I Really Hate It When My "mum" Keeps Looking At My Scars And Says "I Can't Look At Them."

I really hate it when my "mum" keeps looking at my scars and says "I can't look at them."

Then stop geezz..... it's not that hard

And her nagging about "what will you tell the doctor if he/she asks ?" (I am preparing for a driving licence course and I have to meet the doctor first) What can I tell her ? The truth what else ?

I hate that my "dad" wants me to get rid of the scars no matter what... He says that I should use collagen to get rid of them....I don't want to....

Them being scared of other people and their thoughts....

When you made 'Sunoo's move' on someone the same way he did on Sunghoon and you're kinda friends but not really because you're the only one who makes effort and....and...and...

I don't know man .... The situation is fucked up....

Any tips ?

Cutting with your not dominant hand is thousands times better because you don't have enough practice and you actually don't feel the limit and you cut deeper.... that's funny tho

⚠️Tw suicide/selfharm mention/vent⚠️

I am thinking about suicide again

I wanna die because.....

Why I wanna die ?

Maybe just because....

Maybe because I am useless

Maybe because I am not worthy

Maybe because I am not enough

Because I am nothing

Because I don't deserve to live....

I don't deserve to be loved, to love, to exist....

I am nothing and no one ever would love someone like me so why live if anyways I end up dead...

Why live if anyways I be annoying, useless, not worthy, not enough....

No one cares if I am alive or dead ....

No one cares if my arms are covered in cuts and scars....

As long as I have good grades

As long as people see me as a kind, good and clever person ....

No one cares and no one will .....

If so then why live ?

Why suffer so much when you can die

Why be alive and be called a problem

I don't want to live

I don't want to be alive

I want to die

To disappear and never come back

Send me some interesting stuff or questions to my inbox because I am so fricking bored

Thank you in advance

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