I Know I Am Learning

I know I am learning

I know I am not supposed to know it

I know I have time to learn

But....

I am a Virgo

I am INTP

I need to be good at it before I even start it

I have to be perfect in it

I have to know it

Trying to keep someone alive through someone else's chat is hard....

Especially when you need someone who will try as hard as you do ...

Cutting with your not dominant hand is thousands times better because you don't have enough practice and you actually don't feel the limit and you cut deeper.... that's funny tho

Especially when your younger cousins start asking: "do you have a husband? You are old enough to be married already."

I'm fucking 19 !

When I told them that I am not old enough to get married they changed their tactic.

"Then you should at least have a fiancé."

Geez ... I've been single since day one.... find me a boyfriend then we will talk about fiancé...

I am surprised that I am not addicted from cigarettes yet like I would be smoking five a day for a week or so and then have two months break....and the circle repeats itself

And there is no evidence of addiction at all ....

My "dad" calling me "stupid, weird, crazy and psycho" hits a bit different especially during the argument about me using too much computer....