Parents

Parents

My parents are literally so funny; they think parenting is just financially supporting the household and feeding us. It is as if that is they have the right to us. Like sir, madam, parenting has much more depth to it then that; even I know more about parenting than you who lived about twice the time I have ever lived. Please, it’s true you made those children but your children are not yours to manipulate and control or mold them into perfect shape, they’re their own person, you are just there to support them, not own them. And that’s on toxic parents. 

Maladaptive daydreaming

Today I learned that my addiction with daydreaming and my habit of constantly daydreaming in order to fall asleep is a psychology disorder called maladaptive daydreaming. It is said to be caused by trauma. It usually serves as an escape from reality when things get too hard for me to manage and in doing so, I cultivated a hobby of writing stories and daydreaming on a daily basic. I also need to create these scenarios for me to actually fall asleep. If I clear these things out from my head and my head is clear, I won’t be able to fall asleep or get insomnia. I didn’t know that it was related to childhood trauma. Since I was young, this had been my way of coping with the reality. I escaped into this dream-like realm that I created in my head and immerse myself into it until I lose sense of reality and what is happening around me. I thought I was just too addicted to daydreaming.

Greetings

Hi everyone! At first, I didn't intend on actually using the account to post anything but now I changed my mind and decided to make this my personal blog, so that way, I can post some things that's happening in my life and maybe have a chance to talk with anyone who have similar situations like me or anyone intesested. So, I'm Melody, and 17 years old and I'm an asian. And I'm gonna count today as my first day of blogging. I hope I get to talk with anyone.

So, I have a younger brother called william. As asians, since our mother language not being english, william and I were 'forced' to learn english by our somewhat strict asian parents. At first, I didn't very much enjoy it, but later on, I found myself enjoying learning it. The problem is william. He's not fond of studying, like at all. So, he only feels obligated to learn it, and slacking off. My parents are not having it. Every weekend, when william has english classes, they tend to throw tantrums. Seriously, it's affecting me and I can't take it. I'm really sensitive when it comes to family issues. What I think they 'should' do here is, instead of yelling, making a scene, comparing kids and stuffs, they 'really should' mame a stretagy plan on how to get him interested and actually start learning. Them throwing tantrums is seriously not helping at all. If it were me in his shoes, I simply wouldn't be ae to take it, the pressure is too much. I really hope they stop. I tried comforting them but they won't understand my point. So, I just can't help but hope they realise it sooner.

That's it for today. I have many other things or cases, but since today's the first day, I wanna keep it somewhat brief and not too much to take in for someone out there who actually reads this. I'm not sure if people will see this or even bother to read but still this blogging will be the only thing that keeps me sane during the crazy things that's happening in my life. Thank you! I wish whoever's reading a great day and happiness!

~Melody~

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Day 7

30 days writing challenge

day 7 :favourite movie

As I'm an otaku; my first and foremost favourite movie must be Howl’s moving castle. I love that movie very much, I love both the illustrations and storyline. I think it’s a wonderful movie. 

Another one has to be spirited away, although I'm not a fan of the female protagonist, I really love the plot and the male protagonist. This also is a wonderful movie, and I love the supernatural genres. 

Have a nice day everyone!

~Melody~

song recommendations

 Today, I wanna do a little bit of song recommendations so that some of you who likes to listen to nice songs can check them out and see if we have same taste!

1. WYA by Carlie Hanson

(This song makes me catch feelings, I fell in love with it since the first time hearing it. The song feels as if the singer was talking to herself but only the composer themselves will know. All in all, it’s a great song.)

2.To be young by Anne Marie

(This is a recent song, since I’m a teenager, I can feel every lyrics in this. Highly recommended for teens but really, anyone can check that out)

3. OK not to be OK by Marshmello & Demi Lovato

(This is one of my favourites, the lyrics are very heart-warming and it helped me when I was going through hard times. When you feel like life’s too hard to live on, breathe, go listen to this song and cry your heart out.❤️)

4. Comethru by Jeremy Zucker

(Some people might already know this. It’s such a calming song and boy, does he has an amazing voice. Perfect for any mood! 👌)

5. Today my life begins by Bruno Mars

(I doubt there is anyone who doesn’t know this legend; Bruno Mars. This song is full of inspirations who needs it. Seriously, this man makes the best songs.)

That’s it for today, if you like my recommendations, let me know. I might write more posts about this topic if you say so. Please follow my account for more contents. Thank you for your attention. 

~Melody~