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“People go through this all the time.” “There are others” “You’re not alone.”
Well, maybe I WANT to be alone. Maybe I want to feel special, even for something like this. Maybe I want to be acknowledged for once in my life. Maybe I want people to pay attention to me. Maybe I want to feel important.
That very specific type of self hatred that only occurs to children of self fulfilled literature professors. Nothing I like is elegant enough for them, it’s all cute and very accessible. Song of Achilles has “childish” writing good for teens she says. No metaphor can ever beat Shakespeare and neither will I.
My "parents" struck again....
So I have holiday now after my finals and I'm doing shit....like for real, I'm just sitting locked in my room, watching series and I am not leaving until I have to go to the bathroom or I am going to eat... anyways...they are mad at me because of that...they expect me to talk to them and spend time with them....
And I am like: guys.... you still don't get it ? We have no fucking connection....I don't feel like your kid (well...I am not, never had been and never will )
Also they're asking what was I going to do tomorrow or the next few months of my holiday ? And I say "I don't know" because I don't fucking know ....
And they are: They who will know ? You need to know.
Well.... I don't who I am so knowing what I am going to do tomorrow is not the right question here, is it ?
My "dad" calling me "stupid, weird, crazy and psycho" hits a bit different especially during the argument about me using too much computer....
I just realized that my "parents", especially my "dad", 'trained' me....
The front doors open, I run downstairs
They call my name, I run downstairs or to them without any questions
Whatever they say, I agree and nod
They trained me really good so if someone in the future decides to make me their dumb puppy know that I am already well-trained, just change some commands
rubber bands
did anyone else's mom make them wear those rubber bands so that everytime you spaced out, cut yourself, or even looked like you were just having a bad day that might result to cutting she would hit you with it? Like pull it back really far and then snap your skin with it?
cuz chat. I'm starting to think that might have been abuse.
Parental issues suck, cause one minute they're awesome and you think that they're finally changing and the next you feel like you wanna unalive both them and yourself.