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Depression is hitting pretty hard. The last few job prospects were not what i thought they were.
My last paycheck will be November 15 and i have nothing to replace it.
My woman has already insisted she buy me snow tires, because I advised that I won't have the money to buy them at this time. This makes me ashamed. Especially since she has been stretched thin lately herself.
And a quick flashback to a conversation with my Father yesterday who helpfully reminded me that i "shouldn't be depending on anybody." Thanks, Pops, for the pep talk.
And i still have to go to this place for another 8 shifts. Once again, I'd like to ask why I have to be in this discouraging position while my shithead, incompetent, mysogenist boss suffers with none of it.
sexist hyprcrite coworker rant
Today was the day I got to know the sexist side of a coworker I thought was really nice. It wasn’t for the first time, but today it really stung. He is generally a super nice guy, friendly, helpful and cheerful, but whenever he works with us women and he asks about something and we answer, he just straight out doesn’t believe us, even if we’ve been doing this for years and actually know what we are doing. Instead he goes over and asks our male cowoker the same question again, to get the same answer again. And we thought he was an idiot for doing it, but it wasn’t actually hurting me before, I just thought he was a moron for doing so.
But today he was supposed to work with me, not the first time that week (he normally works somewhere else, but there are a lot of people on vacation right now) and I didn’t say anything about his behaviour. I don’t do that in general. We work in labor jobs and it gets exhausting, so if you need a break, I won’t tell you that you can’t have one, I’m not our boss, sometimes I have a day where I need a little extra break and since I don’t say anything to him (or anyone else for that matter), then I expect the same from him about me. But today he was gone after I came back from the bathroom and he left his workplace with everything there, so I figured he probably went to the bathroom too, or made a short break. 15 minutes later he shows up, finishes 1 item (takes less then 2 minutes) and leaves to talk to my other coworker. I didn’t say anything to him, even though I was angry for leaving me alone with all the work, 10 minutes later he shows up again, does half of one item, leaves again, I am fuming inside, but I don’t say anything. Then he comes back. I ask him where he was, say that I have been working alone for the past 30 minutes and he gets angry. I was not unfriendly, I just asked.
He tells me that he is now working with my other coworker where he normally is, but that I have nothing to say about that. I say that’s fine, he could’ve just told me that. Then he gets really angry. He says I have no right to talk about the way he works. That he is only minding his own business and I should do the same. He starts about how I work so much less then him (I have a 20h week, he a 40h week), that he didn’t say anything about my work and that he counted how often I went to the bathroom, that I refused to work (not true, I did some other work, while waiting to get something fixed, while he left the room and came back later) and that he does so much more work in the same time as me (he said that he did 7 items in the time I did 2. So he basically told me, that I should just look at my own work, while the hypocrite apparently watched me the whole time. I did not say until that point anything about his work, or how much he worked, I only asked that if he left he’s tell me so that I know I am working alone again. Apart from that. He was just being there for a couple days, i have been doing this for the past 3 years. i know my limit. And yes my limit is less than that of a man twice my weight. Of course he gets more than in the same time (defenitly not as much as he claims, but more), besides the fact, that I know how bad your body works if you go too fast and use too much engery. He made so many long breaks yesterday, sitting down or going to talk to cowokers and today aswell, while I only went to the bathroom and actually worked through my shift. And I can actually say that he went to the bathroom only twice, but each time he went there for about 15 minutes, while I take 2 (just to pee, I drink a lot), and I didn’t say anything to him (10 minutes is a lot less than 30). And we have a coworker (currently on vacation, a woman) who actually works 40h/week aswell and she doesn’t constantly take breaks like that either. He said that he works so much and that I should see how much he did this morning and that I should mind my own business (again). I told him that I never said he didn’t work, I know he can work, I told him I didn’t care if he took a break, that I had no problem with that. I only asked that he’d tell me when we’re not working together anymore and that he should clean up the workspace, because he’s not the only one working there. (I didn’t even say that I did the clean up the day before, because he didn’t do any of it.) I also told him, that I just wanted to know because we had people before asking why the work wasn’t done, with all the help we had. He just said that wasn’t true. Not that he can’t believe it, just that I was lying to his face for no reason. When I said it again later, he askes who and pointed to my coworker working with me and I told him no, not them, the office people do that, those who are closer to our boss and that’s why it can be an issue. But he still dissmissed it, like it was no big deal. It isn’t for him, because it’s not coming back to him. It’s gonna be me and my coworkers who are going to get in trouble if work isn’t done on time And then he just ended the whole conversation, with saying it’s over (the conversation) and that it’s alright. Not apologizing or anything for what he said about me. He did clean up at least, but until today I just though he was being an idiot when he asked my male coworkers or wanted a little break from working, but I was wrong. He is a sexist hyprocrite something I wish I didn’t know about him. And the worst part is, 2 of my other coworker have told me they had similar issues with him. When the first one (40week lady I mentioned above) told me she had a problem with him, I couldn’t believe it because he was always so nice and she can get angry quiet fast. But now I know why. And my other female coworker who helps out sometimes also had the same issues with him. I am someone who always thinks at first: maybe it’s not like that, maybe it’s my fault. But maybe this time it really isn’t. Maybe 3 women who all have the same issues with the guy are right and he is the actual problem. But if I’d tell him that he’d just get angry again and start saying hurtful things about me, that not only hurt me but that are a legit threat to my job. I only ever saw 1 coworker as a problem (he had a really rough time, went through divorce and was a gigantic asshole the whole time and oogled us woman throughout the whole thing, it was really uncomftable, but since he’s got his shit back together we get along pretty well and he really changed his behaviour) but now I have that guy. And I know I won’t say anything to him. Because it won’t go anywhere good. It’s either gonna end up with me feeling even more shitty than I am right now, because I like harmony and not conflict, or it’s going to end with him telling shit about me and me feeling shitty about it, because I hate that hypocritic bullshit and when people just straight up tell me in their face that I am lying, even if I am not. I am going to get over it. The relastionship I had with him is definitly not the same it was before and it will never be, knowing that about him. I just want time to blow over the whole thing until I have forgotten it enough to be able to see him at work without thinking about that. But I know its going to take time. I know it’s going to cost me time I am wasting with thoughts on him, even if he isn’t an important person in my life and it’s going to cost me energy. And he most like with my other coworkers he has issues with, will be the same come Monday and not give it another thought,
while I am here and my annoying brain is making me go through the whole scenario over and over again to find the mistake I made talking to him, to get told what I was,
knowing fully well that it wasn’t me. I have analyzed this enough to know I didn’t say anything about his work ethnic until he pointed out mine, I was friendly, I was nice, I only asked something that woul’ve taken him a second to do (telling me that he was working elsewhere, I would’ve cleaned up for him if he’d asked too). I want my brain to stop thinking about this, but I can’t and he most likely won’t give it another thought..
I keep wondering why as an auditor I feel so burnt out and still anxious way after the busy season but then I remember the 12+workdays 5 days a week with extra hours on weekends and guys,I think my body got used to the torture and now I am an insomniac with constant chest pains and a lethargy that cannot be resolved by sleeping over 8 hours and doing nothing everyday. I thought I would feel less stressed and depressed after the busy season but the converse happened. I feel empty and purposeless (I have 3 exams in 2 weeks' time that I am yet to read anything about) and I have mental breakdowns everyday (Not exaggerating,any minor inconvenience triggers a depressive episode). I cannot enjoy my favourite hobbies eg F1 because any little mistake by my favourite driver spikes my anxiety. Anyways,do fellow big four auditors feel the same after the busy season? Please DM me with your experience and ways to combat this state. Or if you're in other high pressure jobs, please do so as well.
Apparently, I sound like a robot at work. My fellow Sandwich Artists™ make fun of me for my ridiculously highpitched (slightly southern) customer service voice that I use to recite a memorized script. Jokes on them. I don't even hear my voice because from the moment I clock in to the moment I clock out I am completely blacked out and imagining that I'm a single mom who works two jobs who loves her kids a never stops.
I love my workplace very much, it is so cozy :з there are not enough posters on the wall, but I will fix it! I love the witcher with all my heart and soul so I bought Funko pop Geralt 🖤 And you, do you love The Witcher? 🐺 . CAT . . . #workplace #thewitcher #geek #geekgirl #geraltofrivia #gaming #gamer #gamergirl #gamingroom #geekroom . (потерпите плз эти кринге хештеги хд) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWS4BXFowjV/?utm_medium=tumblr
This is how Thursdays at workplaces should be celebrated :3
Crystals for the workplace
These are the best crystals to carry with you at work, especially if the environment is stressful, unpleasant, so on:
Amethyst: Aids in higher communication and understanding, (people’s intentions, meanings, etc) reduces anxiety.
Aventurine: Helps with overall emotional balance, pursuit of new opportunities, calms and helps with sense of well being.
Pyrite: A workplace talisman for advancement and purpose.
Smokey Quartz: Carries a protective aura, wards negativity.
Black Tourmaline: This crystal helps with brain fog and is especially helpful if you work with lots of computers or similar.
Selenite: Raises vibration, peace, cleansing.
Journal 6 - 7/27/2021
I think in the next couple of months I'm finally going to be seeing some change in my behaviour and hopefully very positive change in my work life. A manager I worked with who made me feel like I didn't have the potential to do anything with my life and who had been dating a coworker (which everyone knows is not allowed) for nearly 4 years has finally been fired from his position and I'm hoping that the coworker will follow after him. They both made working absolute hell for me and my other coworkers who had luck in finding different jobs. They have even stated to my boss the exact reason they decided to leave and because my boss is a paranoid, pigheaded, stubborn, and selfish person he straight up told them that they didn't know what they were talking about and that leaving was a mistake while laughing at their decision to leave.
Unfortunately I was never the one who reported on him, but for a long time he believed that I was the one who called ethics and would harass me about it when he got me alone anywhere at work.
I don't want to go too far into it but now that all that stuff is over, I feel like I'm going to be having a much better time working and I pray that the new manager that's picked will be someone with higher expectations and has trust in their employees. I only worked in this position for a year and four months now but just working under that specific manager made me want to completely give up on anything that I believed in. I'm still hoping I will be getting this different job though, as it does pay more and I believe that they are much better on their employees, I feel like starting over and just want a fresh start. Make new friends, have better people to work with and no more scum bags.
That's all for now on updates in my personal life. I really just wanted to get that off of my chest because now I feel like I'll actually have the energy to get back into things I love without feeling like absolute trash after working all day long to please absolutely nobody. I'll be back later tonight~ Now is time for some errands and chores. (And maybe an energy drink to get me going *wink* - - *whispers * my fiancé doesn’t want me to drink them but I want to soooo)
4 Benefits of Working in Upscale Areas
“IF YOU WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE, IT IS BEST TO FIND SOMEONE WHO HAS ALREADY BEEN THERE.” — ROBERT KIYOSAKI
WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF REALLY ENJOYING ALL THAT LIFE HAS TO OFFER? FOR ME, I HAVE ALWAYS ENVISIONED MYSELF WELL ACCUSTOMED TO A LIFE OF LUXURY. AT A YOUNG AGE, I REALIZED THAT IN ORDER TO GET TO WHERE THE RICH WERE IN FINANCES, I HAD TO FIRST GO TO WHERE THE WEALTHY WERE PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
In December 2019, I was at a dinner party, speaking with a friend of mine about his first time coming to California. As he recounted his first memory of his first job, we both quickly realized that we had something in common. We had both attributed our success in entering the wealthy community to a single trip to Beverly Hills. As I began to tell him about my first time down Rodeo Drive, it occurred to me that we were both sharing stories in a billionaire’s home. It was one of those “full-circle” moments in my life.
This memory prompted me to think about what else I have done to inch my way closer to the wealthy. I started thinking about when I was in college, and how Starbucks was such a big social culture and I quickly remembered how much I hated it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against Starbucks, but I was against sitting there for hours with a thousand other students trying to focus on work and being my best self. I decided that it was not worth my energy being there. I figured that finding a more suitable place to work would make me feel more satisfied, and began looking into places around me that fit the ambiance that I was looking for. This is how I found my love for tea rooms, and begin to understand how they became a symbol of independent women.
REASON #1: FOCUS + COMMITMENT.
Research has shown that working inside of a positive office interior, or even a positive outdoor environment, can improve morale in the workplace. I don’t know about you, but this is especially true for me. We all have our different work styles, but you can’t tell me that working in a high-rise with the view of the city doesn’t sound amazing. I remember spending time with my mentor, when I received a request for a last minute coaching session with a client. Little did I know that by taking this call, I would change my life in such an impactful way. During this call, not only Dif my client have an extraordinarily incredible breakthrough, but so did I. As I spoke with her, I was watching myself from another view and just admiring the woman that I had become. I chose to take this call on the balcony of one of his guest suites, and honey it sure felt like I belonged there. That was one of the first moments that I truly believed that I deserved to own a house as beautiful. I felt unstoppable, and I began working even harder. Working in tea rooms offers me the same feedback, just in a different way. I don’t work extremely hard in tea rooms. Instead, I remain focused on my writing and developing my vision.
REASON #2: KINDNESS.
Being around people that are unhurried, and in an environment that is calm and not penetrating, I found that people are more kind and open. Yes, I am sure that if I paid a compliment to a woman in a Starbucks, she would be thankful, but she would likely rush off to work. This doesn’t really happen in the tea rooms. The women that I speak with are likely on their lunch break that they designed, or they are not working that day because they decided not to. These were the women that I wanted to be like, and because I was there, I had the opportunity to learn from them and gain insight. It allowed me to put myself in a state of gratitude and contribution, which is extremely important with manifesting. It also opened those lines of communication.
REASON #3: CONNECTIONS.
I have made some great connections with women and men by frequenting more affluent areas when working, and I have met incredible people through them. I discovered that the more I did this, the more comfortable I became with making connections with everyone and just commanding attention naturally. Thanksgiving of 2018, I decided to check into a hotel to relax and get away. We were still experiencing the fires, and with all of the chaos going home no longer seemed ideal. As soon as I walked inside, an attendant named Richard approached me asking if I needed assistance with my bags. And though I only had one bag, I allowed him to assist me and said “Thank you Richard,” being sure to make eye contact and shared a brief smile of approval. “You know, I just love your shirt,” I said smiling, “where’d you get it?” Thankfully he understood my sense of humor, and he definitely knew I was being charming. He just laughed and followed me to the elevator. After escorting me to my room, he asked if I’d like anything else, and before I could say anything, he asked if I like Champagne. I insisted on having a glass of wine, to which he delivered a bottle and a bowl of strawberries complimentary. When I went downstairs to the bar, the bartender tried to offer me a free drink, to which I told him that Richard had me covered and so instead he offered me free food. Now, of course, it helps to be attractive and charming, but I do believe that it helped that in between I inquired about their lives and family (since it was a holiday). Never underestimate the power of talking to people. The more you do it, the better you become. I definitely had no idea that this vacation would save me hundreds of dollars by getting to know Richard.
REASON #4: CLEAR VISION.
The more I dine at five star restaurants, the more I become accustomed to it. It becomes my reality, and no longer simply a vision. Visualization is a powerful tool when it comes to manifesting, but it means nothing if you can’t associate your vision with the feelings and emotions of having achieved you vision. This is why luxurious atmospheres are a part of my rituals. Prior to COVID, I would be sure to go to a place that represents luxury at least once a week. It helps to paint the picture so clear, that it not only feels real, but it is now a part of my experience that I can use to help me associate with more.
4 Benefits of Working in Upscale Areas
“IF YOU WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE, IT IS BEST TO FIND SOMEONE WHO HAS ALREADY BEEN THERE.” — ROBERT KIYOSAKI
WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF REALLY ENJOYING ALL THAT LIFE HAS TO OFFER? FOR ME, I HAVE ALWAYS ENVISIONED MYSELF WELL ACCUSTOMED TO A LIFE OF LUXURY. AT A YOUNG AGE, I REALIZED THAT IN ORDER TO GET TO WHERE THE RICH WERE IN FINANCES, I HAD TO FIRST GO TO WHERE THE WEALTHY WERE PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
In December 2019, I was at a dinner party, speaking with a friend of mine about his first time coming to California. As he recounted his first memory of his first job, we both quickly realized that we had something in common. We had both attributed our success in entering the wealthy community to a single trip to Beverly Hills. As I began to tell him about my first time down Rodeo Drive, it occurred to me that we were both sharing stories in a billionaire’s home. It was one of those “full-circle” moments in my life.
This memory prompted me to think about what else I have done to inch my way closer to the wealthy. I started thinking about when I was in college, and how Starbucks was such a big social culture and I quickly remembered how much I hated it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against Starbucks, but I was against sitting there for hours with a thousand other students trying to focus on work and being my best self. I decided that it was not worth my energy being there. I figured that finding a more suitable place to work would make me feel more satisfied, and began looking into places around me that fit the ambiance that I was looking for. This is how I found my love for tea rooms, and begin to understand how they became a symbol of independent women.
REASON #1: FOCUS + COMMITMENT.
Research has shown that working inside of a positive office interior, or even a positive outdoor environment, can improve morale in the workplace. I don’t know about you, but this is especially true for me. We all have our different work styles, but you can’t tell me that working in a high-rise with the view of the city doesn’t sound amazing. I remember spending time with my mentor, when I received a request for a last minute coaching session with a client. Little did I know that by taking this call, I would change my life in such an impactful way. During this call, not only Dif my client have an extraordinarily incredible breakthrough, but so did I. As I spoke with her, I was watching myself from another view and just admiring the woman that I had become. I chose to take this call on the balcony of one of his guest suites, and honey it sure felt like I belonged there. That was one of the first moments that I truly believed that I deserved to own a house as beautiful. I felt unstoppable, and I began working even harder. Working in tea rooms offers me the same feedback, just in a different way. I don’t work extremely hard in tea rooms. Instead, I remain focused on my writing and developing my vision.
REASON #2: KINDNESS.
Being around people that are unhurried, and in an environment that is calm and not penetrating, I found that people are more kind and open. Yes, I am sure that if I paid a compliment to a woman in a Starbucks, she would be thankful, but she would likely rush off to work. This doesn’t really happen in the tea rooms. The women that I speak with are likely on their lunch break that they designed, or they are not working that day because they decided not to. These were the women that I wanted to be like, and because I was there, I had the opportunity to learn from them and gain insight. It allowed me to put myself in a state of gratitude and contribution, which is extremely important with manifesting. It also opened those lines of communication.
REASON #3: CONNECTIONS.
I have made some great connections with women and men by frequenting more affluent areas when working, and I have met incredible people through them. I discovered that the more I did this, the more comfortable I became with making connections with everyone and just commanding attention naturally. Thanksgiving of 2018, I decided to check into a hotel to relax and get away. We were still experiencing the fires, and with all of the chaos going home no longer seemed ideal. As soon as I walked inside, an attendant named Richard approached me asking if I needed assistance with my bags. And though I only had one bag, I allowed him to assist me and said “Thank you Richard,” being sure to make eye contact and shared a brief smile of approval. “You know, I just love your shirt,” I said smiling, “where’d you get it?” Thankfully he understood my sense of humor, and he definitely knew I was being charming. He just laughed and followed me to the elevator. After escorting me to my room, he asked if I’d like anything else, and before I could say anything, he asked if I like Champagne. I insisted on having a glass of wine, to which he delivered a bottle and a bowl of strawberries complimentary. When I went downstairs to the bar, the bartender tried to offer me a free drink, to which I told him that Richard had me covered and so instead he offered me free food. Now, of course, it helps to be attractive and charming, but I do believe that it helped that in between I inquired about their lives and family (since it was a holiday). Never underestimate the power of talking to people. The more you do it, the better you become. I definitely had no idea that this vacation would save me hundreds of dollars by getting to know Richard.
REASON #4: CLEAR VISION.
The more I dine at five star restaurants, the more I become accustomed to it. It becomes my reality, and no longer simply a vision. Visualization is a powerful tool when it comes to manifesting, but it means nothing if you can’t associate your vision with the feelings and emotions of having achieved you vision. This is why luxurious atmospheres are a part of my rituals. Prior to COVID, I would be sure to go to a place that represents luxury at least once a week. It helps to paint the picture so clear, that it not only feels real, but it is now a part of my experience that I can use to help me associate with more.
4 Benefits of Working in Upscale Areas
“IF YOU WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE, IT IS BEST TO FIND SOMEONE WHO HAS ALREADY BEEN THERE.” — ROBERT KIYOSAKI
WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF REALLY ENJOYING ALL THAT LIFE HAS TO OFFER? FOR ME, I HAVE ALWAYS ENVISIONED MYSELF WELL ACCUSTOMED TO A LIFE OF LUXURY. AT A YOUNG AGE, I REALIZED THAT IN ORDER TO GET TO WHERE THE RICH WERE IN FINANCES, I HAD TO FIRST GO TO WHERE THE WEALTHY WERE PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
In December 2019, I was at a dinner party, speaking with a friend of mine about his first time coming to California. As he recounted his first memory of his first job, we both quickly realized that we had something in common. We had both attributed our success in entering the wealthy community to a single trip to Beverly Hills. As I began to tell him about my first time down Rodeo Drive, it occurred to me that we were both sharing stories in a billionaire’s home. It was one of those “full-circle” moments in my life.
This memory prompted me to think about what else I have done to inch my way closer to the wealthy. I started thinking about when I was in college, and how Starbucks was such a big social culture and I quickly remembered how much I hated it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against Starbucks, but I was against sitting there for hours with a thousand other students trying to focus on work and being my best self. I decided that it was not worth my energy being there. I figured that finding a more suitable place to work would make me feel more satisfied, and began looking into places around me that fit the ambiance that I was looking for. This is how I found my love for tea rooms, and begin to understand how they became a symbol of independent women.
REASON #1: FOCUS + COMMITMENT.
Research has shown that working inside of a positive office interior, or even a positive outdoor environment, can improve morale in the workplace. I don’t know about you, but this is especially true for me. We all have our different work styles, but you can’t tell me that working in a high-rise with the view of the city doesn’t sound amazing. I remember spending time with my mentor, when I received a request for a last minute coaching session with a client. Little did I know that by taking this call, I would change my life in such an impactful way. During this call, not only Dif my client have an extraordinarily incredible breakthrough, but so did I. As I spoke with her, I was watching myself from another view and just admiring the woman that I had become. I chose to take this call on the balcony of one of his guest suites, and honey it sure felt like I belonged there. That was one of the first moments that I truly believed that I deserved to own a house as beautiful. I felt unstoppable, and I began working even harder. Working in tea rooms offers me the same feedback, just in a different way. I don’t work extremely hard in tea rooms. Instead, I remain focused on my writing and developing my vision.
REASON #2: KINDNESS.
Being around people that are unhurried, and in an environment that is calm and not penetrating, I found that people are more kind and open. Yes, I am sure that if I paid a compliment to a woman in a Starbucks, she would be thankful, but she would likely rush off to work. This doesn’t really happen in the tea rooms. The women that I speak with are likely on their lunch break that they designed, or they are not working that day because they decided not to. These were the women that I wanted to be like, and because I was there, I had the opportunity to learn from them and gain insight. It allowed me to put myself in a state of gratitude and contribution, which is extremely important with manifesting. It also opened those lines of communication.
REASON #3: CONNECTIONS.
I have made some great connections with women and men by frequenting more affluent areas when working, and I have met incredible people through them. I discovered that the more I did this, the more comfortable I became with making connections with everyone and just commanding attention naturally. Thanksgiving of 2018, I decided to check into a hotel to relax and get away. We were still experiencing the fires, and with all of the chaos going home no longer seemed ideal. As soon as I walked inside, an attendant named Richard approached me asking if I needed assistance with my bags. And though I only had one bag, I allowed him to assist me and said “Thank you Richard,” being sure to make eye contact and shared a brief smile of approval. “You know, I just love your shirt,” I said smiling, “where’d you get it?” Thankfully he understood my sense of humor, and he definitely knew I was being charming. He just laughed and followed me to the elevator. After escorting me to my room, he asked if I’d like anything else, and before I could say anything, he asked if I like Champagne. I insisted on having a glass of wine, to which he delivered a bottle and a bowl of strawberries complimentary. When I went downstairs to the bar, the bartender tried to offer me a free drink, to which I told him that Richard had me covered and so instead he offered me free food. Now, of course, it helps to be attractive and charming, but I do believe that it helped that in between I inquired about their lives and family (since it was a holiday). Never underestimate the power of talking to people. The more you do it, the better you become. I definitely had no idea that this vacation would save me hundreds of dollars by getting to know Richard.
REASON #4: CLEAR VISION.
The more I dine at five star restaurants, the more I become accustomed to it. It becomes my reality, and no longer simply a vision. Visualization is a powerful tool when it comes to manifesting, but it means nothing if you can’t associate your vision with the feelings and emotions of having achieved you vision. This is why luxurious atmospheres are a part of my rituals. Prior to COVID, I would be sure to go to a place that represents luxury at least once a week. It helps to paint the picture so clear, that it not only feels real, but it is now a part of my experience that I can use to help me associate with more.
Please fucking lie to your employer. Like they don’t need to know your mental health issues or what drugs you do. Ffs
yeah, sometimes I make mistakes, but they don't even recognise how badly I'm trying and trying to keep everything together in the meanwhile. I'm deeply sorry when I lose my track and screw up, but you shouldn't treat me like I'm the worst person, because of that and that I will always screw up...
The new aesthetic: employablecore
It’s where I take all of these individualising aspects of myself I fought tooth and claw for and hide them, rip them away until I look palatable enough to work a cash register. The tattoos I won, the hair I grew out, out of spite for overbearing religious relatives and then for myself, all covered and trimmed until I can be seen as desirable again to sell my labour. The way I learned to laugh out loud, the visible tics, the fully realised Me that I just came to love only recently — he’s going elsewhere for a while.
At least when I was selling my body, nobody expected me to change. Now that I desire to clean my hands I discover the soap comes in only one brand, and I hate the supermarket stench of it.
