Dont Worry About Me - Tumblr Posts

Back at it again with the clone wars obsession

Every named Clone Trooper in Star Wars Films/Television

TW VENT

I feel like no one wants me

And I hate the way I'm perceived

I only have two real friends

And lately, I'm a nervous wreck

Cause I love people I don't like

And I hate every song I write

And I'm not cool

And I'm not smart

And I can't even parallel park

All I did was try my best

This the kind of thanks I get?

Unrelentlessly upset

They say these are the golden years

But I wish I could disappear

Ego crush is so severe

God

It’s brutal out here

<3

Prompt #961

"My scars are my own to carry and to wear proudly."

Make sure you say "I wonder what they're doing right now..." about your comic relief friends every now and then so the episode can cut to their B plot

I never feel right

I have too much energy

I'm exhausted

I eat too much

I want to eat more

I need to scream

I will die if I have to make any noise

I need to kick something

I need to be hugged and cradled and read little pointless affirmations

I need to feel right

I need to die

I need to stay alive long enough to finish school

I need to feel

Feeling is painful

I am a contradiction

I hate myself

I hate life

I don't want to be alive anymore

Please help

Somebody please rip the skin off my body

Somebody tell me it will be ok

Somebody cuddle me and keep me warm

Somebody burn me alive

I can't

Please help

TW suicide, self harm

sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I never existed. maybe my friends would be better off If I didn’t exist in the first place. then they wouldn’t have to worry about this fat, ugly, waste of space and oxygen bastard who has stupid fucking abandonment issues. they won’t have to worry about that same bastard talking to them, wasting their time. sometimes I just want to fucking kill myself and free myself from this guilt, this rage, this sadness. hell sometimes when it’s too much I punch my wall until my knuckles bleed but I don’t to tell them or they’ll worry about me more. I don’t want to be a burden to people that deserve so much better. those people deserve all the happiness in the world, they deserve to be so so so happy. and I feel like I’m in the way. I just want to disappear. If I could almost drown myself in the tub in 6th grade I’m sure I can drown myself now. but I'm scared to die, I’m scared to live. I don’t want this fear. I don’t want this sadness. I don’t want this guilt. I don’t want this sympathy. I just want this wave of rusted chains, broken dreams, and busted emotions to be over.