Struggling Mentally - Tumblr Posts

You ever get that feeling where you REALLY need to talk to someone about your problems because you feel like your going to explode if you don’t but can’t because your parents won’t take your issues seriously and you have no friends so the only thing you can do is email your therapist about it and ask for advice from her but the thing is is that she doesn’t check her emails on the weekends so you basically have to suffer with bottling up all your unpleasant and conflicting feelings for two days until she replies? Cause that’s what I’m feeling right now.

I wanna cry really bad so that way I can get all of my emotions out but I can’t cause of the antidepressants I’m on.

I don’t know if it’s just me or what but I have a hard time believing someone when they say they love me. As a child, I never felt loved or received love from my parents. They never say “Honey, I love you.” I never received hugs or smooches. They’re always both neck deep in work and even when they give me materialistic things, they always make sure I understood I owed them and therefore needed to make it up to them in some ways. So, now as an adult, I can only understand the concept of love, and never feel it towards anyone. The idea of love is probably so far fetched to me that I can never really know.