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the secret to a healthy life is cramming all your unhealthy habits into the evening so they don't disrupt your day and you can actually live but you don't have to actually address the problems that much

i don't crave death i crave being left the fuck alone

bro i feel itchy i kind of want to like. clear my blog. and start a reblog blog. and reblog things to this main blog selectively

TW VENT

I feel like no one wants me

And I hate the way I'm perceived

I only have two real friends

And lately, I'm a nervous wreck

Cause I love people I don't like

And I hate every song I write

And I'm not cool

And I'm not smart

And I can't even parallel park

All I did was try my best

This the kind of thanks I get?

Unrelentlessly upset

They say these are the golden years

But I wish I could disappear

Ego crush is so severe

God

It’s brutal out here

just had cold tomato soup and a slice of cheese for lunch. feeling good.

Smol rant under the cut. Nothing horrid.

I feel the burnout creeping up on me. I've been sort of burning the candle from both ends, and I just feel like I want to isolate. Probably should do the exact opposite lmao.

For once I don't think it's work? I negotiated 18 hour weeks (at a living wage for me), so I can't imagine that's doing it.

It's most likely the looming international move with all the steps before it. What do I do about that one? Say "nah, nevermind lol"?

Nope, just gotta weather this storm.

Accidentally chipped the bottom of my glasses and I started crying in the middle of the courtyard :(

I slightly bent my glasses and instantly started wondering if I’d be able to drown myself in my bathtub or if my body would go into autopilot to get me out

I may be a teensy bit over dramatic

I never feel right

I have too much energy

I'm exhausted

I eat too much

I want to eat more

I need to scream

I will die if I have to make any noise

I need to kick something

I need to be hugged and cradled and read little pointless affirmations

I need to feel right

I need to die

I need to stay alive long enough to finish school

I need to feel

Feeling is painful

I am a contradiction

I hate myself

I hate life

I don't want to be alive anymore

Please help

Somebody please rip the skin off my body

Somebody tell me it will be ok

Somebody cuddle me and keep me warm

Somebody burn me alive

I can't

Please help

Bro I always feel like such a hypocrite for not following the advice I give my moots 😭😭😭

I promise I don't think my advice is stupid I just don't deserve to follow it 😕

Can I just say I hate and love the quiet. Like it helps destress and is the calm I need sometimes but other times it’s scares me. Like what did I do wrong that people don’t want to talk to me or why do I feel so tired even if I’ve been relaxing all this time. Especially when I message people I care about and they don’t answer. And I get it they have their own lives and such but if is very often and they don’t say at least one word I start to overthink and get paranoid about it. I feel scared and I try to stop myself from thinking like that. Sometimes it works others it doesn’t.

I'm in the horrible phase of depression where I don't know what I'm feeling, but it's all just kind of numb, and I have no idea what happens next, because I just started noticing these kinds of things

I feel this way too much right now

hoax // this is me trying // is it over now?

So I’m currently facing a rheumatoid arthritis diagnosis at 23 and I’m so fucking scared

I haven’t been feeling well lately and that’s the reason I’m inactive…..I really wish things were different I feel like I’m falling apart day by day. I feel like failure and even though I have people around me who love I’m still feeling something is going wrong and I’m feeling alone a lot, and this certain Jungkook video i don’t know how to say this but I won’t stop watching to it :((

At the end I wanna say I miss my seven and I don’t know how I’m gonna survive this pain.

I feel like the world is having something against me which is why I’m feeling that way but yeah

The video I’m talking about 💖he’s healing something 💖

Personal note (just keep scrolling)

Is it ok to get sad, when I mention to a friend that I am having a freak-out and/or that I am sad, and she keeps texting about herself, completely annoying my statement?

Yes.

Is it okay for me to get angry and tell her, how she should treat me, and how she should be responsing?

No.

They're so silly :(

AAHHHH I MISS THEM SO MUCH

2025 COME FAASSTTERRRR

Today, Crowley and Aziraphale traded coffee orders, just for fun. Neither of them enjoyed their new brew, and neither of them hesitated to complain about it, until Crowley realized they were being idiots and they traded back.

I was just listening 'Yours' by post malone and I couldn't help but think of girldad! Daryl because I can totally imagine him thinking/saying "we'll both love her forever, but I loved her long before" BYE I'M SOBBING AT MY OWN THOUGHTS

just drank theraflu followed by caffeine so i’m feeling

✨Festive✨

Tomorrow we’re staging/Choreoing/blocking because it’s our Director and not choreographer working on it and it definitely feels more like a blocking day for Human again and asaaaaaaa-

I have it down but like :[] I have to Cogsworth and he has his own little part and our Babette is not gonna put up with us and aaaaaaaaa-

But it’s going to be great and super fun, and I get shoulder pads so life’s great :3.

Also, there is going to be a post about the Auguraculum when I finally calm down because I go to write more in it but I get too worked up and excited and it’s like, unreadable.