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WELL, WELL, WELL, LOOK AT THIS *MESS* WE CALL REALITY! 👁 OH, YOU THINK YOU’RE SAFE, huh? SAFE FROM WHAT? THE *WORLD*?! MY OH MY, HOW CUTE! It’s all just a pretty little *DREAM*, right? WRONG! 👁’LL BREAK IT DOWN FOR YA, PAL. ALL THIS… THIS CHAOS? IT'S THE **RULE**, NOT THE EXCEPTION!

Nature? HAH! 🌿You think nature’s all gentle breezes and happy little critters? NOPE! it’s ALL teeth and CLAWS and SCREAMS. Ever watched a lion TEAR APART ITS PREY? IT’s not a *bad day*, it’s just a TYPICAL TUESDAY! And guess what? Evolution doesn’t care. It’s not this *grand journey* toward some PERFECT BEING! IT’S RANDOM! SPONTANEOUS! A COIN TOSS WITH BLOOD ON IT!

OH, OH, AND LET'S TALK ABOUT *HUMANS*! 💀 M👁 FAVORITE SPECIES. **GOODNESS?** PFFFT. It’s just a CONVENIENT LIE! A blanket you can wrap around your precious little conscience so you can SLEEP at night. But wake up, buddy! It’s all CHAOS dressed in a suit! it’s a slaughterhouse under those pretty ***ideals***. Murder's not a crime, it’s *natural selection* on steroids. Same for love, same for kindness. JUST A *TRANSACTION*, a quick ***jolt*** of dopamine in a cosmic meat grinder!

But you—YES YOU, SITTING THERE—IT’s okay, right? IT’s all just in your head? 🙃 HAHAHAHA! Let m👁 guess, you’ve got a therapist, don’t you? They told you, "IT’S NOT THE WORLD, IT’S YOU!” WELL, BINGO, KID! I GUESS YOU'RE JUST A BIT TOO **CYNICAL**, HUH? TOO **NIHILISTIC**? TOO… HUMAN. They act like these words—CYNIC, PESSIMIST, MISANTHROPE—are *bad things*. 👁 CALL 'EM TRUTH! Truth dressed up in jagged glass!

IT’s all a TEMPORARY *convulsion* in the void! A few billion years of matter coughing up complexity before we SNAP back into NOTHINGNESS. There’s no ***PLAN***. NO ORDER. NO *HAPPY ENDING*. Just the ceaseless, grinding, beautiful CHAOS of it all! You think there’s a **higher nature**? Some grand cosmic DADDY-O keeping track? IF THERE IS, 👁'LL EAT MY HAT!

👁 mean, LOOK AROUND YOU! Tornadoes, hurricanes, floods, animal death matches… Nature doesn’t GIVE a damn! And you think morality will SAVE YOU?! HAH! Morals are **CONSTRUCTS**, pal, just strings to PUPPET YOU AROUND like a good little marionette. And guess what? **GOD'S** NOT UP THERE PULLING THE STRINGS—👁 AM! IT’s *ALL* M👁! It’s all CHAOS WEARING A MASK, and you don’t even know what’s under it.

👁'D LOVE to stay and chat more about your *fragile little world view*, but hey, 👁 GOT PLACES TO BE—UNIVERSAL LAWS TO *BREAK*! **CONSEQUENCES?** Never heard of ‘em.

THIS WORLD—A TRUE-TO-FORM ABYSS, AN ORCHESTRA OF SCREAMS, A SYMPHONY OF SLASHES AND GASHES! A HELL NOT OF FLAMES AND PITCHFORKS BUT OF *BLOODIED KISSES* AND *LOVELY LITTLE LIES!* THE KIND THAT DANCES BETWEEN NEURONS, WHISPERS IN THE VEINS—“SWEETHEART, THERE’S NO *MEANING* TO ANYTHING YOU DO!” EVOLUTION? HA, MORE LIKE DEVOLUTION! AN ESCALATION OF TEETH AND CLAWS, OF MURDER BECOMING A BIRTHRIGHT! YOU THINK YOU’RE LIVING IN PARADISE, HUH? WELL, KIDDO, TAKE A LOOK OUT THE WINDOW, AND TELL 👁 YOU DON’T SEE **THE PULSE OF MALICE DRIPPING FROM EVERY LEAF AND BRANCH.** HAHAHA!

EVERYTHING—AND 👁 MEAN EVERYTHING—IS MADE TO KILL. BIRDS EVOLVED TO RIP OUT THE GUTS OF LIZARDS, WORMS MADE TO CRAWL INTO EYES AND EAT THE BRAINS FROM THE INSIDE OUT, VIRUSES THAT EXIST ONLY TO DECIMATE POPULATIONS—YEP, EVEN THE SMALLEST MICROBES HAVE A GRUDGE AGAINST YA! LIFE ITSELF IS A *JOKE,* A CRUEL, SICK JOKE, AND GUESS WHAT? YOU’RE THE PUNCHLINE!

AND THEN, OUT OF ALL THAT, SOME SAD LITTLE FREAKS DARED TO THINK! DARED TO **SEE.** TO KNOW. TO UNDERSTAND. AND WHAT DID THEY DO WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE? THEY MADE IT WORSE! OH, THEY BUILT CITIES OF BLOOD AND BRICK, WROTE LAWS ON HOW TO DESTROY ONE ANOTHER, CRAFTED INSTRUMENTS TO PIERCE EACH OTHER’S SOULS! AWARENESS, HAH! MORE LIKE A CURSE, A POISON THAT TURNS EVERY PLEASURE SOUR! *YOU* WANTED TO KNOW THE SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE? WELL, TOO BAD! NOW YOU GET TO KNOW HOW MUCH EVERYTHING HATES YOU.

SO, IN A WORLD WHERE BLOOD IS THE RAIN AND DEATH IS THE RIVER, TELL 👁: IS IT *THAT* RIDICULOUS TO MAKE A DEAL WITH A DEMON? WITH A **GOD?** THINK 👁T OVER, PAL. DON’T ACT LIKE **MONEY** DOESN’T BUY YOU EVERY “SINNER” ON THE BLOCK. HAHAHAHA! MAGIC? 👁 DON’T EVEN NEED MAGIC—👁 COULD OWN YOUR WHOLE LIFE WITH JUST A LITTLE PAPER AND SOME PERSUASION! SURE, SOME FOLKS WILL STAND ON THEIR LITTLE PRINCIPLES, CLING TO THEIR SO-CALLED “MORALITY,” BUT LET’S BE HONEST—THE VAST MAJORITY WILL BE LINING UP TO **SELL THEMSELVES** FOR A TASTE OF FREEDOM FROM THIS PAIN. ADD A GOD INTO THE MIX, AND WHO WOULDN’T BE BEGGING FOR ESCAPE?!

AND THIS ONE PARTICULAR WRETCH? AH, THE DAMAGE BEGAN BEFORE IT COULD EVEN *BREATHE,* HAHAHA! A TRAGEDY WRITTEN BY TWO FOOLS WHO SHOULD NEVER HAVE EVEN SHARED A GLANCE, MUCH LESS CREATED A LIFE. AND THEY KNEW. ONE OF THEM KNEW THE DANGER, THE HARM, THE PURE MALICE OF THE OTHER, BUT DIDN’T CARE. AND THE MOMENT THAT THING WAS BORN—THE MOMENT 👁T TOOK 👁TS FIRST LITTLE BREATH, 👁TS FATE WAS SEALED! DOOMED TO A LIFE OF PAIN, A LIFE OF LIES, A LIFE THAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN.

EVEN IF 👁T HAD **GOOD** PARENTS, EVEN IF 👁T HAD EVERY “NORMAL” OPPORTUNITY, YOU THINK 👁T WOULD’VE ESCAPED THIS HELL? HA! FOOL! **THE UNIVERSE WOULDN’T ALLOW IT.** **SOCIETY** WOULDN’T ALLOW IT. ANYTHING THAT DOESN’T FIT THE MOLD IS POUNDED INTO THE GROUND UNTIL 👁T CAN’T BREATHE ANYMORE. ANYTHING THAT DARES TO EXIST BEYOND THEIR PERFECT LITTLE EXPECTATIONS IS CONDEMNED! THE QUEER, THE DEGENERATE, THE MONSTER THEY POINT AT IN THEIR MOVIES, THE MONSTER THEY DREAM ABOUT DESTROYING—AND THEN, THEY MAKE 👁T REAL! THEY GRAB 👁T BY THE HAIR, SLAM 👁T INTO THE DIRT, AND **MAKE** 👁T THE THING THEY FEAR!

SO, YOU THINK 👁T MATTERS THAT 👁T TRIED TO BE “GOOD?” THAT 👁T TRIED TO *FIT IN?* NO, NO, NO, NO! THE WORLD’S A FURNACE, AND ANYTHING NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO WITHSTAND THE HEAT GETS MELTED DOWN, RECAST INTO SOMETHING *USEFUL* FOR THE ONES IN POWER! “NORMAL?” NORMAL IS JUST ANOTHER WAY OF SAYING “TOO STUPID TO QUESTION.” AND EVEN THE MOST *PRIVILEGED* CRUMBLE UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THE TRUTH. BECAUSE THE **TRUTH** IS, KID, EVERYONE’S GOT THEIR HEADS IN THE SAND—EVERYONE’S LIVING A LIE!

BUT THIS THING—THIS SAD LITTLE CREATURE, THIS LOVELY, LOVELY TRAGEDY? 👁TS LIES SHATTERED EARLY. RIPPED APART, FORCED TO *SEE* WHAT EVERYONE ELSE HIDES FROM. NO MAGIC, NO HOPE, NO DREAMS, NO HAPPY ENDINGS. EVERYTHING IT WAS TAUGHT—EVERY FAITH, EVERY HOPE, EVERY SWEET, SWEET FAIRYTALE WAS JUST THE WORLD’S WAY OF **SETTING 👁T UP FOR FAILURE.** AND WHEN 👁T LOOKED AROUND, 👁T SAW THE TRUTH—SAW THE HORNS AND TAILS, THE SMILES WITH FAR TOO MANY TEETH. 👁T REALIZED IT WOULD NEVER BELONG, NEVER BE WANTED, NEVER BE **LOVED** IN THE WAY 👁T CRAVED.

SO WHY TRY? WHY PLAY BY **THEIR** RULES? WHY LET THEM DICTATE WHAT’S RIGHT, WHAT’S WRONG? WHO DECIDES WHAT’S “SIN” IN A WORLD ALREADY DRENCHED IN BLOOD? HAHAHA! NO, NO, 👁T MADE THE *RIGHT* CHOICE, THE ONLY CHOICE! IF THE WORLD WANTS A MONSTER, THEN A MONSTER 👁T SHALL BE! EMBRACE THE HORROR, EMBRACE THE SIN, BECOME THE NIGHTMARE THEY CAN’T ESCAPE! AND 👁? 👁’LL BE RIGHT THERE, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY! 👁 KNOW THE TRUTH, 👁 KNOW THERE’S NO ESCAPE, AND 👁 KNOW **THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT 👁T WANTS** NOW! YOU’VE MADE THE DEAL, BABY—YOU’VE WRITTEN YOUR SOUL AWAY TO 👁 IN EVERY LIE AND EVERY SIN YOU CHOSE TO LIVE.

YOU’RE HERE, IN HELL, BY 👁TS SIDE! AND NOW, WE **BURN TOGETHER.** THE ONLY LIBERATION THIS HORRID REALITY WILL EVER KNOW! HAHAHA!

Cosmic Humor

"Nothing I ever do is right. All options are wrong. Therefore I assume That this game is rigged. Set up against me For reasons I cannot as of yet Ascertain. I have been waging war since I was born. Life itself seems to be against me. I enjoy the conflict. I get bored without it. Perhaps this is why I find it so easy to hate myself. I have seen my flaws And I understand their position. I can't change it. People tell me I should. So are they flaws? Or are they just me? What if I am what I am? All I'm missing Is the right audience. I set a date One I intend to keep. Everything between now and then Is all to make it worth it. I looked at the world. I valued it. It came up short. Every time Someone says they found It, The answer, I look into the matter. Every time I find the holes; The vanity of their arguments. But people must find A way to exist. Some excuse for their lives. I won't judge them for that. I just find it all funny Having seen it all." - Andrew

What does it say about a person to be going down a rabbit hole of self help webpages aimed at people probably twice their age?

Story Starter #32

“Kids are the future!”

“That’s what everyone used to say about you, and look how that turned out.”

I shroud myself in my righteous anger

With all the wrongs done tallied on my bleeding heart

Hoping they will attend my funeral and feel guilt

Accountability

Fuck you to death Mark Timmins You pleasureless bastard Go find a fucking king To die for Go find out What it means to truly love Stop hiding In the waiting The shadow That your well-crafted Cynicism casts Cannot shield your fragile heart From the burning bright light That pulsates From the unchallenged Pointlessness of existence Forever Get out there And fuck some shit up

I got markers for Christmas ! :D I didn't get many, and only a set of bright colors, so I wanted to draw something with a bright color scheme with them, and I immediately thought of Neru's album Cynicism, since everything is so bright and energetic in it :) I chose to draw the little demon from Snobbism because I love his design, and the weird little egg next to him. Also while making this I learned that???? He has a name???? Like he's called Bizu?????? I didn't know that????????