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Erwin x fem!Reader

Fluff. You and Erwin enjoy peace as you ride on your horses.

Imagine Erwin and you horseback riding together. You’re inside the walls, so it’s safe. It’s just the two of you riding past houses and lush fields of wildflowers. The wind is blowing through your hair and the smell of grass fills your nose. It’s a perfect day to go riding and it’s even more perfect because you get to spend time with Erwin. You two are usually very busy being scouts, so it’s quite nice getting time to yourselves. You’re both so happy to be together without having your duties to worry about today. Erwin told you that he was taking you somewhere special, so you’re quite excited. The day is perfect and so is the love that you two share.

•I do NOT own any characters except y/n•

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-L.W.L

Why Do You Care Now?

Erwin Smith x fem!Reader

In which Erwin and reader get into an argument about the status of their relationship…

Angst, Erwin is an ass, fluff eventuality.

Your Pov

He doesn’t care about me. I was simply something that could satisfy his needs while he had spare time. He told me he loved me and that I was the reason he fought so hard for humanity. Now I know he told me sweet lies so I’d be caught in his trap. I was just a toy for Erwin Smith. This revelation makes me feel sick. I feel betrayed and yet I still love him. I truly do and I thought he did too, but it was all a lie. Every sweet word, every touch, every feeling was nothing more than a deception.

A few minutes earlier…

I walk into my lover’s office to deliver him reports. I also wanted to talk to him about our relationship and whether or not it would be okay if other people could know about us. I mean it doesn’t seem like a bad thing to ask about, right?

I knock on his door and hear him telling me to enter. I entered with a smile on my face. Seeing him always makes my heart fill with joy. Because this world is dangerous and death is around every corner, but being with Erwin makes me realize that it’s can also be beautiful. I set the reports on his desk as he send me a small smile.

“Hello Commander” I say

“Hello cadet” Erwin says with a serious expression.

“Here are the recent reports for you sir”

“Thank you cadet, that’ll be all”

“Actually sir, there is something I’d like to talk with you about.” I say nervously

“I have a minute to spare, so please” he says as he gestures to the seat in front of me.

“It’s about us. I was wondering if it would be okay if we could maybe tell people about our relationship? I mean we have been together for a while now, and I just though that it would be time to tell people.” I said with as much confidence as I could muster.

“Y/n I think you misunderstand what we are exactly.” Erwin says with a sigh

“Aren’t we together sir?” I question.

“No y/n you are simply someone that I have sexual relations with. You and I are nothing more that casual friends that have sex.” Erwin says while looking at me.

My heart drops at this sudden information and I’m confused on what he means.

“B-but Erwin you told me that you loved me. You do love me don’t you?” I say as tears start to form.

“I do not love you. I have never loved you. I only said that to you to satisfy your needs and to keep you around me. I’m far too busy for love. And even if I wasn’t, you’re not the person that I’d first choose. You’re a clingy annoying brat that is only good for sex. In fact I do not care what happens to you. If you were to die, then I would simply take it like everyone else that dies for this regiment.” He says with no ounce of remorse.

I sit there with tears now flowing out of my eyes. My entire heart feels like it’s been shattered. I can’t breathe. I thought he loved me? I’m nothing to him? He wouldn’t care if I died? This is not the same man I knew yesterday. The man I knew yesterday would have hugged me if I had asked. Or comforted me after a rough expedition. Or kissed me just because. The man I knew yesterday would tell me how important I was to him and how much he loved me. He would’ve told me that he would protect me and that he hoped one day we could live together and get married. That man I knew yesterday is no longer the man I see in front of me. This man is nothing but anger and he’s looking at me like I’m the most disgusting thing in this wretched world.

“Now Cadet if that’s all, you may take your leave” Erwin says coldly

I say nothing as I leave his office. For I cannot even speak. Hell, I can’t even think straight. Everything I had is now gone. He truly doesn’t care for me. My feelings for him don’t matter and neither does my life. Currently it feels as though I’m drowning in sadness unable to see the surface.

One month later during an expedition…

Beyond the walls is beautiful, it truly is. If it weren’t for the threat of titians, humanity would flourish out here. Currently the scouts are on an expedition. Our mission is to gather as much information as we can. This is set to be a several day expedition, but so far our losses exceed what we hoped. Yet the commander pushes us on with our mission.

At this point I don’t care if I live or die. This world is shit and the thing I loved most betrayed me. So now, I don’t believe I have a will to live. Erwin was the only thing I had. My parents were scouts and they both met their demise during an expedition just like this one. Maybe I’ll join them soon? Will anyone account my death if I were to die today? Will anyone care? Will he care?

My thoughts were interrupted my a large hand hovering over me. Before I could react, it grabbed me and began lifting me off my horse. I didn’t scream as it began crushing my bones. I didn’t cry as I saw it’s mouth opening and felt myself being pulled towards it. All I felt was relief. And for the first time in awhile, I feel happy. I’m going to die and that doesn’t scare me.

Suddenly I heard the sound of ODM gear. And the grip on my body loosened and I felt my body begin to fall. The fall was interrupted by someone grabbing me mid air. I felt dizzy and it felt like there was a blanket of blood covering my broken body. My eyes felt heavy and all I wanted to do was close my eyes. I’m so tired and I can’t feel my body. Before I closed my eyes I saw him. Erwin’s face is hovering over mine. Maybe I’m having one last hopeful imagination, but I think I see tears in his eyes. His mouth is moving, but I can’t hear any words coming out of his mouth. After a minute of looking at him I finally close my eyes and everything goes dark.

Erwin Pov

It’s been nearly a week since I saved y/n. She’s going to recover, but her body was bruised severely and several of her bones were broke. It’s a miracle that she was able to survive. The thought of her dying broke something in me. I know what I said to her. And if there were ever anything I were to regret, it would be the poison that I spoke to her on that day. Seeing her about to get eaten made me neglect my very duties as a commander. I broke formation to save her. Every logical thought I had was replaced with my desire to save her. I try being with her as much as I can, however my duties as a commander keep me away from her. I want to be there when she wakes up. I want to tell her that all I said to her on that day was nothing but lies. I want her to forgive me and love me the way that she use to. I want to tell her, hell, I need to tell her that I do indeed love her.

At first she was someone that I used to satisfy my needs. She was simply a means to an end. There was a time where the threat of her life would not have bothered me. But she slowly crept into my heart. She made me feel more passion that I thought was capable in this life. That scared me. I was scared of how she made me feel. In fear of losing her. But she’s alive and would have died if I didn’t save her.

Two Days Later…

I managed to get some spare time to see her today. Hange says that y/n should wake up soon. I’m hoping she does. I miss her and I’m desperate to tell her how I feel. She needs to hear what I have to say. I’m confident that she will forgive me if I just tell her. Right?

My thoughts are interrupted when I heard rustling next to me. I immediately went close to her just waiting for her to open her eyes. After a few more seconds, her eyes flutter open and my eyes meet with hers and I began to smile.

“Y/n, I’m so glad you’re awake. How are you feeling?” I asked her

“Erwin?” She whispered

“Don’t talk just yet let me get you some water. ” I say as I grab the glass of water by her bedside.

“Thanks” she say as she grabs the water from my hand and takes a small sip from it. After she’s done I take it from her and place it back on her bedside.

“Erwin, why are you here?” She questions

“Y/n, I’m here because I was worried about you. You nearly died, but I managed to save you from a titan. You’ve been asleep for little over a week now, but Hange says that you’ll make a full recovery.” I tell her

“Thank you for saving me Erwin, I truly appreciate that, but you didn’t answer my question”

“I’m here because I need to tell you that everything I said to you that say was a lie. I said those hurtful things to you because I was scared of telling anyone because I was scared. And y/n I am so sorry for what I said to you. And I hope that you can forgive me for what I’ve done to you. Y/n I love you and I want us to be together again. And this time I want us to be public with it. I’ll give you some time to think, but just know that I truly do want this with you.” I said to her sincerely hoping she would understand.

“Erwin, thank you for being honest with me. However I do not want to be with you.” She said

“Y/n you’re confused and you just woke up. Maybe give it a few days?” I said nervously

“Erwin I’m sorry but I cannot be with someone that said they wouldn’t care if I was dead. You lied to me and used me. Hell, I don’t even know if you’re telling me the truth. And why do you even care now?” Y/n said raising her voice.

“Y/n I am telling you the truth. So please give me this chance I will do better I promise”

“Please leave and don’t come and visit me again. I do not want to be with you. I will not allow myself to love you the way I use to. So please leave. You and I are nothing more than commander and cadet.” She says coldly.

“Y/n please.” I beg her

“Just go!”

I do as she says and I leave the room. I’ve lost her. If I had only showed her that I cared for her then, none of this would’ve happened. But at the same time I felt that my apology was good. She’s just not thinking rationally, so perhaps she’ll come back to me soon. That’s my hope anyway.

One Year Later

Your pov

My body took months to heal and because of how badly I was injured, I permanently have a slight limp in my leg. It stops me from being as efficient as I use to be, but I manage. I am no longer bothered by Erwin Smith. He was persistent about us being together again for months after I woke up. But now he’s ceased his actions and our relationship is strictly professional. He did promise me that I would be the only woman he’d ever love. And how he regrets his actions. I feel bad for him, but I’ve moved on and I’m much happier with my life.

I also found new love in someone that I trust. He’s a very strong soldier with a passion to help humanity. I admire and love him. He’s loyal and with him I never question whether or not he loves me or not. I’m so happy that we fell for each other. And we’re even public with our relationship. When I asked him he didn’t hesitate to say yes to the idea. His name is Mike Zacharias. He helped me get promoted to squad leader and I have yet to lose anyone. I feel accomplished with what I have done and who I have become. This world is dangerous, but now I have the passion to fight for my future.

•I do NOT own any characters except y/n•

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Levi’s memory of Erwin makes him so adorable like okay cutie patootie might have to give you the spinal fluid after all 😛😛

George Washington//Erwin Smith

Two comanders(Hamilton / AOT)

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since your aot blurbs requests are open can i ask for an erwin smith x reader and how he'd definitely be private with your relationship but it's no longer a secret when he almost dies and his arm is gone (💀) and the scouts find out and their reactions?

Sorry if the requests aren't open I must have misread! Anyway love your writing (and drawing) so yea thanks<33

A/N: Started working on this the moment I got the request because one thing I can't get enough of is Erwin Smith. Anyway, this is a bit lengthier than a blurb, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless <3 Thank you for the request and your kind words. I may expand on this some other time, just to write more on the actual interaction between reader and Erwin.

Genre: fluff, tinge of angst if you squint really hard, gn reader

“Did you hear?”

“How didn’t we notice before?”

“-it was right under our noses and we missed it”

“Have you ever seen them-?”

By the sheer volume of their disbelief and glowing eyes, one could easily mistake the situation for what it was. To say it was surprising would be an understatement, even downright shocking to some. For them to not have found out sooner about their Commander’s private affairs was a big deal.   Levi found a great deal of amusement in these sudden rumors and whispers, even entertaining some of them while you were close enough to hear it. To fluster you or irritate you, you couldn’t exactly tell, but he was fanning the flames either way. As he was the only one privy to know of your relationship with Erwin from its start, he became the center target for these sorts of questions while you were cooped up in Erwin’s room.

You almost lost him.. 

His hand rested clasped between the two of yours as he slowly came in and about his consciousness, blinking open slowly only to be met with the observing stares of you and the doctor. He knew you were biting back on a scolding and a whole waterfall of tears, he could tell by that tell-tale twitch of your brows and the light tremor in your fingers that held him like you were his last link to this place. And you were.. 

While the rest of the scouts gossiped and entertained plenty of ideas of their Commander and you, Erwin’s room was filled with gentle sobs and scoldings before it simmered down to smoother conversations. You found yourself glued to his side of the bed, unable to leave unless you saw him consume something, anything. And when he did he came to learn from both you and Levi about these news, but instead of shock or displeasure he found himself chuckling.

“Well.. the cat is out of the bag now. What would be the use of pretending it's not” he smiled, his light stubble giving him a touch of domesticity and something less refined that you scarcely got the chance to witness any other time. He didn’t even try to brush his hair with his fingers, letting you hold him in your grasp, knowing both of you needed it. He looked so himself in that moment, and his bright eyes glistened with tender mirth as he looked over at you.  Maybe if he wasn’t so hellbent on this dream of his, you’d see more of him in this raw light.. but no matter where he chose to tread you swore to follow him.

 He sighed, rubbing his thumb on the skin of your hand, shaking his head a little as he looked down in his lap, losing himself in his thoughts. It would be a lie  to say that this wasn’t something both of you hoped wouldn’t happen, or at least not in this fashion, but neither of you were angry about it. This spared you both some confessions and awkward sappy speeches, so perhaps it could be viewed as a blessing in disguise. 

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Imagine meeting Levi in the Underground City as a child and befriending him along with Furlan and Isabel. He tells you everything and you tell him everything to the point you both steal for each other. But suddenly you’re getting chased down by the Survey Corps and meet Erwin. He ‘rescues’ you all from the Underground and eventually you befriend him after years of knowing him.

Only problem is, who of the two will take your heart after you’ve taken theirs.

can you please do a yandere Erwin x fem reader and some smut please 🥺

Charming Commander

A/N: this is my first time writing a whole smut scene so please tell me if it’s alright 😭🥲 Yandere! Erwin Smith x Female Reader

The moon hung high in the sky, casting a silver glow over the Survey Corps' headquarters. Inside, the halls were silent, most of the soldiers having retired for the night. In a secluded corner of the building, Y/N sat at her desk, trying to focus on the reports in front of her. Her mind kept wandering, thoughts drifting back to her commander.

Erwin Smith was a man of remarkable presence, his authority and charisma unmatched. Y/N had always admired him from afar, drawn to his strength and unwavering determination. But recently, his attention had become more intense, more personal. She couldn't deny the thrill it gave her, but it also filled her with unease.

The sound of heavy footsteps approaching broke her reverie. She looked up just as Erwin stepped into the room, his blue eyes locking onto hers. He closed the door behind him, the click of the lock echoing in the quiet space.

"Y/N," he greeted, his voice low and commanding. "Still working late, I see."

She swallowed hard, her pulse quickening. "Yes, sir. Just finishing up some reports."

He moved closer, his gaze never leaving her. "You work too hard. You should take better care of yourself."

She offered a weak smile. "I could say the same to you, Commander."

Erwin's eyes darkened slightly, a smirk playing on his lips. "Perhaps you're right."

Before she could react, he was behind her, his large hands resting on her shoulders. The warmth of his touch sent shivers down her spine. "Erwin..." she started, but his grip tightened slightly, silencing her.

"Shh," he murmured, his breath hot against her ear. "You don't need to say anything."

Her heart pounded as he began to knead her tense muscles, his fingers skillful and firm. She knew she should protest, but the sensations were overwhelming. He leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to the side of her neck. "You're so beautiful, Y/N," he whispered. "I've watched you for so long, admired your dedication, your strength."

She closed her eyes, torn between the pleasure of his touch and the nagging fear that this was crossing a line. "Erwin, this isn't right," she managed to say, her voice trembling.

He turned her chair around to face him, his expression intense. "You belong to me, Y/N. I've waited long enough."

Before she could respond, his lips were on hers, claiming her in a fierce, possessive kiss. She gasped against his mouth, the taste of him intoxicating. His hands roamed her body, pulling her closer, as if he couldn't get enough of her.

Despite her initial resistance, she found herself melting into his embrace, her body responding to his touch. He lifted her onto the desk, pushing aside the papers in a flurry. His hands moved to her blouse, deftly unbuttoning it, his lips trailing down her neck to the swell of her breasts.

"Erwin, please," she whispered, a mix of desperation and desire.

He paused, his eyes meeting hers with a dark, hungry look. "Please what, Y/N? Tell me what you want."

Her breath hitched, her mind a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. "I... I don't know," she admitted, her voice barely audible.

He smirked, his hands sliding up her thighs. "I'll show you."

In one swift motion, he pushed her skirt up, his fingers finding the heat between her legs. She moaned softly, the sensation sending waves of pleasure through her. Erwin watched her intently, his own desire evident.

"You see, Y/N," he said, his voice a low growl. "You were meant to be mine."

He pushed her panties aside, his fingers delving into her slick folds. She cried out, the intensity of his touch overwhelming. He kissed her again, swallowing her moans as he explored her depths, his fingers curling just right.

"Erwin," she gasped, clutching at his shoulders. "It's too much..."

He didn't relent, his pace increasing, driving her closer to the edge. "Come for me, Y/N," he commanded. "Show me that you belong to me."

Her body obeyed, the tension building until it snapped, a powerful climax washing over her. She clung to him, her cries muffled against his chest. He held her close, his breath ragged.

As the waves of pleasure subsided, she looked up at him, her vision hazy. He smiled down at her, a possessive glint in his eyes. "Good girl," he murmured. "You're mine now, Y/N. Never forget that."

He gently lifted her from the desk, carrying her to the small bed in the corner of the room. Laying her down, he began to undress, his eyes never leaving hers. The intensity in his gaze made her shiver, a mix of fear and anticipation swirling within her.

"Erwin..." she began, but he silenced her with a finger pressed to her lips.

"Just let me take care of you," he whispered, his voice soft yet commanding.

He joined her on the bed, his hands exploring her body with a mix of reverence and possessiveness. His lips followed, leaving a trail of kisses that ignited her skin. When he finally positioned himself between her legs, she felt a rush of heat, her body aching for him despite the turmoil in her mind.

Erwin entered her slowly, his size stretching her in a way that was both painful and exhilarating. She gasped, her fingers digging into his shoulders as he filled her completely. He paused, allowing her to adjust, his eyes locked onto hers.

"You're mine, Y/N," he murmured, his voice a low growl. "Say it."

She hesitated, her breath coming in short, ragged gasps. "I... I don't..."

His grip tightened on her hips, pulling her closer. "Say it," he repeated, more insistent.

A mixture of fear and desire compelled her to comply. "I'm yours, Erwin," she whispered, her voice trembling.

He smiled, a dark satisfaction evident in his eyes. "Good girl."

With that, he began to move, his thrusts slow and deliberate, driving deeper with each stroke. The intensity of his gaze never wavered, as if he was branding her with his possession. Her body responded despite herself, the pleasure building with each thrust until she was trembling beneath him.

"That's it," he murmured, his voice a dark caress. "Let go, Y/N. Show me you're mine."

Her climax hit her with the force of a tidal wave, her body arching beneath him as waves of pleasure washed over her. She cried out his name, her fingers clutching at him as if he were her lifeline. He followed shortly after, a deep growl rumbling from his chest as he found his release within her.

For a moment, they lay tangled together, their breaths mingling in the quiet aftermath. Erwin held her close, his possessive grip never loosening.

"You belong to me, Y/N," he murmured against her hair. "And I'll never let you go."

As the reality of her situation settled over her, Y/N realized that escape might be impossible. Erwin's love had twisted into something dark and unrecognizable, and she was trapped in his web, with no way out.

In the days that followed, Erwin's behavior remained intense and possessive. He rarely left her side, always watching, always aware. The other members of the Survey Corps noticed his increased attention towards her, but no one dared to question the commander.

Y/N tried to find moments of solitude, times when she could think clearly and plan an escape. But Erwin was always there, a constant, suffocating presence. He would touch her, kiss her, whisper dark promises in her ear. His obsession knew no bounds, and she feared what he might do if she ever tried to leave.

One night, as they lay in bed together, Erwin's arm draped possessively over her, Y/N made a silent vow. If there was any chance of escape, she would take it. She would find a way to break free from Erwin's twisted love, no matter the cost.

But for now, she had to bide her time, waiting for the right moment. Because no matter how deep Erwin's obsession ran, Y/N knew that her will to survive was stronger. And she would not let him control her fate.

As she drifted off to sleep, Erwin's hold on her tightened, as if sensing her thoughts. "Remember, Y/N," he whispered against her ear. "You're mine. Always."

With those words echoing in her mind, Y/N closed her eyes, determined to find a way out of the darkness that had consumed their love.

The real reason Levi holds his drinks from the top

rewatching attack on titan for the 10000th time and I’ve never been a eruri shipper but …

…brat tamer Erwin and Captain Levi behind closed doors after Levi talks back in a meeting 🤭🤭

Happy birthday Erwin Smith ✨

Here comes my little sketch of this gorgeous man 😔

Hello ❤

⠀⠀⠀This comic was inspired by a single panel I saw in the manga. . . ( The first one, that I redrew for this comic ♡ ) I just wondered about the flowers and thought that it might be nice to draw that moment. . .

I'm sorry for the heartbreak! ಥ_ಥ 💔

It's soon gonna be this man's birthday!! Another class doodle ❤ Hope you like it ❤

YO ❤ a little SL with @Moonlight-shadxw led to this — around Christmas time, Erwin has the habit to start eating too much chocolate, and Levi reprimands him for that — but is secretly glad that he's so happy and eating well — 🤷🏻

And he's squishing his cheeks because Erwin's obviously a bit chubbier than usual - so he's pointing that out 😔🙌🏻

And he keeps on telling him that he's gonna be on Santa's Naughty List because he keeps on stuffing himself with chocolate secretly sskskskk

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀【 𝘊𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘴. 】

「 𝘼 𝙈𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙍𝙚𝙜𝙧𝙚𝙩。」

тнe enтιre world ѕanĸ wιтнιn a мoмenт oғ regreт, wнιcн ѕтreтcнed ιnғιnιтely, вeғore a ѕιngle ray oғ ѕυnѕнιne pυт an end тo ιт.

Hope you'll like it. ❤

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀「⠀𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮 𝘨𝘰. 」

There is nothing words can describe here; his expression is more than enough for that. Levi is someone with such a big heart.

Here is also a thing that I felt like writing. Hope you'll like it too. ❤

The first time that he had seen him under his true light, even with the dimming light of sunset as dreadful as that one, had become as bright as a sunrise. The moment he had taught him, and had made him realize that a single moment of regret would be enough to hinder his capacity to make any decision during life threatening situations; that a single moment of regret was enough to make him drown forever.

Torn between forcing him again to take on the role of the devil devoid of humanity and allowing his soul to regain some peace in the afterlife, each second passing by seemed shorter than the precedent, as the running grains of dust inside an hourglass.

It was either him, or humanity.

Deep down, it seemed inevitable; he had to save the one who had saved him from a life of absolute misery, which would be entirely devoid of any kind of hope or freedom whatsoever.

Was it fair?

Was it fair to have sacrificed the humanity of a single person for the sake of a numberless amount of souls?

Perhaps were they all born at the wrong time, at the wrong place, in the wrong world, in a wrong life, where dreams, humanity and dignity had to be sacrificed for the sake of the human race's survival and future.

One second after the other, faster than the other; the colors fading more and more from his face, the light trickling down and away from the Commander's eyes, then fading with the setting sun.

Make the choice you will regret less.

Did he do right? Did he do wrong? He might never know. He could never tell. All that he knew was that it was the choice that he must never regret, never once in his life. Perhaps was it the biggest mistake he had ever made, for allowing his personal feelings to come in the way. Neither Eren's cries nor Mikasa's anger were going to change his mind; but in that moment, he realized that he had to save Erwin's last remaining bits of humanity.

It's not that he hadn't been acquainted with death, quite on the contrary. But it still stung, somewhere. To see his eyes devoid of life; devoid of that enduring light sparkling with curiosity, and an unmovable determination to move forward. Where did it go?

The determination which had led him this far, but not far enough; not as far as he wanted to.

He hadn't quite believed it yet, until the moment he had been told that he was gone indeed.

Had he heard everything that he said? Or had his last thoughts already wandered too far away for him to hold the last remaining bits of his attention?

The world stopped; everything froze and blurred within a single moment. It was real; he had to convince himself of it and carry on. He was not allowed to stop, not even stumble. He had already stumbled hard enough to allow his emotions to control him, just a. . . How long had it been already?

One second after the other, slower than the other. He's gone.

Let him go.

"I see."

HELLO ❤

I've had this in mind for a while so finally did it — 👀

Hope you'll like it shdhd

Levi and Mike's first "official" meeting 🙌🏻😔

Whew, this took a while —

I really missed the older times so I thought I'd draw them! 💫

Hope you'll like it! ❤

Letting Go (Levi Ackerman series) Part 4

A/n: This took way too long to write than it should have but hey at least it's here. I have quite some ideas for other anime characters but yeah...I don't know when I'll work on it. Have fun reading!

Summary: V is Erwin’s sister and has a past with Levi which Erwin doesn’t know of. What will happen when Erwin proposes an arranged marriage between V and Levi? Read to find out….

Warnings: angst, anime and/or manga spoilers, Erwin’s sister! oc, arranged marriage, and enemies to lovers.

Word count: 2.6k

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

I woke up and rubbed the sleepiness off my eyes as I looked around my room. Sunlight filtered into the room through the cracks between the curtains. I live with Erwin in a small cottage on the east side of Wall Rose near Stohess district. It's been two years since Erwin rescued me from my house. Having said that, it still seems weird since a house is presumably the place where one can feel safest but here I am breaking all laws of nature.

Instead of sending me off to some kind of orphanage, he asked me if I would like to live with him. When I said yes, he even went through the trouble of legally adopting me into his family. Now I'm Verity Smith, or V as I prefer to be called. In general, he's a fantastic brother, pampering me all the time, buying me anything I want, and just taking good care of me.

It took me a little while to get used to seeing someone actually caring about me and showing me any emotion other than hatred and anger. Moreover, I was worried that my mother would somehow find us and hurt him because I’ve seen her do that many times before to anyone that tries to help us or even speaks badly about her.

It was my dream to follow in his footsteps, be strong, courageous, independent, wise and kind. When I told him that I wanted to join the Survey Corps, he immediately refused saying that he didn’t want his sister to get hurt, but I was stubborn, so I insisted. He eventually agreed to two conditions; one, I would be trained by him and two, I would leave the wall on an expedition only if I happened to be among the top 10 cadets of the batch.

Soon after, I began training with Erwin. He was hard on me at first, but I suppose I had no choice if I was going out the wall to find certain truths and defend humanity. Because I was a fast learner, after about a year of training with him, I was able to join the Training Corps.

My first interaction with Levi came through Erwin, who introduced us on my first day at the Training Corps. I once heard about Erwin rescuing him from the underground world, and now he has decided to join the Corps after some convincing by Erwin himself.

I was quite an introvert...as my life revolved around Erwin and I never really met anyone other than Erwin’s acquaintance John who worked with him. He was a very nice guy. He was about Erwin's age, and whenever I was done with Erwin's harsh training, he would always fetch me water and make sure I got back home safely without passing out. I also consider him to be my brother.

Levi struck me as a man who was hiding something behind his cold and intimidating facade and I wanted to know him on a deeper level.

“Levi! This is my sister Verity and she will be training in the same batch as you so hope you both get along”, said Erwin introducing me to him as he nods and leaves and then my brother turns to me and says, “This is Levi….he’s someone I really trust. So stick with him throughout your time here if you don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone else...ok?”

“Um...sure”, I replied hesitantly as Levi stared daggers into my soul while talking to two of his friends. I observed him talking to a girl whose hair was reddish strawberry-coloured and a sandy-blonde guy. I noticed he looked really calm and even laughed when he was with them, so I assumed he must have known them from earlier and be friends with them.

“Well anyway...good luck and work hard on your training if you want to join me outside. Got it?...You do remember your promise... right?” asked Erwin.

I rolled my eyes as I replied, “Yes… I know. I’ve to come out among the top ten or I won't be joining the Survey Corps.”

As he patted my head, he chuckled and we parted ways.

I then looked around feeling nervous due to my social anxiety. I didn’t know anyone there except Levi, so I decided to go and stay by his side. As I approached Levi and his friends, I saw the girl’s eyes light up as she whispered something to the blonde guy who looked at me and smiled.

Moments after I approached them, the girl introduced herself enthusiastically, “Hi!! My name is Isabel Magnolia, you can just call me Isabel and this is Farlan”, she said as she pointed towards the sandy blonde guy.

“H-Hi. I’m Verity, you can just call me V.” I replied nervously.

“It’s nice to meet you. Would you like to sit with us during dinner?” Farlan asked with a slight smile. My anxiety must have been obvious earlier, I thought to myself.

“Sure...I’ll take you up on the offer” I said, feeling relieved that I wouldn’t need to socialize for the day.

Levi stared at me throughout dinner, so I felt super uncomfortable sitting with them. He seemed to be trying to figure me out so I didn't say anything and just ate dinner alongside him and his friends.

I went out for a walk with Isabel after dinner.

"I'm sorry about Levi, he's been through a lot so he acts strangely around strangers. Once you get to know him, he's quite nice, so just give him some time and he'll come around.” Isabel muttered looking up at the stars in the bright sky.

“It’s alright… I'm not that good with strangers either so I can't really blame him” I chuckled.

"If I'm crossing a boundary, please let me know; however, I can't help but wonder if you're actually related to Captain Erwin because you both look so different in terms of appearance. It’s not just that….but i had heard earlier that he was a single child" She questioned hesitantly looking at my nervous figure.

“I- Um…. He’s…..” I took a deep breath before replying “He adopted me into his family a few years ago...but I consider him as my own brother after everything he’s done for me” I answered not meeting her eyes anymore.

“I understand that it’s a sensitive topic for you and I’m sorry for bringing it up and making you uncomfortable. I was just curious. It’s okay….none of us had a proper family or parental figure, so we just relied on each other. So we know what it’s like...but I’m glad you were able to find a family that loves you. You’re always welcome to join us...we’ll be happy to be your friend.”

I felt so happy at that moment and felt like I could conquer anything at that time. She was the first friend I had ever made and she had a super kind heart in spite of the things she had faced in the underground.

Over time, I learned more about Farlan and Levi's background or rather, their life story in general. I became very close to Farlan as well, and he always treated me as if I had grown up with them. I tried a number of ways and methods to get close to Levi, but he never let me inside the walls he had built up. The most I ever got out of him was an order that the Captain asked him to pass on to me. It frustrated me to no end, but I calmed down after remembering that he had endured so much at such a young age. I went through something similar but the problem was that he didn’t know that….I had only told Isabel and she kept it a secret for me. Sometimes I wondered if he would have let me in, if he knew about my past.

It didn’t help that I developed a massive crush on him. I know I know…. you might be thinking that it’s the usual ‘falling in love with a cold guy that doesn’t show emotions’ story. Probably….but i’m pretty sure that the reason I developed a crush on him was because I admired him. I admired him because he went through a hell of a past, stood strong and became independent mostly without help unlike me who couldn’t even stand up for myself and needed someone to come save me. Even though I am stronger, independent, and more confident than I was a few years ago...I could not help but reflect on my pathetic past self.

There was just a few more weeks left before we would emerge as soldiers...and it was around this time that I first met Hange Zoe. I had noticed her earlier several times but never really got the chance to actually talk to her. My introvert ass also played a big role here, but let’s just ignore that. The moment I met her, I could see an unrealistic glint...or was it love in her eyes? She was very much interested in learning about the titans rather than the training itself. I found that very odd, since the rest of us always barely stayed awake in such classes. But this doesn’t mean that she was bad in training….she was pretty good at it, however she would easily get distracted. She even got Levi to talk with her in a conversation for about three minutes. I was pretty jealous, but also upset because he must really hate me if he can talk to everyone else for longer than 5 seconds, but not with me.

I was with Isabel and the guys eating our dinner one night when….

“Hey….are you gonna eat that?” I turned to find Hange pointing at the mashed potatoes that I had pushed aside on my plate.

“Uh…..no..? You can take it if you want it.” I said awkwardly.

“Thanks….by the way do you don’t mind if I join you guys? I would eat alone but I was feeling rather tired and you guys seem interesting. Can you guys believe that the titans are right outside a few kilometers?!! What kind of titans do you think we’ll see there?? Huhh?? It would be great if we saw at least a few abnormals!!! God I can’t wait for the day we go on an expedition!!!” She kept mumbling on and on about Titans. We were all dumbfounded but soon went back to eating while nodding occasionally to whatever she was saying.

I looked up to see Levi looking at her with irritation clearly written on his face which made me giggle. Everyone suddenly turned to me questioningly while I tried to do damage control by coughing and lowering my face so I wouldn't make eye contact with them. I could feel Levi’s scrutinizing gaze burning holes into my body. They soon returned to their meals and continued eating again but I started feeling extremely uncomfortable with Levi’s stare. I could tell that he didn’t want me there since this was not the first time he had done that….so I hesitantly turned to Isabel and whispered in her ear, “Hey...uh..i’m not feeling so good, I think I will just return to our dorm a little early and try to get some rest. See you there…” She nodded with a small smile as I walked back to the girls’ dorm.

I was rooming with a girl named Ayume and she was a quiet one and never really bothered me so I liked her. She was not in the room so I assumed she was with her boyfriend who was also a trainee here, though I never really met him personally. The moment I laid down in my bed, I heard a knock.

“Who is it?” I yelled.

“Hange….Hange Zoe” A voice replied.

I immediately sat up wondering what she wanted with me, my anxiety kicking in. I had only talked to her once...and that was today so I can’t really say that I trust her but I hesitantly walked up to the door and peeked out looking at Hange standing with a calm look on her face which is very unusual considering her attitude. But then again I don’t really know her so I weakly smiled at her and asked

“Hey...How can I help ya?”

“I just wanted to talk to you about something...can I come in?”

“Yeah...sure…..”

I opened the door wide enough for her to enter and then I sat on my study table while she sat at my bed. She looked up slightly tilting her head and asked in a sheepish voice, “I heard a lot of rumour going on about you that you are one of the squad captain’s sister. I believe it was Captain Smith but that would make sense considering your name is Smith.”

I was quiet for a moment, shocked at how she jumped straight to the matter but also kind of impressed that she had the confidence to come ask me instead of talking behind my back like the others.

“Yep...that’s me”

“Oooh cool...that must mean your brother must have access to all secret information on the outside world and titans right??!!” She asked, jumping around enthusiastically.

I chuckled and replied, “Probably….but that doesn’t mean I have access to it...so no I won’t be able to get it for you” knowing that she must have wanted them considering her reaction.

She pouted and slumped back into the bed “Aw….man, I really thought you would be able to get them. Well, anyway….”

She suddenly stood up before continuing, “You have a crush on that shorty don’t you?”

My head snapped up to meet her eyes, and my mouth fell open as I tried to speak, but nothing came out.

She giggled as she went on, “I knew it….I have seen you from the first day you came here and watched you follow him around like a lost puppy while he kept ignoring you. To be honest, I wanted to befriend you from the first day I saw you but you looked like you were going to pass out if anyone even so much as approached you. So I figured you must be having social anxiety and let you settle in before I opened my loud mouth. I know that I can be overbearing which is one of the reasons why nobody wants to be my friend but I just couldn’t resist you. You are very pretty so don’t worry, one day the shorty will come around and realise your worth.”

I blushed at her compliment, feeling more comfortable in her presence as she continued, “Till then, how'd you like to be my friend?? We can go to the town tomorrow considering it’s a free day for us. What do you say??”

She was pretty loud, but I couldn't help myself and gave her a genuine smile, “You know what? Sure...let’s go out tomorrow. I actually do like you and I don’t find you overbearing. Yeah I don’t do well around people, but people not wanting to be your friend just because of your loud personality is really stupid. They just lost a gem”

She gave me a calm smile as I went ahead and hugged her.

“Welp...anyway it’s about time for curfew...got to run. See ya tomorrow Verity” She waved as she walked out the door towards the stairs.

I felt excited for tomorrow’s outing with my new friend and feeling more comfortable than before, I went back to sleep.

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