"i Feel Disembodied. Is That

"i feel disembodied. is that

possible to feel? i don't know. i don't

know if this new medication is working.

it's hard to tell sometimes.

sometimes it's hard to tell,

what i feel.

is any of this real?

am i alone, am i real?

i just want to go home.

i just want to go home."

Reminder to people who don’t struggle with addiction: you don’t get to shame addicts for being open about their addiction and then turn around and treat addiction like a fucking aesthetic. I see some of you shaming addicts for coping with their addiction by making jokes about it or making art/edits about it similar to traumacore and then treat popping pills or snorting coke as an aesthetic. You fucking tell ME who’s glamorizing addiction: the addict who’s making art to cope, or the non-addict who’s treating someone’s fucking illness like an edgy aesthetic.

Fuck off 💋

fuck forgiving and forgetting I need to bash his face into unrecognisable mush

Is it just me who literally cANNOT DRINK SOCIALLY??

Like. If I’m drinking it’s to the point where the hangover is the worst, and that I’m numb to the world. I don’t know how to have ‘just one drink’. It’s either I can’t feel anything but blissful numbness or nothing at all.

And at the moment, it’s becoming more obvious that I’d literally rather starve than not drink.