Growing Old - Tumblr Posts

So in my time zone it's almost 3:00 a.m.

Which means I graduate today.

In less than 24 hours.

And it's such an insane feeling for a multitude of reasons. One of course being that in the fall I'll start college.

But there's also this realization that I'm not a kid anymore. I've been 18 since October, so I've been legally an adult for months, but it's really hitting me that I'll never really be seen as a "kid" again. And I've felt like an adult for years, so this shouldn't be so bittersweet, but it is.

I'm also leaving my best friends of 4 years. The closest I'll be to them is 3 hours away. Furthest I'll be is like 11. These people that I've spent nearly every day with for the last four years will be hours away at minimum.

Finally, I'm graduating cordless. Which I know is not a big deal, honestly, but I'm a bit sad about it, only because no one can see how truly hard I've worked to get to graduate. At 16 I didn't even know if I'd move up a grade, much less actually finish school. I'm proud of her for getting here, but I wish she had more to show for it.

It's so crazy to be both wildly exited for the future and what it brings for me and my people, but I'm also terrified. I'm safe the way I am. I have a life and a routine I'm comfortable with and this just pushes me away from it.

I know people see this as a start to the rest of my life, but right now it just feels like the end of the one I've been living.

I'm so exited, and so so scared.

I don't normally post things like this, but I've been thinking a ton about it.

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you watched me grow up

so i could watch you grow old

-i

Smile wrinkles for the win.

stop freaking out about getting old and start planning out what kind of old person you're gonna be

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