Low Self Confidence - Tumblr Posts
fatima aamer bilal, from moony moonless sky’s laundry for self.
[text id: oh, how i wish i could admire beauty without loathing myself. / what soap can melt this stain? / what water can rinse this dirt?]
fatima aamer bilal, from i am the menace in my head.
[text id: they say you set the bar too high, i know, i am the who’s climbing it.]
fatima aamer bilal, from even flesh eaters don’t want me.
[text id: i would knit my flesh into yours to patch up your wounds.]
fatima aamer bilal, from save me from me.
[text id: when did your plam become a fist? / when did the touch of your hand become knuckles against my cheek?]
fatima aamer bilal, from you can’t save me.
[text id: and i said, “dear, darling, your shining armor is rusting. there’s no saving in a mad town crumbling.”]
fatima aamer bilal, from i would leave me too if i could.
[text id: i am nothing, but catastrophe riding on the wind.”
So I made my own call- out post bingo about how my main characters always are 😔
fatima aamer bilal, from days where my whole world is my bed.
[my father wanted a national hero, but settled for me. / my mother always told me to never play with knives. i bet she never saw me becoming one.]
fatima aamer bilal, from days where my whole world is my bed.
[text id: my father wanted a national hero, but settled for me. / rotten marrow and a liability.]
Not being wanted for years is really sad...
I keep thinking this Girl will be different! She will treat me the way I wanna be treated! I will be loved and hugged tell I can't take it!.
I just want that to be a reality instead I'm lost, nobody wants me?.. single for years, and not a single person has wanted me??
What is so wrong.. I am Goofy asf, I have a tiny crooked nose, I have dark, dark, dark brown eyes, my teeth aren't perfectly straight. But they're close.. I'm trying to understand how a person can decide within a fucking min that I'm not attractive anymore...
This just keeps happening, Compliments on how I'm cute then ghosted or deleted, why??.. why even start my hopes.. why not reply? What the fuck is wrong with me.
You are strong. You are a bad bitch. You have the power of the world at your fingertips. You will treat yourself with compassion because it's what you deserve.
big fan of polite and minimal explanations when you need to get out of work, school, plans etc. just a definitive ‘sorry but I can’t make it today.’ and then if they press for details or are rude about it say ‘sorry, something came up. thanks for understanding’ i’m over the idea that you have to exaggerate/overexplain your situation even when you don’t want to do that to be worthy of flexibility and grace in your life
I've always been very insecure so I really hated shopping, the more weight I gained the more I hated it
Just last summer I went shopping with my sister and cried in the fitting room because I couldn't find my size and I didn't like how certain things looked on me, I only got 2 things because I really needed them
But today I went shopping and had lots of fun, and I also got a lot of things and I didn't cry when something didn't fit me
I'm fatter than I was last year, so this is such a big accomplishment for me
Proof that you don't need to lose weight to be happy with your body ✌🏻
And I wish those who romanticize anorexia and eating disorders understood this
I have a problem.
Me: It's so awesome to have tattoos. Look, how cool that person (elder person with tattoos) looks.
Inner myself (a.k.a WTF): Mate, we have three tattoos.
Me: How stylish looks that person with ear piercings!!
"WTF": Mate, we have them too. Half of wich was ACTUALLY done by YOU.
Me: It's so fantastically fabulous doing own accessories. I am not good enough in it.
"WTF": Mate, really?? You doing own resin accessories!! Literally having an insta page "TranScendent" with your bijouterie!!!! A few days ago we made a huge gift for our friend, that was handmade!!!!
Me: That voice is so... so unreal and magic!! I could not do that...
"WTF" [starts old video]: Listen, saKKer, it's our voice. People used to say we have The Angelic Voice.
Thank you for what you said. Really. I have so much fucking confidence in myself now. "You've reached this far only to still be dumb as fuck" is what you told me. I've never done this before?!! It is NORMAL to make mistakes god dammit. Your fucking supportive comments is the last thing I need right now.
She's not to be blamed for your incompetence. Just admit it, you fucking suck. Stop being a dramatic bitch. And control your fucking anger. You're so childish. I can't stand you.
He hates it. All of it. It's trash to him. Just like me. I've disappointed him as usual. He said it's below basic level. BELOW. BASIC. LEVEL. FUCKING. BELOW.
I am a failure. As usual. I am below basic level. Below basic level.... below..........
“i see no point in living if i can’t be beautiful.” ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི