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Taking English Class (Again)
Okay, I am currently taking an English class again at Future Academy. It is an IELTS-basic course, so at the beginning I took an IELTS test as a replacement test (the test was damn hard but I made it until the very end of the test), then they put me on level 4 IELTS class based on my results. I was very surprised when I knew the people at the Academy were surprised with my result and my brother's, they said it was rare to find new students reach level 4 on the first IELTS test in this city, so I assumed that my score was pretty good for a newbie in this city of course. I don't even know my score and I don't think I wanna know, I mean I don't care, I have seen those people's reactions and it's enough for me to understand.
Honestly I don't even know why I do this or why I want to do this. It is my mom's idea actually. She (always) thinks that it is important for me and my brother to know and speak English (fluently), even though we are now med students and don't use English at college (although sometimes we are forced by lecturers to read English textbooks or slides). She always believes that English will be very useful someday in the future and that someday I will find out that what she believes is true. She doesn't have to wait for that "someday in the future" to prove that learning English is very important and useful, because I have realized that since I was still in high school. Knowing English has helped me a lot with many things like schools, homework, college, communication, etc.
So about this English class I am taking, honestly I feel so excited about it. At first I thought it was going to be a waste of time, but it's not. The class is very fun, very very fun. Even though all the teachers are local teachers (but have experienced studying English abroad), I should admit that the class is fun and so far I have learned a lot. I take English class 3 days in a week from 5 p.m to 7 p.m every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Monday and Wednesday are for grammar class, and Friday is for academic speaking class. I write and speak a lot there in English, and I think my English starts to improve a lot now especially my English vocabulary. Yeah, there in Future Academy we have a "50 new vocabularies" project every meeting, so I take that project seriously.
I am believer totally. I believe that things happen for a reason, a good reason. If I get the chance to learn English again now, I believe that I am currently being prepared for something greater in the future. Let's just say that learning English is an investment for my future.
Keep the spirit. Keep the faith. Keep moving on. GOD bless. :)
My Current Status Quo
Well, since I graduated on February and got my college degree for medicine, I've got nothing much to do. I am currently being jobless and work-less. I still got a long long way to go before I really graduate from med school and become a doctor. Actually I am going to be a "co-assistant" for about two years at the hospital before I become a doctor, and I have to wait for about 5 or 6 months more before I become a "co-ass", which is why I am currently jobless and work-less. I am not on holiday, but I don't have much thing to do, but log in to my facebook or twitter account or play games. It was really fun and exciting at first, but I think I just have reached the limit of having that excitement and fun in playing those old games on facebook (like Ninja Saga or Typing Maniac) that I don't think those things are as much fun as they were before.
Honestly I feel so excited about having lots of free times everyday. It is very exciting to finally get a long rest from college activities (which are so tiring) before I get back to the college routine and have a new life (I don't know if being a co-ass can really be called a life or not). Even though I don't have much interesting things to do, at least I am not bored. Actually I have lots of plans going on my mind, like going out of this city for a while, improving my knowledge about medicine, reading lots of books, playing more games, taking lots of pictures, spending more time with my family here, shopping, improving my writing skill, etc. I really do have lots of things that I have been planning to do, but so far nothing really works out the way I plan, maybe it's because I plan too much. I really want to make my "5 months off" exciting by planning lots of good things to do, but I just don't know how to make all my plans work in 5 months.
So, now... I still don't know what I'm going to do next. I have no moves. I will probably just sit and wait for something good to come into my life (I really hope I don't make it sound pathetic), or I will just finish all my unfinished books (I still have 5 books to read) while I wait for those good things which are on their ways to come. There's a saying "Good things happen to those who wait." I say, "Good things happen to those who wait patiently while do any other thing." hehehe :D I really hope something good-unexpected-and-exciting will happen to me while I'm waiting, yeah whatever, at least I know what I want to do for now.
See you later, alligator.
Yes, people will always judge you. But in the end, it's always up to you to decide whether their judgement is wrong or right.
So make your choice! :)
I think too much without knowing how to communicate my thoughts, just like the way I feel too much without having any words to express my feelings. That’s what makes it hard for me to be understood. The truth is you don’t have to understand everything I am made of or try to fix the puzzle inside of me, because it is complicated. That’s why I never ask to be understood. Most of the time I only want you to stay with me and never leave my side even when I seem to push you away. Just stay, especially at times when I don’t even have words to say, because those are the moments when I need you the most to stay and listen to my silence. Sometimes you don’t need my words to listen. I have moments when I speak in language of silence. Someday when things get better and it gets less harder for me to say, I will eventually tell you everything that has been bottled inside of me. But for now and always, I only want you to stay with me.
Personal quotes
With the intense cosmic energies surrounding us, together with the energy of the upcoming full moon, all of my emotions are stirring. I can feel old emotions creeping to light. Residue being released.
Let the emotions flow, allow it to go and release. Don't attach to it. Just let it go.
I can feel my heart as it stirs and aches.
I can feel the tears starting to form.
I can hear Spirit with me.
I can see myself clearing.
Finding my breath to breathe. Breathe in, breathe out. Just let it go.
And sometimes another wave hits me again, and again I ride my wave of emotions to let it go because I know I'm cleansing, releasing and transmuting. Sometimes I'm hit with another wave, sometimes I'm spared a couple of hours, a day, a week...and sometimes I'm not.
♡♡♡
“how many people do you think hurt themselves while doing yoga?”,
and other things I've asked my friends in maths class
💞 ~Eu não sei se Você sabe, mas preciso te dizer que tu és a minha outra metade. rs 😊💑 E é pouco dizer que tu és o mais Lindo plano de Deus para mim. 😍🍀 Palavras me faltam para lhe explicar o que eu sinto, e tudo que Você está causando em mim. E o que me resta é tentar te provar, te fazer sorrir o riso mais lindo e te fazer sentir que cada dia eu volto a escolher à ti para ser sempre o Amor da minha Vida. 😊 #TeAmoPanda 😍🐼💖 ❤💘 #Amor'ennoh #MyLife #BestFriends 💓💌 💎💍 #UnidosPelaFéEmDeus 🍃🌸 #PeloAmor 💕❤
Soap opera
Last night my life became a soap opera, and I played a role of a villain. If you remember from my last post, R gave my number to her friend and he contacted me, lets call him T, and last night he tried talking with me again. Since I wasn't interested he said that R was more into it than me, and then he said he fucks her from time to time. It was a new and very interesting information to me and I said that to him. As soon as I sent that I’m getting a text from R saying how T wasn't supposed to say that and she will do anything if I don’t tell G. I asked how dare she to call me a slut when she was doing the same thing, she started making excuses how it was only a couple of times while me and G only ever sexted. Then both R and T offered me threesome with them in exchange for my silence. I said that I won’t come near R ever and that I would keep quiet as long as it suits me.
So now I have something to hold over R if she’s ever being bitch again :D
Think I'm having a sex crisis
Went to the beach today (I'm on a late vacation) and saw 2 guys. My second thought after seeing them was "wonder if they would be down for a threesome". These kinds of thoughts are getting a bit common since I haven't had sex since May (not counting my hands or toys).
Need someone to fuck me soon!!
Congrats on being alive man.
Thanks Anon! I really enjoy it! And thanks to everyone who subscribed to me! I have 151 subscribers! Whooo!
As far as my life is concerned, you may have noticed that my blogging activity is not stable. When I mentally feel that I am ready to post at least one work, I do it, overtaking the wind. But this rarely happens...
I have a job, loans, responsibilities to do under any circumstances. I try not to forget about creativity, especially Seam and Jevil. They literally save me every day since 2019. I am ready to talk about this couple for hours, sketching a large number of ideas and sketches. But all this, in my opinion, looks bad for the blog, so I often need time to edit the work (rarely when I throw completely raw work on the blog). Plus real life, where there are illnesses, money problems, emotional burnout, loneliness and other "joys" of life at 26 years old.
Last year, I returned to my psychologist, moved to my parents' house, cured 2 out of 5 cats, had COVID with my parents, supported my friends in their difficult times, and they supported me.
A lot has happened. Both good and bad. And your support has helped me wake up and feel important as an artist and as a fan in the Deltarune fandom! Thank you very much!
I still have the idea and sketches for a comic about Seam and Jevil, a lot of ideas for AU with these two characters (once my friend and I counted, there are more than 20 of them!), so I will not give up and continue to upload works!
Have a nice day and hot tea!
Zowed9
Só my cat IS sleeping on top of me
And now i dont know what to do
Inst she cute ?*w*
Little bônus:
me: [opens one gate on horseback successfully]
me: athletic. finesse. that's me. yes, i am a professional horse ball and also polo player. it's hard sometimes. to deal with this natural expertise that flourishes everyday.
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