Tw Self Destructive Thoughts - Tumblr Posts
“Who hurt you babygirl?”
actually myself🥰
Oof what a difficult choice
Post mm2 chapter 1, scene 5
Does anyone else feel like su1c1de is their destiny? Like I cant imagine having any other outcome in life
If I ever kill myself just know I tried my fucking best and please forgive me
If I could take a pill that kills you instantly i’d take that shit in a heartbeat I don’t want to be alive anymore man
I've been clean for two months now, but I feel so bad that I want to self harm again, I want to cry
Since 2019, I spend New Year's Eve in pajamas, it's sad, but fighting with my own mind is hard as hell. Depression, neurosis and anxiety disorder are a swam.
One hour until the new year and I'm already sitting in the bathroom with razor blades and one wound on my hand, wanting to cry. Wtf, I hate this shit
I went back to self-harming and on the one hand I feel satisfied, and on the other I know that if my family found out, they would be broken and disappointed
Looking at my mutilated forearm, I feel satisfaction that I punished my ugly body, stupid brain, stupid thoughts, myself in general, this is what I deserve
That blade I'm holding is my only friend
I wish he would kiss my scars and then kiss me so that i know it will all be okay.
Will always reblog stuff like this when it comes up, there's a lotta apps like it! All different you can always search for one that works for you and it's ok if none of them do, just means that one out of hundreds of alternatives doesn't work
i recommend this app to help you distract yourself when you feel an urge to hurt yourself!
It’s so cute and calming :D
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Sudden urge to cut myself open...
Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...
I want to feel anything else than this...
Ahhhhhhhhh!!!
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I want to swallow the glass splinters that I am using for art right now. I want to to feel it cut open my throat and fill it with blood.
It just looks so crunchy. So tasty. Just made to be eaten. Just a tiny piece won't hurt, right?
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If I could, I'd cut out all the bad and rotten parts of my body.
But it seems to me like there is nothing left to safe.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
I need someone, anyone, to love me.
Being unlovable hurts.
It's the pain of knowing that noone can ever love me the way I love them.
To love the way I do is to burn and scratch open my skin just to try and show you a part of me.
It's to always wait for something.
I'm getting tired of dying for you.
I can't stay up every night letting your sadness consume the both of us.
I will burn before I stop loving you but loving you can't mean destroying myself because of you.
Not even for you. Not even with passion or devotion.
Just destruction. Pure bloodshed for the sake of seeing it drip out of our bodies.
I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough