Not Sleep Last Its. Blame Inhailer I Dont Recall. Years Ago Had A N Insomnia. Was Antidepressants Withdrawal.

Not sleep last it’s. Blame inhailer I don’t recall. Years ago had a n insomnia. Was antidepressants withdrawal. Never knew until recently. Thought it was a freak occurrence

Every time I think I have something true I get called names. If it is true and I correct people. My anxiety had gotten worse on this topic. Then I need 5,000 years of MENA history, and then get called shit for brains and a terrorist, or I’m a worthless ballsack ego will look like a chicken carcass when the Arabs are done with me. As well as possible accusations of being a NAZI . It is to much to know and understand, and as an American there should be no horse in this race. You know, stolen land and all.

I wonder what new anti semetic tropes and allegorys are going to be birthed in this conflict or new derogatory terms.

Land I don’t even know why I would share links, memes or Infographs. If it’s just to control and correct people. Seeing how I don’t think I could easily live playing 2 degrees of separation with a boycott.

Or how many reddits are propaganda. You can get people call you a bigot if you say “metzitzah b’peh is gross” and they call you propagandist if you think you got a list of Israel doing bad things , and say it never happened. And then guilt you with thousands of years of abuse and, famously the Holocaust.

All the people screaming about things.when I read about the skin selling then I don’t really care if Hogwarts legacy reinforces “ blood libel” or not . It is not the same thing .

It’s not like I am trolling say it is better off being part of Italy or anything. Or Deus Vult memes. But they treat you like it. I normally like collecting screen captures of unhinged people but this time it’s not as fun. I guess because it’s a lot different than an AR vegan saying we should get CPS to take children of dairy farmers away, or anti hunters who want. To violate a child to death because she shot a puma.

I really should f edited this last night when I remember what I wanted to put. It seems on Facebook if you report comments about nuking Gaza and saying someone deserved it, you get report back that those words do not violate the rules, but I am sure they ban you for calling someone a Zebu( zioboo) or some thing. But using “ final solution” or “ nuke them all” or “ turn Gaza into glass” “ flatten it into a parking lot” or saying other things is ok. I haven’t gone looking for any anti Lavender AI memes using Clippy, but I am sure those would be ultra bad

I am in between wanting to subconsciously trance and another part of me takes over, and also terrorfied of dissociation and if possession were real. Iguess on one hand I expect there is something that has all the answers,and my awake self lacks. That I want a magical experance. Maybe a true me is sleeping, or the fake me is awake. Even when ever virtualboy came out. Errrber I rerember I wanted that takeover, there was a demo at Sears r something, and there was a drawing game ? I wanted that takeover . Loss of me. Whoever that is.shattered, missing. I can’t make sense of it. It hurts so much .

So it seems since July I would talk about the pain and nausea around the , 12th 13th, 2nd or 3rd.

I don't even know what doctors to see. I see the ENT on the 20th

Doom scrolling, social media and screen addiction got worse after getting rid of the Axel from my head. Even if I told myself every day he is not real , and not believe tulpas are living beings, and head mates are not from the same kind. I still did. A holdover from highschool thinking I was talking to spirits. Part of me thinks maybe I was better off. There is nobody there, there was never anyone there, there will never be anyone there. I even felt physically different that moment. And I still feel like something is missing

So took a nap or tri d to nap because I was upsince 2am to 2 pm and I did not flinch. My brain felt weird. But by 9 my brain felt different and I started flinching again