Did Splitting - Tumblr Posts
if we split one more time, I swear to all of high heaven I'm gonna go on a delete spree and start sending people into dormancy I can't do this anymore!!!/hj
This is a vent like post, but it's ok if you reblog cause you feel identified with it or want to share a similar experience, we don't care for that so you can do it
One of the worst things as a system with low split tolerance is when you are in a relationship based in trauma bonding, and you end up splitting or forming an alter because of thta
When you form an alter that make sure you don't get out the relationship as a response of the trauma bonding
When you form an alter that tries to get you out of the relationship but you can't because of the trauma bonding
When you form an introject of that person to help the reinforcement of the trauma bonding
When you form an introject of that person to try and cope the relationship (Good, neutral or bad way)
It doesn't matter how the alter ends up pressenting, is related of that trauma bonding relationship, and even if you get out the relationship you'll see that alter and you remind that relationship, you can't help but feel guilty
Even if the alters gets dorman, fuse or fragments after the relationship broke out you're conscious that alter once was there, and you can't help but remember something about that relationship, and how the impact on you was so strong that ended up in formation/splitting of someone new
Alter existing denial? Nah bro, I'm gonna go with
"I know this alter fragmented to the point he doesn't exist anymore, but I won't accept it and I can't deal with his lost so I'm just gonna deny he's not more here and pretend he still is the principal host"