I Just Realized That Whenever I Miss Someone Or I'm Sad My Eyes Become Bigger....

I just realized that whenever I miss someone or I'm sad my eyes become bigger....

So if you see me one day with big Bambi eyes just know I'm not in the mood to talk

I'm on a diet right now so I can't eat sweets too much and I have to eat a lot of vegetables....

And this last week I made kind of a little break from the diet....like I still was eating those vegetables but I also ate so sweets....but in the same time I was dancing more and I had exams so I was stressed....

And my parents, before my 'every-week-weighting', said that I shouldn't be worry if I didn't loose any weight or stayed at the same as before...and I was like 'fine'.

So today I weighed myself and what ?

1,5kg less....I checked that 3 times because it was kinda sus but every time it was the same.

Well....I am kinda happy....I have two more weeks of exams so maybe I will loose more ? I wouldn't mind ...

So you know....my hands and legs are fucking barcode and I wear long sleeves....but it's warm so I decided to wear shorts but still long sleeves....

and my mum was 'why aren't you wearing short sleeves'

I said nothing.

And when I was doing the dishes she rolled up my sleeve and saw what she saw....scars. And she was 'really ?'

Then she left the kitchen because she was working in the meantime....and when I went upstairs to give her coffee she asked about my cuts .... 'when ? Why ? You really can't stop ? You know you won't be able to hide it. Now you're doing it somehow but summer is coming and you'll have to wear short sleeves'....

well....nice.... that's funny attitude

I was reading my journal/diary or smth and I was laughing....

Why ?

Because it looks like this:

"My arms look like a fucking barcode...."

"I am trying not to fall in love..."

"I wanna die...."

And every page looks exactly the same....

Wowow mate calm do....

*re-thinks*

Nah, you're right...

next time i’m opening up to someone is my autopsy

The most satisfying thing I did today ?

I lied to my therapist and she didn't notice...

New achievement unlocked !