I Think Being Held And Comforted While I Cry In Their Arms And They Whisper Sweet Things Into My Ear

I think being held and comforted while I cry in their arms and they whisper sweet things into my ear would safe me.

Just the two of us, existing and feeling and letting it all go and being warm and not happy, not even okay, but better.

I just really need something to hold onto while I let go completely.

If things don't change soon I'm gonna pull a Per Yngve "Pelle" Ohlin.

Someone please get the reference or I'm gonna cry even more

I want to feast on the flesh of my enemies.

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

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I want to tell him how much he is improving my quality if life but I don't want to be annoying...

I fucking started sewing again?? I am making my own clothes and patches and I started studying again.

And it's okay. He even passively stopped me from relapsing soooo many times.

I see my wounds healing and I am okay-ish with it. He tells me I'm pretty. He tells me he likes me. And I kind of belive him.

I want to tell him all of that. I want to tell him that he is really helping me by just existing the way he is.

He makes me feel safe and protected and better.

Latin. I fucking hate Latin.

No, I actually don't, but I hate having to study it.

Why do I have to know the future infinitive passive?

What??? Why?