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I should get 5$ every time I see someone misuse the words “psychotic” and “delusional”
This is so important. I never had to experience anything like that, but I have an schizofrenic godfather and I know how it seems real to him
No doctor will ever get my respect like the woman in the ER who checked me for claws and fangs because I told her I was turning into a werewolf and could feel it and let me know gently that she couldn't find any but that didnt make it feel any less real, like THATS how you do it, other doctors who just flat out told me I was wrong take notes
“What is truth?” Pilate asked.
By Psychologist & Bible Researcher Eli Kittim 🎓
Feigned madness
Recently, I’ve had numerous Biblical debates with various people in many different groups. The topics were all different, but there was a common denominator: all my opponents refused to accept the indisputable and overwhelming evidence that I was presenting. This prompted me to seriously explore and investigate the cause of their reactions. In other words, when a scholar or a scientist provides irrefutable evidence that is not only obvious and clear but also demonstrably factual, then any refusal to accept it should be viewed as a form of mental illness or psychological neurosis. It can also be described as a *delusion*:
a persistent false … belief … that is
maintained despite indisputable evidence to
the contrary.
——- Merriam-Webster dictionary
It’s like giving someone all the facts that the earth is round, but they nevertheless still maintain that the earth is flat. Then there’s nothing further one can say. Anyone who pretends not to understand the evidence is therefore *feigning madness*:
‘Feigned madness’ is a phrase used in
popular culture to describe the assumption
of a mental disorder for the purposes of
evasion, deceit or the diversion of suspicion.
——- Wikipedia
It’s like a mathematician proving that 2+2 = 4. Only an insane person would disagree. Similarly, in one of my debates, I produced multiple lines of indisputable evidence to demonstrate that the pre-tribulational rapture is a false doctrine. Instead of accepting the evidence and thanking me for the proof-texts, my opponent got very irritable and hostile and started to insult me. He even called me a heretic. That’s when I knew I was dealing with a fanatic who probably had some form of mental illness. So, when a scholar or a scientist gathers the available body of facts about a particular topic and clearly demonstrates whether a belief or proposition is true or valid, then that should settle the matter, unless another scholar can disprove him. For example, when a belief or proposition is clearly proven to be false but certain people are unwilling to accept the evidence——to such an extent that they would even use insults to disrespect the researcher——then these people might be labeled fanatics. But what is actually happening psychologically is that these so-called “fanatics” who refuse to accept the overwhelming evidence are employing the defensive mechanism of *denial*:
Denial … is a psychological defense
mechanism postulated by psychoanalyst
Sigmund Freud, in which a person is faced
with a fact that is too uncomfortable to
accept and rejects it instead, insisting that
it is not true despite what may be
overwhelming evidence.
——- Wikipedia
It seems that a lot of people are deceived about a lot of things because they are essentially BIASED. That is to say, they’re not open to other views. The way this works is that they typically have an obstinate belief that they wish to maintain no-matter what, and so they are not interested in objective truth. They are only interested in maintaining their beliefs. So if people challenge their beliefs, they think that abandoning their beliefs would eventually lead to chaos. So they cling to their beliefs for dear life, even if these beliefs have been totally debunked. They’re not really interested in finding out whether their beliefs are true or false because that would entail a complete restructuring of their entire belief-system. So, instead of abandoning their current beliefs, which could lead to terrifying thoughts and emotions, they’d rather hold on to these false beliefs as a coping mechanism against a potentially hostile reality:
The theory of denial was first researched
seriously by Anna Freud. She classified
denial as a mechanism of the immature
mind because it conflicts with the ability to
learn from and cope with reality.
——- Wikipedia
Seeking Truth
But when something is proved to be false, shouldn’t we disregard it? If it doesn’t matter whether we prove it or not, then why bother debating at all? Why bother interpreting scripture or translating the Biblical languages? Why bother studying the Bible? If truth no longer matters, then why bother explaining scripture? Who cares? Many people typically say, “I don’t care what scholars say or what they can prove. I believe what I believe and that’s final.” Well, if truth no longer matters, then what’s the point of reading the Bible or following God? God might not exist & the Bible might be false. So why should we even bother reading about Christ if we’re no longer interested in truth?
What I am trying to get across is that “truth” must be the basis of everything we do! We must change our beliefs if they are found to be false. We shouldn’t entertain “beliefs” for their own sake but only because they can be demonstrated to be true! If our “beliefs” or “traditions” line up with truth, then we should accept them. But if they don’t, then we should reject them. You see, beliefs can be false, even deceptive and misleading. For example, many liberal pastors have crept into the church and are disseminating many FALSE BELIEFS as if they were true. That’s why so many people are deceived and confused. Many don’t even know what salvation is because of these false teachings. Bottom line, we should not be searching for “beliefs.” We should be searching for the “truth”! Paradoxically, when we find the truth, we will also find Jesus. And when we find Jesus, we will also find the truth. Why? Because the truth is not a principle; it’s a person:
Jesus said to him, ‘I am … the truth.’
——- John 14.6 (NASB)
So, “seeking” the truth is a noble path. In fact, we must be reborn into the truth. Rebirth is all about a new way of seeing (Jn 3.3), when we get rid of our false beliefs about God and meet him existentially. That’s when we come to realize that many of our beliefs about him are false. God then becomes a reality and teaches us new things about him that we never knew before (Jn 14.26).
What is Truth?
When we say that God’s word is “true,” we don’t mean that every story in the Bible is literally true. It could be a parable, a poem, or an allegory. Rather, we mean that the essence of God’s teachings (behind the narratives) is true. And when we do Biblical exegesis, we should always strive to see what we can prove; that is to say, what is true. Otherwise, there’s no point in trusting scripture or following God. We study scripture to prove it is true. And we follow God because we believe that he is truth itself. In other words, truth should be our guide and our teacher:
you will know the truth, and the truth will set
you free.
——- John 8.32
First kings 17.24 reminds us that “the word of the Lord … is truth.” In the same way, Psalm 25.5 prayerfully says, “Lead me in Your truth.” Psalm 45.4 similarly suggests that God himself fights “For the cause of truth” (cf. Rev. 19.11). Moreover, Psalm 119.160 says to God that “The sum of Your word is truth,” while Isaiah 65.16 calls him Elohim, “the God of truth.”
Interestingly enough, Jeremiah 9.3 compares good and evil to truth and falsehood (cf. Jer. 9.5). That’s why Dan 10.21 calls the Bible “the book of truth”! John 5.33 speaks of testifying to the truth. Notice that John 8.32 claims that the knowledge of the truth is what sets people free. By contrast, the devil “does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him” (Jn 8.44). So the battle between good and evil turns out to be a battle between truth and falsehood. That’s precisely why the Holy Spirit is called “the Spirit of truth” (Jn 14.17). John 17.17 concludes that God’s “word is truth.” Thus, there is something special about truth that allows us to follow Christ. That’s why in his testimony before Pontius Pilate, Christ says:
Everyone who is of the truth listens to My
voice.
——- John 18.37
Therefore, we can rightly conclude that the difference between sinners and saints is the truth! How did people sin in the first place (according to Romans 1.25)? Answer: “they exchanged the truth of God for falsehood.” This means that the lies we believe are equivalent to sins. And if we are corrected but refuse to accept or even acknowledge the said edification, then we are deliberately sinning against God. Surprisingly, in Romans 2.8, truth is pitted against wickedness. That is to say, those who don’t obey the truth obey unrighteousness. In other words, being evil or morally wrong is directly related to a disobedience of the truth. That is why our defense against evil always involves criteria of truth (Eph. 6.14). As a matter of fact, 2 Thess. 2.10 attributes the state of damnation to a form of deception, in that those who are evil “did not accept the love of the truth so as to be saved.” So they will ultimately perish because they loved the lie more than the truth. Unlike Calvinism, which falsely preaches that God predestines people to hell, 1 Tim. 2.4 claims that God “wants all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth.” Therefore, *salvation* comprises a reception of “the knowledge of the truth.”
That’s why 2 Tim 1.14 is an exhortation to guard the truth that has been given to us by the Holy Spirit. Why should we guard the truth? Because if we believe a lie, it could be the difference between life and death; between salvation and damnation; between eternal life and eternal hell. Second Timothy 3.7 describes sinners as those who are “always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.” This means that one can have a vast amount of knowledge with regard to secular learning yet “never arrive at a knowledge of the truth.” First John 4.6 separates the open-minded from the close-minded people in terms of whether they possess “the spirit of truth” or “the spirit of error.” In other words, the ability to listen objectively with an open mind is somehow related to the Holy Spirit. That’s why holding on to deceptive doctrines and “paying attention to deceitful spirits and teachings of demons” (1 Tim. 4.1) is equivalent to the wide gate “that leads to destruction” (Mt. 7.13).
We know, for example, that we often deny the obvious truth because our defense mechanisms don’t allow us to hear it. That’s precisely why Jesus often says, “The one who has ears to hear, let him hear.” Only one question remains:
Are you willing to follow the *truth*
regardless of where it might lead?
——-
Brief Lives: Role Swap AU!!
Doze 💤 & Delusion ꩜ of the endless
Since January, I've been wanting to redesign them because I wasn't pleased with what I originally drew in November.
!!!! Spoiler Warning for Brief Lives since I am going to be talking about it for a bit !!!!
What I had in mind was that Brief Lives plot is still the same but Delirium has the bright idea of switching places to keep things interesting on their journey to find Destruction (also because she wants Dream to have fun with her one last time before shit hits the fan)
AU Example: When Doze and Delusion end up in Destiny's Garden asking for an oracle, Destiny confronts Doze that she need to stop her own delusion and realize that she can't save her brother from what is about to come. When Doze collapses from the harsh truth, almost reverting back to Delirium; Delusion steps in.
Getting serious and is fearful for his little sister, his Dream side shows (eyes black with twin stars) telling Destiny to basically mind his own business. He tearfully notes that he knows that they must talk to his son but he's staying strong for Doze. Regrouping, Doze and Del go to meet Orpheus.
That's as far as my mind is willing to go with these silly doodles and AU before I let it become my personality.
Don't take this seriously, but I imagine Delusion voiced by Andrew Garfield okay Bye!
Facing the reality
Delusion talking to his son one final time
Doom scrolling, social media and screen addiction got worse after getting rid of the Axel from my head. Even if I told myself every day he is not real , and not believe tulpas are living beings, and head mates are not from the same kind. I still did. A holdover from highschool thinking I was talking to spirits. Part of me thinks maybe I was better off. There is nobody there, there was never anyone there, there will never be anyone there. I even felt physically different that moment. And I still feel like something is missing
he wants me so bad (he’s fictional and i read a fanfic about him)
NEED csm part 2 to be animated asap so I can bribe mappa into animating a fighting scene like the ones in venom where asa has NO idea what she's doing but her body kinda does?? yoru keeps putting her hands on the metaphorical steering wheel inside them while telling asa to stop panicking!! so she can keep herself in control!!! and they get their asses!! out of there!!! basically asa being like "holy shit holyshit HOLYSHIT" the entire time yorus doing all the work and being a badass and everyone else's like wtf kind of fiend is this-
delusion & desire are the fuel to my fire
when you give me everything
you are so quick to snatch it away
i feel as equally close as i am distanced from you
who are we, and why do we do the things we do?
i wish i could admit the reasons to leave you behind
yet my soul is chained to my devotion
forever in your debt to my delusional determination
(from "An Intruder")
but it is the process that leads the direction of the result
the choice of words cannot tell everything and the delusion
that you're holding something in your hands makes you most vulgar.
TW: Dopamine chasing, Toxic Friendships, Codependency
I have always been one to chase hapiness highs. By no means is this the most negative part of my personality, nor a particularly uncommon one, but it does lead to some side effects. For one thing I can not sit down and fully immerse myself in media as the happy feelings would take to long to develop so I dive head first into the fandom instead. And ill stay in the fandom for a while , consuming every once of media I can about it until I inevitably loose intrest and stop caring about it all together and start the cycle again. Not the best cycle admittedly, but far from the worst. However the inbetween of losing intrest in one peice of media and latching on to another one is the worst. I will drift aimlessly with nothing to do, as if hollow , drained entirely. The color seeps out from my world and I am left yearning for something to reintroduce it, to get back to my high. The real trouble is when this attitude effects my relationships with people. I will find someone and talk to them and then my thoughts get consumed by them and they will be all I talk about, all I care about. I will distance myself from the others around me in order to get more of my new subject of intrest. And then the high will fade and I want nothing to do with them, but they are still atached to me. I will grow to resent them for taking up my time as if I was not the one to start the relationship. I can tell they have grown to rely on me for their hapiness much as I had done to them. I will try to reignite some amount of intrest but come up dry, and in doing so grow to despise them entirerly. Once the codependency ends It seems more and more like a chore to talk with them. And eventually I leave their life as suddenly as I entered it leaving them being confused and hurt because se despite my explanations they don’t understand my way of thinking- how could they? Their perception of me is clean and glossy because I‘m adept at showing that to everyone, at hiding how I truly am. And thus the cycle starts again, with me convincing myself that this time it will be different - that I can learn to stay.
why is it always “ily” and not
“i think it would be better if we were a team. friends. best friends” “cool” “cool”
ok so in stranger things episode one, mike leaves the room and the lucas and dustin tell will not to tell mike that he rolled a seven so they could still win
well, when will is leaving right before he disappears he tells mike he rolled a seven and the demogorgon got him because HE DIDNT WANT TO LIE TO MIKE AND THEYRE SO CUTE AND IM NOT OKAY
PREDICTION:
The Gang Does a Clip Show will be centered around the gang’s Delusion, in that their collective, false, and more successful idealistic self images will be explained and described to each other out loud, making them real in a sense because that imaginary version of each of themselves and their wrongly recalled memories now exist explicitly in minds other than their own.
I think Always Sunny is taking this to above the next level, as they do, by making it literal - These delusions actually start manifesting.
(Additionally, and a bit self indulgently, Mac’s will undoubtably involve Dennis to an extent, so who knows where that could go. This could be used purposely to layout a sort of ‘best of macdennis’ supportive moments for catching up anyone who isn’t as familiar with the show/somehow didn’t notice, perhaps with the intention to make their relationship, however it changes next, have a chance to be well received and understood by a wider audience than if something like that wasn’t done as a recap.)
I wish I’ve seen Inception, but taking a look at the overview of what it’s about, maybe the new reality of this episode will be the shared dream world of their now openly shared delusional self perceptions.
And that the episode will explore the inception/origin of each of their strong held delusions about themselves (ex: Dees acting prowess and entertaining ambitions or Franks ‘attractive looks’ that allow him to woo women).
If interconnected dream worlds are the basis for the movie Inception, maybe The Gang Does a Clip Show will use the gang’s inseparable dependency on each other, that allows them to reliably stagnate in their delusions with enabling support without usually making progress towards success with these dreams, as the foundation for which clips are shown to outline their reasoning for being able to maintain such denial of elements of themselves and their lives where they instead embrace a more comfortable delusion. All their dreams of what they want and who they want to be, but are delusional about, combine into one new reality to make an actual “dream world.”
As a dream is in an ever-forming state, their delusional dreams/aspirations in relation to each other and the world around them as time goes on have to be constantly malleable in order to be kept alive as a dream or belief that’s still, by some stretch, logically possible.
I wonder if the viewer’s experience watching will be incorporated in anyway. Like in the movie, us all viewing this show is a similar exercise to what could be shared dreaming, and for Sunny, we are all participating in and supporting the gang’s shared delusions.
I gotta boot up a story in my head before I go to sleep so I don’t wake up with extreme overwhelming sadness
Tried the like anime highlight ring in the hair and not entirely sure if I like it?? But here we are with a small snip of it
