. Still, he was nervous and also excited. He secretly hoped to cuddle and hold you in his arms like he imagined the last few weeks. 

Dean finished cleaning his place and wiped his forehead. He sighed happily, because he was finally done and he swore himself to clean up regularly, so he wouldn't spend hours to clean up. He plopped down on his couch for a moment to take a deep breath and drink some water. He noticed a weird smell and sniffled himself letting out a small cough  at how much he smelled like sweat. At first he didn't mind and then he remembered he had to share a bed to you and he was quicker on his feet than he ever was. He walked into his bedroom and grabbed a pair of boxers, before walking into his bathroom to take a shower. 

Just when he left his bathroom, someone knocked on his door and he opened it to see it was his big brother he hasn't seen in months. "Lil Bro, it's been some time." Sam said with a happy smile, stepping inside Dean's little apartment. 

"Wait, just let me get dressed real quick." He said with a small laugh and rushed into his bedroom, getting dressed into a pair of joggers and a shirt. When he entered his living room again, he pulled his brother into a tight hug. A hug he didn't know he needed. He realized, how much he missed his brother. He missed having him around and he missed having Sam defend Dean in front of their mom, when things got ugly. "So good to see you." Dean said as they pulled away from the hug. Sam smiled winking at his brother and patting his back. 

"I see you cleaned up." Sam said with a laugh and Dean let out a small laugh scratching his eyebrow. "Yeah, I did. Took me hours." He said with a nod. "And all of that for Y/N." Sam said wiggling his eyebrows. Dean chuckled trying to hide his nervousness. Dean talked to Sam about how he felt about Y/N a few days ago, so Sam was just messing with Dean. "So when is Ryan coming?" Sam asked a moment later. "He probably will be here in an hour." He told his brother. "You wanna drink something?" Sam nodded and Dean walked into the kitchen, returning with a bottle of water. The brothers caught up on everything, Sam telling him, how he likes college and that Dean should visit him some time soon. 

The time passed by quickly and you were just 5 minutes away from Dean's town's train station and your heart was hammering more than ever. You were so damn nervous, asking yourself, how the weekend might could end up. Would it be awkward and weird or would it be cool and fun? You literally had no clue and idea, how to feel about it. You also had no idea, how to feel about seeing him and sharing a bed with Dean. You were excited and curious, but also anxious and nervous. 

Those five minutes passed by so quick, you didn't even realize. You swallowed hard, when the doors opened. When you got out of the of the train, Dean immediately recognised you. His heart was beating so fast and the closer you got the more nervous he became. You recognised Dean too and he was even better looking in person. He was so beautiful and hot, you felt a lump form in your throat and you became so nervous and shy, when you approached him. "H-Hey." He stuttered out as he admired you. You looked up at him and smiled shyly, "H-Hi." You said shyly before he pulled you into a hug hesitantly. His smell embraced you and gave you comfort, he smelled so good, you didn't notice how you were snuggling into his chest. Dean felt the same about the hug, hugging you closer. He felt so happy about finally holding you in his arms.

That moment was so much better than he imagined and he imagined that moment so many times, he didn't remember. Holding you made him feel so good and comfortable, he wished he'd never had to pull away. When you two pulled away eventually, you smiled shyly and blushed deeply. He smiled softly at the sight. The two of you began walking to Dean's place, "So where are the others?" You asked curiously. "They're at my place...so how was your journey?" He asked softly. You nodded and smiled, "it was long, but okay and interesting." He smiled, "So how long did you take to get here?" He asked. "Three hours." You said with a small laugh. "But absolutely worth it." Dean smiled at that. 

The two of you talked a bit, it was a bit weird, since you two have never seen each other in person, but it was okay. You two got to his place, just a few minutes later. "You really live on the highest floor?" You asked out of breath as he chuckled. "Almost, there are two more floors." He told you and you took a deep breath. He lived on the 5th floor, which were a lot of stairs, since you got the luck, you had an elevator in the apartment complex you lived in with your mom. 

You entered the apartment and smiled, when you saw Sam and Ryan. "Hey, Y/N. Nice to finally meet you in person." Sam said happily and smiled, pulling you into a hug. You hugged him back, the hug was different tho. Not as special as the hug you shared with Dean. You pulled away much sooner than you did from Dean. Ryan smiled happily and pulled you in a quick hug as well. "So how was the trip?" Sam asked curiously. "It was okay." You said with a smile. 

"You don't wanna sit down?" Ryan asked with a laugh as he noticed that you still were standing in the middle of Dean's living room. You blushed deeply, all of the sudden you felt so shy around them, so you sat down next to Sam hesitantly, who gave you a soft smile. You smiled shyly and looked around a bit. "So what we're making for dinner?" Dean asked clapping his hands together. "Hmm, I'm in the mood for chicken and french fries." Sam said. "Oh, me too." You said with a smile and Dean nodded with a warm smile. "Ryan, you cool with that?" Dean asked and Ryan nodded with a smile. "Sure." 

Dean nodded with a smile and disappeared into the kitchen, you followed him. "You need help?" You asked softly. Dean turned his his head, stopping cutting the potatoes. "No." He said softly. "You sure?" He nodded and gave you a smile. "You should take a break, just send Sam in." He told you with a small laugh. You nodded and went back inside the living room to tell Sam, Dean asked for him. Sam rolled his eyes playfully with a smile before joining his little brother. 

The time went by really quickly and dinner was served. It looked delicious, it was such a simple dish, but still it looked so good. Dean made the fries himself, you loved self made fries. You grabbed your fork and took a bite, "Wow, Dean, that's so good." You said happily and he blushed deeply. "Hey, I helped too." Sam said playfully. Dean chuckled a bit as you rolled your eyes playfully. 

You finished dinner and helped cleaning up the dining table and plates. You helped Dean cleaning up the kitchen. Dean was impressed, because Kira never did something like that. He admired you, how you cleaned the plates. You didn't even ask, you just helped cleaning up. You thought it was fair, because you stayed at his place and ate his food. "Thank you." Dean said when you two finished cleaning and you nodded with a soft smile. "Of course, that's the least I can do." You said softly with a smile. Dean smiled softly, "You know, Kira never helped or did anything when she lived here." He told you and you were a bit shocked, since your mom taught you to help and clean up, when you were staying at someone's place. 

"Never?" You asked with wide eyes and he shook his head no. You sighed, "Uhm, okay." You answered not wanting to say anything about her, because the mood could had changed, when you did. Dean frowned slightly. "You know, my mom taught me to help and clean up when you're at someone's place." That's all you said and Dean nodded, because his Dad told him the same. You walked back into the living room and plopped down on his couch and Dean sat down next to you as well, while Ryan and Sam were playing 'Call of Duty'.  

Dean lit his cigarette and started smoking, when you answered your mom's text. You and your mom got into a big fight about you visiting Dean miles away from your hometown, because there were three boys and no parents. Sure, you didn't know Dean in person, but you knew he wasn't a bad person, that did things like having sex with girls against their will.  Your mom really thought, they would rape or abuse you. You knew your mom was just worrying about you, but sometimes it was exhausting. She and her ex-boyfriend broke up like a month ago, because he cheated on her in December, and she started to believe every man was like that. So it got really annoying. 

You explained to your mom, that you'll be careful. She gave you some money, in case you needed to get a motel room. She was just making sure you were safe, because she really worried about you. So you texted her, you got there safe and you were doing fine. There was nothing to worry about. Your mom felt relieved and told you, to call her when you have some time to you alone. 

"We should have a few drinks and play a game or something." Dean said and you looked up from your phone to look at him. "Sounds fun." You said with a smile. "Uh, sure just a moment." Ryan said and you put your phone away. Ryan and Sam joined you on the couch a moment later. Dean placed a glass in front of everyone and made drinks for you guys. You started hanging out and having couple of drinks. You listened to music and had a lot of fun and laughs with the boys. They became so close to you in such a small amount of time. Those were people you could talk to about everything and you were grateful for that. 

It was time to get ready for bed, because Dean had to go to work the next day because of his boss, who made him help cook something. Dean told you, it'd be 4 hours max and he'd be back then. You were a bit sad, but you understood. You were glad you changed into comfortable clothes, when Dean was making dinner, so you didn't have to change then.

You blushed deeply, when Dean lied down next to you. He smiled at you and you returned the smile shyly. You two lied there for a moment before he looked at you again, "I'm really glad you're here." He whispered softly and you felt your heart flutter. "I'm glad, too." You whispered back. "Are you comfortable?" He asked you softly and a bit worriedly. You nodded almost immediately, "I am, thank you." You said softly, snuggling into the blanket. "The sheets smell so good." You hummed and Dean let out a small laugh. "I changed the sheets this afternoon." He whispered and you smiled softly. 

Dean admired you in the dark, you were so cute and pretty. He still couldn't believe, that you were there, lying next to him. He watched you, while you got comfortable. He wanted to hold you so badly, so he couldn't stop asking the question. "Can I hold you?" He whispered softly. You blushed deeply, but you were so happy that he asked you. You had wished for nothing more than this. You nodded to him, not really trusting your words. Dean felt his heart skip a beat, so he got comfortable as well and wrapped his arm around you hesitantly, hugging you close. You blushed so hard, you were glad it was dark inside his bedroom. You felt yourself snuggle into him without noticing and he smiled holding you close. 

For him it felt so good, holding you felt so good, a feeling he never had when he hold Kira. You gave him comfort, he just felt comfortable around you. He never felt this good holding someone. A few minutes later you were nuzzling his chest and he showed you pictures of his younger self and memories he made with his friends. "That's my best friend Cas, he died over a year ago." He told you with a small smile and you felt bad. You finally understood, who it was in the pictures he was in with a guy. The pictures were in his living room, you remembered a motorbike in one of the pictures he had in the living room. "He died in an accident... he had with his motorbike." He told you quietly and you just wrapped you arms around him, hugging him tightly and close. 

"I'm really sorry for your loss." You whispered softly and he rested his head on your chest, making you blush a bit, but to be honest you didn't mind. He nodded holding you close too, "It still hurts a lot and I miss him so much." He whispered. "I see that." You whispered softly as you rubbed his back. "Thank you." He said softly, when he looked up at you and you nodded. He enjoyed your touch, while you two held each other close.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 12

Chapter 12

warnings: language, rape

word count: 1,568 words

I pat his shoulder. "Thank you." He says with a huge smile. I walk to y/n, when I notice her annoying and disgusting ex-boyfriend. He talks to her and I can tell, she's definitely uncomfortable, so I walk towards them and wrap my arm around Y/N's waist. 

"Is everything alright?" I ask her softly, caressing her waist gently. "Yes." Matt answers.

"I didn't ask you." I told him firmly, looking disgustedly at him. She looks me in the eyes, giving me a small smile. "Jens, everything is fine." She says softly before taking my hand and leading us to our seats and table. I let go of her hand halfway before walking back towards Matt, looking him in the eyes. "If you ever harass or touch her again, I'm gonna hurt you." I tell him angrily. 

"Try that." He says with a provocative smile and I took a deep breath, so I wouldn't cause a scene. 

I grab another drink, some food and go back to our table, where y/n/n is eagerly waiting for me. "What did you say to him?" She asks with a small sigh, rubbing her temple. "Nothing special, why are you asking?"I tell her innocently, casually sipping my drink.  "Well, I don't want my boyfriend and ex-boyfriend cause a scene." She says with a sigh.

"What did he want from you?" I ask curiously. 

"He said, that he misses me and that he's sorry about what happened and bla bla." She says annoyed and rolls her eyes. "What happened?" "He cheated on me." She says putting some food in her mouth. I clench my hand tightly around my drink, sighing heavily. "What an asshole." I breathe out. 

"I told him, that I'm the happiest woman on earth with you by my side." She says happily, kissing my cheek. "And I'm the happiest man because of you." I say, cupping her face and lean in to kiss her softly. We both smile into the kiss, before I get too carried away, I pull away and rest my forehead against hers. "I love you." I tell her softly. "I love you too, Jensen." I give her a loving smile and kiss her forehead, before completely pulling away. I take her hand in mine, giving it a gentle squeeze.

4 hours later...

-omniscient POV-

Jensen had a lot of drinks and is really drunk.

He tells the people many funny stories and how much he loves y/n. Y/n talks to Ed's best friend. 

"I think I have to pee." She says laughing and goes to the toilet. Matt just waited for a moment like this to follow her. He's been watching her the whole night, waiting to catch her alone. He follows her and grips her wrist tightly.

She frowns slightly and feels her heart hammer as someone grips her wrist tightly, almost painfully. She looks up and her eyes widen, when she see it's Matt. "Let me go." She tells him firmly, but he just grips her wrist just tighter. "Why would I? You little slut." He says and pushes her against the wall. She swallows hard, getting kind of scared. "Matt, you're hurting me." She tells him as she tries to get out his grip. "You miss my cock don't you?" He tells you, his face just inches away from yours. You can smell the alcohol, he must've been consuming all night. "N-No." She tells him shaking her head. He grins not believing her, that she doesn't miss his cock, not even caring that she's here with Jensen. He starts kissing her neck and drives his hand under her dress, squeezing her ass. She feels herself tear up and he places his hand on her mouth. She lets out a sob as he tries to pull her panties down, just as Matt bends down slightly she kicks him into his balls. 

She cries for help and sobs as she runs into the main hall, everyone's looking at her. Jensen frowns not understanding anything as he gets to his feet. "Hey, hey, what's going on?" He says softly as he grabs her shoulders gently. She feels a lump form in her throat as she sobs shaking her head.  He frowns not understanding anything as she hugs him close, sobbing into his chest as Matt enters the main hall, rubbing his man hood. Jensen feels his anger built up and helps Y/N sit down, before walking towards Matt. "You did that to her?" Jensen says dangerously low, feeling his lip twitch. Matt grins and shrugs, but before Matt can say anything, Jensen grabs him by his collar. Jensen pushes him against the wall firmly, "I told you, if you ever ever touch or harass her again, I'm going to hit you." Jensen almost yells, before his fist hits Matt's face. Matt looks at him with a grin, "I touched that slut's ass." He says and Jensen feels his blood boil. Jensen's fist collides with Matt's face so hard, the hielt sends him to the ground. 

Before Jensen can hit him again, Ed pulls Jensen away. "Hey, stop it!" He tells Jensen and Jensen breathes heavily, trying to control himself. Jensen closes his eyes for a moment, trying to compose himself. "What's going on?" Ed asks calmly as Jensen looks at Matt in disgust. "He touched Y/N." He tells him, still breathing heavily. 

"What happened?" Jo asks Y/N softly,

who is still crying a lot. "He tried to rape her!" Jensen yells. "That's a lie, she wanted to have sex!" Matt yells back. 

She is crying not understanding what's happening. She feels so many emotions right now, but what she feels the most is dirty. She feels dirty. A man has touched her, a man who isn't her boyfriend. She feels so overwhelmed, not knowing how to process what just happened. 

"Cut the shit, Matt. You stupid shit tried to rape her!" Jensen yells wanting to approach and hit Matt again, but Ed stops him. Jensen's a bit surprised at how much power, the little man holds. So he backs off from Matt and sits down next to Y/N. "Matt, if you don't leave, I'm calling the police." Ed tells Matt. 

"It's my fault, I should go." She says really confused, sniffling slightly. You grab your purse, swallowing hard. Ed and Jensen both frown. "Hey, where you're going?" Jensen asks softly as he pulls her into a hug. She feels paralysed or likes she's the n trance. She doesn't hug him close. Everyone's talking to her, but she doesn't hear them. It's a blur for her and all she hears is muffled voices. 

To be honest, Jensen is really shocked himself, since he's never seen her like that. He's never seen her so vulnerable and small. She's usually the one, who's strong and comfortable, standing her ground. All of this suddenly seems gone. 

"Matt, one more warning you better leave now." Ed tells him one more time. "Why would I leave? She just said herself, it's better if she leaves." He says with a shrug wiping his nose. "Just leave." Jensen tells him tiredly. "Aww, her bodyguard tells me now to back off?" He says and Jensen has to concentrate to not burst towards him and kick his ass. Jensen decides to ignore it, but quickly decides against it, when Matt shoves his shoulder. Y/N stumbles slightly, so he sits her down gently. Ed and Jo approach her and try to talk to her, when Jensen grabs Matt by his collar one more time and drags him outside. Matt stumbles to the ground and Jensen spits on him, "Now leave." He tells him before walking inside her again. 

"I am so sorry, Ed. I'm sure that's how you two didn't imagine how your wedding would go." Jensen tells him, feeling a bit embarrassed. Ed places one hand on Jensen's shoulder, giving him a small smile. 

"It's not your fault and you don't have to go, but I thinks, it's better for her." He tells Jensen softly and Jensen nods. "Do you know by any chance if here is a motel or hotel around, because I can't drive and neither can she." 

"Yes, just 5 minutes from here by foot. You have to go along the street, then you'll see it." Ed tells Jensen with a small smile. "Thank you so much." Jensen tells him gratefully, before grabbing their things. He lifts Y/N up into his arms and carries her bridal-style out of the location.

Jensen pays for their room and the employee gives him the keys for the room. Jensen carries Y/N to their room and enters the room with her in his arms. 

He places her gently on the bed, before taking his shoes off. He turns around to place their things on the table. "I-I'm so s-sorry." She sobs out, causing him to turn around and kneel in front of her. 

"You don't have to apologise." He tells her softly and kisses her forehead gently. "You should get some rest, I'll be right back." He says softly. "No, p-please don't leave." She sobs and he nods. He sits down next to her on the bed and hugs her close, rubbing her back gently. She sniffles, "It's okay, I'm here." He whispers softly. She snuggles close and holds onto him as Jensen rests his head on top of hers.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 13

Chapter 13

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"We should undress you." He tells her softly. "Are you okay with that?" He asks her softly and she nods. "O-Okay." She says and Jensen starts taking her shoes off. When he wants to takes her dress off she backs away and he nods in understanding. He takes his button up off and his t-shirt too before giving his shirt to her. She takes it with a shy smiles before taking it on, after pulling her dress down her legs. She lies down on the bed as Jensen takes his slacks off and lies down next to her. 

He pulls her into his arms and she snuggles into his chest. Jensen rubs her arm gently, "You're safe." He whispers softly and kisses her forehead. 

"Thank you." She whispers, before they doze off to sleep. 

The next morning when Jensen wakes up, Y/N is still asleep as he climbs out of bed and takes his slacks on, before leaving the room to call Gen. He tells Gen everything that has happened the day before. He feels so helpless and clueless about what happened. He doesn't know, how to help or make her feel better, but Gen tells him, all Y/N needs is him to be there for her. Jensen thanks her and walks back inside the room he shares with Y/N. 

He smiles at the sleeping form of her, at least in her sleep she looks peacefully. When closes the door of the room, Y/N slowly stirs awake and Jensen smiles lovingly at her as he sits down on the bed next to her.  "Good morning." He whispers softly and kisses her head as she snuggles into his side. He rubs her arms gently smiling at her, but frowns as he notices the dark bruises her wrist carries. "Are you okay?" He asks her softly as he looks at her wrist and she quickly covers it with the blanket. She nods and Jensen can look right through her lie, but doesn't say anything. 

She gives him a small smile and disappears into the bathroom. She looks at herself in the mirror, gripping the sink tightly as she feels herself tear up. She feels disgusted by just looking at herself. She's so thankful, that she's found a moment, where she could free herself from him. She's never seen Jensen hit someone and he's only done that because of her. She washes her face and dries it with the towel, before taking her dress on she's taken with her inside the bathroom.

Y/N walks out of the bathroom and returns Jensen's T-Shirt, she's been wearing the night before. Jensen gives her a smile and she returns it slightly.

She walks back into the bathroom and closes the door. She lean against the door  and takes a deep breath. You got this. You're safe with Jensen. 

Jensen knocks on the door, "You okay. Y/N/N?" He asks you softly. "Yeah." She tells him, lying to him and herself. She walks out of the bathroom a moment later. Jensen is still in front of the bathroom and places his hands on her shoulder. "Talk to me baby." He says softly and she starts sobbing as he pulls her into his arms. He hushes her softly and hugs her close, rubbing her back gently. 

He cups her cheek gently and when he looks at her, she looks away. "None of what happened yesterday is your fault, you hear me?" He says softly. She nods as she still sobs. When she looks up at him, he notices how broken she looks. The shine he loves to see in a her eyes seems gone. 

Few hours later...

Y/N and Jensen have been home for quite some time. During the drive home, they haven't talked a lot nor did they when they've got home. Y/N has disappeared into bathroom for about an hour to shower, trying to wash off Matt's dirty hands and touches. Jensen's felt devastated, because he hates seeing the woman he loves so hurt and broken. He thinks for now, he should give her some space, because she doesn't want to talk and he has to accept that. 

She's curled up on the couch in the living room, watching Jane the Virgin, trying to distract herself from the events from yesterday. 

The doorbell rings and she gets off the couch to answer the door. "I'll get the door." She yells. "Fine." Jensen yells from his office. She opens the door, surprised to see Gen. "Hey, what are you doing here?" She asks in confusion and Gen just walks past her. "We'll see us in a few hours." Y/N tells Gen. 

"I know, but I wanted to talk to you." 

The two of them walk into the living room and sit on the couch."About what do you wanna talk?" She asks her curiously. 

"I know what happened last night." She tells you with a small sigh and smile, pulling you into a tight hug.. "I'm so sorry." Gen whispers. Seems like Jensen told her. Great. "It's okay." She lies. Gen sighs softly as she pulls away from Y/N. "Y/N, don't lie to me, I can see through your mask." Gen tells her softly and Y/N looks away from her, chewing on her lip. 

"I'm gonna kick his ass, I mean Jared will." She says playfully, laughing slightly and trying to cheer you up. "I'm just thankful, that I freed myself and that Jensen was there." She says as she feels herself teat up again and Gen hugs her close. When she is around Y/N just feels comfortable, she can be herself around Gen and just let her feeling and emotions free. Y/N tells Gen, how she went to the restroom and Matt followed her. 

"What a son of a bitch," she says angrily and shocked. "How can a man do something like this to a woman you've been with, I cannot understand that." She says as Jensen enters the living room. "Hey Gen, thanks for coming." They hug. "I'm gonna leave you two alone." Jensen says. "No, stay." Y/N tells Jensen and he nods with a small smile, sitting down next to her. 

"Y/n/n, you have to talk about what has happened. I know it hurts, but you have to." Gen starts and she looks at Jensen. "I'm- we are always there for you." He says and Y/N nods. She tells them everything what has happened in details, when she finishes, she sobs so hard. Jensen looks hurt, angrily and sorry for her at the same time.

"This fucking son of a bitch, how could he wait for a moment like this? Just to get you to sleep with him?! I can't believe that!" Jensen exclaim in anger.  "Jensen chill out." Gen says softly, while Y/N is still crying. She feels so much better, after telling them what exactly happened. "Thank you guys." She sniffles with puffy red eyes. "For what?" Gen asks confused. 

"For everything, for always being there when I need you, for being by my side and having my back all the time." Gen kisses Y/N's cheek. "You're my best friend and I-I love you. Of course I am always there for you and have your back. Like you always got mine." She says hugging her. She stands up a moment later and smiled at them. 

"But now I gotta go and prepare everything for the BBQ." She says goodbye to Y/N and Jensen and leaves. Y/N sits down on the couch and continues watching 'Jane the Virgin'. Jensen sits down next to her. She looks at him with a small smile. He puts his arm around her and she snuggles into his chest. He kisses her head gently. 

"We don't have to go to this BBQ, Jared and Gen would understand." Jensen tells her softly and she knows, he means well. "I know, but I need to be around the people I love." She tells him and he smiles. She really needs the distraction from that what has happened last night. She doesn't want to think about what happened too much. 

"You are around me." He says playfully with a smile, she rolls her eyes playfully, smiling slightly and playfully hit his chest. "Jensen you know how I meant that." "I just wanted to see you smile." He says softly. 

"I love you, you know that?" She says with a smile. 

"I know." He says softly and kisses her. He deepens the kiss and kisses her more passionately until she pulls away, because she knows where it ends. 

"Jay, I-I can't do this." She says and gets up. "Did I do something wrong?" He asks in concern and gets up as well to pull you in a hug, but she backs off.

"No, it's just- I just feel so disgusting and dirty. I'm sorry." "I am sorry, you have no reason to apologize. I guess, I rushed a bit." He is about to leave her, but she stops him. "Jensen, it's not your fault. I-I'm so sorry that I am so different towards you, you don't deserve this. But he broke something inside me and I don't know what. When I think about Sex it was always something enjoyable but now? It's something I'm afraid of because of him. I'm so sorry. 

I love you, but I don't feel ready." She says and walks into the kitchen. 

He follows her and reaches for her wrist gently. "I know, we just had sex yesterday." 

Wait, did he really just said that? 

"Are you fucking kidding me?! Is this all about sex?!" She almost yells at him.

"You're just thinking about sex right now?! Seriously?!" She adds. "No no no, I-I didn't mean it like that, I-I meant-" He stutters.

"How did you mean it then? That you're just thinking of sex?! Getting your dick wet, that's what's important now?!" She yells at him, feeling every kind of emotion right now, but disappointed is probably the strongest emotion she's feeling.

"No! I didn't even have a chance to to speak out!" Now he starts raising his voice. 

"Then speak out!" She yells at him. 

"What I meant, was that many things have changed in than less 20 hours. And it breaks my heart to see you this way. And I'm so sorry I rushed it, I-I'm...I-I'm really sorry." 

This incident definitely changed something between her and Jensen, although she knows he would never force her to do anything against her will. She doesn't know, if she'd enjoy sleeping with him. It feels so much different, just thinking about it. She sighs, still feeling angry with him, even though she knows how he meant it. 

Everything seemed perfect, then that shit happened to them. She also knows, what came out of his mouth was meant different, than it has sounded. When she looks up at Jensen, she sees the guilt and pain he's feeling right now and she also feels sorry about going off at him like that. 

"I know, you're really sorry and I know you didn't mean that. Yesterday, everything seemed so perfect with you. But today nearly everything is changed, I know he didn't rape me, but that he tried. I'm so thankful that you were there, but now when I think about sleeping with you it feels different." She tells him, barely looking at him. 

Jensen walks over to her and pulls her into a hug. "I hope you know, that i didn't mean it like that. All of that, just because of him. I would never force you to have sex with me, when you don't want that, never. It hurt's to see you like that, because you're the person who love to be happy and have fun, but that person seems lost somewhere inside you." He tells her quietly. She hugs him close as they both tear up, holding onto each other.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 14

warnings: drunk!reader, mad!jensen, fighting, embarrassment, talk about rape

word count: 1,675 words

A/N: sorry, that I changed the POV completely; but my 16-year-old self thought, that was a good idea to change it in the middle of a story sksksks sorry! 

"I'm sorry, that I believed you would just care about sex right now." She says quietly, feeling extremely guilty for actually believing that Jensen, the Jensen she loves so much, would only think about sex in this kind of situation. "It kinda sounded that way...and I'm really sorry it did." He says quietly, he loves you more than anything, he would never want that you feel pressured by him, the man you love so much. "I don't want to keep fighting with you." She mumbles into his chest, holding tightly onto him. 

"Me neither. I just...I just want you to be alright and what's best for you." He says softly, hugging her closer. "I know, that's why I feel so selfish sometimes." She says with a deep sigh, she feels like it's always about her, he's thinking way too much about her feelings. "No chick flick moments, Dean would say." She adds a moment later to brighten the mood. When she hears him chuckle, she feels her heart skip a beat. "He definitely would." He says playfully before kissing her head gently. 

They hold onto each other enjoying the moment. Jensen looks around the kitchen noticing it's almost 5:23 PM. "We should get ready." He whispers softly into Y/N's ear. She looks up at him with a small pout, causing him to smile lovingly at her. She looks at the clock, knowing he's right. She sighs softly and nods pulling away, "You're right, we should get ready." 

The two of them walk upstairs and separate their ways. Jensen's gets a shower, while Y/N gets dressed into something that aren't joggers and a top. She grabs a comfy jeans and a hoodie her mom gave her, before she flew to Vancouver to sign the papers for her role in Supernatural. Jensen walks into the bedroom a moment later and she can't help, but check him out. She notices how low the towel is wrapped around his hips, his toned abs, his perfectly shaped bow legs, are running through her mind. As much as she doesn't like thinking about sex right now, she can't help, but stare at the beautiful Jensen Ackles. "You okay?" Jensen's voice interrupts her thoughts, she just had about him. She blinks and looks at him, nodding, not really trusting her own words. 

He nods and gives you a small smile as he grabs a pair of boxers, a jeans and a flannel. He takes his clothes on, before applying some cologne. "You ready?" He asks her softly and she nods getting off the bed. They walks downstairs into the hallway to take their shoes on. When they're about to leave Y/N remembers the beer in the fridge. 

"Wait, the beer." She heads into the kitchen and takes the beer out of the fridge. "I almost forgot about that." He says with a small laugh. 

"Good, that I remembered." She says, smiling at him. Jensen walks out of the house after her and closes the door, making sure it's locked, before they walk to Jared's house. He takes her hand in his as he carries the beer with the other hand. 

A few minutes later, Y/N rings the doorbell and smiles lovingly, when she sees Gen with baby Shep in her arms. He sleeps peacefully, sucking onto his pacifier. "Hey." Y/N whispers softly and hugs Gen's side, kissing Shep's head gently. "Hey." She whispers back and smiles at them, before leading them inside. 

Jensen and Y/N walk into the backyard, where Jared, Misha, Mark and some other friends of the crew already are. Jared gets of his chair almost immediately up, when he sees them. "Hey." He says softly and pulls Y/N into a tight hug as Jensen greets the others first. 

"I'm so sorry." He whispers and kisses her head gently. She gives him a weak smile, nodding before she pulls away. Misha suddenly comes to her and pulls her into a hug, without saying a word, what she totally prefers in that moment. "Who's hungry?" Jared asks with a huge smile. Jared loves throwing barbecue parties. Jared loves, when the whole crew and cast gets together. "Me, I'm starving." She says with a small laugh, before Jared and Jensen walk to the grill. 

Y/N and Misha sit down and start catching up on each other. Thankfully,  Misha doesn't bring up the thing from the day before. 

''Dude, I don't know what to do.'' Jensen tells Jared, rubbing his chin. He looks up from the grill and looks at Jensen. "I'm so sorry, when Gen told me what happened, i didn't really know what to do. I just don't get, how men do that to women ?" Jared says with a small sigh. "I don't understand either." Jensen says with a small sigh and Jared gives him a sympathetic smile, patting his back. "Everything will be fine, just give her some time." Jensen nods with a small smile, before looking at Y/N and watching her laugh about something Misha said, thanks Misha. 

"But Jar." "Yeah?" Jared says and looks up from the grill to look at Jensen. "Since a week or so,  I have been thinking about...about proposing to Y/N and-." "You what?" Gen interrupts quietly, standing behind them. 

Jensen turns around and sees a huge smile on her face, then he looks back to Jared, who also smiles. "Nice to hear that, but isn't that a bit too fast?" Jared asks gently, just wanting his friends to be safe and happy. "Maybe, but I don't want to wait anymore. I love her, man. I want her to be my wife, like now. I want to make her happy and spend the rest of my life with her." He tells his friends. Gen and Jared look at each other, before smiling at Jensen. "Do you have a specific plan?" She asks curiously, since she thinks her best friend deserves the most beautiful proposal. 

"I thought about traveling through Europe and then in Venice or Amsterdam or Rome I want to purpose to her." He rambles a bit, excitement rushing through him. "Oh my God, you are so romantic." Gen says and hits his shoulder playfully. "But don't forget about JIBCON." Jared says with a laugh. "I never could." "I will help you with your plan." Gen says happily and excitedly. Jensen nods and smiles thankfully at her. 

"This will be amazing, when my best friends are finally getting married." He says happily. "I hope she's gonna say yes." "She will." He assures Jensen. 

"Who will what?" Y/N asks curiously. "Uh- My mom will be happy to see you again." He stutters nervously. "I will be happy too." She says with a smile, even tho she notices his nervousness. "Jensen, can I talk to you for a minute?" Jared asks. "Sure." He says and they walk into Jared's office.

That was weird, he's hiding something, Y/N tells herself. She looks around and notices all the alcohol, wanting to drown herself in it. She grabs herself a drink, a heavy one. To be honest, Y/N isn't much of a drinker, but right now she just wants to get drunk and forget about what happened. 

She sits down between Jared and Misha, while Jensen and Gen sit across from them. They eat and talk, have some laughs, but the drinks for Y/N kept coming. Jensen feels angry with her, if he's being honest, not understanding why she's drinking so much.

 "Y/N, maybe you should stop." Jensen says gently and is about to take the drink out of her hands, but she grips it tighter, turning away from him. "No, I-I don't think so." She slurs and finishes the drink in one go. Jared and Gen look worriedly at each other, before looking at Y/N again. 

She refills her glass with whiskey one more time and Jensen grows angrier. Gen walks over to her. "Honey, I don't know how you're feeling, but-". "Yes, you're right you don't know how I'm feeling." She snaps at her and cuts her off, sipping her drink. Jared and Jensen come over to the two. 

She refills it again and finishes it fast. "You'll definitely got enough." Jared says and takes her glass. She pouts in protest, slurring something they can't figure out. "Jensen, please just take her home, I-We don't want to fight with her. I mean she's completely drunk." Gen says soft, not really being mad at Y/N. "I'm so sorry, guys." Jensen says rubbing his face in embarrassment. "Y/N we go. Now!" He tells her firmly and grabs her wrist before  dragging her through the front door.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He yells at her, but she just laughs at him. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" She mocks him laughing, she really can't take him seriously at all. He walks in front of her and turns around. "I don't know what is going on inside your head, but you never drink your problems away, y/n/n." She just laughs. 

"It's senseless, you take nothing serious right now." He says with a sigh, rubbing his face. A few minutes later he opens the door, leading the two of them inside.  She looks at her phone, it's 5 minutes after midnight.

"Happy birthday Baby." She slurs and starts kissing him messily. Jensen feels a bit uncomfortable as hs pushes you away gently. "Thank you, but you're drunk. You will regret this next morning." He tells her softly. "I don't care." She slurs and starts kissing him harshly. 

"Y/N we can't do this." He swallows hard. "Of course we can, it's your birthday." She kisses his neck sloppily. "Enough, y/n!" He exclaims and pushes her gently away. "Just get some sleep." He says quietly. "When it's that what you want." She slurs and he sighs. She walks into living room and plops down on the couch, falling asleep almost immediately.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 15

Warnings: kinda mad Jensen, hungover!Reader, fluff, Jensen’s birthday, Jensen and the reader are fighting

Word count: 2, 179 words

She wakes up the next morning and feels a pounding headache. She opens her eyes, already forgotten, that she fell asleep in the living room. She looks at the coffee table and notices a note, a glass of water and aspirin.

Note: Hey, I thought you might need these, when you wake up. -Jensen

She takes the glass of water in her hands and swallow the aspirin quickly, finishing the whole glass. She starts realising, how she snapped at Gen and Jared. How she tried to drink her problems away and although she didn't want to have sex, she really tried to sleep with him, because it's his birthday. She feels more than embarrassed, she wishes the floor would swallow her, like right now. Oh shit the party. It's 11 am. She dials Gen's number and waits for her to pick up.

"Hello?" She says not too thrilled, when she sees Y/N's number and she can't blame Gen.

"Gen, it's me y/n/n, I-" she sighs and run a hand through her hair. "I-I wanted to apologise, how I acted, how I snapped at you I'm so sorry. How I ruined the party, I'm so sorry."

"Hey honey come down, it's fine. I know you're sorry, but you have to try dealing with and eventually forgetting it for your own sake, okay? Promise me that." She says softly with a small smile.

"I promise you that." Y/N chews on her lip.

"Anyway, you know my plans for today don't you?" She asks her.

"Uh yeah, Jared is gonna pick Jensen up at 1pm and I will come over at 1:20." She answers, nodding to herself. "Thanks. For everything. Bye." "Bye." They hang up. She walks into the bathroom and takes a quick shower. She dresses herself in ripped jeans and a blouse. When she walks into the kitchen, Jensen's busy with his phone, probably checking his twitter.

"Good morning, birthday kid." She says softly with a loving smile, but he doesn't respond the smile nor says anything. She frowns slightly, thinking he's giving her the silent treatment. "Is anything wrong?" She asks him and he looks at her for the first time.

"If anything is wrong? Did you really just asks that?" He scoffs.

"Since when do you drink your problems away, huh?" He adds and she sees him clenching his jaw. Great, now he's angry at me. "Look, uh- I'm sorry, Jensen. I know, what I did wasn't the right way to cope with my feelings and I'm really sorry, I know how angry you were-are, it's just I just wanted to get drunk...probably not my smartest move."

"Wasn't the right way, damn right it wasn't. Why did you get drunk in the first place?" "I'm sorry okay, I really am. I'm sorry how I acted when we got home, it's so embarrassing, just thinking about it. I don't want to fight on your birthday." She says with a sigh and small smile, walking to him and wrapping her arms around his neck. He doesn't look at her still feeling mad at her, they way she acted.

"I'm sorry, Jensen. It will never happen again I promise. I try to cope with it the right way, trying to move on, okay?" "Just do that never again." He scolds at her."I promise." He gives her a small smile and wraps his arm around her waist.

"What do you have planned for today?" He asks curiously and smirks, knowing you almost ten years, he just knows you have something planned for him. "Nothing much, just relaxing with my boyfriend on his birthday. Why are you asking?" she says, smiling innocently.

"Are you sure you didn't plan anything?" He raises his eyebrow at his girlfriend. "I'm pretty sure." She nods. "Good." "Jared picks me up at 1, I hope that's okay?" "Of course, why shouldn't be that okay?" "I don't know, because you wanted to spend some time with me." He says softly and hugging her closer. "We can do that afterwards." She says, smiling lovingly and pecks his lips.

"Do you wanna watch an episode of Jane the Virgin?" He asks hopefully and her eyes widen.

"Since when do you wanna watch that show? I knew you like that show!" She exclaims and hits his chest playfully. "Guilty." He smirks innocently and she laughs, shaking her head as she walks into the living room, Jensen close by her heels.

After a few episodes the doorbell rings. "I got it." She says softly and rushes to the door, opening it. "Hey." He says and hugs her from the side. "How long do I have to distract him?" He whispers. "For about three hours." She whispers and Jensen enters the hallway.

"Hey Dude, happy birthday." Jared says happily and gives him a tight hug. "Ready for golf?" Jared asks him after the hug. "Oh yes!" He exclaims happily. Jensen bids his goodbye to Y/N, so does Jared, before they leave. They leave the house and drive away.

About 20 minutes later Gen arrives and Y/N starts preparing food, drinks and a birthday pie. An hour later Misha and Mark arrive. "Hey guys." She says happily, while opening the door. She hugs both of them and they follow her into the kitchen. "Y/N/N what did you buy for his birthday?" Misha asks before he takes a sip of his water. "I bought him a trip with me." She says cheerfully. "That's amazing, dear." Mark says with his British accent and Gen looks at you.

"That's so romantic." Gen says dreamily, making Y/N laughs slightly. The doorbell rings one more time. "That might be my sister and her hubby." She says and walks to the door. "Hey sis." She says after opening the door and hugging her sister. "Hey Brad." Y/N hugs her brother-in-law.

"Thanks for the invitation." He says.

"Oh, it's my pleasure, Jensen will be happy to see you two." She smiles.

A few minutes later the doorbell rings. Again.

She opens the door to see Jensen's sister.

"Oh gosh, y/n/n. I am so happy to see you."

Mackenzie says hugging Y/N tightly.

"And you don't know how happy I am." She says happily and gestures for her to come in. "When will l Jensen be back?" She asks curiously while they go into the kitchen. "In a few minutes." Y/N says softly.

"Oh, then I am in time." She says happily.

"I guess so." Y/N says with a smile. "Oh hey, Mac." Y/N's sister says and they hug each other. A few more moments later she hears the front door opening.

"Babe, I'm home." Jensen calls through the house and she runs quickly into the hallway.

"Hey." She says to Jared and Jensen. Y/N pecks Jensen's lips and hugs Jared. "Jensen, I have a surprise for you." "What for a surprise?" He asks happily, already feeling excited.

"If I tell you, it wouldn't be a surprise anymore." She says, smirking. "Just close your eyes." She adds and places her hand in front of his eyes.

She holds his hand while leading him into kitchen. She grins at everyone, who's standing in the kitchen and they all smile happily and excitedly.

"Okay Jay, open your eyes." She says happily as she puts her hand away, he opens his eyes immediately, a big smile creeping up his face.

"Guys, what are you doing here? I am so happy to see you." He says happily and greats everyone.

"We're here for your birthday, man!" Misha says happily and pulls Jensen into a hug, wishing him a happy birthday, like everyone does. Jensen talks to the people, who came just for his birthday, catches up with them, asking them how their break will look like. An hour later, Y/N disappears into the kitchen checking on Jensen's birthday cake. She decorates it, as they all walk into the yard, when Jared and Gen carry the food Y/N made outside.

Y/N finishes his cake and walks into the yard with it as she starts singing 'Happy birthday', smiling lovingly at Jensen, when everyone joins her singing. Jensen feels his cheeks heat up, hating it, like every one does. It feels awkward, when people sing for someone on their birthdays.

Jensen smiles shyly and blows the candles out, "That's your favourite cake." Y/N tells him happily and he smiles lovingly at her pecking her lips gently. "So who wants cake?" Y/N asks all of them.

"Thank you." Jensen says later that night, when they're alone for a moment. "For what?" She asks confused as she sips her soda. "For throwing the sweetest and best party." He tells her softly. She smiles lovingly and pecks his lips gently.

"And it was an amazing surprise to see my sister, it's sad that my brother couldn't make it, but I like and appreciate it a lot." He says and kisses her temple gently, already not feeling too mad at her.

"Okay Jared we should leave, my sister is probably waiting for us." Gen says an hour later and stands up. Jensen and Y/N pout slightly, but nod in understanding. They say their goodbyes and leave. "We should probably leave too." Y/N's sister says. "Yeah, me too." Misha and Mark say at the same time. "Oh okay." Y/N says sadly, but they're right it's almost 11pm, they nearly spent the whole day together.

"I'll leave too, see you at dinner tomorrow." Mac says. They all say their goodbyes and leave. Y/N closes the door and walks into the living room. Luckily, Gen and Y/N cleaned up after they has dinner, so it's not too much they have to clean up on their own.

"So just you and me." Y/N says with a small laugh. "Yeah." He says softly and walks towards her with a smile, kissing her softly, before she pulls away with a happy smile.  "I got something for you." She says cheerfully as she smiles, grabbing the envelope with the tickets. "What is that?" He smiles. "Just open it." She says softly. He grabs the envelope and opens it, taking the tickets out. He looks at the country they're flying to, "Poland? Does that mean I finally meet the rest of your family?" He asks happily.

She nods with a huge grin. He never met the rest of her family, there was never the time and then the two broke up, but now is the best opportunity.

He kisses her lovingly, smiling into the kiss, before pulling away. "That's the best birthday present, ever. I can't wait to meet them." He says excitedly.

"You know, I always wanted to meet them." He says softly as he walks closer to her, pulling her into his arms. "Thank you." He says softly and she smiles lovingly, nodding.

"Let's go to bed." He says and leads them upstairs. They change into comfortable clothes and Y/N walks into the bathroom to remove her makeup and brush her teeth. Jensen does the same, when she lies down on, now, their bed. She turns on some music, they used to listen together, before they went to sleep, when they got together.

"Maybe we should bring some stuff from your apartment to this place." He says softly as he enters the bedroom again. "I'd love that." She tells him softly and smiles at him. He lies down next to her and pulls her info his arms. "Maybe we could redecorate." He suggests as he caresses her cheek gently. "Yeah, maybe." She says with a happy smile.

When Y/N finished Highschool, she actually wanted to become an interior designer, because she redecorated her childhood room at least 10 times, since she was 15, but then acting came up and she never followed that path.

He smiles lovingly at her and leans in kissing her gently, no pressure, just kissing his girlfriend, the woman he's missed so much, the only woman he ever imagined getting married to, the only woman he can call his best friend.

Maybe they end up making out, slipping tongues into each other's mouth, but nothing more. When Jensen gets painfully hard, he pulls away from kissing her, not wanting to push her, or make her feel like she has to have sex with him.

Y/N notices him being hard and can't help but stare at his cock, that screams for her touch, she swallow hard. "You don't have to do anything." He tells her softly, cupping her cheek and making her look away from his cock. "Okay, but I kinda wanna give you a handjob." She says biting his lip and he's kind of surprised, definitely not expecting that so soon.

He shakes his head in a confused kind of way, "You sure?" He asks softly. "You don't have to, you know, my cock has no priority." He says with a small laugh, but she nods eagerly.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 16

warnings: crying reader, death threats, verbal violence, fluff

word count: 1,604

A/N: enjoy reading!

Y/N wakes up the next morning, seeing Jensen staring at her and playing with her hair, a loving smile resting on his face as he admires her.

"Good morning." She says sleepily and he gives her a gentle kiss on the head. "Morning." He says softly and smiles lovingly. "Yesterday, really was the best birthday I had in years." He whispers softly as he holds her close, making her turn her head slightly. "Really?" She asks softly, caressing his chest gently.

"Yeah." He says softly and pecks her lips gently, earning a loving smile from her. "When is the dinner at your parents' today?" "At 6pm." He answers. "Great, then we can drive to my apartment and get my stuff." She says sitting up and stretching muscles.

"Yeah, then you're finally officially moving in." He says happily and gives her a soft and loving kiss.

She smiles and wraps the blanket around herself as she gets up, taking it with her

"Hey!" He yells. "Ups." She says innocently with a laugh and walks to her suitcase. She grabs fresh clothes and disappears into the bathroom to take a shower, getting ready for the day.

A few minutes later, she walks out of the bathroom and goes downstairs into the kitchen. She takes out a pan and starts preparing the dough for pancakes, mixing the ingredients, when she feels her phone buzz inside her pockets:

@jensenackles tagged you in a post.

She continues to make pancakes and tells him to sit down, when the dough is almost gone and the plate already filled. He sits down smiling as he watches her, to him she's the most beautiful and pretties woman alive. He just can't wait to pop the question.

Jensen watches every step she does and smiles. "Why are you smiling?" She asks with a small blush.

She gets plates for them and sits down. "Nothing, I'm just really lucky to have you." He says and she blushes with a shy smile.

"So romantic, Mr Ackles." She says playfully. "Well, I'm lucky too." She adds and pecks his lips gently, a smile resting on their faces. "Let's eat, I'm starving." He says happily as he looks at the pancakes. They eat breakfast, they talk about the party, he thanks you again for the party yesterday. They finish breakfast and keep talking.

"So when do we drive to your apartment and get your stuff?" He smirks, can't wait to make her finally move in with him, officially. "Yeah, I wanted to ask you the same." She says with a small laugh. "Then let's go." He says happily, already getting off his chair and grabbing his keys. She laughs at his excitement and quickly puts the dishes inside the dishwasher, before they walk outside.

They get there 20 minutes later and she tells him to walk into her apartment as she gives him her keys, so she can check on her mail, feeling surprised that she has so many letters, that don't seem to be bills. She opens one of the letters to see this:

You little hoe, I hope you gonna die soon. Jensen deserves so much better than you.

I cannot understand, why you two are back together. You're not good enough for him.

So please just die or I'll kill you, you bitch!

Tears start welling up in her eyes and she sits down on one of the stairs to stop herself from falling. She opens the other letters, more death threats, more people threatening to hurt her, more people wanting her to leave Jensen alone, more people who think she's a bitch. What's the worst, they know where she lives, they found out where she lives. To be honest, she's glad she stayed at Jensen's place, not wanting to know what would've happened if she did go to her place.

She sits there on the stairs, rubbing her forehead, she never expected to get so much hate. She never expected to people to be this bad and mean and wanting to harm her in this kind of way. When she calms down a bit, she walks upstairs into the apartment, she once called home.

"Why did take so long?" He asks softly, packing w stuff, but she doesn't answer. "Y/N/N?" He asks softly, thinking she didn't head him. All she does is sitting on the couch, looming at those horrible letters 'fans' wrote. "Y/N?" She looks at him with red and puffy eyes, he frowns deeply not understanding, what's going on.  "Hey, look at me." He softly lifts her chin."Why were you crying?" He asks and notices the letters in her hands.

He takes the letters and reads through them. His face twitching in confusion, angers, hurt and sadness. He doesn't understand why people would write awful things like ghat. He hugs her tightly and she fists his shirt in her hand. "Jay, they know where I live." She says between sobs. "Shhh, I know." He says and strokes her head. "I'm scared, what if someone really kills me?" She sobs, feeling even more scared of the world, realizing how ugly it really is. "Shhh, this will never happen. I promise." He kisses the top of her head.

"You have to be strong, don't let these bad people get to you, okay? I love you, that's all matters." She nods sniffling and looks up into his eyes. "I don't deserve you." He leans in and kisses her gently. "I don't deserve you." He whispers softly, when he cups her cheek. "I love you too. It's just- it hurts, that people don't accept, that we're back together. They don't know the truth, they're just judging me by rumours, they heard from the media."

"Exactly, they don't know the truth. So you shouldn't care about them, they're idiots. Dumb haters." He tells her softly. She slowly pulls out of his embrace and wipes her tears with her sleeve, before getting up. "Okay, let's get the important stuff out of here." She says with a weak smile.

She packs her clothes, some kitchen things, bed sheets, one shelf she loves a lot and her smartTV. "You know we can buy a new one." He says with a smile. "I know, but we can also use this one, it's just 1 year old." She tells him.

"You're right." He says with a nod. She puts the things into his car, wondering how everything fits in.

She gets into the passenger seat and Jensen in the driver seat. They drive back and unload her stuff. Her favourite shelf and TV come into the bedroom.

The TV goes on top of the shelf, she unpacks her clothes and takes them to the walk-in-closet. After a while she lays on the bed and turns the TV on. Jensen enters the room and looks at the TV.

"Hey! You continue watching without me?" He asks with a small pout. "Uh, no." She says innocently not looking at him. He lays down next to her and starts tickling her. "You're a liar and this is your punishment." He says playfully with a chuckle.

"Jensen stop!" She says between the giggles, trying to catch her breath. "When you admit, that you were about to watch without me." He says as he continues to tickle her.

"But that's not true." She says laughing and he tickles her more. "Sorry, I didn't hear, what I wanted to hear." He says with a grin, still tickling her.

"Fine, I was about to watch without you." She admits with a small grin. He's half on top of her and looks straight into her eyes. "I'm proud of you." He says softly as he smiles adoringly. "Where's this coming from?" She asks slightly confused.

He plops down next to her and wraps his arm around her shoulder. He looks her into the eyes and cups her cheek. "After all these days you didn't stop fighting and after these letters you didn't stop smiling." She feels her heart flutter at his words, he really is the best man, she'd ever have. "Because of you." She smiles lovingly.

He smiles lovingly as well and leans in kissing her lovingly and gently as he caresses her cheek. He hugs her close, while he kisses her softly. She smiles against his lip, caressing his chest gently. He pulls away a moment later, smiling at her as she pecks his nose.

Jensen switches the TV on and they watch the TV show, they've been watching for a while. After 2 or 3 hours of watching TV she gets up. "Hey, where you're going?" He asks with a pout and reaches for her wrist gently."Uh honey, did you check the time? We have a dinner at your parents' today and maybe we should get going." He pulls her close to himself.

"But I want to stay here with you. In bed." He whispers into you her, she swears she could hear a smirk in his voice. "Jensen I'd love to, but we promised to your parents, that'll we be there." She says smiling. He pouts and gives in before the two of them get ready for the dinner at his parents' place.

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An Actress Life - Chapter 17

warnings: rude!alan, Jensen’s mom is a sweetheart, hurt!reader, crying, angry!Jensen

word count: 1,887

A/N: sorry for being so inactive loves, but I have Covid and wasn’t feeling so well

They arrive at his parents' house, Jensen parks in the driveway and she gets out of the car.

"Okay, I don't know why, but I'm kinda nervous." She says with a nervous and awkward laugh. "Why that?" He asks with a small frown.

"You know, they love you." He adds softly. She gives him a weak smile and he takes her hand and leads her to the front door.

He rings the doorbell and his mom Donna opens it. "Oh gosh, y/n. So good to see you." She says happily and she smiles slightly at her, then Donna pulls her into a warm hug. She hugs Donna back as well, feeling calm as Donna rubs her back. She quashes Y/N's cheek gently before pulling away to give her son a hug as well. "Now, come in." She says happily and gestures them in. They follow her into the living room to greet Mac and Josh.

"Y/n so good to see you, really." He gives her a reassuring smile. Is it that obviously that I'm nervous? "Guys, dinner is served." Donna says softly and they all go into the dining room. Y/N sits down next to Jensen and Mac. Josh, Donna and Alan across from them.

The food always smells so good, Y/N loves her cooking. "Donna the food smells so good." Y/N says happily with a smile, while Donna places the food on the table.

"Thanks sweetie." She says squeezing your shoulder and sits down.

Everyone starts putting food on their plates, after that they begin eating. "Why are you back with my son although you cheated on him?" Alan suddenly speaks up and Y/N chokes on her food. "Wh-What?" She asks in shock with wide eyes and looks at Jensen, who's eyes are widened as well.

"Dad, seriously?" Jensen says with a clenched jaw. "I'm just asking, I don't want my son to be with someone who's cheating on him." Alan says with shrug. "Okay, wow, Alan I thought we both were happy that they're back together." Donna shakes her head in disbelief, feeling slightly ashamed.

Y/N looks at Jensen to see how disappointed he is of his father. She doesn't know, if she should leave or stay. She's also hurt about how his father is thinking of her. Did Jensen never tell them the truth?

Maybe Jensen and she shouldn't be back together- "Dad." Jensen says firmly and rips her out of her thoughts, making her blink. "She never cheated on me." "It's that what she's telling you?" Those words hit more than she thought.

"That's enough!" Mac shouts at Alan. "Honey, please stop crying." Donna says and stands up from her chair. Y/N hasn't even realized that tears have welled up in her eyes. Donna walks behind her and pats her shoulders gently.

"Everything will be fine, I absolutely support your relationship with Jensen." She whispers into her ear and hugs her from behind. "Dad, I love her! She was and is the only one that makes me happy." Jensen says firmly and honestly. "I know that." Donna says softly and puts her other hand on Jensen's shoulder.

"At least one of my parents." Jensen scoffs in disbelief. "Joanna was better for you." Alan says and looks coldly at Y/N. "That's enough!" Jensen and Donna say. Jensen stands up and throws his napkin on the plate in anger.

"I'm sorry mum, I'm not hungry anymore." He says with an apologetic smile and goes into the backyard to get some fresh air. Leaving her all alone. Great. "Dad what is wrong with you? I- we thought you like her." Josh says confused. "I do, but after what she did to him." "You want to know the truth?" Y/N speaks up and everyone looks at her. Tears streaming down her cheeks. "I already know the truth." He says while eating a piece of his food.

"I think you don't." Mac says. "Honey speak." Donna says. "I made mistakes, that's true. I'm not gonna deny that. At this time, when Jensen and I broke up, it wasn't feeling right anymore and I didn't think we should stay together anymore. It felt like a must, because of the press and the internet. We didn't see each other often, but-but I loved and still do love him...so much. I've never cheated on him, yes I met someone, but we never kissed or had sex. Nothing. I felt unwanted and unneeded-" She rambles on and chokes on a sob.

"She felt that way because of me." Jensen interrupts her, leaning against the doorframe. "But you were going to purpose to her, didn't you?" Alan asks with a frown. "Yeah, but I didn't notice how I made her feel or how I treated her I was most of the time irritated about everything. I noticed that after she told me that she wanted to end the relationship. She went to this guy, yes it's true, but it was after everything ended." Jensen continues. "To be honest, at first I thought she cheated on me, but Jared and Gen told me about everything, after I kept saying she betrayed me. When you know Jared and Gen, you know, they never lie."

"But when you felt this way-" he looks at her "-why are you back together?" Alan asks confused. "I got a job offer of Supernatural. When started I thinking about Jensen then, I realized I still had feelings for him. I thought I was over him, but I wasn't. Jensen and I met up and talked about everything. While we talked about everything, I noticed that it still feels like those years ago. He told me, he never stopped loving me. That's when we decided we should give us another try." She explains and looks at her hand in her lap.

"But it's okay, if you still don't trust me."

"Look, I'm really sorry-" She looks up and doesn't trust her ears as she hears him apologizing "-I-I didn't know the truth. I thought it was because our son-" he points at Jensen "-told us so."

"Hey, it's not his fault. Who would ever thought they would get back together?" Josh asks.

"Exactly, nobody." He adds. "Also Dad, since when do you believe in rumours from the press?" Josh asks with a raised eyebrow. "I really don't know." Alan says rubbing his temple,

Donna and the rest look at Alan, while Y/N looks at her hands. 'Now apologize.' Donna mouths to him. "Y/N, I guess I have to apologize." "You guess?" Jensen scoffs.

"It's okay, I guess I would have reacted the same way." She says with a weak smile. "Really? So you're not mad at me?" He asks. "No, already forgotten." She looks at her hands before giving Alan a weak smile. Jensen gazes at her, knowing she's lying.

He knows, it's definitely not okay. She's hurt, but he also knows she respects his parents. She would never say anything, that's rude or inappropriate. "Okay, the good vibes are gone now." Mac chuckles. "Seems like that." Y/N smiles at her. "Mum, thanks for dinner, but I think it's better when y/n/n and I leave now." Jensen says softly.

"Thanks Donna." Y/N says softly and hugs her, Josh and Mac. "I hope we see us next time under better circumstances." Donna says softly while they're making their way down the hallway to the front door. Y/N gives her a small smile. "Bye." She says one last time, before leaving the house and entering the car. Jensen does the same. Before he starts the car he looks at her and searching for her eyes, but she avoids looking at him. "You're okay?" "Yeah." She brushes it off.

"Can we just head home?" She adds. He doesn't say anything and starts the engine in response.

During the drive home they don't talk much, it's a real odd situation. "Can you stop being so...quiet?" He says while they arrive at their driveway. "Jens, what do you expect from me?" She looks at him for the first time and unbuckles her seatbelt. "I-I don't know, that you're not mad at me?" She sighs and reaches for his hand.

"Jay, I know it's not your fault we both thought both your parent are okay with that. Your mom was-is, but your dad-" she takes her hand away and looks at her lap "-your dad isn't okay with that. Yeah, maybe he apologized, but he sees me as the bitch, who cheated on his son. It hurts, that your dad doesn't like me anymore. It's an odd situation, Jensen. You know the truth and you also know I love you so so much, but maybe I am not the-"

"The right woman for me?" He scoffs and completes her sentence. "Yeah, I don't wanna be a wife, your dad doesn't like. It-it-" she chokes on a sob "-it breaks my heart even thinking about that, we just-" she's interrupted by Jensen's lips on hers. His hands cup her face and kisses her gently as her hand find its place on his neck.He stops and rests his forehead against hers.

"Please don't say that, I- I don't want to loose you ever again. Never." She looks into his green orbs and can't help but smile. "My mom, sister and brother are happy for me and to be honest for me it's more important, that my mom supports us than my father." He shrugs and smiles at me.

"Y/n/n, I love you more than everything. Since I got you back I'm the happiest man alive. You're the woman I want to marry, to have kids, a family with." He gives her a gentle kiss on the cheek. "Are you really sure about that I am the right one?" She asks him just above a whisper. "Don't you ever doubt that. You're making me a lucky man." He says with a laugh. She smiles slightly.

"Let's finally head inside." He adds and brings her hand to his lips and kiss it softly. She gets out of the car and walks to the front door. Jensen unlocks the door and she steps in. She kicks her shoes off, before both go upstairs into the bedroom, she changes into some comfy clothes and lies down on the bed.

He lies down next to her and looks at her with a frown. "About what are you thinking?" He asks. "About a lot-" she cuddles into his chest and he wraps his arm around her waist "-about what happened, about-" she lets out a sob "-about that fans hate me for being with you, these letters, the girl on the airport, about what has happened an hour ago. It's-" she takes a deep breath "it's too much to handle for me lately." She cries into his chest and fist his t-shirt in her hand. "Shhh." He strokes her head gently.

He hates seeing her this way, after a few minutes she cried herself to sleep. He takes his phone from the nightstand and opens Twitter. He has enough of how she's feeling, she's been treated like shit, although she hasn't done anything.

He tweets:

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