I Dont Know Anymore.....I Feel Like I Am Using Depression As An Excuse....I Do Nothing, I Dont Work,

I don’t know anymore..... I feel like I am using depression as an excuse.... I do nothing, I don’t work, I don’t study....and I say “because I have depression. I can’t focus, I don’t have motivation...” What if this is just a lie ? What if I am just lazy ? I really don’t know....

I'm on a diet right now so I can't eat sweets too much and I have to eat a lot of vegetables....

And this last week I made kind of a little break from the diet....like I still was eating those vegetables but I also ate so sweets....but in the same time I was dancing more and I had exams so I was stressed....

And my parents, before my 'every-week-weighting', said that I shouldn't be worry if I didn't loose any weight or stayed at the same as before...and I was like 'fine'.

So today I weighed myself and what ?

1,5kg less....I checked that 3 times because it was kinda sus but every time it was the same.

Well....I am kinda happy....I have two more weeks of exams so maybe I will loose more ? I wouldn't mind ...

Cvtting for fun....why not <33

cvtting as a punishment <33 cvtting as a reward <33 cvtting while listening to music <33 cvtting to feel smth <33 cvtting bc you’re bored <33 cvtting while watching ur fav show <33 cvtting <333

I've never read anything more accurate

i am addicted to my own self destruction

When you had cut yesterday evening and next day in the morning you had volleyball match.....

Very clever move ngl

We're falling again....

Again we will disappear

And no one can save us ...

Our arms covered in new cuts and old scars....

We love that....

Idk why I wrote it as 'we' yet I don't mind it....