I Just Realized That Whenever I Miss Someone Or I'm Sad My Eyes Become Bigger....

I just realized that whenever I miss someone or I'm sad my eyes become bigger....

So if you see me one day with big Bambi eyes just know I'm not in the mood to talk

I don’t know anymore..... I feel like I am using depression as an excuse.... I do nothing, I don’t work, I don’t study....and I say “because I have depression. I can’t focus, I don’t have motivation...” What if this is just a lie ? What if I am just lazy ? I really don’t know....

I hate my parents pt. I don't fucking know because there were too many reasons to hate them

So we were having breakfast and I looked at my wrist and said : "You know my wrist is 17cm (that's a lot but I was proud of it that moment) ?

And my mum was like : "You know that my wrist is smaller ?

I just nod but I was hurt. Like I'm trying to show you something I'm proud of and you easily destroy that by telling me you're better.

Thank you so fucking much

Actually I think I might be a killer....

Not like I've killed someone already, no I haven't

But like....I might be good at that ... And I might like it....

Just my thoughts

Don't mind me ...

So you know....my hands and legs are fucking barcode and I wear long sleeves....but it's warm so I decided to wear shorts but still long sleeves....

and my mum was 'why aren't you wearing short sleeves'

I said nothing.

And when I was doing the dishes she rolled up my sleeve and saw what she saw....scars. And she was 'really ?'

Then she left the kitchen because she was working in the meantime....and when I went upstairs to give her coffee she asked about my cuts .... 'when ? Why ? You really can't stop ? You know you won't be able to hide it. Now you're doing it somehow but summer is coming and you'll have to wear short sleeves'....

well....nice.... that's funny attitude

The most satisfying thing I did today ?

I lied to my therapist and she didn't notice...

New achievement unlocked !