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His gun pointed on my forehead while tears rolled down his eyes. " My life was full of lies. But my favorite one was you and me" were the last words that left before the bullet entered my brain, breaking my heart.

I hate to love you

"It was under the last night sky. Ink and diamonds were part of the dream. It was too mesmerizing to be everlasting.

I saw your tears, for the first time of my life. I didn't think you were able to do so. Crying, I mean. All so confident, strong, everytime. I knew it was a fake, a mask you liked to wear because you didn't want to show us you had your own weaknesses. And it fell down there, at the second when you leaned towards the swing. Red cheeks and broken-hearted as I have never seen before. My only concern was to reach out my arm and erase those trespassing tears on your face. My thumb upon your skin, I would have chased this sadness from you because you deserve the world. I would have given you a silent shoulder where you could have cried in silence.

No words.

Nothing.

Until your breath calm down and your hand in mine. The words 'I am here, talk if you want, cry if you wish, shout, scream I wouldn't mind. But, please, come to me when you feel down." You remained silent.

Yet.

Yet you didn't come. You didn't leave your head on my shoulder. You didn't let me take your hand. You didn't care about my loyalty, my warmth, my friendship, my love and my shattered heart while I was watching you fall apart in your 'brother's arms'. I was held at bay, not approaching because I would have cause kind of a blasphemy.

No.

Never.

Did I worth so little in your eyes? Did you even consider me as a person who could have feelings for you?

No.

I want to turn my back, to get away. I should do it. Though, I know I'm unable of doing so. Because I love you too much to let you go.

I hate loving you."