Losing Your Best Friend Is A Feeling You Just Can't Even Explain. It Breaks You So Much That You're Just

losing your best friend is a feeling you just can't even explain. It breaks you so much that you're just not the same after that...

they say they like me, and they want me to be around, but I can see they really don't...

every time I accidentally catch them, they look so much happier around them and while talking to them..

and I just can't even watch it, because it makes my heart sink every single time. It feels awful to see that the person they talking with getting everything I have been begging for without them having to ask for it...

I dunno, I love to bring people their favorite, for example, food or a little something. Or just share with them when I have one with me and they mention it. It's just such a good feeling. I wanna make them feel important, valued, seen. Everyone deserves to

yeah, sometimes I make mistakes, but they don't even recognise how badly I'm trying and trying to keep everything together in the meanwhile. I'm deeply sorry when I lose my track and screw up, but you shouldn't treat me like I'm the worst person, because of that and that I will always screw up...

I ain't gonna tell people anything anymore. I can sense when I try to share things about my past or what hurts/bothers me they start to act weird. Like why are they immediately count it as if "you're just trying to make them feel sorry for you" or something like that? Look, I just want you to know why I am the way I am and how do I feel. Why is it so wrong to wanting to open up? Why do they have to make it feel like you're doing a crime with that? Like, yes I have emotions. I don't share stuff like that to, just anyone anyway