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HEY!! Here's my story with getting my autism diagnosis, in case it might help anyone,, <3
I have had the privilege to be diagnosed with autism, and I was diagnosed at the end of last year. But here's the thing, that doctor was skeptical about me because I seemed fine talking, and I was already diagnosed with a generalized anxiety disorder and PTSD. I told him I could really only talk to him because I had taken an INSANE amount of caffeine and was hyping myself up the entire day. It was really only a meet and greet appointment and sent me, my mom, and my now ex step-dad with this test to see how I saw my symptoms and how they saw me. HOWEVER, my parents are never around me. They had no idea how to fill out the test and would just go off of when I was 5 or 7. Which is insanity because they hardly knew me then. My mom knew more about me and was more open-minded to me, possibly being autistic and answering it as best as she could... from when I was 5. At least she was open-minded. My "dad" however though was adamant that I wasn't autistic. Here's the thing with my "dad" though, HE. WOULD. NEVER. HANH. OUT. WITH. ME. I'm not even exaggerating. He suffered from manic depression and would isolate, he would stay in his room or work nonstop for about 3 years. Luckily, he is no longer in me or my moms lives and we are finally free from his stereotypical, racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, Andrew tate listening ahh self. From that description, you can really guess how horrible he was. So, we take the tests back and this time only the sad excuse of a father figure was the only one who came with me. He gave his side of the story (which was straight up of lies) and then the doctor came and talked to me and said "Hey, we can't give you an autism diagnosis" and I just started sobbing my eyes out and was able to convince him to get me another appointment. And guess what? That next appointment I was diagnosed with autism.
Moral of the story, get that lie out of your head that getting a diagnosis is easy. Some people can't even get diagnosed, it's expensive and built on stereotypes. Even if you do get in the process of getting a diagnosis it takes forever and even the doctors don't guarantee anything.
Keep fighting.
I haven't slept in the past three days.. IM RUNNING OFF SPITE AND CHEESE SLICES
My pfp for another platform is a weird picture of Luigi and I was venting but all I could focus on was my pfp when I was venting and I started gigglin n shi because Luigi
Luigi keepin my clean steak GOING❗️❗️❗️
Here is the thing,
I don't pass as a boy, I pass as a trans boy
Because I am the stereotype of ftm people on tiktok everyone looks at me and goes "Skinny white kid with fluffy hair and piercings? Transgender."
like
AARGGHHHHH
Stress relief :)
Vent.
I'm actually somewhat happy with how the video turned out.(obviously not the topics of course.)
MAKE SURE TO READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS PLEASE!!
And context for the Four bit is the fact it's my ass realising how fucking bad I relate to Four. Makes sense hopefully.
i had a rough day today but just the general love and civic responsibility of Ricky Matsui is enough to make me feel like a person today (and inspire me to do good and try again tomorrow)
god remind me to never read the comments on crit role videos lol. just started exu and i read negative stuff immediately and it’s one out of many but it always like. makes me so frustrated and sours my view and i have to take time to like. sit back and go with a fresh mind and like. it’s different and it’s fine and i’m like? half an our in and it’s so fun and i just. wish people wouldn’t be so negative idk
When you want to vent about a friend but said friend follows you:
taxidermy girl........ its literally all the fucking girlhood trauma in a song and im here for it because literally ive almost never seen anyone talk about that type of shit afaik so thank you weevildoing