
vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open
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Me Normally Watching A YouTube Video: :)
Me normally watching a YouTube video: :)
The video being about someone with my deadname: what the fuckk??? ○_○
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More Posts from Burned0utstar
I want to text him. I want to ask him how he is. I want to know how his day was. I want to just know that he is still alive.
I am trying so hard not to text him. So fucking hard. I don't want to be annoying. But i want to text with him.
Would I see a shooting star right now I would wish for him to text me. Even if it's just good night.
That sounds so desperate. Am I really that pathetic? I could just not care, I can do that on command, but that just leaves nothingness.
It would make things easier tho. I could just not care about him anymore. Indifferent to whatever he does or does not do.
Tw: sh
Sudden urge to cut myself open...
Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...
I want to feel anything else than this...
Ahhhhhhhhh!!!
Tw: sh
Was just thinking about cutting open my chest and stomach and seeing the blood run out of me.
Really wanted to do it but I know taht I shouldn't so I tried finding reasons not to.
I couldn't find anything and cried into my hoodie and then BAM!
I remembered that I was wearing his t-shirt and it still smells like him and I just cuddled into it and cried and tried to calm myself.
It kinda worked, I didn't relapse yet
I hate being a boy on his period.
I hate the hormones and the pain and the cravings and the dysphoria. It's all shit.
Why am I craving cheese? Why does it feel like my guts are tangled up in knots? Why do I even have to get a period? I don't want to birth children.
Fuckkkkkk
posting on tumblr cause i don’t have anyone to talk to, tired of burdening my fp with my feelings, it just pushes them further away, im so lonely.