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Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
☆ tiny scratches sfx practice under cut ☆
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◇ 1st one was my arm, next was my ankle-ish ◇
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♡im also binging rn so eh, yay. Gonna work out hard tmrw and f4st the next day in prep for hoco. Might chew n spit my box of cookies tnt♡
i need my raz0r i’m gnawing at my enclosure
Warning !! : This post contains topics of sh
I wanna cvt so badly but my cousin threatened 2 tell the whole family if she ever found out that I did it again :[
Me when hurting myself hurts
LITERALLY. my beans don’t even ache that much like what
styros on the arm ache so bad and for what
tw s/h
please let me know how to do aftercare for deep cuts (styro and beans) i already have too many cuts that got infected
"PSYCHOSIS" IS MY TRUE MIND
Positive and Negative is a limited mindset
Fuck sex
Fuck love
This is how my razors be looking at me in my bag
Im so fucking pissed rn, but i cant even beat up my relatives so i have to cvt to deal with my anger
My razor arent sharp enough to cvt my arms, but they're sharp enough to cut my thighs so i been cutting my thighs n hipz the whole summer. tho since i dont cut deep..my old scars are faded :P
Anyways, i have lik a picture some that i did today. they cleaned up cuz i took an shower right after. I dont know if i should post. I dont want it to be taken down..so ig dm me(つ︿◕｡)