I Just Love My Ocs Relationship

I just love my ocs relationship

I mean, I'm always down for enemies to lovers but whatever profound hatred and honest disdain they have for each other's very being that will eventually turn to the sweetest, most kind type of love Amalie and Khaos have going on?

That shit is making me go FERAL

I really think someone should tell men that that "hardened woman" they are trying to fuck and are sure have a softer side does have a softer side — just not for him, or one he'd understand as soft anyway

Really, I'm tired of men coming to me saying "oh, I know you're there's melted butter beyond this frozen heart"

Yeah, pal, maybe you should check if I'm fucking interested in being soft to you, asshole

Ugh, I'm just so angry at that

Yeah, I am fucking soft — to my MOM. You don't get privileges, fuck you. Fuck that. Ugh, men

I'm not sure if I'm crazy but...

Does anyone experience this very deep feeling of euphoria sometimes after a particularly bad anxiety wave?

Like, sometimes for me, I'll just be stressing myself out about something and then, the next day, I'll be calmer and everything will just feel so bright and so light.

I feel so happy for just existing that I'll just lay on my floor and laugh, really laugh, just because I exist.

And I really don't want to be alone in that.

Fun Fact - or not so much

Okay, so, in my new book, there's a couple who is based off of Patroclus and Achilles and y'all know that quote from Song of Achilles right?

“I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”

My couple has various moments where "Patroclus" recognizes "Achilles" right away by the sound of him walking, or how he smells, or (when he's dying) by his touch as a reference.

I did that at random. I didn't plan it but still happened.

And now I'm crying.

For the record as well,

There's a reason why it's Jack who dies instead of Rose (besides the point that she's the protagonist) and that is that Jack is the poor one in their relationship.

The whole thing about the Titanic, both the movie and the actual tragedy, is that it's about class. It's about how higher class people get to live every time while poor people need to beg and fight and play dirty to survive (just like the high class people, with the only difference that poor people are punished for it).

Jack had to die because he represents the poor people in the Titanic, the one who were barred from accessing deck until it was no longer possible, the ones who were treated like dogs being waken in the middle of the night while upper class got the calm polite treatment, the ones who didn't have the right to live.

So yeah, I'm gonna cry on my bed now

For the record.

The reason why Jack does not survive, regardless of wether he could fit or not, is that Jack represents the victims of the Titanic and everything that was lost.

While Rose represents the survivors who somehow made it and got to tell the tale.

In the end, all the survivors of the Titanic lost something that day, which they could never recover. May it be friends, family, lovers or the life they had before, it's something that sunk with the Titanic and they would never recover.

It's the irony that a cold, useless piece of rock survives, but the bright, warm soul full of potential perishes.

Help me decide or I'll go mad

My current dilemma as a writer is whether I write...

A. A gay romance between Romeo and Mercutio with Juliet as Romeo's beard and best friend, the fight of both houses their most terrible enemy and a lot of angst because of compulsory heterosexuality

OR

B. A poly romance between Romeo, Mercutio, and Juliet with enemies to lovers Romeo and Juliet, a very-tired-of-the-fight-let's-make-them-kiss Mercutio, secret relationships, a side romance between Rosalina and Paris, and a mystery in fair Verona that Mercutio is obsessing over.