I Can't So This Anymore.

I can't so this anymore.

I just want it all to end.

Why does existing hurt so much? Why do I always lose?

I am trying my best but still nothing comes of it.

Nothing ever does.

To love him is to hurt.

The way I ache for him is unbearable and goes through time and space.

Honestly, even when if he leaves me I'm still so grateful to have met him.

Like, he showed me new music, motivated me to start being creative again, helped me accept my scars, went to concerts with me and showed me what I can have.

I was so down when I met him, and I'm really doing better now. Thanks to his influence.

So even if he leaves me, I'll still have a friend and a life.

Tw: sh

Guess who just got broken up with and is on his way to the hospital to get stitches??

Yesss, you're right, it's meee!

The only thing I was looking forward to is seeing him. But I don't know when that will even be.

Maybe never again.

Maybe I'm just dramatic.

But it feels like we'll never be together again...

I want to be back in his arms. I want to be with him.

He had a wild night and slept with someone. I shouldn't feel bad, because we are in an open relationship, and I'm not angry or jealous, but...

But like, I want to be enough for him.