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M:”... Sorry”
A:”Don’t. It’s not your fault. Thanks for coming for me.”
//Nexts asks will be with her normal clothes, in heaven.
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new character!
so this is the bull character I asked for help naming a bit ago.
I had such a difficult time deciding what his name was, the joke came up that “why not just give them all the names” so now
uhhh comically large amount of names! The design is not yet set in stone but please give a warm Welcome to:
Cinnabar Carmine Vermilli Cameron Denlo Apheroth Kizumi Aron Mik Aneru Henemi Salidar Evelion Ironhearth (the 8th??) newdawn Heromaker of the Crimson Citadel
He usually will just go by Cinnabar or Carmine, but has been trained to respond to each name given. She will accept any pronouns and more often than not just switch them around whenever they feel like it. The Ironhearth family is rather famous for one reason or another and is often seen as a terrifying force. Stoic hotheaded bulls with control over what people could only assume was hellfire.
The job of a hero maker is an important but thankless job. People are often ungrateful for the families wealth wondering why they were even necessary.
But the world is always in danger. There’s always some monster or threat trying to make it their own. Cinnabar has been alive for at least 2 of such attempts. And it’s well known that those who want to fight against these evils must get the hero’s mark.
Of course good natured people too far away can fight on their own but it’s well known that to be recognized one must go to the Crimson Citadel and be evaluated. Once they pass they will receive a signature soul infused weapon. Many people came to the Citadel doors seeking fame and wealth through the title of hero. It was the job of the hero makers to stamp that out.
To crush the dreams of fame fortune and power. To suffocate pride, and sort out those filled with greed. Many times people have come for these things and left furious when they were denied the status of hero. Cruelty became second nature to the Bulls of Ironhearth, to stomp out hope of wannabe heroes. Their brutality was seen as nothing short of barbaric. But in actuality was an act of kindness
One might think this idea absurd. Barbaric tests that could very well risk the sanity of whoever is subjected, in most cases it would be. But good things don’t happen to heroes. The world unites in danger, but when peace comes people are far too comfortable being unjust and crueler than any monster. The path to being a hero is not easy, physically it’s exhausting and incredibly taxing on the body. But more importantly the mental toll is greater than one can ever imagine. People are hardly kind to those they don’t recognize and they likely won’t recognize the hero once they return. The Ironhearth family is in charge of ensuring the potential heroes know this. Their job is to teach them absolute fear, to drag their mental states through the mud, and suffocate them with the darkest pits of despair. If they can push through then they know these people are worthy, if their will and desire to save others is strong enough to handle this, the family can rest easy knowing they can handle the mental cost of being a “hero” and they get to work preparing them for what lies ahead.
all in all.. they remain record keepers of past heroes forgot by the world. Heroes that return have a place in their Citadel. The family of bulls will forever be excluded from being hero's. But that doesn’t mean they cannot help ensure the best outcome for them.
; reminder that I didn't say you were attractive because you look pretty. I said you were attractive because every time you get excited about the stars, because every time you have your favourite meal and get all giddy, because every time you smile with every tooth showing, because every time you belt songs loudly or sway to them in silence, because every time you put on an outfit and feel free, because every time you stare or giggle in awe at a puppy, because every time you stand up for someone else or yourself, because every time your personality shines through the mask you put up, because every time you read a book or watch a movie then are thinking about it nonstop, because every time you create art whether that be painting or writing or pottery or jewelry or speeches or whatever, because every time you are your kind and authentic self: you are the most attractive thing I could have ever possibly imagined and so much more, you're you and that's worth so much more than what you physically look like. ( this is not directed at anyone, it's to whomever is reading this rn !! )
i was reading the recipe suggestions on some of the cans of mackerel i have in my cupboard, and I've noticed that on all of the recipe suggestions for pasta, seafood, anything really say "try this for a low-calorie, low carb, low fat, low sugar dinner". you. need those things when it comes to be mealtime. calories are a measure of how much "energy" you can burn, not how much weight you will gain from eating the food. carbohydrates get broken down into starches, sugars, and fibers, which are all necessary for you to function.
your brain & body operate primarily off of fats, sugars, and proteins, but i've noticed that protein is the only thing we push as absolutely necessary, which just isn't true. whenever you idle and not in motion, your body has nothing to do with the extra protein you're bringing in. it will be stored as extra fat if you do not give that protein a reason to build muscle tissue instead.
your brain consumes 20% or more of the sugar you take into your body- our brains NEED glucose, you literally need sugar to think. if you feel depressed and like you're sluggish reacting to things, thinking, remembering things, and other mental processes, if you are the kind of person who refuses to eat any sugar at all due to wanting to be skinny, you are doing your brain a huge disservice:
i can't stand the hatred towards dietary fats, because it's causing so many people to be outright miserable or even sick. you need fats to function. they are an excellent source of energy and are literally required for you to be able to move, think, and combat disease. they are not this icky thing that you need to avoid at all costs. fats are extremely important for brain development, as well as brain function, and even immune system function:
also for many people, 2,000 calories or less per day is nowhere near enough. your brain actively consumes calories, fats and sugars while you are awake, no matter what you are doing:
i sincerely refuse to believe that if JUST YOUR BRAIN ALONE consumes somewhere in the ballpark of 400-500 calories just for being awake and active that we can only survive off of 2,000 calories a day. capitalism, diet culture and fat shaming forcing us to starve ourselves of vital nutrients so we are weak and too tired to fight back against the bullshit we face every day. food is important.
food isn't just to satiate the feeling of an empty stomach. it is the ONLY way you get vital fuel in order to keep moving, living, thinking, and breathing. vitamins and minerals are NOT the only vital aspects of food. you're not meant to restrict how many nutrients you get at FUCKING MEAL TIMES. YOU NEED FUEL. PLEASE FUEL YOUR BODY AND BRAIN. A CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE BODY ISN'T WORTH SUFFERING AND LIVING YOUR WORST LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
; I know it's talked about but genuinely it's not talked about enough how difficult ( difficult ) it is being autistic. And it's not even just because I have autism, sometimes it's from Third Party People Being Ableist™ and making my life 20x harder than it was previously.
; and I'm sick and tired of people trying to be allies by denying that I'm autistic ?? Denying my struggles and saying " you're just a little funky !! " or " you're not different, you're the same as any other person <3 " because I'm not ( not ), I'm genuinely not like every other person. And wow are you going to be disappointed when you find out I actually can't function like you, I physically can not. I can't do most anything like a " normal " person and every day is a struggle because people want to see me as average, so they treat me as average and neurotypical and no different from them, but I am different. I do need things that others don't, I do need support even if I'm probably categorized as low support needs, I still have needs that the average person doesn't !! I'm Autistic !! I am different, I am not like the average person and it disables me. I do not resent being autistic, I do not want to be neurotypical. What I resent is how I'm treated because of it, how my struggles are either ignored or stigmatized. I resent not being able to function how others want me too, and therefore being labeled as a nuisance or a difficult case.
; I. Am. Autistic. And yk what ?? I'm not making it my whole personality, it is my whole personality !! It's my mother fucking brain, of course it's going to effect most every aspect of me and how I work ?? And so of course most things I talk about or most my experiences are going to " look autistic " or could be categorized as autism, because I'm autistic !! I'm a walking book of autistic traits so yeah, a lot of the ways I think and the things I do are gonna be related to autism, because I literally am autistic. Sorry if that bothers you ?? Like ?? Idk what people expect from me, I'm going to talk about it because it's kinda hard not to when everything I do or say is " affected " by it ?? :/
; anyways, happy disability pride month. Thanks for listening to my miniature rant
9, 12, 14, and 18 for the disability ask game :)
; 9. Have you had any ableist encounters that were js kinda funny ?? - I don't have the memory for this but one I do remember vaguely is this person was complaining about I think disabled ppl needing " unnecessary extras, privilege even !! Difficult !! " ( their words ) support and such, and that's not funny but it was more of they were saying this to me as if I'd agree yk ?? As if I was their fellow co worker complaining about the traffic lol .. What was really funny is I had noise cancelling headphones on, a stim toy in hand, was sitting in a dark corner and avoiding ppl like the plague, and at the time had a lil autistic pin on my bag. Like honey I am not your target audience, I am your target.
; 12. which stripes of the disability pride flag do you identify with ?? - I believe the white ( invisible && undiagnosed ) & green ( sensory ) ones only !?? Maybe yellow .. ( cognitive && developmental ) but I'm not sure .. The exact meaning of that stripe gets jumbled a lot so I'm never 100%. /nm
; 14. what’s a symptom you have that you feel is underrepresented ? - for me it's difficulty w temperature regulation && recognition !! I rarely see it talked about tbh, and if it is it's only ever brief lol .. I could talk forever about my struggles relating to them tho .. ( oh oh hyperfixating on neurodivergence bc you Need To Be Sure™ even though you're literally proving yourself right right there lol )
; 18. do you have any disabled headcanons !?? - I have HCs that are based off like heavily / implied to be canon things .. But also Partially Deaf Rise!Raph ( post-rottmnt movie mostly ) and Demi-Verbal Donnie .. !! ( no that's not me projecting onto Don what ) .. Oh and Luz && Hunter being beloved auDHD siblings, bc I don't think those are canon .. But idk maybe I'm js autistic but it's so obvious lol /lh
; these answers may be shitty but I' answered them the best I could at this current moment in time !! ( these were so fun to answer. I possess joy now .. Thank you !! /gen )
Different Stories Resonate with Different People
Hi!
A bit of a warning this post was a late night ramble that I typed out so it may not make 100% sense and grammar may be off slightly.
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okay so at this point the fandom has made the correlation between the actually story of Pandora’s box and the prison Pandora's vault i.e. Dream is the evil inside and Tommy is hope and with that in mind, the story says that all the evil escaped while hope remained inside. Which has led people to think Dream may escape the prison and Tommy may still get stuck inside (I kinda find that unlikely but let’s roll with it).
Also on Phil’s stream (the 24th of Feb) Phil asked Awsamdude for the plans to the prison, when he was denied he asked for a ‘get out of jail free’ card. People think he either did this just to annoy Sam a bit, to have a plan just encase for some reason Techno or Ranboo or even Phil himself ended up in prison but, maybe he wanted one to get Dream out.
We know Wilbur will be returning to writing the plot soon and with the next Tales From the SMP is about a haunted mansion, I think we may finally get Wilbur’s (and Schlatt’s) resurrection. If Dream escapes (or is let out) that means someone could get the book from him, ya know? the book that can raise the dead. and who would get the book from Dream? Philza.
He has talked about how he wants Wilbur back, so let’s say: Phil finds Dream hiding from Sam. Phil will turn a blind eye if Dream gives him the book so he can bring Wilbur back. Phil has gone to great lengths to help people in the past, who’s to say he wouldn’t do this.
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So ya, I did leave it untouched and just decided it would be funny to post it as it is since it as like 3 am when this was made. This entire ramble probably sounded dumb and I’m sorry but, I thought it was funny.
I still don’t know how to end these rambles so bye?