Tw: Sh

Tw: sh

Sudden urge to cut myself open...

Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...

I want to feel anything else than this...

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

My heart is hurting and I feel like he doesn't care right now. But I also know that I am wrong. He does care and he has his own life.

I don't want to overwhelm him, I don't want to be too much. And that's okay for me. I can love the normal amount. Or at least try to.

The rain is making things better. It's calming me. But I still wish we could cuddle.

It's hard reassuring myself that he still likes me because It's hard for me to like myself. And that's okay. I just have to remember all the good things and the love I felt then.

I just haven't fully learned yet to let go. To let him be.

Maybe I should try not texting him as long as possible to give him some space??

I hate being a boy on his period.

I hate the hormones and the pain and the cravings and the dysphoria. It's all shit.

Why am I craving cheese? Why does it feel like my guts are tangled up in knots? Why do I even have to get a period? I don't want to birth children.

Fuckkkkkk

Tw: mention of drugs

Hello me beautiful people, U am kide drunk right now and I just really crave.milk.

I need some milk. I also wanna sleep and it's cold.

My boyfriend is also drunk.and he.jsut fell asleep and fell to the ground whole sitting, heheen.

i hate having rejection sensitive dysphoria, it makes me so stressed to the point where i make myself sick :/ it’s hard for me to self soothe, and i don’t like bothering other people with stuff like this, so i usually just deal with it, but it’s so stressful