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the end of the affair (1999)

47. Stupid Teenage crush - part2

when life gave harry a second chance, he took it | fluff | angst | comfort |

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Until the very morning of 4th October, an year and four months later when draco came like howling wind, knocking his door on the grimauld place, 12, everything changed, again, for the second time.

" draco ?" Harry frowned as he opened the door to allow draco into his little paradise.

How could he had expected such a thing, draco revealed he had been away for college, until he quit very recently precisely Because he was done people's puppet. He missed being around people who loved him, people who understood him but mostly in his time away from harry, he realised he missed him the most.

He was happy in his life , harry was. He had a boyfriend, nice friends, a place he called his own yet the scar draco left, stung, once again after harry had bandaged it nicely and covered it up. Days away, it should have Healed, he should've been used to draco's absence but seeing him only awoke feeling of warmth and home that harry himself hadn't known he missed. The scar resurfaced and shone in gold, and harry only wished that this time the wound won't need rendering.

However it was quick when Harry's friend's became his own and Friday nights became a thing. They spend hours chattering away, making fun and jokes, playing truth and dare without such a little care in the world. Harry and draco would even on some nights just live the night away, sneak out, running on grounds for far too late, skating on the ice, scaring people from under the invisibility cloak until a very night,he saw it. Draco watched as harry kissed his boyfriend, with his arm hanging around his neck from up where he sat on arm rest next to his boyfriend. Harry liked his boyfriend way more than draco had even thought about and somewhere in the corner of his little wretched traitorous heart, he felt lonely and jealous, guilty for being jealous. And to him, an old friend visted and draco consumed more alcohol in the bar than his body could suffice.

Days turned to weeks, into months, draco took his place back again in Harry's life only this time he reminded himself that he was with someone who made him happy but the thoughts of draco haunted him late at night, somedays it made him smile, somedays it left him confused, and somedays Just thinking. Draco started working in the pet shop just opposite of Harry's coffee shop, like harry had suggested, even lived with harry until Draco found his own place and all left harry giggling with draco as they walked back home together. He was still the same draco he had once known, he was still the draco who got giddy about eating chocolate cake ,who ate with elegance, who still loved to dress in Black but secretly loved white, still the one who loved to read in his free time when people thought of hanging out but this time harry didn't fall, he didn't, did he ?

" why him ? Why not me ?" Draco had said as soon as he had rung the bell of the place he too lived in when harry opened the door.

" what ?" Harry frowned as he tried pulling draco inside

" why him ? I thought you liked me ?" Draco seemed as though he might cry, or had been.

" what are you on about draco ?" Harry asked as he tried to pull draco inside again, only for his hands to be jerked away..

" you know it. You liked me first harry, so why him and not me ? " Draco stammered as he stepped nearer to Harry, grabbing him by his collar " you walk home with me, you talk to me, you live with me, you read with me, and you eat with me. You do everything with me and yet you're with him and not me harry..why are hurting me? Why ?"

" I like you harry..fuck i do and I know you're with that little of idiot with military cut but I can't change the way I feel. I'm sorry harry but I like you. And I think you should be with me but you're with him " before Harry had even anticipated anything, Draco had collapsed in a hug with harry, whispering in his neck that he liked him until Harry felt draco relax under his hold and fallen asleep.

Sighing harry picked draco up In his arm and helped him over to his bedroom and laying him over the bed, covering him up with sheets. Harry stared at Draco with his eyes shut, draco looked more relaxed than ever, the babyish like softness spread across draco's face, his lips poked out lightly. Harry smiled to himself, almost wanting to touch those lips, that face that shone brightly under the moon light but harry didn't. He didn't want to wake up draco just because he seemed at peace and harry was afraid he'll ruin it.

" because, I too once felt all that and I saw you choose someone else over me. I wish you'd came earlier " harry whispered in a reply as he kissed the top of draco's head with a smile.

" stay" draco grumbled as he held harry's hand and tucked into a little grasp avoiding harry from leaving. Like Someone who'd been in love, he stayed by waiting for draco to leave his arm until harry asleep by the bed, In draco's hold.

And Harry didn't think much upon anything or he lied to himself until the very next morning, draco entered the kitchen while harry was preparing breakfast. They sat down and ate in silence, silence that was quiet yet so loud.

" why are you here and not over at Andrew's ?" That was the first thing he asked harry when he abruptly stopped eating.

" because this is my place ?" Harry frowned

" no I mean why are you here making breakfast for me when you should be Making it for Andrew " draco sharply said.

" one, I don't have to make food for him just because he's my boyfriend-"

" will you stop pretending last night didn't happen ?" Draco sneered. And with that harry finally stopped eating and looked up at Draco.

" and do what with it ? You said something's and so what ? You were drunk out of your mind draco"

" so you're just going to pretend I didn't absolutely poured my heart out to you and you don't care because they were drunken words " Draco snapped

" okay, I don't know what's wrong with or you're Just grumpy-"

" stop pretending -"

" and do what draco ? Tell you that I can't believe you just said that ? Tell you that you had no right to say that ? Tell you that I like you too or something ? Stop pretending that it didn't happen and do exactly what draco" harry Snapped

" stop pretending that you are happy with Andrew " draco snapped

Harry clenched his jaw In anger as his fists clenched too by his side, slamming it over the table " you don't say about my relationship draco. He's Someone who actually likes me back and I'm happy with him " he snapped and stormed right out of the house, leaving the breakfast stranded.

Draco sighed heavily when he heard the door slam shut. He regretted even talking about it but what more could an injured heart do, still minimally drunk..

But Draco regretted it more when the House felt more empty and haunting when some portraits In the attic screeched Because of the thunder breaking out in the clouds. The drizzle only picked up by hours, sky darkening the clouds and the patio draco sat on waiting for harry blinked between dark and light as the light fused blinked in the quivering weather. In the hours harry was gone, draco had worriedly sat outside, made some tea, tried reading but nothing worked. Draco had ruined many things in life, a lot of them, even the relationship with theo when he learnt through theo harry liked him but if there was one thing he always wanted to protect was harry and he couldn't bear the thought of having almost ruined Everything as he stood under the rain, looking up at the sky for some sort of sign that would return.

And just as if someone had heard his prayer, the clouds grumbled loudly as a streak of lightening went off In the sky, draco heard the patio door open and there stood harry, all wet..

"harry-"

" no.. you- you just stay quiet and I'll talk"

" but Harry-"

" I said stay quiet "

And draco remained silent, waiting for his heart to be peirced open and cut into shreds.

" I knew it the day you came back, something had changed. I knew it and I hate you for coming back in my life. You had absolutely no right to do that after what you'd put me through. I was doing absolutely fine, had a boyfriend who liked me, a nice job, nice friends, family but you- you moronic fuck, ruined my relationship, ruined my peace, ruined everything, even me. You had no right to tell me you liked me, I waited endless months to hear that from you but not at this price, this ship had sailed draco and I don't want you" harry huffed as he saw even In the rain, draco's eyes glistening with tears

" but fuck I need you. It's not as if I can't live without you, without looking at your face, looking at your stupid face when you read something that confuses you, without seeing you smile, without seeing your eyes or just entirely your anatomical constitution of matter, I just don't want to. I want to look at you everyday, every single day of my life even if you're a complete arsehole and doesn't deserve this but I came back because I wanted to. Because I'm an idiot who still likes you after everything and all who can think of is kissing you just like I've Always wanted to " harry bit his lip as he finished his monologue, waiting for some sort of reaction but it was as if time had slowed down or that Maybe draco had expected something else that when he finally realised, he collapsed into happy sobs.

" I-"

" just fucking kiss me already " harry smiled in his own tears as he walked to draco and finally waited for draco to kiss him and he did . Draco pulled harry closer by the corner of his white sweater, all wet from the rain, softly putting his hands into harry neck, a little of Tickling into his hair as he kissed harry, blushing. Harry chuckled as he pulled draco closer, wrapping his arms around his waist, loving the feeling of draco's lips over his own.

And for once harry now knew, he wouldn't stay awake thinking what would had happened if he had ever kissed draco because he had and his life changed for the third time and this time, for forever.

Only if life gave me a second chance.

Thank you for making me write a part 2. Just want to let you know that if you've requested something, I have it under progress and I promise I'm trying to keep up with it.

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Day 46- old habits | Day 48- because, it's you and me

47. Stupid Teenage crush

Prompt used- Touching their elbow to get their attention | ANGST | HURT COMFORT | IRL- based

To be 17 and to be in love, harry was no exception.

Harry saw it in his eyes, he really did.. but was he wrong. Was he so absolutely wrong...

They met in July again after years, last year. It wasn't such a special meet or something he could tell his kids about, it was just a simple meet with only a question being asked while they were doing potions homework. Harry was sat in the library doing his homework when he got stuck and desperately needed help and there he was, sitting in his black suit on the end of the table, scratching down his own work. Harry had asked for help in his notes, and without hesitation draco gave him his notebook and asked harry to return it to him whenever he wanted, as Long as it was before potions class. Harry had never thought of Draco differently until that moment he decided to help. Like a gentlemen, harry hurried the work and decided to hand draco his notebook before next potions lesson and so he did, that's when they hit it off when Draco tried to make a small conversation and it resulted into a long conversation on parchment in the classroom barely paying attention to the class.

From little conversations they went to long conversations to dropping draco off at the end of the day to his dorms and only then harry would walk away, smiling to himself. He didn't admit it to himself that he was slowly falling for draco until that very night harry was sitting on the floor talking with Ron and Hermione. It was like a random switch when Ron and Hermione shared a sweet simple kiss that it occurred to harry, he'd like to do it too, only the one he wanted to do it with was draco. It was journey from then, harry would wait to meet draco before class, would desperately make arrangements so he sat next to draco without dropping hints, walk back with him showing affection in his ways is teasing only because they were alone, hit him playfully, go to hogsmeade with him, eat with him, talk with him for Long hours after quidditch practices . Everything was brilliantly perfect for harry.

Draco looked at him the way only someone who liked you did, he locked eyes with across the room like no one else did, made him walk entire grounds off just so he didn't had to walk off to the dorms early and to spend more time with harry, draco never talked with anyone the way he did with harry, never was playful but with harry, he gave harry the smile only preserved for him. Everything between them was simply their own little secret and Harry felt wrecked. He felt warmth spread inside him everytime he saw draco. He felt, loved, happy when he was with him, something he thought he'd lost feeling of after the war but draco became something to quickly to Harry that he couldn't help anything but admire draco, even if he tried so hard not to. Harry spent his days daydreaming about being with draco, somewhere knowing that maybe draco too liked him.

He was relentlessly falling without caution until it was too late and harry experienced his first little heartbreak when he noticed the slight ways draco would flirt with Astoria. It only happened every once in a while, so harry didn't expect a lot but when one day because of being sick harry took a day off, he was next day met with draco's stories of walking back with Astoria, going to hogsmeade and eating with her. It bubbled little jealousy inside of him but harry had no right to be jealous, why did he ? He didn't love draco, did he? It was stupid crush, right ? A crush everyone have when they're 17, that'll die out soon ?

Harry should have been happy for him when he first heard draco admit he liked Astoria, he should've been happy for him and all he did gave him smile but he didn't walk back with him. He couldn't, he was too busy pushing his heart into the cage of no feelings for him but heart had to be one bratty little thing to fight back equally hard and harry remained all but cautiously falling, again I'm failed attempts to not fall.

Then the news came, Astoria dating Blaise, who had left school by now to associate his mother in business. Harry became relieved, only he was little more cautious to not let his heart be played but a man is only but a fool with none soldier to protect his heart when the blow hits. When they expanded their little circle, theo coming into their little circle, harry loved him too. He never had a friend like theo who hated the same things as his own, loved the same things as his own. It was easy to just blend into with theo but harry should've known better about the little hidden plans, the classes they took together that harry didn't with them. But theo knew, theo saw right through harry and remained committed to not only have harry have the opportunity when it came but also talk with harry about his little day dreams. But theo came with Astoria and when Astoria happened, harry said only but " I'm over draco, I don't like him" and that must've been his biggest mistake, Lying to himself and theo.

Days turned to weeks, into a month of final examinations, graduation coming nearer. Harry hadn't met draco or theo apart from little crossings in the library. But heart broken once should have known,

" hey, harry, can I ask you something ?" Theo asked as he pulled towards the corner one day In the library

" sure, go ahead " harry grinned as he shrugged

" I was hoping you won't get mad or anything because I know it would be wrong on my part, but just so you know, I am still your friend and if it makes you uncomfortable we won't do anything" theo babbled

" what's the matter theo ?" Harry frowned, worried for theo.

" d- harry- draco asked me out on a date after exams " theo swallowed.

Harry's face relaxed as he felt himself falling backward, only he wasn't. His heart sinked, his stomach felt funny and his toes curled. Harry gulped as he realised theo was waiting for some response.

" and I'm fine with it theo. It's really considerate of you to ask me but I've told you before theo, I'm over draco. He's a gone crush. I never even liked him that much you know. I stopped liking him after Astoria. I mean, really " harry chuckled softly as he smoothly lied .

Theo sighed in relief " thank god because I like him too but I just didn't want to hurt you because you know, you liked him. You're sure though, right ?"

" of course theo, of course " harry patted his shoulder " listen I gotta go, Hermione would kill me if I didn't study. See you around and definitely tell me about that date later, yeah " and harry rapidly walked off waving a goodbye with a smile until he turned around and his heart fell out of his chest. Harry thought and thought, thought hard as why couldn't he just simply get over draco. He hadn't seen him a month, Barely talked with him, he should not have felt saddened by the little revelation, he should've been happy for draco, he should have been. But he wasn't, he couldn't even after he so desperately tried.

It wasn't until the graduation day that harry saw draco finally. He was dressed in his characteristic dark green robes with a Slytherin bachelor hat, his degrees in his hands. Smiling he approached draco, almost touching his elbow to get his attention when he finally saw who was coming towards him and harry all but felt sickened again.

In his moments of weakness, harry never even realised when had he actually grabbed draco's elbow until Draco turned around with a sharp distracted smile

" harry " draco exclaimed happily

" h- hi , happy graduation " harry swallowed, fighting his breaking heart into pulling a smile.

" happy graduation to you too. You did great by the way. I'm so proud of you " draco grinned as he patted Harry's shoulder. Harry looked at his hand over his shoulder, wanting to touch it just so he could hold his hand but he didn't..

He wasn't Harry's.

Proudly harry pulled a better smile and savagely replied " bet you thought you'd be better than me "

Draco chuckled " never harry, you're Always the best "

And yet you're with him, not me.

Harry crackled a smile as theo too joined in and best pretended not to be completely heart broken by seeing the two being together.

That day harry understood if he ever understood anything, all wounds may heal but some wounds leaves scar and if too, somedays they may even sting but you gotta live through pain, because perhaps that was love.

I really want to write a part 2 to this. This one really had me thinking until the right inspiration hit, and here's something based of real life. Happy reading..

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Day 46- old habits | Day 48- dancing with each other