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I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway
No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear
On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX
Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10
I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned
Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.
Fuckkkkk
The store is closed tomorrow too
Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today
But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?
I think I hit beans
Oops fuck
I forgot that scars are tougher to cut through, I've been cutting on the same arm almost every night for the past month and that bitch tough as shit
I was ventureing into a new spot and gave it the same push as before
Oh fuck
I can't tell if it's beans or not holy shit
It looks a lil different than my regular styros, and feels different too I can feel it in my hand Wich is weird
Fuck me Man I hope it's just a deep styro
I just looked again, it's bulging out a bit. Fuck did I just hit baby beans
She's still bleeding a bit wow
I'm gonna clean up and pass out
UPDATE: it was beans. Holy fuck god damit it just keeps oozing, I'm gonna put a bandaid on it Lucky it's small and not bulging out to much, holy fuck. I don't like this, I don't fuck with beans they scare the shit out of me styros are perfect for me, deep enough to scar and be satisfying anything more scares me
I think I hit beans
Oops fuck
I forgot that scars are tougher to cut through, I've been cutting on the same arm almost every night for the past month and that bitch tough as shit
I was ventureing into a new spot and gave it the same push as before
Oh fuck
I can't tell if it's beans or not holy shit
It looks a lil different than my regular styros, and feels different too I can feel it in my hand Wich is weird
Fuck me Man I hope it's just a deep styro
I just looked again, it's bulging out a bit. Fuck did I just hit baby beans
She's still bleeding a bit wow
I'm gonna clean up and pass out
UPDATE: it was beans. Holy fuck god damit it just keeps oozing, I'm gonna put a bandaid on it Lucky it's small and not bulging out to much, holy fuck. I don't like this, I don't fuck with beans they scare the shit out of me styros are perfect for me, deep enough to scar and be satisfying anything more scares me
Knife TW (clean)
Look at this pretty baby!!! Specifically NOT allowed to cut myself with it and I will not be betraying that trust (I've never used knifes anyway and it's too dull for my likeing)
But she's so pretty!!!! Gonna turn her into a clip on keychain (wear her on my belt loop)
Maybe if I dip my toes into knifeplay then she can come out:3
Knife TW (clean)
Look at this pretty baby!!! Specifically NOT allowed to cut myself with it and I will not be betraying that trust (I've never used knifes anyway and it's too dull for my likeing)
But she's so pretty!!!! Gonna turn her into a clip on keychain (wear her on my belt loop)
Maybe if I dip my toes into knifeplay then she can come out:3
Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Oh god I fucked it
I hit beans again. I don't know what's wrong with me I feel like I'm loosing it, slowly bleeding every bit of me out
I did two styros and almost removed the piece of skin in-between them when bandaging
God I'm loosing it I can't even kill myself to get out of this god damn state.
I'm needed no matter what I say. I have someone relying on me and wanting to die while having that feels like hell.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs
I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless
That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.
And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something
But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
I think I'm gonna get into science
(cut myself and sprinkle in caffeine powder to see if the effects are faster)
☆ tiny scratches sfx practice under cut ☆
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◇ 1st one was my arm, next was my ankle-ish ◇
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♡im also binging rn so eh, yay. Gonna work out hard tmrw and f4st the next day in prep for hoco. Might chew n spit my box of cookies tnt♡
i was getting better.
i was getting better.
i was wrong.
i was wrong.
i was wrong.