Self Destructive Behavior - Tumblr Posts
Is school supposed to ruin me this bad?
Louise Glück, from “Stars”, Poems: 1962–2020
“if you have letters to write,you have a reason to stay.”
So that means I can finally dip???
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practicing sfx for halloween
block, don't report
styro is so yummy
i love love love the look of blood pooling
sorry for shitty photo quality lol
wish i could go deeper :(
To all the self hating Christians out there with self destructive habits and addictions... like me... I have a proposal.
When you make a mistake. Or remember a past mistake. Or discover you've been making continual mistakes without realizing. Or get stuck in a terrible memory. Or the mirror mocks and distorts you. Or you suddenly feel an overall wave of disgust towards yourself, for whatever reason that may be... instead of not eating or cutting or slamming your head into a wall or otherwise punishing yourself...
Pray. Take a moment to breathe and pray.
I want you to pray for grace.
Because our God's grace is sufficient. His blood was spilled for your imperfections thousands of years ago in anticipation for this very moment of human inadequacy and every other that is sure to come in your lifetime. There is no need to spill your own.
Honor His sacrifice. Thank God for His grace.
The intense urge to drop all my shit and leave everything behind.. right now. Just go fucking anywhere else but here..
I know I’m not supposed to want to ruin my life but it just comes naturally to me now it’s what feels right and is becoming less of a want and more of a need it feels like the only way to live is by blowing my whole life up because there’s no other point to living..
a hero teenager having a self destruction episode . maybe it's because they were too stressed but can't take it on to anything but themselves?, and a supervillain (who occasionally watch them from the sidelines) parent figure found them and comforting them:3 but hero doesn't want to be seen as vulnerable but supervillain reality checked them that they're still human and a literal kid at the end of the day ;;i hope thats ok sorry if its 2 specific >_<
Kinda short but I was feeling speedy. Hope this is similar enough!
Just a Kid
“You’re still just a kid, you know.”
Supervillain stood, hand wrapped around the upper arm of city’s teenage savior. They had pulled them aside from where they had found them in the City Square—where they were trying to challenge every villain in the city by broadcasting themselves on a jumbotron. Luckily, no other criminal would dare touch them when Supervillain was around.
That gave them time to talk.
“I’m not a kid!” the hero spit, trying unsuccessfully to wrench their arm out of the older villain’s grasp. Said villain shook their head disapprovingly.
“If your age starts with a one and it’s not in the triple digits-“
“I’m not a child,” Hero interrupted the mini-lecture to explain, “Children are innocent. I’m not. I let those people die. Me. I was supposed to save them.”
The supervillain had been at this way too long to be surprised by the words.
“That was never your responsibility,” they replied evenly, speaking in quite possibly the softest voice they had ever used.
Hero scoffed, “Those people that died. Those were kids.”
They turned away with the words.
“So what’s your plan then? Get yourself killed fighting a mob of villains and ensure you can never save anyone ever again?”
An unexpected sob racked the Hero’s shoulders.
Too harsh.
“Kid, it’s okay,” Supervillain backtracked, stepping forward, reaching towards the hunched hero.
“Don’t call me-“
Their objection was smothered by the thick fabric of the supervillain’s cape, which they were unceremoniously pressed against tightly, held in place by the villain’s arms.
A hug.
A comfort they didn’t deserve.
They tried to pull away, to no avail as Supervillain held strong.
“You’ve done so much more than anyone else,” they spoke above their head, much like how a parent would whisper words to comfort an upset child, “You’ve done enough.”
The hero fell apart in their arms, and the supervillain held them close, mumbling assurances and promises in an impossibly gentle tone.
They were going to be a kid again, Supervillain would make sure of it.
idk why but in hard times tumblr helps me get through this a little bit better
um… yea hi!!! 🙈💓 I just have to say that first things first I love ur blog!!! ☺️ it’s just so aesthetic and pretty!!! you tie everything together really well. so kudos!!! secondly, um… I was wondering if you could do a post on how to stop self-destructing? or if you could give any tips on that? it would be most appreciated!!! thank u!! 😇
hello my love!!
thank you so so much for your kind words and my apology in getting back to you.
and here are my top tips to stop self destructing (but i'll make a longer post soon!)
practicing compassion with myself - it's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to not feel like you have it together. but you have to soothe yourself first and tell yourself that YOU GOT THIS, and it will only get better from here
making healthy habits & modifying my routine - i know we all say your routine should be rigid but sometimes it feels like it overwhelms me! whenever im in a self destructive mood i start with easy tasks and slowly build up my energy to get towards my bigger tasks
emotional outlets - finding ways to channel my emotions and honour them. i used to ignore my emotions off anger,frustration etc., and kept it all bottled up but that led to self destruction. journaling, praying, going to the gym or playing cozy games helps me redirect that energy towards something until it passes. then i can regroup.
i hope this helped!!
Through thick and thin 【 Metalocalypse 】
uh oh minor inconvenience!!! do i cut my . . . ⚪️ loved ones off ⚪️ calories ⚪️ hair ⚪️ self 🔘 all of the above in order
I wish he would kiss my scars and then kiss me so that i know it will all be okay.
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Someone tell me how to survive without destroying myself?
I seem to only live through the pain I inflict on myself.
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Sudden urge to cut myself open...
Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...
I want to feel anything else than this...
Ahhhhhhhhh!!!
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I want to swallow the glass splinters that I am using for art right now. I want to to feel it cut open my throat and fill it with blood.
It just looks so crunchy. So tasty. Just made to be eaten. Just a tiny piece won't hurt, right?
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If I could, I'd cut out all the bad and rotten parts of my body.
But it seems to me like there is nothing left to safe.
I'm getting tired of dying for you.
I can't stay up every night letting your sadness consume the both of us.
I will burn before I stop loving you but loving you can't mean destroying myself because of you.
Not even for you. Not even with passion or devotion.
Just destruction. Pure bloodshed for the sake of seeing it drip out of our bodies.