I Want It All To End - Tumblr Posts

Fuck this.

I don't know what to say, it's just like, I need someone to talk to again. I want my best friend back.

I want to tell him everything again. I need him right now. Like, I told him everything and he told me everything, we were happy-ish.

But now I have to talk to fucking Tumblr to feel like anyone even listens.

I want someone to listen.

And like, honestly, I am close to just texting someone who hurt me so much, and that I broke contact with after he did that, but he at least listened.

He drove 4 hours to me. He texted me. He was there.

And yes, he hurt me so much, he gave me nightmares and I shaved my head because of him, but still.

I just want someone to love me and listen and stuff?

Is that to much?

I can't so this anymore.

I just want it all to end.

Why does existing hurt so much? Why do I always lose?

I am trying my best but still nothing comes of it.

Nothing ever does.

Why does it hurt so much to see his shirt in my laundry?

I have to give it back...

There will never be anything to hold on to anymore. He is gone. He doesn't like me anymore.

Why does it hurt this much?

All I ever wanted was to be with him