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Dean, Sam and Cas know each other so well that they always know when one isn’t okay. They can play it off and say they’re great, but the others will always know when one of them is just faking it.

I really could need a person like that in my life. I can’t fully admit how depressed I am right now to anyone and I feel like not even my best friends know me well enough to see that I struggle.

I’ve been depressed for so long that I’ve become really good at hiding it, so even when I tell others I’m not okay, they don’t really understand.

I’m just so grateful to Jensen, Jared and Misha because their work is what gets me through my days right now and distracts me a little from all this darkness inside of me.

In case anyone needs to hear this today.

Dean Winchester wants you to always keep fighting! You’ve got this!

I too hate being perceived.

Sending you so much love!💛

You’re strong and you’ll get through whatever you’re struggling with right now!

And if you EVER need someone to talk, my inbox is always open!

(That goes for everyone who’s having a hard time, if you need to talk, I’m here!)

Hey uh so

This is my official one-note-one-day post.

I just- I don’t know what I’m hoping will happen just that I won’t almost die or want to die everyday.

I’ve just been not okay.

Today wasn’t great. I’ve got a panic attack in class because I’m anxious about passing my test next week and in addition to not being able to sleep properly for weeks now my IBS is acting up so that I physically feel like I was hit by a truck.

I just got a postcard from a friend who wrote me that they’re proud of me for studying so much and now I feel even worse because I feel like I’m lying. I’m not studying much, if I manage to do my homework, attend my 3 tutoring lessons a week and study vocs for 10 minutes daily that’s much for me already.

I really don’t study much because everything is so damn exhausting and to hear praise about my hard work makes me just feel like a fraud because it’s simply not true that I’m studying much.

But I also know that I’m dealing with a chronic illness and depression right now, so even when I do what would be the bare minimum for others, that’s hard work for me. I just hope it will be enough to pass this class.

What helped me through this day though is spn and this wonderful fandom. Y’all are so full of love and all your wonderful art helps distracting me from the pain I’m in. I love y’all idjits💛

Am I becoming obsessed with Supernatural again because I’m sliding back into depression OR am I depressed again because I’m obsessed with Supernatural again?

Like.. my obsession with Supernatural helps me get through the day because it’s the one thing that helps keep my mind occupied enough to not feel even worse and TFW motivates me to always keep fighting.

But it also makes me so sad because those poor babies have to suffer so much and it breaks my heart when I think about Destiel and what they went through and all the trauma J*hn put the boys through and I love Dean, Cas and Sam so much that it hurts to see them hurt so much, especially every detailed analysis someone posts about their trauma & childhood.

And then again it makes me sad to think about Supernatural because even though they went through so much shit, Cas, Dean & Sam have such a strong bond and I’m sad because I don’t have anyone who knows me like they know each other. I don’t have anyone who knows me enough to see through the smile I put on every day, who knows when I’m not okay and who will call me out when I say I’m okay and don’t mean it. I just want a relationship like the one Dean and Cas have but I don’t think it’s humanly possible to know each other like that and blindly understand the other one’s most secret thoughts and feelings and it makes me sad to know it’s impossible to ever have a connection like that with anyone.

I‘d normally say I‘m cas-coded, but I just realized that I‘m THEE queen of repressed emotions, which I think is very Dean of me..

If any of you have ✨any✨ tips on how I can stop being so fucking emotionally repressed please PLEASE let me know.

Didn’t watch supernatural in almost a year when I got out of depression because I realized I was relating too hard to Dean & it wasn’t good for my mental health anymore because there was so much pain.

Right now I’m sick with the flue, coughing so hard I feel like it‘ll make me throw up & feeling nauseous which really does NOT pair well with my health anxiety & emetophobia.. So I was trying to find any show to watch to distract me from being anxious so I could fall asleep. I didn’t want anything „boring“, but I also needed something I already knew because I didn’t want it to keep me from falling asleep because I wanted to see what happened.

After a little consideration the good ol spn popped into my head and at first I was a bit worried it might remind me too much of when I was depressed & ne too hurtful & be bad for my mental health again, but at the same time I knew I needed some kind of comfort only this show could provide.

And man does it feel good to watch this again. It’s strange how something can be so painful & sad and yet so incredibly comforting. Like I feel actual pain now watching the first season because after watching the entire show (& spending countless hours reading in-depth psychonanlysis about this show - thanks tumblr) now all the abuse Dean suffered from J*hn is SO damn obvious. And yet, at the same time, although he‘s kinda broken and I just wanna hug him, Dean conveys this feeling of safety I just really lack in reality right now. I just need someone like him who‘s adorkable and quirky and SO PROTECTIVE AND STRONG.

Right now I‘m crying because I’m so sorry for everything Dean had to go through, I‘m laughing about the way he talks, his sass, how he uses m&m‘s like breadcrumbs to lead Sammy to where the Wendigo took him, the way he talks to authority, the way he kills all evil sons of bitches he encounters because it helps with his trauma. I feel like I got a good friend back and although my anxiety is still there and I still feel like a walking corpse and I still can’t sleep even though it’s 4am & my sick body could need it, I feel a little more protected and just like there’s someone just on the other side of a screen who‘s there to help me get me through this.

Hey spn fam I’m really REALLY struggling with my mental health rn can you please help me and send me your fav/most uplifting/ funny spn gifs/ quotes/ anything?

I just really need any help I can get to make it through the night cause rn I don’t feel like I can keep fighting anymore

Can I just say for a second: the supernatural fandom is the sweetest, most caring group of people I can imagine and I adore y’all to bits!!

Yesterday I made a post about having a real bad depressive episode and I just really needed anything spn related to help me keep kicking through the night and y’all really came through and sent me so much stuff that I’ll be occupied for the next weeks probably.

I can’t even explain how much this helped me already. I can’t describe how much it means to have so many strangers take time out of their day to check in and send me stuff to get me through.

I feel a bit better today. Ofc my depression isn’t magically cured (I wish there was a spell) and I know some days are better and some will be way worse again but rn I feel like I might be able to fight this shit until I’m better again.

Y’all got me through a really dark spot and I’ll keep coming back to all those messages now and especially when I feel that bad again.

So thank you for being the kindest and sweetest fandom on earth, I can’t express how much your messages mean to me!

Supernatural already got me through my first horrible depressive episode a few years ago and it seems like it’s doing it again. Idc how strange it sounds but it’s the one thing that works for me, especially since I can’t have therapy or antidepressants, so I’ll cling to it until things are better again.

This post is probably incoherent rambles but I just wanted to say thank you all so much for being there, I truly wish you all the best💚💙

Just because you feel like you’re a mess doesn’t mean you’re trash.

You can have a mess that’s made up of good things, just in the wrong places. When you finally are able to clean it up you could find amazing things. You could be amazing.

There’s no need to rush in the clean up either, take your time. Enjoy yourself and make a habbit of remembering the good things, people and events. Place everything in the places you want them to be in.

You will be okay…you may be a mess now but you’re worth so much, there’s no need to throw it all away. Always keep fighting.

I don't get nor care for the irrational hatred for half of what makes this show something we love so much, as well as a man who does nothing but put positivity into the world. Jared is a wonderful actor who breathed life into a wonderful character. The hate is nonsense. It's borne of delusion. No one is hurting you by enjoying something, but hate is a deliberate hurt to others, and I ain't here for it.

Who ARE these people. I try really, really hard to live and let live, but this hate-boner they have for Sam/Jared is fucking gross. Grow up and realise you don't have to shove someone down to raise someone else up.

I lean Dean but I'll die on this fuckin' hill.

I have a lot of things to say about Minncon, but first of all, I want to talk about Jared.

I know he made a post today that was contradictory and a lot of people may think he’s an asshole. But lemme tell you a story that nobody told me, I saw it with my own eyes, and made me realize even more what an unique person Jared Padalecki is.

Last night, Minncon was ending and Jared was finishing his autos, he was last as usual and there was barely nobody around anymore. We were outside the room waiting for him to leave, so we could see him one last time. He finally emerges, and we wave and stuff, and he immediately goes hug the girls closest to him. He walks away , I yell that we love him, and he yells back that he loves us more. But that’s not what I want to tell you.

When I thought he had left already, I saw that Clif and other security had stopped, so I went to check what was happening, and I came to a scene of Jared crouched down beside a girl who was seating against a wall. The girl was desperately crying, and Jared was comforting her. He talked to her, he hugged her, he took his time. That went on for about 5 minutes. He made everyone wait just so he could talk to the girl. Then he went on his way. That touched me deeply, to see how much he cares. There were no cameras, nobody was around, it was only him, the real Jared. He didn’t have to do that, he could just walk past her but he didnt. That was not the actor, that was the person. Nobody would know he did that if I wasn’t making a post about it, because he doesn’t have to show off. That’s who he is. And I know it’s true because i was there.

My point is, Jared has flaws. I won’t applaud or agree with everything he does. He’s human after all. But I have never met in my life such a caring and loving person. He was so kind to me the both times I met him (I’ll talk about my autograph later), he has such a power within him, that I don’t understand how can someone hate him. Meeting Jared in person was a turning point for me, I already loved him for many years, but now i love the person Jared, the one who cares, who looks at you with the kindest eyes in the whole world and makes you feel important. The one who detours from his path to comfort a crying fan.

I’ve seen firsthand how other actors act when a fan says a simple hi, and how uncaring they could be. But not Jared. You can say a million things about him, but if you hate him, you’re wasting your time. You are missing on one of the most special people in this planet.

Jared, thanks for being who you are, I love you so much I can’t even put into words right now.

I feel like Jared would just be so excited to talk about all his favourite bits and waiting for your reaction to them; telling you what was going on during filming particular scenes and ending on his fourth tangent 30 minutes later so you have to rewind because you've missed half of the episode. He is too precious for this world. I want.

jensen stans who hate jared are HILARIOUS to me.

jensen has admitted to punching people because they started shit with jared, has pulled jared off red carpets or crashed panels because be wasn’t feeling well, got angry over facebook pages badmouthing jared or at fans who told him to strop crying.

they lived together, then lived next to each other. they know each other inside out. their kids call each other “uncle”.

jensen said how “we never get tired of each other which i think speaks volume we spend that much time together and i think it's also why we're still here today... we get tired of misha” and how “jared and i are gonna be in harmony for the rest of our lives”.

jensen agreed when jared said “this isn’t the first lifetime we’ve been friends” implying their friendship is so strong it transcends lifetimes.

fam, and you really think the man wouldn’t immediately deck you if he found out you regularly send his soulmate/best friend for life hate? be serious.

Jared gots no time for your toxic masculinity (Vegascon 2017)

big fan of polite and minimal explanations when you need to get out of work, school, plans etc. just a definitive ‘sorry but I can’t make it today.’ and then if they press for details or are rude about it say ‘sorry, something came up. thanks for understanding’ i’m over the idea that you have to exaggerate/overexplain your situation even when you don’t want to do that to be worthy of flexibility and grace in your life

Dancing Jared... ❤️

here's a dancing Jared for anyone who is feeling down..