Ever Saw Something That Was A Literal Shot To Your Heart And Cut Deeper Than Ever, That Constantly Haunts

ever saw something that was a literal shot to your heart and cut deeper than ever, that constantly haunts you since that day and just can't shake it off/forget even if it happened several months ago, because it keeps creeping back or is it just me?

why do some people have to randomly attack/taunt you and try to make you, out to be the "bad guy" for no reason? Like, I haven't even said anything bad and anything at all, just let me be, jeez

yeah, sometimes they may see me as being cold, but in reality I'm just unspeakably sad, hurt and dealing with feelings...

and honestly, why should I say it, when they either judge or don't take me seriously and just saying "it's all in your head, snap out of it" like my feelings wouldn't be valid and with that, pushing me more into this state?

they never acknowledge or notice that.

No wonder why I always feel like I constantly have to protect myself and shut myself down. It's so damn exhausting.

have you ever wonder if some people regret the way they treated you/what they did to you, at all, or they just sweep it under the rug like it never happened?

I ain't gonna tell people anything anymore. I can sense when I try to share things about my past or what hurts/bothers me they start to act weird. Like why are they immediately count it as if "you're just trying to make them feel sorry for you" or something like that? Look, I just want you to know why I am the way I am and how do I feel. Why is it so wrong to wanting to open up? Why do they have to make it feel like you're doing a crime with that? Like, yes I have emotions. I don't share stuff like that to, just anyone anyway

I dunno, I love to bring people their favorite, for example, food or a little something. Or just share with them when I have one with me and they mention it. It's just such a good feeling. I wanna make them feel important, valued, seen. Everyone deserves to