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my life in a fucking nutshell.
Sports are so fucking weird, and the ONLY thing that keeps them from being a religion is the lack of a higher power or an afterlife.
You’ve got: rituals, sacrifices, superstitions, gatherings, songs, festivals, pilgrimages, fellowship, celebrations, talismans, idols. You’ve even got miracles.
These things seem to be more present in certain leagues than others—NCAA basketball and the English Football League come to mind for having teams, coaches, and fans who will go to extremes AS A COLLECTIVE, not just as individuals. They treat their local sports bar like a parish. They have their cathedrals and their songs and their holy-war rivalries.
I understand the inclination to not care. And in many ways, I don’t care either. (American football is a drag at ANY level, and all they’ve got by way of ritual is TAILGATING.) But if you’ve never celebrated a victory—one you truly cared about, one you prayed for—by dancing and singing in the streets with a couple thousand strangers, I recommend it.
I think he sees you!
(AGHHHHH OMGGGG FINALLLY!!! ART!! I haven’t drawn Wally in ohhhh so very long. And I think this is by far the best Wally I ever drew. Holy shit I’m so proud of this piece!)
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Closeups!! (You all know how much I love TEXTUREEEEEEEEEEE)
do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.
the postman / the happy years
sorry for the basic drawing but i am NOT over this heart?? hector really went “here put your initial on my arm like we’re teenage sweethearts” and i haven’t recovered
the guy who didn’t like musicals... it’s safe to say that I am a little obsessed with that musical.. yes..
(don’t worry - the video doesn’t have any audio so you don’t need to plug your headphones in lol)
BEWARE// CALLOUT ON
wtfjames05
First off I’d like to say there are multiple topics I will go over, in order that lead up to this but also will try to keep it short to explain how or why we got here
So back in 2020 or earlier James and someone called Rain got into some group chat drama. (NOTE: I was never in the group chat and personally won’t get into ANY group chats this will recur in the future.) The short summary was that James accused Rain of being a pedo for dating someone who was younger than them by a couple years, and later, James called them the R word and told them to off themselves. They were also accused of stealing stories on Wattpad, so proof and explanation was posted by @/shikariin on Instagram, who explained the drama and left it at both parties being at fault. (However it was quickly requested by, I ASSUME, both parties to be taken down so it was kinda fuckin pointless-) During this time, James said even more disturbing and dehumanizing things to Rain in a fit of rage, and even went on a backup/ fake account. James had made it just to get away with it. (To this day, Rain is innocent and only had a 2 year age gap between the two from what I’ve gathered. It just seemed that James was all out to ruin their life, and still is to this day, even after Rain had seeked help and changed for her supposed actions.)
(Chats of Rain and James NOTE Jacob is James Alt account they had at the time until they confessed to Rain it was indeed them hiding behind the account)
Time skip to February I was notified by two mutuals that I had been called out on Tumblr, accused of supporting Rain (NOTE: I was told by Rain personally of their experience with James, them stalking them and even having James’s ex stalking them, on James behalf after James had said in a group chat to never want to see them again and yet was pulling this stunt on them.) Rain had told me that the age gap wasn’t that large, yet James said otherwise, so you can see why I was so confused on who’s word to take here when information was constantly being changed based on who you asked. So of course, being told this, I had James blocked for my own safety. However, their only source of proof that I was even talking to or “supporting” Rain was literally Rain and James’s own convo in that same Group Chat. They only censored out Rain’s name to convince everyone it was me in that group chat, that was saying all of that. Of course, after I unblocked James and calmly talked to them about it and got it all figured out, this post was quickly taken down.
Yet again time skip to April I assumed that James blocked me on Instagram, so I blocked them yet again on every platform they had. I was later DM’d by Henry (aka shehadseeneverything) James's friend, asking why I blocked them. I simply and calmly explained why, but the moment James DM’d me, I was met with insults and anger. I yet again calmly explained to them why I don’t want to be around them, and to please understand that. Later I blocked them after it all was said and done.
Now, about the NSFW accounts, I had made one back in 2019 but quickly took it down within a week because I was told I could get into trouble for my age, so I realized and understood. Meanwhile, James was only flying by with the excuse of "I'm 17 and it’s legal in my state,” so you can understand what I was trying to get through to them.
For someone who is now 18+, it is so hard to believe that James is now “mature” when they act like this at any given chance.
I have actually recently been told by an anonymous user that they, yet again, couldn’t respect boundaries, and tried to get into a 18+ group chat when they were 17, again claiming “it’s legal in my state”. I don’t know if it’s obvious or not but just because it’s legal in real life in one state does not mean that's gonna be applied everywhere online or else we wouldn’t have all these pedo and r8pists hiding away online. The legal system is very hard to apply online because there's A LOT of ways to get around it.
Their “justification” for only drawing mpreg between the characters Edward and James was because it’s a “comfort” ship. When they got confronted about it by someone on instagram, they yet again, bursted out into rage, and flat out admitted that they only supported the LGBTQ+ so they can do/ get away with the fetish art. They then claimed that they would draw other stuff if it makes people that uncomfortable, but they still haven’t. (Sadly, I have no proof of this because that post has since been taken down from them where the confession was made in the comments of said post.) When I was talking to them, this rather interesting DM said exactly that so I’ll break it down after:
- “…you don’t understand how it would affect a younger mindset’s view.” (Lots of people have had to overcome their bigotry in some way. It’s not a great excuse to say that you had gripes with the community as if you still held onto it while you’re supposedly an ally.)
- “I just fuckin snapped…” ( Acknowledges the behavior, but doesn’t sound like much of a reflection of it given the next part.)
- “…but it’s not like I’m not supporting anymore now am I?” (Sounds like them being an ally is supposed to not warrant any criticism of allyship? Not like any concerns LGBTQ+ people had over the way they portrayed a ship mattered to anyone else but them though, especially when it was only depicted like this…)
Months since this “drama”, and after an attempt to explain to them why I’m blocking them, I have been under constant paranoia and fear that they are still getting away with this freely. They have a bad history in general of stalking, manipulating, saying slurs, and getting their own way no matter who they hurt.
I don’t think an individual as James can change or make an effort to after all this, but this is just simply reminding you that your actions do have consequences, James…
Thank you all for reading this and have a good day.
the discord -normal little talk 8:00pm the cool kids arive -soph adopts new welcomer -talking about how sophs a grandma -talking about pizza -talking about food -talking about gross food -talking about sandwiches and warm mayo -soph ruining childhoods -were calm again -normal convo -xi talking about how she drinks ketchup - all of us:WAIT0 i forgot -soph asking google wth is wrong with her children -WaxXing CRoISSANT
oh this has BIG @kagansune energy
everyone: eggman you do realise your robots have autism right? eggman: of course they dont, i modelled their personalities after myself! everyone: 🧍
it bothers me that you often don't really hear about people having a "favorite album" the way they might have a favorite movie or favorite video game
please tell me that I am not the only one who didn't enjoy the ewing run
(You called for me) Gabriel / Reader Oneshot
Ok please be patient with me on this. I spent over 24 hours in a car on a trip to Russia a few days ago and it made me do something I've never dared to before: write a fanfic. On my humble Samsung notes.
If this isn't a total flop I might make more? I dunno? Maybe hop on ao3?
Criticism and feedback is appreciated ok thank youuu have fun
Another restless night, another hour spent lying in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling above you. The room was shrouded in the comforting night air, more illuminated than usual by the soft glow of the full moon outside.
You look at the clock on your nightstand; precisely midnight. Two hours after your drunken father came home again, letting his pent-up frustrations and anger out on you in a one sided yelling match. Of course, as usual, neither was your mother of any support; only giving you that same disapproving, disdainful glare. You were never really welcome, not even in your own home- your parents biggest mistake lingering around only to weigh them down, and remind them of what they could've had. Or so they've told you, many, many times before. Tonight was no exception.
When the broadcasts first announced the new threat infesting the county, "alternates" they called them, you were, admittedly, both terrified and somewhat relieved. You were never really one to believe in the supernatural, but who knows, your parents were just superstitious enough to maybe fall for their schemes.
The first announcement had been around, what, a year ago now? Not much had really changed admittedly, although the population had begun falling drastically since then.
Your parents had of course used this opportunity to also confiscate your phone, the CRT TV in your room and old little MP3 player gifted to you by a relative, god forbid you let an alternate in to potentially threaten them, your own safety not even really a point for consideration to them.
Living with your parents was already hell, but getting by without your favourite albums and shows? Torture.
So tonight when you lied in bed unable to fall asleep, your mind wandering as usual, it may have wandered a little too far.
You recalled something you overheard your parents talk about. A friend of your dad's, a man of unwavering faith, who had been found dead in his own home a few weeks ago, seemingly in the middle of his usual prayers. Even though his family mentioned having seen an odd, ghostly figure outside their home that night, the doctors seemed to blame the cause of death on a brain hemorrhage.
It made sense, come to think of it. When you first saw the emergency PSA, it explained all kinds of methods to protect yourself from alternate attacks, one of which being avoidance of religion, faith, and philosophy.
So then, the alleged "ghost" that visted that poor man just might've been... Well.
This gave you a bad idea, but you weighed the options available to you.
Either you would die in a similar way as the old man, or... you might just get lucky and bargain with it. Alternatively, nothing happens, and you remain stuck with an unhappy married couple that hates each other as much as they hate you.
It was definitely stupid, but at this point it seemed like you had nothing to lose anyway. You weren't really much of a believer yourself, so you didn't exactly know how to pray, but you gave it your best shot. Sitting up in your bed, hands clasped together with a bowed head and closed eyes, you tried your best to focus.
If there was a god out there, may it hear your pleas. Wordless whispers called for help, begging to be heard, while you did all you could to try to concentrate on any spiritual connections. All the while you knew you may as well be praying to a literal demon.
A few minutes passed as you racked your brain for what to say before you stopped, your hands falling back into your lap.
What the hell were you doing? Yes you hated it here, and you couldn't even run away if you wanted to, but inviting an alternate to your house just like this? It was a death sentence, and not a pretty one, that much was certain.
You shook your head. It probably wouldn't have worked anyway. Right, this was all just some silly superstition, not that different from those "send this to 5 other people or you'll die tonight" chain e-mails. You laughed internally at how silly it was that you even thought this would work to begin with, and, admittedly, felt a brief sense of relief. You decided that you were ready to just go back to sleep, and just as you pulled your blanket up to crawl back underneath it- you almost jumped.
It was a voice, faintly audible outside your window. You didn't even process it until a few seconds after, a barely legible, strained whisper.
"I heard you praying."
You froze. A cold wave shot right to your stomach. Slowly, agonisingly so, you turned around to face your bedroom window.
A tall figure stood outside, its hands clasped together similarly to how you just had a few minutes ago. With long, flowing white robes and silver, wavy locks that reached down to his shoulders, he looked... Ethereal. Not to mention the massive, pure white wings folded neatly behind his back. His head blocked out the full moon, the light creating something almost like a halo around him, making him appear even more angelic.
"Woah."
You couldn't help the little gasp of awe. He seemed to find it amusing, his grin spreading a little too wide for comfort. Admittedly, you almost doubted if he even was an alternate at all. Maybe you'd come out a person of faith yourself, after this.
"Are you... An alternate?"
You whispered hesitantly, quiet enough to try to conceal the trembling in your voice and also not alert your parents sleeping upstairs, though you weren't sure if he actually heard you at all.
He didn't respond for a moment, tempting you to ask again, before that inhuman whisper was heard again.
"You called for me, and now I am here."
Avoiding your question, huh. Suppose he was an elusive sort. You quickly glanced around your room, eyeing the door in particular just in case; you really hoped your parents were asleep.
"May I... Come closer?"
You couldn't even recall the last time you were this polite to someone, though it was your best bet not to piss him off while he was still friendly, if you could even call it that. You had no point of reference, though he wasn't actively trying to harm you, so it was a start.
The angel, his smile unwavering, simply nodded, waving his arm in an invitation to approach.
It took a moment for you to will your body to move from the initial shock, but with slow, careful steps you moved to open the window to properly speak to him, a pleasant cool breeze inviting itself into your room.
"So... What's your name?"
Did alternates have names? Suppose they just took on the name of whoever they were trying to mimic. You leaned onto the window frame, trying to catch a good look at his face; and for the first time in god knows how long you were met with eyes that, albeit a bit creepy and lifeless, looked back into your own with an unfamiliar lack of hostility.
"You may call me Gabriel, child."
Gabriel? That name sounded familiar- Oh! The Saint Gabriel's church at the edge of town. Suppose that made sense, given his angelic appearance, if it wasn't just one morbid coincidence. Your thoughts and scrutinizing stare dragged on for a bit longer than you were aware of, though, as his voice pulled your attention back to him.
"Are you lost, my lamb? I can save you. Let me in. Let me into your mind."
The last bit seemed a bit more... Pushy than the rest, making your stomach feel just a little heavier. You gathered your thoughts anyway, trying to push that feeling aside for now. You did do this for a reason, after all, though now that he was actually here you were starting to second guess things.
Gabriel seemed to take note of your hesitation after a while of you not responding.
"Open your eyes, my lost little one. Look at me. I can grant you anything you wish for. You just need to let me in."
An odd mix of dread and comfort you'd never felt before settled in, and the feeling was almost... Refreshing, in a way. You quickly glanced back up at him, and he was still staring at you, ever so patiently, eerily.
"Uhm... I was just- well, it's probably kind of silly."
No backing out now, not when he was already here. Even if you wanted to, you don't think he'd let you go so easily. As you verbally stumbled over your own thoughts, he simply waited, his unblinking eyes staring into you, gouging out your soul. Or so it felt.
"I just thought... Is it possible for, well... Is there a chance for humans to be able to ally with alternates? Can I join you?"
Surprisingly, that got his smile to falter, if only a little bit. A flicker of emotion you couldn't quite explain showed in his eyes- surprise, perhaps, or consideration.
"What for, my child?"
That uncanny whisper of his never gave away any emotion, monotone and unfeeling, yet not unfriendly. Admittedly, his question made you pause; you hadn't exactly thought of how to explain this to him. You hadn't even expected him to show up at all.
Fidgeting nervously, unsure of whether to tell him the truth or not, you tried to think of what to say. Despite your rationality screaming at you for being an utter moron, you knew you were in too deep at this point.
"I don't think I'm any good to these people at all anymore, I just... don't know what to do anymore. With myself. I have nowhere else to go. And, maybe..."
You weren't sure if you should say it or not, you already let more vulnerability slip than you wanted to. But your spite driven words were quicker than your brain, and man did it feel good to open up for once.
"...maybe for revenge, also."
Gabriel listened to you surprisingly attentively, very interested in your words. At your last statement, he perked up with an almost malicious twist to his grin. Before he could respond, though, you suddenly heard the sound of your parents creaky old bedroom door and footsteps from upstairs. And you could tell by the sound of them that it was your mother. And she was pissed.
For a very panic filled moment you weren't sure what to do, your thoughts racing- instincts called for you to jump into bed and pretend you were asleep like you usually would... but with Gabriel here, you couldn't- and that's when you realized you really only had two real options.
Stay here, and continue living this miserable life, and also deal with the imminent outburst of your mother.
Or go with him, and then... Well, nothing and no one could possibly guarantee what would happen to you then.
"Choose wisely, my dear lamb."
Your dilemma seemed to be rather palpable to the "saviour" as he pulled you out of that mental spiral, and you were rather grateful for it. As much as it made you nauseous with uncertainty and anxiety, you finally snapped out of that paralysis and turned towards the window.
"Please, help me. This is the only favor I'll ever ask of you. I will do anything you want in return, I promise."
You began to plead in an urgent, hissed whisper, practically leaning out of the window, causing him to take a step back.
Desperation and panic shook your words as you glanced back at your bedroom door.
"Get me out of here."
He chuckled, an amused sound mixed with something you couldn't quite explain that made you feel more fuzzy than you'd care to admit.
"Come. Come to me, my child. Step outside."
For the first time tonight hesitation became a foreign concept as you practically leapt out that window. Your bare feet felt the cold gravel beneath, just in time as the door to your room swung open.
The angered yelling of your mother were drowned out by the feeling of suddenly being lifted off the ground, Gabriel taking you up into his arms like your weight was akin to a feather.
He was cold, lifelessly so. And yet the soft silken robes, the way he held you in his arms, and his deceitfully promising whispers were lulling you into a sense of security you hadn't felt in a long, long time.
"A lost little lamb, asking their shepherd for guidance..."
His eerie, yet strangely comforting laugh filled your ears once more over the noise of your mother not yet realizing you weren't in your bed. You're surprised she wasn't hearing him at all. Maybe it was another mind game of his.
"You made the right decision. I knew you would. Such a smart, yet scared little thing you are, are you not?"
You leaned your head against his chest, sighing deeply, beginning to forget what you were ever doubtful about during the start of this whole fiasco. Your weight began to sink into his arms as you relaxed. He held you a little tighter in turn.
"Of course I shall guide you, my child. Come with me; you will be mine. You will be safe."
Just as the furious woman realized to check the opened window, Gabriel vanished as swiftly as he appeared, leaving behind the sight of nothing but an empty garden, peacefully quiet, as if you were never there.
have you ever realized the character you hyperfixated on is actually a bit similar to the one before them? okay maybe not very much but they have the same colours (red/a bit of blue) and nobody else likes them except for like one/two other people.