Self Distruction - Tumblr Posts
tw: sh
Does anyone else notice that you bleed more since starting to sh?
I don't think it's that I've been going deeper maybe newer blades is it, but holy shit?? I bleed like a gusher?? Like I no longer do long sessions because I get lightheaded. I have to put down a fuckin towel?? I don't even cut that deep, like baby styros
Oh friendly reminder to properly bandage (as properly as possible) I'm no fukin expert but don't just slap dry bandage on that shit 1. It hurts like fuck to take off 2. Just not that good for your skin
I love me a vitamin ointment + gauze wombo combo shit hits the spot, feels so nice plus a bonus of not ruining your sheets
Anyway I'm gonna take a nap I am sleep and blood deprived good god
Take care of yourselfs.
tw: sh
Does anyone else notice that you bleed more since starting to sh?
I don't think it's that I've been going deeper maybe newer blades is it, but holy shit?? I bleed like a gusher?? Like I no longer do long sessions because I get lightheaded. I have to put down a fuckin towel?? I don't even cut that deep, like baby styros
Oh friendly reminder to properly bandage (as properly as possible) I'm no fukin expert but don't just slap dry bandage on that shit 1. It hurts like fuck to take off 2. Just not that good for your skin
I love me a vitamin ointment + gauze wombo combo shit hits the spot, feels so nice plus a bonus of not ruining your sheets
Anyway I'm gonna take a nap I am sleep and blood deprived good god
Take care of yourselfs.
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)