I Have This Weird Observation (that Might Sound A Bit Selfish And Narcissistic) That People Who Somehow

I have this weird observation (that might sound a bit selfish and narcissistic) that people who somehow spend some time with me open up to me....

Like we could be drinking coffee and this person start talking about their childhood out of nowhere

My driving teacher yesterday started talking about why he thinks people don't appreciate driving teachers and why they should have bigger payment and what he does for his students...he sounded like he was letting all those thoughts and emotions out

I don't mind it tho....I feel kinda needed at moments like that, that people somehow trust me

While I was working in the stable I was wearing T-Shirts and my scars were visible.

And one day one girl asked "what happened to your arms ?"

I shot a glance at my scars, shook my head and said "Nah, that's nothing."

Then she added "You got scratched pretty bad."

"Yeah." I answered and that's were our conversation about my scars finished

I know I am learning

I know I am not supposed to know it

I know I have time to learn

But....

I am a Virgo

I am INTP

I need to be good at it before I even start it

I have to be perfect in it

I have to know it

Me after 9 shots (I'm not used to any drinking over 2 shots), sliding on the bed and being like "ooppss!"

Really I was saying "ops" whenever I slid on the sheets

I just realized that my "parents", especially my "dad", 'trained' me....

The front doors open, I run downstairs

They call my name, I run downstairs or to them without any questions

Whatever they say, I agree and nod

They trained me really good so if someone in the future decides to make me their dumb puppy know that I am already well-trained, just change some commands

I really hate it when my "mum" keeps looking at my scars and says "I can't look at them."

Then stop geezz..... it's not that hard

And her nagging about "what will you tell the doctor if he/she asks ?" (I am preparing for a driving licence course and I have to meet the doctor first) What can I tell her ? The truth what else ?

I hate that my "dad" wants me to get rid of the scars no matter what... He says that I should use collagen to get rid of them....I don't want to....

Them being scared of other people and their thoughts....