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Maladaptive Daydreaming
Maladaptive daydreaming


Today I learned that my addiction with daydreaming and my habit of constantly daydreaming in order to fall asleep is a psychology disorder called maladaptive daydreaming. It is said to be caused by trauma. It usually serves as an escape from reality when things get too hard for me to manage and in doing so, I cultivated a hobby of writing stories and daydreaming on a daily basic. I also need to create these scenarios for me to actually fall asleep. If I clear these things out from my head and my head is clear, I won’t be able to fall asleep or get insomnia. I didn’t know that it was related to childhood trauma. Since I was young, this had been my way of coping with the reality. I escaped into this dream-like realm that I created in my head and immerse myself into it until I lose sense of reality and what is happening around me. I thought I was just too addicted to daydreaming.
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Day 3
day 3: a memory
I had trouble thinking of this one. People tends to remember sad things over others, I do remember sad days far better than good memories. But I'd like to share a crazy memory. It was a year before my high school graduation, I signed myself up for a school play under the “stop human trafficking” champaign. I also signed myself up for the script writer and director. The chaos started there; the people in my class had literally no respect against each other. They rarely followed my instructions as a director, they did everything as they wished. I made a mistake in choosing the main actress and only realised that when she started causing trouble around the group. She had an argument with the main actor, with the setting crew and with literally everyone. It was such a huge mess. Despite the chaos inside our group, we managed to at least get the third prize. I was aiming for the first place with our script but we had to make do with that. Not to mention, I had to rewrite the script countless until the competition day drew near. Seriously, that gave me a lot of headache as the organiser. I've learned my lesson there too. What a crazy experience.
Anyways, I hope whoever’s reading a great day. Sending love to everyone.
~Melody~
Day 1
I thought why not do the 30 days writing challenge, it’ll be fun so here it is.
day 1 : describe your personality
Actually, I don’t know where to start with this. As a teenage girl who’s currently going through a growing up process, my personality changes a lot. Sometimes I went from 0 to 1000 real quick, which I mean like “I’m a fabulous queen” to “I’m a living failure who has no purpose in life”. It’s nothing too surprising though, I feel like most people can relate to this too. If I have to describe myself, I’m kinda savage and rebellious with my family, can seem cold to strangers, but actually nice with friends and bubbly. I have trust issues and family issues so it usually takes a lot of time to get to know me or for me to warm up to people. I have a positive mindset most of the time and is self-motivated and I’d say I’m pretty good at healing myself. I’m an ambivert, I’d like to stay quite but that doesn’t mean I don’t like participating in conversations or discussions. I like taking the lead in life and everything but I can be a good follower too. I’m also a feminist. I think that’s about it, I’m still changing and nothing really is set in stone. Sometimes, I even give myself a complete makeover ‘cuz I’m bored. So, these are common facts I can think of at the moment, about me.
I wish whoever’s reading a good day and happiness. Spreading love to people.
~Melody~
Dreams

Hi, it’s me, Melody! What I wanna talk about this time is, dreams. Some teenagers have dreams about what they wanna do in the future and some simply doesn't have one.Dreams do play an important role in peoples’ lives. It’s totally fine if you don’t have one now, I believe you’ll find yours someday.
As for me, I wanna be rich, like crazy rich, like a millionaire. Well, that’s actually a really common one if you think about it but still let a girl dream. Besides, it’s not entirely impossible for us, is it? There’s also another one; it’s to travel around the world. I’ve always wanted to visit those beautiful places that exist in this incredible world. That’ll be a great luxury. Imagine spending a night in an expensive suite and enjoying the scenery of the city. Everyone would love that, wouldn’t they? Okay so, before I get carried away with my daydreaming, I’ll stop this here and talk about my current reality.
After I graduated from high school, I was actually lost about what to do. But then, I ended up choosing my university major as an IT student. Simply because there weren’t any other better choices that interest me. Back then, I was thinking, maybe I’ll become a game developer and apply for a job at a company. I got that idea solely from my love towards otome games (which are anime simulation types). But everything changed when my parents wanted me to continue their business in their stead. I had no interest in their work and I was strongly against the idea. They finally gave up but everything I’ve thought about until then crushed and I became lost again. I’ve decided to become a freelance software developer or something along the line at least. So that way, I can still fulfil my dream of traveling while I’m also able to work no matter where I am. My career path is pretty much unclear but I refuse to give up on my dream. I hope one day I’m able to do as I wish and see my dreams becoming a reality.
Thank you for reading till the end. I wish for you to find your dreams if you don’t have one yet and for those who has one, I wish you achieve it as soon as possible. Spreading love and kindness to everyone. I hope you have a good day!
~Melody~

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